a monday.

today's 3 men punch had to many pointers to look out for. really felt slow and un-quick and like really SLOW. my defence was like all over. couldn't see my lines. attack was like. flat. BAH. couldn't push myself steep and out.

so many errors. super blech in defence. and on thurs' trng, its goona be defence. and i'm missing it. boo.

but postively. i've learnt alot today. the looping part and faking. though its stil not up there or anywhere yet, i'll work on it. glad that i've improved from chao lan to lan. still lan. but i'll be better.
NTL selection, i see v bleak light. but even if in or not in, i'll be glad, so long as i can play this sport. but of course, if in, gd la. more learning opportunities. i do hope that i'll make it.

dry ground makes ankles hurt bah.

btw. was loooking at vi az and nic played.
motivated me to push forward.

oks.
sch today was... my heart was mainly on ob presentation. screwd. our project, we handed in the WRONG ond we handed in the not gd progress report that worth 48 marks, instead of the whole new edited TASK A.
was bad. had to beg mrs ng, literally to let us hand in.
we couldn't even fight for our presentatoin marks. coz we're the 1st grp. and.. i'm really disapppointed n upset that the class did not give respect to presenters. come on la. we're the 1st grp and yet u guys are bz discussing abt ur project and not showing interest or respect to our effort? its basic coutesy right. i do not expect 100% attention. but respect.
ANYWAYS. its over la. we've done what we could have done. i won't say its e best of ourselves, but its smth that we can be alittle proud of.
left with econs and commskills. i really dun want to screw econs. we'll strive to be the best.

peer appraisal was yet another difficult one. politics. integrity or friend or plain merciful. in the end. i chose to write with integrity. wasn't easy. but i have to say that our grp particiates and contributes in all discussion. though tired and sometimes we do digress alot, we contributed. that's the thing.

and again. if i'm being sensative abt work. i'd denial it and say no. coz i'm demanding. (apart from being sensative abt feelings- u know it) i'm can be really agressive in terms of ur personal effort put it. if e effort put in are not recognised, i can get angry. this is y, i got irritated with matt. simply put it, was told that he claimed tt i didn't do anything for proj when i did the whole of Task A which is abt 48% of e marks. tsk tsk. i'm ok if my content is not accepted or being critized or wadsoeva. but i'm unhappy, if its not being appreciated.

well. inevitable. yet another stepping stone.
but i jzu wanna share my struggle. my struggle of being patient. of being tolerance. of being mindful. i'll try my utmost best.

i'm juz disappointed that i'm actually struggling with showing love- God's love. i was able to be (: with human beings despite any circumstances. but recently, the slightest thing can juz make me attitude-sia. its like, after i attitude to my ópponent', then i tell myself to show God's love.
isn't it too late.
can't it be like juz b4?
incouragible.


whatever it is.
BAH. today. went to the library. from 3-430. read bks on shells, slp, and read accounting bks ahha.i was at the library coz trng haven't started.
but i realised that tp library rocks indeed. the content are so NICE. like there's bio chem sciecnce and all my lost knowledge. i'll visit the library if i have e time. Ssoon.

btw. my most 3 fav shell family on the list:
- murex
- harpa
- xenophora

followed by sheel specific:
- venus murex com'b
- harpacostata, haprpa davidis

so cool can.
its been sooo long since i've go check up on my collection. ahha. sry.




glad that i was able to sit still and be alone today.
its been awhile since i've seriously be still and juz enjoy God's creation. often, its a ya-thank-u-Lord kinda thing. nv really seriously, bottomly appreciate His creation.



Nobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebbles that causes you to stumble and fall. pick yourself up, pass all the pebbles in your path and you will realise you have already crossed the mountain.


star crossed