very tired. ok. blooger has change the posts thing again. haha. salute to the person making this sia.
ARGTHHGHHGHGHG. IA HFUSIOHNVREIPUCHNAOPMR SUIDF. WAD lar. pok k.mama always nags at me!. only me. she thinks sis is 4ever correct. ask sis help me burn my tap music also make sooo much noise. coz my com cannot burn. ask her burn smth everytime dunwan. never one time lor. then mama always say i lzay, dun do. HELLO. my com cannot burn. get this right ya. argh.
she just started nagging. in my room. so was kinda angry. ahah. lucky got this blog to vent my anger on. ok. now i'm alright. haha. high BP. hah. ]
okok. skip all this crap.
today had bio and chinese. was terrible. [mama is nagging. argh.] okok. then after sch...
wah lau. dun feel like blogging now lar. argh. smths. really dun wanna stay in this world lar. i wanna go be wif dad. peace man. coz mama knows dad dislikes nagging. so she seldom nag... now.. hoho. argh. and its like.. sis and mum one clan, i another .really cannot tolerate. everyday, gg to sch really makes me happy. or when i'm sick. this is when i dun hear her nag so much. although she still nags. [she still nagging... ].. hear this....damn interesting:: (wahha. trying to type wad she say)
"everything u give me black face. tok to ur friends only. u dun care about us. u nv ask u sis properly. y u dun want to burn urself? she v busy already. always trouble melissa. u dun treat this family well. dun like u go outside stay lar. dady not here u become more naughty. u only care for ur friends and dun care about us. u only want money from me. want to buy thing u give me sweet smile. after buying, u show me this kind of attitude. BLAH BLAH BLAH"...
and it goes on and on and on.. repeating every point. then later.. as she tok,.. or rather, nag.. she gets angry by herself.. usually this' the case. then i'll be in my room. then she'll come to the room and start to shout and now scold. then she'll start to slap... last time was cane.. now not so bad. haiz.
who's mother doesn't?. yes, i understand this point. BUT. its the frequent occurency that bothers me. when in march or issit june. i rmbred v clearly that every single day i get cannign from mama. then occasionally, dad will help mum. haiz.
i simply dun understand. i'm facing soo much conflicts in sch. fighting hard to put on a mask. and now, at home, i still get beaten down. why?. so wad,.. u want ur daughter to go around sulking, explaining that she's very poor thing and indulge herself in self-pity. do u want that?. here i am, fighting so hard wif myself. wif my innner self. my heart aches. it pains. it kills. both physically and emmotionally. i cannot take this anymore. argh. crying and shouting into my pillow helps. but wad 4. u'll hear it. and u'd say that i cry bcoz i know my damn mistake.
forget it lars marian. juz heck. be urself. be selfish and self centered. dun care about others. it doesn't help. it makes things worse for u. juz study hard and be a doc and save lives. thats it. that's final.  
i really hate all this. *sorry God.