Happy birthday Mr. Lim!!
well.. wad can i say about this tchr. he's been there since sec 1. i guess in my whole life, this is the only tchr that i'm so close wif. he, as my cca tchr, has done more than he could. he's always there. he's always the one teaching me values and wualities of a leader. he has thought me many many values. appreciative is one quality that he is v serious about. this guy.. really one of a kind.. "call me brother outside sch.. in sch.. mr.lim". hah. really.. u can let ur guards down. he seems to b able to read my mind. recently, he said this to me..."study hard, do well for ur exams.. do ur best. u know where's ur best. be truthful to urself.". simple words. complex thoughts. reflection.
wanna thank God for being such a wonderful provider.

oh well. no mood to blog about events. basically, today bowling girl juz give mr lim a cake. thank u shu neng!. for coming up the idea and the wrks.

oh wells. i guess that i'm reaching the peak of climax. i'm stressed. yea.in my class. not that competitive lar. but still. 9 subjects, no.. +1..ss. 10!!.. i haven seriously started yet. i'm worried. reeally. well.. i guess i cannot classify myself under stress.. i expect too much.
its way over my ability. its my choice to b in this kind of class anywyas..but i guess i juz have to wrk really hard. regretting that i swoped to core lit. coz i dun think in jc i'll be taking lit. so yea. confused.the passion is lost. hopefully my so called talent in writting lit can come back... get back my 2nd in level for lit title. hah. impossible.
marian, like mr lim said duing my nationals, is loosing all her confidence.."wheres that marian who could fight?" -mr lim-.. juz only. pok said so too. i'm known as a fighter? oh wells.. have to admit, yes. i was.
my pillar or strength is gone.. i know there's still God and all. But, i can see dad. dad is my pillar. his smiles is my pillar. those that really lighten my burden. i have to fight. to fight back for my confidence, my respect, my focus, my discipline. its all slowly fading away. like i said... not to come online if its not for work purposes. but look. where's my darnest discipline and concentration level. and tmr, i have a cheena test. helps.

issit really me again? have i really changed? is papa such a great impact on me, or issit juz an excuse, or a shield. i've no one to lean on. my best friends? yea i can. but, i'm closer to my solitude. my paper. my diary whuich i;ve not touch since march thank to you, blogger.

i have to start planning. i have to start mugging. i have to be the world greatest mugger. ahhahahhahaha. coughs. *national mugger.(mk).ahha. okok.

i shall make my affirmation.

"i, marian, will repel all my temptations to blog and chat online. i will refrain myself from being addictive and sticky to msn friends, reading blogs, searching webs. i will keep a distance between my fingers and the ON button of the cpu. i will be that fighter and prove to those darnest teachers that look down on me. i will prove myself"

ok. i stil have my guitar. hopefully, will spent only 15 mins max.