morning.. went for the wake and cemation.. at mandai..
man.. its super high tech.
not to be saddist.. but its less tormenting than in mount vernon where u can actually see ur loved one pushed into the flames
at mandai.. its like machine operated... and less traumatic.


after that. went for lunch..


hmmm...


sometimes i wonder to myself lar. why do i care for someone so much? and that someone is like not responding to ur advices or wad. to be frank, solo, i really hope that u'll heed advices coming from cell leaders and older ppl with experiences.
all the teachings.. all the yrs of living. i'm juz ergh to see some negative actions and thoughts lar. yes, thoughts- inevitable. but what abt actions??
whats the whole big rationale of wanting attention? seriously. why. u have sisters that shows u the ultimate care and love that u'll ever get from a friend. tears are shed for u. but why is the point for turning seem so distant.
is populrity what one seeks? what benfits? famous or infamous?
its all voices down to ur choice.
i hope u're reading this. this is because, i want u to know that there are ppl who care for u and are concerned.
i'm really a nobody to control ur life or have any say in the path u take. BUT out of love, i constantly tell u my point of view. i will constantly make attempts to guide u. smths, as rejected as i may feel, i'll be undaunted. that's wad pa is like. he fights on.
nothing is too late.
nothing is too late.
i'll seek ways and solutions. i believe in experiences machan(mix la) with personalities.
i believe in Love that comes from Him.






on another note.

abel teo has measels. i really feel so much for him. seeing him train so so hard.. (not that i'm spying on him or wad la k).. seeing him scoring tries after tries during the season. all for the name of SA. seeing him runnning past.. and scoring again.
seeing him enjoying himself as the battle goes on. seeing him responding to the deafening cheers. seeing him hoping so hard for that GOLD.
in addition.. its his last year playing for sas.

i duno lar. if u're a sportsman.. trng so so so so darn hard. and then.. ur physical self juz dun allow u too.. the psychological part of u must be like dying to fight on and all lar. i'll feel erhaohr8a3ra34'a3409ua34.
but i guess it'll build him as a person lar. emerging stronger. it'll be hard.


well. tomorrow its the day already. feeling really nervous.. haha. once a saint, always a saint
pray lar. i'm sure both schs have worked hard and each have their drives. hope that as for Saints, it'll be God-driven..



may the better school wins.