i'm a meanie.
today is a disater for me in sch.
in da morning.. during my lovely LIT lesson again.. there goes ms devi. "oh.. ms gammar.. u c that girl.. she is a nottie girl, but have a cute face.".. piang i swear that i could murder her for that. then she asked me.. "wads ur name?...... ".. i answersed.."really ar? i heard b4. issit u ar one of the trouble makers in sch?". wwah... there goes my reputation infront of ms gammar. ok. list of teachers i think and strongly agree that they do not like me . (in order)
1) mrs joan lim
2) ms gammar
3) zhou lao shi.
ok.. still got somemore.. but the rest is i think juz jk wid me.. haha. ok
okok. then today.. after sch. is the prefects punishment. hoho. i was mad. firstly, i heard from gel that exco said that if all prefects must meet at 1.50pm SHARP at the coutyard, if not got serious consequences. and guess wad... all 3/6 and 3/5 prefects rushed down and practically ran down after cheena period juz to reach there at 1.51pm. no lunch. nvm. then much time.. sec 2s start to walk in. piang.. and their sch finish at like 1245.. we at 145.. there is no reason y we were eariler than them. its totally logical. nvm. at that time., all i knew tt 3/6 prefects are half dead. many were sick and already v stressed. coz everythig is push back. like ca and stuff. then sara was sick. gel and lizzy was pale. many were really not feeling too good. 80% had no recess coz of duties and stuff lar. then its really rubbish. then nvm.... then at 2:01pm.. 2 VIP stroll in. stroll. nvm. we all should respect them. serious.
one of dem, ordered them to line up in height.. ok. then i was called back coz i have mc [excused from PE till 3 aug.. argh].. then ok. then nvm.
so i did writtting my reflection, and another floorplan and gave it to amande, hahah. the floorplan and the halll thingy i gave to her was hilarious to me sara and gel. as in the messy wrk lar. i think my content is gd and full-proof.ahha. okok. then later.. i was done and went to eat.
meanwhile. the prefects were made to sit at the basketball court in the blazing and scorching sun to write their reflection.nvm. and also, i think they did not know that mr jega "banned" ppl from going and streanous stuff at the field/courtyard/carpark from 12-230.. heard from shuneng.. coz of the sun. adn today sun was realy strong.
after sometime.. lizzy was very very pale and about to faint. she was sick. and then situation got terrible. i saw the prefects, being made to do (i duno how many) push ups, on the hard, hot, burning ground. at the same time, made to SHOUT till one of vip could hear, " I GAVE MY 100% 1......... I GAVE MY 100% 2.... I GAVE MY.. ".. my heart sank. i saw sara. i was like... mad. she was really sick lor.
you-mei, yt, isabelle, rachael.. all pised and angry. for me, i felt that if they really want to punish, do smth more constructive to the sch.. eg, clean the whole sch, clean toilets and chairs/ tables / classrooms since our sch is like sooo dirty liao. rather than in the sun. i was very veyr angry. so i shouted at some of the exco.. in a mean/harsh tone lar. cannot tahan anymore. i was telling myself no no no.. controll.. control.. (coz of last time that thing).. then cannot.. so i juz shouted .. i think at melissa and amande. then i walked to the court yard.. and shouted at duno who. was mad lar basically. duno wad i was saying. saying everything from inside.
1stly, heart v pain to see ppl suffer. then also i see someone 'gloating'. to me lar.. 2ndly, its really ridiculour and heartless, upon the fact that MANY ppl were sick and ill, and v busy coz of prefects' marching and all..its really no point lar..
then cannot tahan. then cry. haha. its ridiculous of me to do so lar. okko,. i explain later..
then later.. buay tahan. then juz left wif sam and shu for bowling. haha. trishsala mama saw us at the road so fetch us there. was v thankful. ok.. that's about it so far. the rest.. i not sure and no 1st hand sources to blog. i think read yuan's and gel's blog? yea. ok.
after that.. bowling. ahha. supposedly to ask them check their details.. but i forgotten. then also, made many in-organised annoucements and all. so yar. trng. mixed wif them. missed the times we bowled seperately as the team. it was more fun lar. then trng.. ahha. i like my release towards the end.. my speed improved.. miraculously.. . i didn't bowl since 9 of june.. then now can bowl better.. ahha. very happy lar. then yar lor. that's about it. i juz love bowling.

basically, commenting on my personal self, i wanna declare that this blog is strictly for me to complain/ vent and everything. i do not wish to see pl using my statement mentioned here to discriminate oor use in vain lar. bascially, this is a place where i  say everything. i say thorugh words lar. okok. i realised smth about me. ever since dad pass away, i become more sensitive and expressive. i'm no longer the strong girl i used to be. okok. yes, wif all the capt and prefect stuff.... i seems to. i still and handle practiacal and basic physical stuff. but. i can't handly myself emmotionally. i canot control myself. i have to be myself. if someone is damn higher then me who is really and rightfully in the wrong or irresponsible, i cannot control but to vent at you. hah. yes. today i almost wanted to shout and be violent infront of aini. thank God there's isabelle, yt, you-mei n my 3 gd friends to hold me back. haha. emmmotionaly eh?. marian is really argh. hah. okok. wadeva. see. i'm so sensitive wif teachers and ppl who doesn't associate wif me. i'm juz so intruding to the society, i 'm juz to concern for the welfare for ppl. argh.
okok. anyways.. regarding the prefects thing... i will forget evything one . i'm sorry to the exco for being once again irrespectful and all. yes, i do understand that i still have to respect u guys even if u all are -wrong-. anyways. yea. i'm also the person who forgets a sad-today and hopes for tml.
wadeva. anyways. i gtg makan now. gtg. thanks to friends and ppl who call me and msg me. a simple msg really cheered me up. ahha. juz like "boo..", wahhaa. serious man. today gary siaow ar. haha. "boo.".. aha, okok,.. nvm. then yar lor.. free incoming,... anything, call me.. try not to msg yar.. free incoming!. wha./nvm