today. sbs wasn't nice the bus came at 6:24!. 2 mins early. not fair, aahha. so all the regulars took the 6:39 bus?. yar. i wan;t supposed to miss it leh. i saw it.i picked up pace.. and then.. this 2 aunty were walking.. slowly.. i could turn anywhere coz it was a quite narrow path.. near the road.. so.. 5 steps left to catch the bus and i did not make it.

ok. anyways.today mornign was funny. ahah.. we kept all made of up of an advertisment. ahah. from mtv to advertisement. aha.. hear ar.. ahhah. this girl.. was playing er-hu on the chair. keep playing and playing.. then the backgd keeps changing.. from mountainous, grass, sky, city... blah blah. then finally.. antartica!. ahah. then as she play.. she slowed down.. and froze. ahaha. then wif the fade in fade out effect, a black screen comes out.. with white words.. "no music, no life". ahhahahahhahha. so funny. or version 2, put that erhu player in e field... filled wif cows.. then one by one they drop dead.. then again with those effects, saying.. "with music, with impact." ahhaa. so funny. [picture it!]

today.. me and nicole was discussing something. i guess i can;t blog much here. all i can say is that we, as 10 ppl forming 1 body, lacks alot of understadning and listening. u guys have passed that level of leadership. now its communication, cooperation and test. u've gotta let go of responsibilities. there's an explaination for it. from mr. lim. some of u dun do wad all of u are suppose to do.. eg. ur roles. when somethings are suggested, we duno, we dun hear it. we lack communication. we have to listen, besides speak up. we have to communicate like how friends do.. not so formal, or holding so much guards of wad u are gonna speak. we are all students. anyways, wadeva i say now will either be in vain or get passed around. forget it marian, not worth it.

ok. in class. i felt so tired today. i duno wads wif me lar... sara and i were ay war with each other. ahha. so fun!. but it got serious.. then ok liao. haha. .. after sch when tuition.. i totally screwed at TRIGONOMETRY. thank God for tuition.

i thank u zen for giving me a bday present. ahha. thank u sean for the present. thank u elaine for the msg, last night at 0048 thinking it was 20 sept. thank u. ahha. i appreciate those.

amongst all. i wanna thank mr lim for how he teaches me so much values.

*i am trying not to comehere too often, i;ll get hooked. hmms. ok. exam is in 10 days time issit? around there. i'm scared. i've not like started properly. oh wells. prays....

thinking about dad again as blog.. using his com. his wall paper is him, the pic infront of me is him. yea. mervyn, we share the same thought. cgh... stop taking lives.

ok. there are some of the jokes he said or rather, he's last few words. from the time he fell till death.. its really amazing how he, in pain, can say such stuff at the time nearing death.
not in any order,

nurse: "mr poon, where pain? where pain?"
dad: "my,.. my.. (touching his pocket) pocccc-ket paainnn"
interpretation: no money.

dad: " ku-e-h la-p-is,.... currrrrrry... puuufff"

dad:" CGH-caaaannooot gooo hhomme.. SGH- surrreeee ggooo hhoome..."
=> still trying hard to go sgh despite of the fact that the suxy cgh ppl say "wait.. i'll checkk... (2days later) ..can't"

16th nov- 20th nov - 22th nov . events seems so stuck in my head. everything is juz so clear. it juz took 6days to make a walking man to ash. 20, a signifiant no. my bday, his deaht, his marriage, his engagement... still got somemore. can't really rmbr. it seems like ytd that dad is drilling his stuff, hammering his wood, srewing his nails, painting his walls. he. or. slpin in his bed, hearing his ko-lon-chong music from radio. his smeely farts. loud and clear. stink bombs the room. he. squishy and hard. no dad. hmm. my brain can't seem to send impluses, cannot register. promise papa to b doc. i wanna rule sg doc. train them to b docs of virtue and caring. not juz do their work, but do it with pride and thier best, they are messing wif lives, wif feelings.

mixed feelings.

a year older. i juz realised. 15. nxt yr swt 16. 30 yrs, hopefully, a doc. married. i think that my ideal husband would be those like my father. evry bit of his pure character.such a loving husband, caring father. really, i honour him. i'm thankful for such a wonderful guy. perhaps, gd guys go first. to join God, to be happier earlier.