trng. my first unofficial try.

today's trng was gd. wasn't strenous.. fitness did hills. haha. aisha says that we're the only sch fortunate to do hills. kinda think of it.. YEA. haha.
b4 trng, we played game. haha. i scored my first unofficial try. felt so gd.
(: i mean like.. one try so wad.
so wad.
so it means that i'm improving.
National Touch League is coming up.
dun think i'll be playing though. nonetheless. (: i'm lovin every inch of trng.

technically, i'm not near to even rep sch in any sense coz i've been missing on alot of trngs. i'll wrk for it.
i'm goona give.

this morning.
have been HIT.
due to e lack of proper slp, i was kinda grumpy. thus, esther and i got angry at each other, over some small matter which i can't really rmbr.
i was bad.
coz i also didn't do my personal article due to doing ob project.
econs grp wrk was slack today. we ended up slacking coz evryone is so tired. but nvm.

CSA LECT was hilarious. coz we're learning on the internet and all. so the tchr demo how to find stuff. i was slping 1/2 way though. but ANYWAYS.. ahha. so he demo.. then he typed his name and click blog search HAHAHHAA. then click on someone's blog and read it. ahha.was hilarious. i shall not type e details coz he'll find it. HAHA. but the lecturer was honestly, interesting. able to excite us and end fast. its gd for csa.

econs lect. was like 1hr only today. tchr got angry. and stomped out for 10mins and came back.
restored my slp and resumed paying attention.


talking to esther during lunch, was.. erm. gd to a certain extent.
have been HIT.
i'm so fearful of accounting. its like. if u miss a step, u're a gonner. wanting to excel in my studies and gg for that gold is becoming a fearful task.
"fear wad?"
i do not know.
have been HIT.
ppl all around me tells me this. i'm not goona say it. coz u guys know. i know u care. but i feel more pressured if u guys say all these. constant repeatition. honestly. i need encouragements. but, i do not know who to turn to. coz all my friends, who are caring, tells me that. thus. i feel so so trapped.
by myself.
coz i've set up this barbed wire around me. not that i want to. but obligated? i wouldn't use that word.
almost fell.
thank God i didn't, but at e edge, taking a few more safe steps back.

i need a piano. ASAP.
i need space.

actually.
come to think of it.
i'm perfectly alright.
(:

really. after today's trng. i'm back again. happy with what i'm doing now. trng in all aspects keeps me gg.


stil on my 40 days fast. getting better with the practical fasting part.
thank God who stood by me. w/o him, what i'm doing now would all be in vain.
thank God who stood by me. He's the only faithful one. only He understands me.
thank God for being Him. just Him alone is enough to bring me back on track.
thank God for loving me. the love He has, none can replace.. if ever i'd feel un-loved, again, only He, can make me feel whole.


non believers. u guys are sure missing out ALOT.