today ran 2.4km.. ahaha. first time in 6 months... and today is the test. aahha. wow. k. i did 14:29 min.. bah. was aiming for like 12.. then was running.. haha. then saw my watch.. 11:30 min.. and i was like still far.. aha. then attempted to sprint and was breathless and slowed down bit by bit. ahha. running can really train our mental. today i learned that when i want to do something really badly, no matter how tired one gets... i will still try.. haha. this brings me back to bowling. while running, was questioning myself if i had given my best for this yr's b div.. well. ahha. it was a no.. taking that i was disapointed wif myself and even had thoughts if giving up. haha.. thank God i didn't.. i seriously think that kc bowling team's mental 's not there.. the focus is easily disturbed. last yr we came in 4th for c div... we didn't have the skill.. but the mental was there.. this is.. we have the skill, but not the mental. ahha. i'm so hooked onto bowling. oh well. was kinda happy. coz tournament was finally over, and our 5mths of intensive trng like kinda wasted abit.. not all lar.. aha. but..... i saw a noticed on the bowling board.. sec 1s to 3s,.. blah blah blah.. resume bowling on 7th april (wed) at tampines..there goes my break and time to catch up wif loads of wrk. in sec 1 and 2, we really had loads of time to train.. this yr is like no. no time, no energy. ohwell.. but i still love bowling. ahahaha. aiming to represent singapore. aahha. also hoping for an avg. of 190= hitting 190 easily.... hmm. let me see.. by end of nxt yr? hopes. ahah. no tooo late.. okok.. then b4 b div... to win jazreel. haha.
thinking about attendance, our sec 3 ppl. realised that out of the 7 ppl. (sec 3s: joined bowling in 2002 till now.. ). i think 5 ppl got 100% attendance.. from sec 1 till now. aha. good. i wish that the juniors are like that. ahaha. okok..
end of bowling language.
i really hope to do well in this yr's mye. mrs lim is like very very diaspppointed in me... and even resulting into thinking that i'm a really naughty pupil.. aha. actually.. ya lar... but then she dun have to think this way mah.. ahah.. i also wanna prove the teachers that this yr's 3/6 is not as bad as they think.. and also to prove myself that i can get wad they expect me to... haha. if i ahve that former acs br principal,..... he should be motivating enough to motivate me to go on. ahha. coz i feel that in kc, most teachers wif high positions, tend to like be so fake.. and also.. i feel that there's a gap between HOD and normal teacher. in shps, the whole sch os realy bonded... but only the vp and principal is more highly, well-respected. the rest is really close and like friends.. haiz.. i wanna make an impact on kc.. give kc a gd name.. we currently still fighting for gd reputation but like it seems to be never near.
haha.. my typing feeling is here again.. type type type.. well, i guess now, i should really live my life to the fullest. and aim high... coz i feel that i'm not my old self already. losing all that positive attitude towards life, ppl and everything. i juz wanna thank God for bringing me this far.

hmm. juz came back from victors..today quartet was atrosious... simply cannot send out for nuts. ahaha. okok .anways,.. ltr stayed back to see prize presentation.. aha. this yr is shocking.. girls..first is mgs, then ijtp, then ghim moh, and rgs. wah.. . the guys one even best..acsi, sji, scs, aes.. shockin k,.. this yr msh, cch and esp. acs br is sooooooooooooo quiet.. big shock for the guys. girls......... tkgs very quiet... kc also.. haiz.. congrats to ijp and mg bowlers esps and all the bowlers. =). there was this guy speaking.. aha. he toak alot of sense leh!. serious. he said..." i guess technically, alll of u have faced reality.. the changing of the venue to victors is a big hit to all of u.. most bowler must be complaining about the lane conditions and alot.. well, is this the kind of standard and we must ~overcome Singapore~ to fight with other countries.. not everytime is a victory.........". ahha. then duno wad invisible dealer, cannot deal card again, play properly and ur best with the cards regardless of a winning hand or a losing hand.... very asop fables kind. ahaha. then after presentation, sing National Anthem!! wah.steady ar. aaha. today when squad d and e were playing, kc girls go cheer for acsi, sji (loudest).. and abit of ri. whaah. funny k.. keep shouting for clay akien and chris.. ahha. then the last game... i think chris, travis, eddy, aloy.. got 193, 203, 193, 203....... if i didn't see wrongly.. was kinda far. so yar..
i think uncle jack is ok ok wif our performance. but really, we let the sch down... we gave mr. jega another reason to y bowling should be a leisure sport... no more coms.. oh well, speaking positively, nxt yr amanda and jas, are not in b div (? ihope so.. ).. but my yr very chiong k... got shayna, lesley, evan, hui yang, jazreel....this yr's b div flies.. missed the times at yishun. we must fight back,, gonna attempt to shock the world. my last chance next yr. wana win smth man...
oook. ahha. wanna type this too... after our quartet,,.. we go fly kite... ahha. as in literally fly a kite. ahaha.. reggie and janine bought the kites. ahha. then we successfuly glew the 1st one.. 2nd one cannot. haha... i'm goona miss aalllllllllllll the ppl........ well.. its gonna b 4 more months to see all the familiar faces of the alley. haiz. -ended juz like that-

thanks to jawn who is reminded me of many things from his flood. aha. his flooding alone reminded me of Jesus and Noah. haha. that 40 days n nite thing. anyway. i feel that i have to do smth for the church.. as in.. i've gotta bring more ppl to his kingdom.. i somehow sense that the coming is drawing near... the deaths, the diseases and everything,...... now my block downstairs someone having wake,singing hyms now.... another life... kao.. this is like the most no. of deaths happened in 4 months..... dad, diane, winston's grandma, ulrica's grandma or issit pa, marc's grandpa. (wait. i not sure.. or issit in the hospital.. i hope he's alright), and diane......haiz. life is so brittle.. imean its like.. u'll never know when.. perhaps the nxt day i kanna bang down by some speeding car...... or terrorist.. haiz. ahha. these few days been toking about death. ahha tml i playing my very last 3 games. quartet. i have a damn high expectation.. and its really far.. 198, 188, 213.. hahhaa. IF.. haha. but actualy i hope not.. coz i'll feel very regretful tt i didn't give my best during singles. waahaha . okok. i gtg makan... all the best to all bowlers... from all schs espically the girls. ahaha. =)

Diane left. i feel so regretful. she left on thursday morning.. 0240.. peacefully. i wanted to go and visit her on wednesday. my tiredness succumbed me. and i didn't. so i planned to go and visit her thursday...wanted to call jasmine... and i recieved this dreadful msg.. i miss her. i miss her smile. juz came back from the wake. saw her barbie dolls, toys, and things that a 11-yr old like to do... tiredness is another factor that is really a dreadful thing which i hate. saw her family today. her mum wasn't ok. this yr is really a terrible yr for me. how bad can it get?.. dad died, diane passed away, results attained is the worst in my entire life, b div screwed, literally gasping for air (oxygen... duh) at times, broken family, quiet HDB, teachers' complaints... how worrse can it get. but today's wake really reminded me of God's love.i juz duno why. Good ppl dun last. and gets taken away. 3 wks b4 she left, she drew her last pic that spoke thousands of words. Partially about God's love. this child has really loved God so much that until her death bed, she still feels God's love and love Him in return. wad about me? it makes me feel really guilty that sometimes i question God of why He does things not in favour of me. sometimes i juz blame God. Am i really reflecting myself as a worthy child of God?.. is my faith drying up?
i hope that daddy and diane is playingwif each other now.. hopefully dad can be the repair man in heaven. i miss all of them. i realise that as time goes by, u tend to loose ur things, ur ppl, ur family and friends. why is all this happening.... espicaly to diane? why must it be diane? why not any of the 3 armed robbers? or any ppl who commit sins and still thinks its right..... God. help.. i dun want to loose u.. i cannot help myself. i need u.
this is getting really emmotional. sorry guys.. this is my blog.. where i splat all my thoughts.

haha. okok. i know who is kueh lapis guy liao. ahha. thanks. thanks to ming yi for coming.. thanks to the guys for coming too. ahhaa. today was 1st day of quartet... found my line after the 2nd game. aha. so 135, 101, 170.. ahahaah..135 avg. kinda haven meet up my expectations. dwang. but today's lanes are really nice.. also nice to spare pin 10...well.. i really do hope that kc win smth.. let me try and predict k. haha... ermm .. 1) mgs, 2) ijtp, 3) rgs, 4) gmss, 5) tkgs, 6)kc?? ahhaa. pls man.. be like c div. shock me...let us get at least a 4th and show jega.. haiz.. hmm... the lanes are getting better and better each event.. yay. ahha. today terror ar... bowled beside jazreel, huiyang and team, jasmmine, amanda and team.... aha. then amanda and jazreel keep lookinh at each other scores. aha. very funny.. but yeah.. competition.. victoria was also bowling beside me.. she looks very cute. ahhaa. yup. today cheering was loud.. my team was loud.. haha... was so loucd and rocking... long time never had such cheers liao.. love that ol' feeling..... juz like last yr's c div.. i really do hope kc will win.. i aiming to get a 170 avg this quartet. ahha. pls.. do not make it reverse.. anything but that.....our team paired wif AES.. aha. the guys look really desperate for cheer.. so me, janine, lyn and reggie.. was like clapping when they get strike ahaa. then they tap hands like really soft while we whack. aaahhaa... we thrashed them al 3 games.. waahaha. shocking. but we still like not really our standard yet. i hope uncle jack and mr lim dun give up on kc so easily. ahha. God help us.
haiz.. last night at around 240am,,.. diane passed away..so shit k.. i really missed her and regretted that i didn't go last night.. last night wanted to go after sch.. then very tired. so was planning to go after today's tournament... thenwanted to call jasmine.. then recieved a msg from joanne and later jasper that she went home to be wif the Lord.... but its kinda gd thing coz she was peacefully as she goes... haiz. reminded me of my dad.. hope my dad's playing wif her now... today during tournament... smelt my dad again.. haha.. always k.. smelly.. but ya. its not his smell but the icu smell.. yucks. ahha. yup. tuesday i wanna ''kick some arse'' ahhaha. quotingg from uncle jack.. aahhaha i think point (1)(2)(3) is really useful... shall rmbr that all... =). oh well. thanks to all supporters and opponents. =)

Ooo... got screwed up again. aha. but better than singles.. today was doubles. 139 99 143 127 166 116..avg 131..must really thank the supporters.. i so inconsistant. oh well. but today's tournament is really an experince for me. i learnt alot. though it stilll kinda suxed.basically, i played in the morning at 8am.. before the comp.. uncle jack say that if the lane condition is massively reversed like on monday. he call us forget how to release.///.. how to bowl.. juz throw a simple i-duno-how-to-hook kind of shot. then it'll work.on the grounds.. my doubles partner was jocelyn.. and again.. jazreel and hui yang was on my left.. aha. nice shot jaz. ----- wahaha. okok. so anyways..after practice throw.. uncle jack go to every lane to tell us that the lane is 'our kind'... bowl ur normal way.. but play last mon's line.. ok.. so.. many of us did better. much better. 2nd block of games.. marianne and fafa was beside us. aha. cheered alot and that really push the morals up. okok.. it was then at the 3rd block... i realised that i', not playing at my own tempo which really slowed down my speed alot. so i swing more slowly.. and whaha. it was back to the old speed.. so wad did i learn today?.. wad i was reminded?
(1) Bowl focusedly and consistantly.
(2) Dun yank the ball out.. roll it!
(3) Bowl at ur own pace. focus and slower the speed of ur swing to increase ball speed and rev.
(4) God is always there. He is.
(5) KC girls lose/ gain confidence very quickly. and gets distracted at times.
(6) Motivation helps.
ok.. i shall explain some of the points. for (5)... it was when i saw DSS bowled. k.. i'm not discriminating or anything ar.. DSS' girls bowl straight. as in cannot hook and no rev. but they are confident. confident of every shot. gd eg would be the girl who got the same position as me last yr... though she cannot rev alot.. but she juz bowled confidentally. all of dss ppl also. KC was bowling wif all the seeded. and this yr we were very tensed as compared to lst yr's c div. we weren't confident. with addition to the top seeded.. we were beaten mentally down. .. and also.. why today we all were better coz uncle jack sort of like 'trick us' in the lane conditions.. i believe that he did smth to make us think that the lane is easier to bowl as compared to mon's though both days are the same..
(4),(6) is by Mr Lim.. i think he's realy the best teacher in charge of bowling.. i mean its like who.... in KC can replace Mr. Lim as the bowler in charge.. think about it. ahhha. and guess wad. for singles. i got 5th last leh.. from the bottom.. big shock for me. aha. told ya never bowled so horribly in my life... oh well.
i duno whther to start wrking hard for nxt yr or should give myself a break and focus on studies... its a big choice.. i think i'll go into my studies coz its really back sliding and tt my bowling issn't imporving much.. then after my mye... i think i'll switch to bowing mode until end yr.. .. phew. wonder wad will happen to c div. hope that they'll do smth proud for kc.. b div is really bad.. haiz. anyways.. gd luck to

haa.. seems like all the guy bowlers didn't really do well too. ahaa.. all also complaining lane conditions.. ahhaa.. never one guy said it was good.. well.. i guess this tournament is gonna be challenging... and all about mental..
oh well.. today 20 ppl was late for sch!.. did my last gate duty in my hurt and pain leg... ahha. then immediately after that was A maths test.. goash.. i only did 1 question?... so gonna pass the test.haha. then after the test.. cried. ahaa. again.. then was like mentally distress.. aha. then broke my hair band.. argh. ahhaa. broke it. hahaa. .. i tell u.. for 3 consecutive days. i can't seem to find oxygen... as in having breathing difficulties.. haha.. pang call be go see doc. like seriously.hahaha. then today... after sch.. saw mr lim... he told me to take care.. and was like veyr serious... scaaary.. but i think mr lim motivated me alot. .. yeah.. then after sch., pang coached me and natahsa maths.. until 615?? really wanna thank him for sacrificing his time... anyways. i like this yr easily beaten down... why ar? .. like loosing all the confidence i used to had.. loosing all that pride and trust..very easily beaten down. aahah. goash. i need that strength back. whhaoa.. so scarrry. aha. ok. end. prays for all ppl playing in nationals for doubles and esp. squad c. ahha. thanks

oh well.. 2nd time posting... i guess i'll have to be positive.. take shaun as an example.. he has only 1yr more and e's living it to the fullest.. juz so bubbily.. a living testimonial.. wanna thank lim from sendin me home.. coz ankle was really kiling me.. now my eyes are burning... i guess its the long break down. ahha. sounds so com. wanna thank those online.. on msn talking to me.... thank God for letting me live till this day. =l

screwed and soooo screwed.. 1st game got myself injured. uncle jack scolded. uncle jack didn't help. helped only once. he was with marianne.. zen. sara all the way... could find my lines.. lane condition is difficult.. thumb blister... top schs dying too. not consistant... no confidence. excuses excuses excuses. today is the day where by my avg totally sux. cannot make it for the sch... wanna help sch and get top 4.. oh well... now i'm the last in sch. 95 126 111 73 84 93... 97 avg. not even a 100... this is my most seriously screwed avg in my life so far.. including my life when i was in sec 1 k... talk about winning.. got probs walking now,.. thanks to my ball which whacked my ankle 3 times.. 2times with SlayR.. wanna thank Donna and Mr. Lim who encouraged me alot. got beaten down by uncle jack. others sch weren't doing too well and it was our chance.. but we ler it slip away. juz like that. why?.. i hope vicotrs is fair enough to give the same lane conditioning... massive reverse oiling. totally screwed. i dun think i can makea come back.. can't even walk properly. talk about bowling. cool eh. never in my life will i give up liek how i did juz now. i wanna win. i must be motivated. i canot give up. i must prove myself to uncle jack. prove to him that i can do it on my own.

tomorrow is coming.. ahhaa. shivers

today's the 4th month of dad's death.... then its like still cannot get over it.. haiz. missed touching his fingers and hands alot. i need a guy for support man. cannot make it. ahha. not now marian..... studies.. JC. waha. okok. anyways.. ytd and today had prefects camp. oh well.. erm.. not really fun as in the games are ha-ha kind.. but the amazing race are fun. as the they speak through the games... then like we understand it more. yup. =)... that's the only part i like. ahha. I-M-P-A-C-T... Initiatice, Moral integrity, Patiece, Adaptability, Confidence, Trustworthiness.... Common goal, Complementing others, Creativity, Communication.. whhaa. i rmbred all!.. hmm. ya. i think allthese are impt qualities a leader should have.. but they didn't realy physco us into it.. so ya.
hmm. fri morning.. went to victors and had our last trn.. uncle jack say the oily lane conditioning is gonna be 70-80% in competion. hope its dry and really dry.. so that all crankers die aand kc survive. whaha. hmm. saw VS, GHIM MOH, TKGS having friendly match. ahaa. shocked that VS was there...RGS, IJTP, MGS were also trng there.. ahhaa.. liek top 4 seeded schs there. ahhahha. then ltr while trng, SJI came... aha. hmm.. so far, didn't see RI trng at victors..later. went for camp. haha. gary, vl and mason took the samne bus and mrt back. haha. but then we 4 kc girls go far away. waha. then went for camp.. with bowlign balls.. tired. haa. monday is nationals liao.. fast man. oh wells. hope that i dun screw up like last yr.. *every frame is important.. everypin is hateful. bowl like a man.. whahha.. haiz.

haha.. i realsied smth... when i bowl scores... i tend to freak myself out until i cannot bowll.. ahha. steady ar.. hahhaa... tournament is like 4 days time.. and u know wad.. i haven do finish hw... doubt that i can wif all the prefect camp and trng..i seriously hope that i'm able to pull thorugh this 2 months leh... today bowling very dry... kinda shiok... ahhaa.. send my ball all the way out then snap. whahahabut then send to far out then go gutter.. ahha. but was ok.. well, should relieve myself. ahha. u know wad... today at friendster, my kindergarden class mate added me.. wahhaa.. totally shoked.. like she rmbred my full name.. whaha... scary.. today bowling, failed to bowl with timothy again.. ahhaa.. and tmr.. we hav trng,.. strongly requested by us.. whaha.. hopefully to bowl better and not hurnt myself. i better start to pine for tournament days and miss it.. whaha.. miss all the cheering and shouting for sch. must win liaos. prove to uncle jack that i'm not that bad at bowling..actually. am i? whhaha. saddist.but first.. hw hw hw..ahaa. loading and piling.. haiz.. where got time to wrk. hwaa.. pls. breathe 123.. ahhh. ahhaa. ok.. gd luck to all those b division bowlers on monday.. espically to the squad C ppl. wahaha. hopefully, KC will donminate. whaha... wad. hopefully,.. goashe.. ahha filled with hope again =)

ok.. hmm. i dun think i should be here now.. supposeedly to do my hw.. goash.. all the teachers are like 'its holiday.. so give more wrk'.... goash.. had to cancel wrk coz to get some rest and do hw.... today had trng from 11-2 at victors... whoa.. aahha.. saw alot of ppl i didn't see for 1yr.. ahha. hmmmm... some not really 1 yr lar....let me see... jin sheng, gary, wee leong, timothy and friends....... then also got the very familiar-bowlers-but-i-dunno-you.... like peiqi and her gang,....... steffi tham....if i'm not wrong.. gary's wearing a red shirt... a shirt that i first saw him in at a bowling alley..at tampines.. hahaha.. anywys.. . was crowded today... well. bowled ok ok at first. got my line at first..... then the lanes dried up soo quickly and i lost my line. haha... and eventually, got a new blister... haiz.. if i put another skin patch on my thumb, my ball is for sure going to drop.. and slip off. hmmmm.. how??. uncle jack also ran out of skin patch.... haiz.. then like duno whether to buy from vic or wad..... ahahha.. tell u ar... ahha. long time no see msh guys liao. then all suddenly grow like so tall....... ahhah.. kinda missed the presence of guys sch bowling...not in a bad sense lar... coz like missed the feeling of before-tournament-trngs.... (with acsi and exception..)..with all the schs chioning to win for their sch...
okok. back to study wise...... i have to wrk hard fo mid yr... i dun want to get last in class already.. therefore, i have to stop coming onlne.. aahha.. so... dun be shock if i'm not online for 3-4days.... without updating blog.. ahaha.. this is totally not a rest period for me.. a period of time where i train hard and try to win for kc and catch up wifmy wrk.
haiz.. is still think that mr jega is very biased to our sch bowling..kc net ball team got champs in east zone and like whole sch celebrating... we all kc bowlers played east zone and came in 1st too in 2002 and like nobody knew.. tennis girls came in 4th in the nationals recenrtly and also the whole sch damn proud of it... i am lar... but heys.. ahha. kc bowling and swimming too got 4th in nationals last yr..... but its like soooo unknown. therefore..... all of us must fight to show mr jega that bowling is a sport and not a leisure game.. hey... bowling 6 games is not that relaxing as u think k/..go bowl wif uncle jack lar.. talk so much.. ahha.. *racking up the past f mr jega scolding the bowling team*. haha...we have and must aimm for GOLD this yr's b div.. we must shock the world.. ahhaha.. *i hope so. =)

wheee. spent exactly 24h wif mr lim, uncle jack, uncle jeffery, aunty helena, uncle francis rodricks, uncle allan, sam, shu neng, sara, marianne, sara, fafa, zen, regina, sharissa, chermaine, farah and steph.. stpeh left early ytd afternoon. haiz ahhaa. ok.. so here it goes..
hhhaa. at 2.30.. met in sch.. the 13 of us.. then uncle jack, uncle allan and uncle francis drove the girls. aha. i took uncle allan's one. whaha.i tell u ar.. he's car is damn safe.... 8 air bags, 5 mirrors and a beepbeepbeep sound for speed limit.. like wad....ahahathen reached there,,, checked in. ahhaha. very funnry. uuncle jack was like.. "i'll be at lane 26". ahha as i room 26 lar. aha then we help him continue.. "okok.. u, lim and coaches 26, we lane 22,23,24 right?"ahaha.. ok.. so me chermaine, and sharissa in one room...marianne, zen, fafa, sara,sam in one, regina, steph, shu, farah in one. but steph didn't stay lar.. haiz. then all of the girls all wanted to sun tann..damn funny.. coz no sun.. but was fun. went to swim.. well.. this kinda bonded us up alittle.. thne at around 6.. went back to our rooms to bathe and wash up... and waited for dinner..at first the toilet was kinda scary. but it was ok in the end. the hot water was really shiok. ahha
then finally. lim said it was dinner time. then the coached drove us to a hawker centre at changi to eat.. i toook the safe car again. ahhaa. then at there... we split into 2 groups, and the adults in another. i tell u ar..the food was damn great. like got sotong, stingray, clam, mussel, kailan, carrot cake, many kinds of roti prata, drinks and manymore. all free. ahem. ya. free... aha. then after that.. our table, me, shu, marianne, sharissa, sam, sara allkeep eating,.. and eating. order another stingray and sotong. ahha. goash. and alot of water. aha. then makan finsh, then sit an talk and laugh... haha. the whole hawker centre looking at us. haha. realyl funny lar that sharissa.'
after that.. they drove us back,. then we wanted to go disco. then cannot coz only above 18.. then wanted to go karaoke.. then closed.....then nvm.... dying to play majong.. also above 18.. in the end,.. we asked them to open the karaok room.. thne sing.. ahha. sing like hell.. duno the song also anyhow sing.. got rap somemore.. ahhaa. duno wad american girl. ahha. then i outside play card wif may and gang...then some ppl came out of the lounge and come out with many erm. -interesting- games.. ahha. dunno wad xiao qing wa.. then murder, then alot. alot. alot of games.. haha. chold hood games. ahha. until 1am like that.
until aoll of us cannot stand it liao. all dying to see bapoks. ahaha. lyn and zen so enthu about gg there. ahha. so all of us left at 1.30 am for 'bapok show' haha. i sat in lim's car wif regina and shu..then lim winded (i duno how to speel ) down the windows.. and locked it. ahhaa. then all of us to paranoid. ahha. then he drove so damn slowly pass the bapoks. damn chio lor.. one of them.. oh, btw, if u are wondering wad a bapok is.. its a more severe stage of gay.. ya. haa. then ya.... one reall chio. but then all of them wear until so revealing. like pls. ahaha. then we went to this coffee shop again to have supper.. ahha. crazy right. ate so much for dinner. ahha then ate cheese prata.. damn nice. then went back around 2 in lim's car, wif shu regina and lyn. ahhaa this time go see more bapoks at some ulu carpark.. i tell u ar. all so slim, tall can erm.'fantastic' ahha.loss for words. yup.. then went back.. feeling abit tired. then all of the girls gather at room 23 to slack and talk. ahha. (*sorry,. was abit pissed at some things.. so ya. no offence k.. abit of bitc* feeling overpowered me.. whoa. hahha)okok anyways..talk talk untjil tired. then went back to our rooms..sharissa actually bathe then she slept.... so all of us slept at 4am.. mayb the girls at rm 23 slept at 330? haha. ya. so.. woke up at 10 in the morning.
kinda ok and not really tired. so later. went to bathe.. aha. and pack up. reallyy a damn short camp. then lter wnet down for breakfast. again, free breakfast, no matter wad we ordered... like wad.. feeling kinda guilty.. so anyways.. the sun was soooooooooooooooo gd in the morning that many of the girls wanted to swim.aha. some can't coz of girl probs again. so some of us went to swim.. really had a gd time. ahha. then later, packed up and went back. uncle jeffery sent me home.. as in..... drove me to my house downstairs leh.. ahah touching ar. =)then here i am now.. jaa
overall, we did bonded alittle.. but i still felt that there was alot of clickishness... alot.. i mean. we are here to have fun an also mainly to bond and relax. why must die die go wif that person? and click and click. aah. nvm. =).. and also another prob.. some girls kinda think about themselves only.. aha that kinda 'irritates' me also.. but ahha. i'm no better. and also.. i think there's a prob going on wif me and my 'bestfriend'.. in bowling one. i duno lar. juz feel like lowering to juz friends coz i think she's somehow changed to how she treats me. whaha. marian. tsk tsk. so sensitive ar.. ahha. okok. anyways. overall... this whole camp is reallly fun.... and like i didn't paid for anythignand had gd good and place. i wanna thank all the ppl who contributed.. espically mr lim, coaches and aunty helena to buy so much snacks fo us. oh well..
tournament is in 7 days time..... 7.......... ah... less than one wk. help haha.. so much hw.. and classes/ haha.okko.. end liao. kinda tired liaos. =).. take care

damn... the thing got cleared.. oko.. i type again.. yar.. today bough court shoes for emdd. bought extra size bigger...hopefully to last me until after jc....yup.. today in class.. mrs lim changed my place with Jaslin's... haiz.. i miss sara, geraldyne and nat.. haiz.. now i'm like infront. adn really infront...haha. i'm gonna miss anout 10 lessons of maths. ahaa. goash.. i'm goona fail.. due to tournament... oh ya. told pang about me getting last in class.. then he was like.. wad!? ahha. haiz. disappointment...haiz.. tml is bowling camp!!! ahaha.c annot wait to go play and have fun man. ahhaha. shucks... loads of hw to do k. espically lit..i prefer sch days than holis. stupid blog.. kanaa cleared.. haiz. ah. lazy to go type anymore detailes. anyways. aha. was supposingly apoligising to uncle gary. ahaha. but yea... the thing cleared.. so nvm. ahahaa.. =)

wahha.. lo and behold... i really got last in class.. see.. i'm not exaggerating. anyways.. kinda disappointed dad.. then in class like abit duno wad to do.. ahaa.. literally duno wad to do.. duno y i feel this way too. then i was like joking.. ahha. put my report book next to my father's photo... hopefully to see a signature the next morning.. then mama dun have to see and sign...... haha.. crap. anyway. todays weather is so not signapore. rain and rain..ahha. in class.. start raining.. then i was singing the moon song to natasha, kiran, cherie and sara. then ahaaa.. lightning. then thunder.. ahha. then i stop.. then ok liao.. then i started to sing.. then thunder again. whahha. then i shut up. ahhaha. then later. there was one massive thunder and lightning. then ahhaa. heard a group or issit a class of girls screamed freakyily.. whahaha.. our class laugh and laugh. so typical girls' sch. wahha.then.. mrs koh was like "then the ionic bonds,.." ahhah.. so into the subject. whahha... another damn focused teacher is mrs lim.. really organised and have gd time plan.. goash.. if i have her as my mama.. whahha.. be sure to carry a tible table wherever i go man.ahaa. i think our class is starting to bond? yay. haaha.. like finally..anyways.. i have to say.......its so freaking cold.. so i attempted to tahan without the sch jacket to save money for the whole yr.. coz prefect must set gd example.. cannot wear own jacket.. whahaa *smiles widely*...so. i bought the jacket and immediately put it on.. haha. for the whole day except trng.. kaoz.. after sch got off hte bus.. then like the air is much much much colder as compared to the temperature in the bus.. ahhwhwha.. sharissa and janine was like " am i in singapore? no no! i think genting.. aha no lar.. australia. " ahha.a damn funny. ya. can u imagine sharissa and janine saying such stuff? really funny k.. ahhaha.. ooOOO. loong post again. ahaha. koko today bowling was ok... kinda got pocket strikes... ahaa. but still.. need to be consistant and 'durable' coz tournament play 6 games.. then i'll die due to the dry dry oiling towards the end.. *PRAY for lots of spinners to be around my lane. waha. hmmmmm. argh, 12 days!. oh ya.. hahaa. sat and sun got bowling 'camp' ahha. its for team bonding and stuff.. really hope that our team will bond really closely together and no more cliques, groups.. and also that all will feel as one. wahha. so mr. lim!. ahaha.. btw.. mr lim is realy like dady k.... "u all must take care of urself, cannot afford to injure urselves.. all of u are important to the team".... so fatherly right. ahhaha. scary. anyways.. whoa. this is alot liaos.. sory... dun feel like stopping.. ya.. ms tan lay kwan came to our class otday... grrr.. almost got targeted by her... coz usully when mr pang teach, i'll keep shooting at him (at the right time lar)... then today felt to uncomfortable.. felt so quiet.. aha. then when pang gave us hw.. we all didn't complain!!!! ahaa.. he was like shocked... i think he should know y.. grrr... holidays ar.. kao... all fullty, totally booked from morning to afternoon.. goash... no time to cathc up wif the wrk......further more... when tournament comes, i'm gonna miss alot alot alot of lessons.. haiz. i must fight. haa. i wanna win and get top 4 in sch.. even better.. go masters.. *takes our binoculors and see*. aha still far away. haha. haiz.. msn seem so quiet these days, right gary? ahaha...finally man!,... peace from old uncle of vs.. waha.. discrimination.. ahhah. goash.. i'm toking so much crap today.. have the typey feeling.. bear wif me to those who are reading.... hmmm.. i'm actually wondering if anybody reads this. whhaha. okok .STOP. okok. i must go on and fight. cannot and can never give up. [failure is the way to success ~mrs lie~] hahawhahhahaa. *chokes.

damn funny... today chinese singing competition.... first time i go the courage to be myself on stage... hmmmm.. my defination of be-myself is different.. whahaa.. okok.anwys.. i think i'm gonna be labled as that yue liang gir.... or.. "look!.. isn't that zao xia girl?! my goash... she's a prefect".. hawwhhahaa... jkjk. haha,. i was so into singing. i almost forgot to zao xia... and almost forgot to tkae out my rose.. haha. so.. to amend it.. i took out the rose drastically.. like as if purposely shock nataoshia.. ahha.. veyr funny k.. thank God mr. pang wasn't like watching although he very much wanted so.. whahha.. *girns.. pang.. ahhaa.. ping.. pink. haha. then ltr went back to class damn hyper.. was like doing william hung dance.. and edited it to william pang dance.. ( hope mr pang duno wad a blog is, if he do, hopefully he doesn't read this ) pray that mr pang will be busyily marking hw now.. whwahhaa. okok. so anways.. was a gd experience. even if we dun get into the finals, i think its a good effort liao... other classes were great too... didn't expect so much,,.. but ya. haha
ok. bowling lanugauge now.. i must fight liao.... must be confident.. and bowl my best... for the school and for Katong Convent Bowling Team. we must dominate the lanes.... and win all the best schools. we must gove our 100% best. yeah. haha. dominate dominate dominate. whahhaa
*juz a gentle reminder to me, janine, vivien, jasmin, keshia, marilyn....... aha... rule:
1) spare ball dun hook
2) hook ball hooks
3) send it out...
whaha. we were like physcoing ourselves to remind ourselves,.. me and janine we like really literally physcoing the whole lane. whhahhahaa.. k.. must rmbr kays. =)

ahha... too addictive from melanie's blog..so ya.

mary moon

I've got a new age girl
(Tell us what she's like)
An environmentalist girl
(Does she ride a bike)
She has crystal necklace
(She spend a lot of cash)
Though her vibes are rather reckless
(She's heading for a crash)
Oh her flowing skirt is blowing in a transcendental wind
And she wonders without knowing where did she begin..

Mary Moon.. she's a vegetarian
(Mary Moon, Mary Moon, Mary Moon)
Mary Moon.. will outlive all the septuagenarians
(Mary Moon, Mary Moon, Mary Moon)
Oh, she loves me so
She hates to be alone
She don't eat meat
But she sure like the bone

RAH

You knew she drives a wind car
(How does she like it)
It doesn't get her far
(Why doesn't she bike it)
But it gets her to where she's going to
(I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)
Where that is, I wish I knew
I don't know where she's going
And I don't know where she's been
All I know that loving her has gotta be a sin

(Chorus)

RAH

Mary Moon will you hesitate
Don't segregate your thought from your emotions
I know that devotion isn't way up there

RAH

Mary Moon.. she's a vegetarian
(Mary Moon, Mary Moon, Mary Moon)
Mary Moon.. will outlive all the septuagenarians
(Mary Moon, Mary Moon, Mary Moon)
Mary Moon.. She's an intellectual
(Mary Moon, Mary Moon, Mary Moon)
Mary Moon.. Despite that fact remains quite sexual
(Mary Moon, Mary Moon, Mary Moon)
Mary Moon.. She's the one for me, me, yeah

RAH

hmm.. its been rainig.. haha. remind me of ms soo.. "the monsoon winds blow from.. " ahhaha.. serious man... flooded.. as in literally flooded..like the water is flowing.. whahha. crap.. anyways.. many pppl practicing hard for emdd.. yeah.. really gd time to bond. hope that God will wrk in all of them and make an impact in their lives. =). hopefully, the event will be a successful one.. its on the

20th of April 2004 (Tuesday) :
- 7:30 pm ( $15/ $20 / $25 / $30 / $35 / $40 )

21st of April 2004 (Wednesday):
- 2:30pm ($10 / $15 / $20 / $25 / $30 )
- 7:30pm ( $15/ $20 / $25 / $30 / $35 / $40 )

haha.. for more information, pls call........ haahha .. so advertisment.. anyways.. will be ushering on the 21st for both shows... yay.. ahha.. so fun.. looking forward to see ppl in nice nice formal formal clothes.. haha.. hopefully all the prefects will do their duties to the best of their abilities and not screw up. also, hope that they have the 100% initiative and responsibility.. and they better put on a bright bright smile. whahahha

okok.. so anyways.. bowling lanuguage now. freaking out liaos...13 days to nationals!!!!!! ahhh.. haha 2 wks..goash.. if only i need only like 2h of sleep to full energetic the whole day.. is seriously dun mind. i wanna win for the sch. wanna make my sch proud. whoa. haha. no lar. seriously. i wanna make it to top 4 in sch and top 10 in nationals.. whaha. like erm.. ah?. aha. ok. shall stop. loads of crap watining for me to go settle. byes for now.

this song is from galvin's web..... he's so talented an inspiring.. this song he sing and compose one.. ahahah.. sorry to all those maksim lovers..


SACRIFICED



Verse 1:
D Dmaj7
I’m close enough to hear
Bm
You whispering to me in my head
Dmaj7
That You have come to bear
Bm A2 D
The weaknesses I see in me

Chorus:

C D
What have You done to suffer all this wrong?
C Dmaj7
Why didn’t You run away but stayed to be torn?
C D
Jesus You’re my Lord of all
C Am D
You are my God forevermore

Verse 2:
D Dmaj7
You’re nailed upon the cross
Bm
The crown of thorns above Your head
Dmaj7
You’re bloodied by the spear
Bm A 2 D
You breathed Your last and died for me

Chorus x 2

Bridge:
C D C Dmaj7 C D C Dmaj7
Jesus... Jesus... Jesus... Jesus...

Verse 3:
D Dmaj7
You’re placed behind a rock
Bm
You died and rose again in this place
Dmaj7
You sit upon the throne
Bm A2 D
Satan has no say anymore again

ahha so fun! flag day!.. we were the 1st sch to be there i think. then whoa. really a great experience. i felt really happy and a sense of achievement when someone donated. then got maris stella, national jc, st theresa's?, and afew more co-ed schs. ahha. then there's this bunch of msh guys.. saw me at the traffic light asking ppl to donate. then they ask me where is janice... then i say go look around orchad.. then about 1 h later.. they come back and asked me i still here ar... then later.. after 1h... the same ppl concidentally saw me again.. so said hi. ahaa. the 4th time.. i was opp the usual road where i was standing.. then the guy saw me again.. but he was on the opp road.. haha. then i dao.. wadeva.. kinda fun lar. at least get to see how singaporeans ar.. actually some ar nice leh.. they all like.."aiya i in a rush"... then give notes or a bunch of coins.. whhaa.. so not willing... but at least they give..oh ya. btw.. was wif my partner sabrina all the time.. steady ar.. hahaa. faithful partner...anyways. i think i got sun burn.. aha... goash. could acutally get sun burn under orchad's sun.. haha. then went to return the tins... whoa.. i tel u.. vivien and jasmin tin was like literally full.. like whoa... shocked. whhaha. yups. so anyway.. later went cine to have lunch with the b div. then go see the -search for singapore's christina augulera-
whaha.. however u spell her name.. then i got young girls dance. gwad.. so hot k. ahaa. i was laughing throughout at the 'sadako' woman.. who attempted to sing. k lah.. kinda bad... but ya... but the place was really hot.. ahha the stage. the performers wore really ahem stuff. but at the start.. there was this 4 girls dancing. then i was like.. they really cannot dance... as in.. can lar.. but not good at all.. to the extent that there was no coordination, then one of the girls forgot the steps. then add in her own.. like pls.. i so can tell lor.. then alot of them cannot rmbr their steps. ahaa. if my hip hop teacher sees them.. sure kanna scolding like hell.. but anyways, gd effort lar.. maybe they were given a short period of time to prepare? aha. wadeva.
welll.. i missed teens time again. bah!! i wanna go see shuan and demi!!.. grr.. nxt wk right. i got bowling shalay.. i cannot confirm the time.. but i dun think can go teens time again.. and further more,... nxt wk got youth alive!!! dwang.. grrr. further more, neil is sharing!!!!! ahhhhhh i wanna hear him. coz for me right, i really can understnad neil's words and apply it. like ahhh. i'm missing it again.. then the following wk, got prefects' camp.. gonna miss teens time and service!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh.... its like getting worse each wk.. haiz.. then the followling wk got kc food and funfair family day..... missing teenstime again!..... 4 times in a row!!!!!!!!!! madness. no. i have to find a way.
haha. ok that's it. hmm.. bowling is still in my head now... currently feeling the heat from victors liao. hoipefully kc can excel and shock all schs. ahhaa. we wanna fight.

today bowled at tampines... kinda ok.. as in improve la.. but i dun feel comfortable.. no strikes.. all spares.. shockingly did 7 and 10 about 60%... then strike got alot brooklyn and about 3 gd ones.. wa.. but i seriously need to buck up. thanks ar... to the person this mornin... she really encourage me.. so shocking.. she juz passed me.. then motivated and encouraged me. aha. so thankful. yeep.. today kc was really cheering like whoa.. i think our teams got irritated? aha.. but ya. i have this habit of havin a really bad frown when i'm on da lanes. as in.. i need to give that tension look to think and bowl. wad only.. ahha. i have to enjoy and show compassion.. yeep. to all non bowlers out dere.. yeah.... bowling is a physical and as well as an emmotional game.. really man.. bowling is a big difference from other sports.

wad the hell. i'm crashing and falling. today i bowled the most -horribliest- in my life. it's juzt 19 days more to nationals and i feel thr pressure already. last yr i felt it 1wk ago.. this time like 3?? lasy yr attained 4th for C div.. east zone colours, school team colours, eagle award... wif responsibilities like captain and prefect. all this are juz attained to kill me. ironic?.. my achievements start to fire back at me.. teachers and espically coaches have high hopes on us. we are to get GOLD and nothing else. not even bronze...bowling in squad c.. aka. top seeded girl schs... i so wun feel stressed..perhaps i juz might drop to a reserve. not even in the com. and it'll stop all my whining... hmmm. perhaps i'll juz crash and break if i really do..... . wif a pleasing addition of only top 10 all events players enters master tournament wif round robin system. today i reallly do wad to do. so **** up.. yeah. marian is actually using vulguarities.. i'm pushed. i have no confidence... i have many doubts about my ball... i duno how to play. i need that passion and feeling back. to add on... CAs are juz cannot make it.. failed 6/10 sub.. wow marian... u r so not in the best class.. u r so not going to get last. please. crap. let me breathe. i need to tok to someone. some bowler who understands. talked to regina on the way home and helped abit. but its not enough. energy, time wasted. sparing suxs. familiar?? my Christian walk is definitely droppping day by day... ever since dad left. and wad.. dad. y must u leave like that? without warning?? i miss dad badly. mom says i dun... must i like show it and cry infront of her every single day?? slayR slayR.... its not up to standard. i'm sorry uncle jack. i'm sorry mr. lim. i'm sorry mr. jega. i need space. air.
wad only.. fancy typing all the crap out... i vent it all on words. loosing confidence, hating myself. wad a way to end.