beeeep. *bfff.

darn. haha. beep test. i should have crossed the line.
i've like written whatever i've felt in the rugby journal that the team has. HAHAH. so i'm like lazy to repeat it.

should have that as alarm clock. HAHAH. SNOOOOZE till LEVEL 16.


rainning max today. super disappointed.
like just did beep test for trng today and debrief. ahhaha.
but beep test is fun-ly tiring. its really like.. do until u cannot do, and meet ur results. haahahhaha. its like moment of truth after the fitness we've done and yet to do.

choi was there b4 trng! ahha. i couldn't recognise her with her spects and cap and all la!!! hahaha.

so anyway. this morng was nice.
met up with mr.lim and kc alumni bowlers. only lim and i bowled. i won him! hahhaah. but my release/timing was all off. but yea, donna, jacelyn, zoe, shuneng and his wife was there. gd time luh.

okays. so talking abt the soccer soccer soccer. it'll be FUNNNY. can't kick that soccer ball for nuts. ok. so wad.. midfield?!

-

so anyway.
smth more serious personal, girlfied and limited edition... haha...

ytd nite, with the angry me, i pened down all my nonsense/frustrations/anger in my little diary. ewws. BUT, it WORKED. hope its a long term success PLEASE. i miraculously felt the difference today, with lighter spirits even with heavy rains. i've finally conviced myself to successfully get you OUT of my entire life which is truly a blessing to me. coz its like to-the-brim max that i can tolerate this wishy-washy-overly soft&caring marian anymore. i mean like, yea, nice is nice. but i can't be overly caring to someone who's giving much pain to u over a long period of time right. haha. its time that i mature my thinking and act accordingly to situations that requires rational thinking. life's not all the lala and perfect land yea. so, WAKE UP and act fast. it's gg to be close to like 2 yrs in loner-misery-pathetic mode. so i shall ERASE/DELETE/CTRL + Z/CTRL + X everything thing that reminds me of u. even the happy times. it'll be long gone.


haha. rmbr that stated clearly in this blog that by jan 2008, it'll not reoccur. i guess at that time, i was just trying hard to make myself believe that i could do it, but deep inside, its still holding on hard and not wanting to let go. ok. so this time, i shall be FREEE. free like a bird, and use my love from God to all my beloved friends and family.

ok.
so confession: u're the only one that i could truly confide all my heart felt feelings in. really like everything. from e deepest historic family backgrounds (hahah), to friends, to my innner conflicting thoughts.. u're there and always willing to hear my screams out. u were sensitve abt feelings and super caring- in a gd way that is. but yea, it has its - points too. but up till now, no one i've come acrossed in this planet, guy or girl, could beat u to this- understanding myself. like wad the late ms devi (the counscellour in kc) told me.. why i was in 'such stress' was partially because of my dad, and more so, i'm a person who would find it hard to find close friends though many. she was like.. "1 in 12..." while showing her fingers and laughing abt wanting to show her toes.

seriously, no one was able to understand me at that level yea. so yes, u have that talent yes. keep it up. u're someone who's v understanding and is able to put aside ur own troubles and problems and that, worries me. like how u're able to put others first b4 urself. and if there's any probs, u'd not tell anyone but let it go because u dont want to trouble/worry anyone. yep, it is gd. but over a long period of time, its not so gd because a bottle will be filled one day. and when mine really did and exploded, u're there. so i hope u're able to find someone who would better understand u and make ur life a more prettier place to live in. ahha. seriously, u deserve better ppl around u. unlike me, who would terrorize ur world many times. i just pray that God will continue to provide for u and pave ur way through, yes.


ok, so to make this post highly effective, i've had a blessed boyfriend in sec4 and broke up after abt one and a half yrs, in case u're wondering wth i'm talking/ referring to. the reasons for our parted ways weren't reallly clear, and i just feel that i needed an answer. ahaha. probably all these yrs i've been in denial,so i might have probably grown with that denial, thus the reason is still not outright clear acceptable to me. but i rmbr CLEARLY that we MADE A PROMISE to be friends. the expected awkwardness was present, and again, it would probably because maybe i'm overreacting to myself. haha. so yes, no friends. not even hi-bye friends acquaintances. but hey, thanks. i've grown be immune, and finally, now, fully let it go.
the sad thing is that i still see u on quite a regular basis. i'm just amazed how we can stay at such a distance, even when we're like overseas.
so it proves one thing: physical distance is of no relation with the level of communication. seriously. hahaha.


hahah. hard eh. but steady. haha. i've never mentioned the word abt the boyfriend, nor reveal his name/identity or wadsoeva in this blog nor any other public web thingys for the past 2yrs. i've probably given hints but not gigantically obvious ones, for i covered it up well. sorry, but to make life simplier, i'm still not gg to reveal who's the guy who suffered with me. hahahahhaa. but he's one of the biggest and longest crush i had on him and vice-versa. hmmm.. like for yrs? yep, i'm truly and have never felt so deeply and serious for a guy b4 and i hope this will come to a final clean end. haha.
even if its the friendship that i hope to still cherish, i think it should just be given up- to make u and make me better off. not a very idealistic way, BUT, I have tried OKAY. hahaah.

i've learnt quite abit from this whole thing, and now, i hope to emerge even stronger as an individual. i will get back the independence that u once robbed me of. haha. and of course, i should not forget the importance of having not just friends, but close friends luh.
so yes. *hits the delete button, or rather *ctrl + alt + delete.
(like wad dear estee would say- 'tech savvvvvy')


whoots.


-

ANY O HOW.

marian can now finally smile cheerfully once again ever since 2006 and find back the confidence she used to have.
during team debriefing today, i realised that actually, confidence will help u ALOT. with confidence, u'll perform better. immature ones will just say that u're arrogant la. but of course, confidence is not equal to arrogant yes. so we all should be confident in ourselves and work hard tgt to bring up the gd name of TPiranhas. (: comm'on girls. we ferocious, communited, and united right.
ok. i duno how i got to this topic.. but anyway.. yeah! haha.




on a lighter note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARA PARN TING HUI. ((:
hope u've had a splendid bday with gera and i. HAHA.

ok. random. i seriously think that mas selamat is dead. its been raining like so much, i dun think he can tahan the wet terrains in his conditions. so ya. haha. or, he's successfully fled sg. u can get of out this small country withink 4hrs. so yea.ahaha. and plus, i'm sure singapore's armed forces are much capable than this.



okok. watch this http://clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=1&p=8&v=107 funny to the max. from xiaxue's blog ahahh.

not nice.

ok. last night, for some reason i couldn't slp.

and when i slept, i had a dream. i dreamt tt i was some sort of like undercover FBI or smth, pointing guns here and there with my best partner in action. ahha. and like shooting all the bad guys with their faces covered with those badits-hoodie / women's stockings... the best part is that best partner is super close to me, and like we're back to back in action. he's a guy but we're like super darn close. its quite funny in the dream coz it all seemed so plausiable... and like.. haha. our actions are like.. so 'at the right time'. and i'm lovin' the job and life with sucha partner around. hahaha.
thanks God hur. haha.


this morng. went to SPH. and after that, rushed for bowling. in the rain. and it was cold and tiring. played with the 'Accent' funtion on my camera while having to wait for another bus.. i missed the bus while waiting for the traffic light to go green la. IN THE RAIN. thanks.



the bus was crowded on the upper deck, but there was an empty seat. so went i got to the seat, no wonder no one was sitting on it luh! it was like some kind of blood stains or smth. it was quite.. blech .. having to be so close to it. so here it is.

grossed out. felt uncomfortable the whole time, not knowing wad it is or where it came from..


ok. after trng, it was in the rain again. and i got home. i think i got sick or smth. feeling reallly cold and letargic. i think it's also because of all the running i did alone at bedok on mon. hahha.
i flushed myself with hot water coz all my muscles were aching bad. i think coz like.. i was soaked in rain, and then bowled in the airconditioned alley... perspiring and feeling cold all over. so with the tensed muscles, i still bowled. i did not do warm up proper today, coz i missed that bus and became late.


yes. i think i'm superwoman at times. ok. maybe u're right. i need to take care of myself hur.
its not that i'm not getting enough rest. but like.. not drinking enough water... not carrying an umbrella with me wherever i go... yea. basic stuff like that.



but yea. results out. i was shocked. and disappointed.
i was expecting at least all B+, at the max 1 or 2 Cs or smth... but like.. all Cs and ONE B. and for A&P, (the one we presented to the client...) that was where the B come from. ONLY. i was actually looking forward for the results coz i knew i did well. bah!
i'm realllly disappointed. coz i thought i'd do reasonably well.


i guess probably like... mission trip. not blaming anything/anyone abt it. and i dun think its a wrong decision i've made. to many, it has been the wrong decision to go with. and i cannot deny feeling the same way at times. but i know that to me, and for God, its the right one luh. its more like.. how i dealt with it. not really the best of effort i guess. ):


i guess the plunge in grades is also due to those miserable 15% that i did badly for the mid sem test and it really affecte the whole thing. so now my GPA ddropped. and i'm really disappointed.


so now. yea. get on, move on and strive on.


argh. ): really really reallly sad and disappointed. very. i dunoo how else to get rid of this sucky feeling.

earphones.

today. i spent my CNY $. some of it, not all.
but i got my earphones, screen protector for my hp (coz it came off and couldn't stick back) and camera pouch for my erm.. camera. hahha.

i want to get this!

but i dun think i'll get.
unless i got free flow income.

i still want to get a flash, a 50mm f/1.8, holga...
and once i've earned enough money, i'm gg to sell my 70-200 f/2.8.. for a f/4 and get a 300mm f/4. AHHHAA. yea. i am dreaming. unless i win like $10k.

in a way. thank God i'm not like very fashion-oriented. and like wad estee says... tech-savvy. erks. ahhahaha.a

i'm tired! i was late for trng today. but was in time for the timing drill.
haha.
i need to push harder pls.
haha. was talking to feeewiitt today. we've got the same sentiments la. we've been trng like mad and now we're more conscious of wad we're eating. ahhaa. coz we dun want to waste the trng. haahha. so.. yay! i shalll try and stay free from junk food and food that's not productive.


dah! next three days is the TXY camp. but i think i'm only gg tmr 4 trng. coz like thurs.. there's the gathering. then fri, its the LAST OF TSC. ahhaa. so yea.

sorry that i cant commit to txy. i guess u guys already know. HAHAH. but next acad yr should be better!
i'm stepping down as my vcapt. and i'm also stepping down from maincomm of Sports Club.
=> more time for God & sporrrtsss. whoots. (:


tmr's results!




-

hmmm. today's the 11march. it could have been a THREE.
i'm actually still hoping for a response for u k! haha.
i'm actually surprised at how patient and hopeful i can become. hhahha. steady.

trrrnggg

haha. for bowling, coach was angry today. coz during the novice challenge, which the younger boys took part in.. he saw that the bowlers had bad attitude and were missing spares. like they weren't think of making a gd shot but more of scores.. so yea. hahaha.
but i got a 225 today! haha. and he's happy coz i my release's getting bettrrr. (:


those were the times man. i miss my kc bowling trngs. perfect attendance. hahaha.


anyway. after that, i took a bus down to bedok spports com to do my fitness. whooots. coz i'll be late for trng tmr, so to not loose out, i better complete it today. haha. it was like raining and i felt really cold. so i perspire very little compared to the usual. it was dark and scary. seriously. ahhaha. no one but like 2 uncles were there. freaky pls. i think i might wanna go the tamp one next time.
it felt easier and i completed in 40mins! hahaa. i was actually amazed that i wasn't panting like the usual. so i msged coach if i'm suppose to feel that its easier. she said yea..so... GOOD. ahhahahah. heing. i scared i do wrongly sia. dun want to waste time.

haha. the complex closes at 830pm. and the lights went off. supperrr scary. coz by then, i was the only one. i didn't dare to go to the toliet to change my wet t-shirt coz i knew that i'd be super alone or even get locked in.. so i just changed at the grand stand. hahha then nvm. i went to the exit where i came from.. and it was locked. FREAK OUT. hahaha. i was super scared that i'll get locked in. die to the max.

so despite my wobbly legs, i walkked fast to find a human/uncle or someone to ask for the direction or smth. omg. then to my right. i saw an uncle at the other exit. so i assumed that he's the guy that locks up this place. for a moment, i was shocked. then, happy coz at least i know i won't get locked it. but then again, omg.. it means that he saw me changing into my jacket luh. ): but thank God that it was dark.. in a way.


i swear that if i was still with u, i would made u do fitness with me. ahhaa. i think it'lll be like warm up or smth for u. hahhaha.


ok. so yea. it seems to be e monsoon season huh? haha.



oh yea! i saw this advertisement... Pain is temporary, Glory is forever. whooots. i think its v applicable. in trngs, in my Walk. so yup! (:

48hrs

ok. been really tired with all aching muscles.

to make it brief...

ok. purposely woke up early to take a 2hr long journey to Jurong East just to save money. bus 66. haha. got the toilet seat within 15mins. and took the $2+ express bus to tp.

Temasek Sports Challenge.
whole time, my muscles were aching max.
1pm-4pm: preparation. hahah. was working with sam, and i think we almost died in the girls' changing room. hah.
4pm-8pm: the soccer.
8pm-630am: the basketball.
















whooots. basketball was ok la. there's quite abit of hiccups here and there but i think it went well. many room for improvements... but yea, its already what we've could do best within that short period of time. haha. some of the china guys were nice and funny. coz we dun really know the rules of the game, so we kept on emphasizing that it was all in the name of fun. hahahha. so yea.


after the short debreifing and stuff, it was already sunrise! ): sad to see the sun. coz it'd mean that i've got less than an hour to sleep.
i shared cab with fiona and alicia coz we'rea really half dead. and i had the toliet seat to lug around.

i struggled home. ahahhaa.


i came out with a smart plan. coz i need to be awake by 830 to meet the girls for STL. i slept in the hall, having my hp as my alarm clock with me, and the with the room alarm clock on. so when the alarm clock in my room rang, i went to my room to switch it off. i knew that i was gg to continue slpping on my bed. so abt 5mins later, my hp alarm clock rang. i had to stumble back to the hall. by then, i was more or less aware of the fact that i had to go for the game.. hahhha.

but yea, the girls' muscles were aching max too. hahah. it was funnny la. but good. i liked the game la. haha. i must improve fitness!

so yea. dead tired.

STL. my reaction was slow. seriously. haha. all i know that is i defended better than i expected luh. hah. during the 2nd half, i think i was to committed to my man, then something happened, i fell. then the opponent stumbled over me with her boots hitting my head. coz i think she went for a dive or smth like that. was abit funy la. coz i couldn't get my bearings right. my teammates had to help me out. after abt a min, then i finally found my bearings. hahahaa.


after that. was tap.
then dinner with mom and gang.

haha.

so while she't talking to my uncle and stuff.. i fixed the toliet seat! hahaha. whoooots. i think i've got my dad's genes.


she liked it coz it has nice turtles on it. hahhaha. ((:


ok. so that was my 48hr journey.


then sunday. nothing much happend. spent the whole day with mama though. went to IT fair. saw alot of friends. and HAOMING seeling his EPSON PRINTER. ahha. gosh. i was actually amazed at his talent for the glib of a salesman. hahaah. was the BIGGEST IT fair i've been. i finally bought my point and shoot IXUS 950 IS. (kinda regret alittle that i did not get the G5. $899. overly exceeding budget.) but really good deal, $599.
free: 4GB, 2 2GB card, free cp740 printer!, cleaning kit, bag, mini tripod, scrn protector, selphy printing paper, $100 swenson's voucher. the printer itself is at $250. so yea. plus minus here and there, the cam is like costing abt $100? abt there la.


so yea. Serena got the G9! whoooots. lets go point and shoottting one day. its been loong since i've shoot shooot. during TSC, i wasn't in the mood for shooting though. i hope that it was just because of my tiredness la huh. ahhah.


ok. byes. slp.

darwg.

):


went to like giant/ikea/courts (yea.. that area) and found no nice toliet seats. thus, gtg IMM tmr morng b4 SC events starts! ):
jurong east.


i'm super tired.
really exhausted today.

trng was close to killer. its like spamming the leg muscles la. haha.
in another words, quite close to speechless, literally.

): ): ):

i need to be more positive and more mean to myself. got to push harder yow. tsk tsk worhhhxXxXxXXxX.



hahahahhaahhha. i was just reading the blogs. everyone unanimously agreed that the fittness is killer. hahahha. ok. think of jessica alba. think hard and visualise. hahahhahaha. that's our motivation for the day. haha.

timbre.

haha. i think i'm retarded now.


ok. trngs like puii. thanks to the awesomely gd fitness ytd (which is reallly gd,), i couldn't bowl nicely. the shots were all over. i think its because of e stiff muscles. i'm supposed to have a relaxed swing. but its too controlled, my body's leaning forward and all the nonsesne takes place. i bowled a 109 today! hahahaa. been loooong since i've bowled that. the lane's challenging also luh hur. hahaha. excuses. i need to work it harder pls.

seriously. my appendix felt as if i had a tamagochi inside that i had to keep pressing it or smth. hahahha. sore. latic acid build up.

fizah msged that this sat's stl is at 4pm!! ): ): ): ): ): noooooooooooooo.
it supposed to be 1pm! ): ): i am v sad.


bah. so anyways.sc's meeting early in the morng. so ya.
gd to see estee on the way out to sch. missssed her. it felt like i've didin't see her for ages. omg. and i miss 2M02.ahahah.



then. after trng, it was an awesome time with meisy and serena! ahaha. at my first time at timbre! whoots. we drank like 2 jars of beer. 3 persons. how wonderful. so i've probably gulped down like 3 glasses? hahahhaa. can't walk a v straight line. as of blogging now, i'm still abit tipsy yow. the bus jouyney seemed shorter than usual back. hahahha. i had fun with them. haahhahahahahhaha. happy hour promo made us really high on happy hr. hahahha.
loved them. its amazing how a 1wk 'job' could make us this close. so amazing!! (:


hhahahaha.

*photos kopped from meisy's blog. haha.









it reminds me the first time i got drunk high at bowling camp in yr 1. hahahhaa. it was again the major drinking games. haha. i ended up playing the guit to slp. and later on, we're like watching sunrise or smth. haha. then in the morng, go and bowl. and bowl a clean game plus a high 200plus. asri was like.... 'pls get high & drunk b4 polite'. hahha.


but yea. i'm still sane. reason why its not gd to be drunk is because if the Day comes, i really do not want to miss it.
if u're clueless of what i'm talking abt, find out abt Christianity! hahaha. ;P



i just realied that this month have alot of touch events! ISSAC touch U20 girls by SRU (8/3), erm... beach toucch, also by SRU (15/3) NTU Beach touch (22/3)... omgs la. hahaa.all on sat. but i think its gd to be committted to STL, which is on all sats. hahaha. and like, on the 15th, there's NUS Open for bowling. haha. whooots. hope to win something pls. its time.

fitness bah.

hahahaha.
today, i think all of us realised how unfit we were after the loong break. HAHAHA.
we're like dying on the 2nd set la. hahah. the 3rd set was slooow.
marli's pro to the max seriously. when she did the striding thing. omg. super nice. she's like flying.... she looked reallllly light and like.. inspiring la. hahahhaha.

she said something today... "if u guys reallllly reallly cannont, then its ok, cannont. but if u guys can, and say cannoot, then that's a problem". words of wisdom cheh.

i mean like.. yea, we all hear such stuff. btu she says stuff at the right time. and on my 2nd round, her voice is like haunting me la; in a good way. hahaha.


ok. so from next week onwards, i'll be late every tuesday coz of work. like very late. like 2hrs late... 745pm like that. but resassured. i am going to get the stuff to do on tues b4 8pm.. so i'll do on my own on monday after bowling.

i think i'm going to die w/o my teammates running alongside with me. total 0 external motivation pls. i hope mmy ipod will work wonders.
so we're hitting this for a period of time. i think longer than the previous time.


i'm super loooking forward to it. i wanna train my heart muscles. ahha. i sound really sports nerd. but no la. coz i realised that nowadays, when i climb abt 2 flights of stairs.. i pant. and its like.. ): then i start to worry if my lungs got prob or not. but its just my fitness. hahaha. but i like today's trng. its like the little basic details that we never really bother during games. i wanna work super hard this yr. last yr for TPiranhas man.


and, i love my team.
i love my girls. we're like different from everywhere. but i just love the team.
thank God so much for providing with a team and a steady coach.



i am still trying to find a toliet bowl seat for my mum's bday. not tt we need it, but its time to upgrade to a nice nice pictorial one. hahha. with dolphins/turtles and those sea creatures she love. hahahahhahaa.

ooonnnlyy yooou..

omg. that song played in the bowling alley today. was abit freaky. coz this song reminds me of the late donald nah.

bowling was gd. finally after 3months, the feel is slowly getting back. got like a 130 on the 3 frame but there wasn't time to complete the game. ):

i've really loving the ball. hope that the core won't die so soon.
must achieve something by this yr.
final chance.



tmr's rugby! whooots. exciting.

keep prayin.
i think some of my friends and i have concluded that the guy who's currently on the loose is probably dead or smth. haha. trust me. Singapore is small, and i believe in our armed forces, swot, whatever u name it. hhaa.

lib lab

i'm in e sch library now. sc meeting ended. was disappointed coz like, there was only like 4 of us.. some didn't know abt the meeting. i mean like, it was said during the last meeting that there's meeting. so yes.


nvm.

so now, trng starts at 5pm. meeting started at 10am. i'm like,... grrr. i wanted to slpp more luhs. 3 hrs to kill pls. so i think the lib coms will be gd to spend time with.

i wanna do deeeejaaayyyying. really. like seriously. and i'm going to do it. ok, dun worry, it wont be like another of marian's long list of committments. coz i've got more or less enough of conflicting troubles arldy. but it'll just be a one-off thing. and from there, i'll hopefully put my skills to gd use and work while enjoying myself.
so if its ain't working the instruments, it'll be the equippments and still with the music. i really love music.

minority

hmm. i woke up late for church today. not a very proud thing to say. but yea, at least i managed to go. haha.

today was yet another sunday spent at suntec.. career fair and then to cine to really waste time.


well, again. this leaves time for random blog post again. cant shut the com down yet coz i'm still uploading the photos. so yea, go here for last night's photos.


i think i've mentioned this before. the minority could probably have represetned the majority coz its such groups of minoritys that ruins the whole general image. like for guys. i try and choose to believe that guys, in general are nice ppl. but however, eehewws. seriously. its like, stop the whole ego thing and like... look-at-me-i'm-a-man. puii. so much for the ego huhs. and seriously, dont waste time on persuing something that's so superfical and desperate. and ultimately, its the emotional girls that gets hurt while it just probably takes a day or 2 to be emo and then, nothing has happened.

ok. sorry to sound so feministic. but, thank God for my og guys and nice church guys. w/o u ppl, i think i would have stick to my sexist conclusion and be sucha nonsensical blogger who sounds like an irritant..


i'm really trying to move on. and i know God's with me. rockin. i just need to help myself. haha. whoots. i mean no harm. neither am i refering to anyone or any situation. just like, a cumulative summation of my analysis. haha. well yes, 2 sides to a coin. just that the not so nice side is shinning brighter. so lets just assume its the growing stage of a teenager youth yea. but rest assured, i will refrain myself from falling to any moments of made-sweet conservations coz it doesn't work anymore. (:



not really lookin forward to next week for some reason. things to be happy for is trng finally resumes. more trng with TwistedFury and stl. yes. i really pray that the word discipline and responsibility will stick hard with me for this week. so that i can faithfully go to sch and do a final good job for TSC. because of tsc, i cant go night cycling, cant go for the impt NEcamp meeting, and would probably take up alot of my sleeping time.
ok. stop whining. the photos are still loaddingggg.... bahs.

and all u ppl who still owes me photos, PLS SEND/GIVE LINK/ or wadeva. man, its tiring and not justified.

TPiranhas' Awards and Dinner and party nite.

its proabably the night where i meet alot of my friends, the ruggers, and esp my girls. ((:

so its hi, camwhoring again. we're all ggoing to be like upped a level in academic wise. hope it'll be the same, or even better for our skills and fitness wise. haha.



so here's the girls. (: love them. BLACK & GOLD yow. i think other camera should have better photos, with all the ppl being visible.
the other half.
a more arranged one.

the boyfriendss. while the we're carrying out with our stuff... the guys behind looked reallly boybandish.
ok. so, meet my captains.
my camera just refuse to take a decent shot of them.
more of them! (:
my fellow marketing team mate.
feeewittt. haha. my sayang.
the ex kc girls, they're really special to me. its like. whoots. sch mates for like gg on 6yrs and now team mates!

some of my church girls. whoots. should have taken a grp photo la! there were quite alot of them. i hope they enjoyed themselves although there werent much tables and chairs..
some of the ruggers. haha. great to see them! should have taken like a photo of all of them.
and finally, jesse! we realised that we've not met or communicated in ages. haha. and really miss him alot.



didnt manage to take photo with my co-fireman. ):

so it was like, there's the tp,sp,sa, ruggers, and more touch individuals from the schs. sp girls were there too!

it was more like a clubbing thing, and i canoot enjoy myself on the dance floor. let's just stick to my classical yes. haha.
i was actually very afraid my 'guests' wouldn't enjoy themselves coz like the place was small and really limited furnitures. but i'm glad they did have quite a time tgt. (:


hmmm. for some reason, i regret not using my SLR. photos were taken using eveleen's casio cam. i'm still in a dilema if i should get the canon ixus. i guess with my slr, its like, i have an iconic authority to go around as ask ppl if they want their photos to be taken. at the same it, its so much easier for grp shots .. in a way la. but the bad thing abt taking photos is just delivering them. all i can do for now is to just upload it to the com and spread the link around. its the most efficient and effective way.


i did enjoy myself. not the dancefloor. but the people on it. i think i was being pulled in like more than 10times from the vvarious crowds. haha. imagine if like the hiphoppers display their talents. haha. tio owned ar!.


oh well. thank God for today, that it went pretty well. (:

take a leap yow.

hi. today's day was probably long. but i had a gddd time at kc.
i bought the new pe shirt. coz its nice and cooling.
they have a freaking new GRAND piano at the foyer.
all the black boards have changed to white boards despite having to disagree with them during our time. and really, sometimes i just wish that the batches after us would not be so spoon fed and so no inititative.

so elizabeth is like... ms tan. AHAHHA. a relief tchr. super fun la. and like sam, her, ms soo and i just spent gd times talking all kinds of nonsense. i enjoyed myself. its been long since i've talked like that. 4yrs of classmates and now, like 6yrs as friends... even mrs ng had to comment that we seem to know each other so darn well.. coz we're talking about sara parn and her kc blood-sisters, and we the 3 of us seem to know sara's eveerything. haha.


so yes.


its the NE camps. i think we wanted to agree that we should not be helping them so much coz we're meant to be advisors. but when time is not on our side, when students are so busy, and when students do not take initiatives, its hard to just, stand at one corner. so yea.

and then, TSC.
super rushed event again. thanks to like millions of alterations to the propsals and stuff. but its our last event from tp Sports Club, so we'd better do a good job. really. sometimes, the difference between poly and jc students can be quite obvious. things just get done slower from the poly side. not that we're slow. its either the common digression, or simply, we think too much stuff that are not really really useful.

thats why, planning the NE camp with sam, ms soo and supposedly the students motivates, and reminds me of what i am capable of. ahh. bhb.


love cell today.
i love spiritual discussions. i miss the times having to debate over adam and eve, judas and stuff like that with danielw and jere, and having neale to save the whole discussion. hahhaah.
sometimes i just wish that we can be more naturally pro-active and just pop questions abt the bible... like light-heartedly kind of fun. sometimes i do feel guilty not gg to church on sats. i can sense the heavy hearts of the leaders, who are praying hard for the ministry. but i guess, i do have my personal grounds and probably the so called values...and i should not let Man discourage or just waven my beliefs.
going to church doesn't prove anything about your relationship with God. well, in SOME sense la. perspective yea. so i just hope pray that God will continue to guide us humans, and we continue to pray for encouragements for ourselves and our peers. so that we will not let man's horrible hearts shake us.

sometimes, probably its just me, i cant trust anyone any more. numbing to that could sometimes prove good. and ultimately, what i've also learnt during the mission trips is to really really let God take all the control. meaning, u do not get at all, upset when things do not happen to 'go in ur way'. u learn to just, take it up and let it go. and u learn. that's important. and i just hope the people around me, especially my friends, can just learn that.

at this point, what matters to me most is how God sees me- as His child. u know like our God is like, super merciful, faithful, loving and gracious. so to like sin against Him, is like, super hurhs can.i dont really care how ppl see me alrdy. probably i do to a small extent, but not enough to bother me. so no matter what i do, what actions i take, as long as its pleasing in God's sight and a walking testimony for the ppl around me, i think its just alright already.

but yea. pray that i can be stronger in His hands. i dun want to feel unnecessaily sad/emo over stuff that's not worth it, or really just too sensitive abt everything. haha.



so tmr's STL is cancelled AGAIN. boohoo. looking forward pls. i miss the girls alot.
here's some old photos that i was clicking though..





look at dee la. haha. duno wad she's doing man. hahha. last time, after trngs, we would usually go to the boot scrub place to wash our stuff. and like, our bag area would be downstairs. super spacious to do anything. haha. so much fun la. i miss the grass although the rubber's comfortable. probably too comfortable.







haha. for some reason, i love this shot, although it's artistically blurr. ahha.

the art.

haha. watched american idol. haha.
i think David Archuleta sucha charming singer la. hahaha. humble like mad. i think he'll go far. Danny Noriega is hilarious la. hahaha. he's cool.. Kristy Lee Cook is hot la. haha. i think she's like sweet and all. mum agrees that she's like Barbie doll.

ok. i think estee and i totally dislike the life we're like living on right now. haha. today was like. stay-at-home-and-rot-day. haha. not that i did not have anything to do. but i was just... plain LAZY. puii. could have gone running and stuff but i personally come out with so many excuses. haha.

ok. so i've officially wasted this very day.
):

i really could help by packing my room or smth. but NO. i had to lie in bed, or like laze around in the hall. HAHAH.
sorry to have disturb anyone who's super busy and caught up with life and like reading this now. well, i had my time. hahhhaha.
and its coming soon.


the big worry now on my head is dancetrngandrugby, and missiontripanddance.
so yes. keep praying.


ok la. to save today, i finished doing the photoframes this morng, after recieving a sms from bernice. haha.



it was good. coz when i was younger, i really loved art. i would actually bother to take out all my paints and stuff, just to paint all day. i loved the sciences as well, coz i felt that it was the most relevant subjects to study and i really enjoyed learning facts. but i guess MOE made the whole learning science thing too rigid.

sometimes, i believe that persuing the Arts is like my passion kinda thing.
like with the guitars, photography, music and dance, i really learn fast. its like, i can really express myself through them, and really know how to enjoy.
but i guess i dont believe in myself THAT much to actually go and seriously persue it.
or maybe, i'm just afraid that when it becomes like a working thing, it'll kill all the passion and eagerness to just want to do it.


i guess in Singapore, i'm quite sure that i'm not the only one struggling with making the right decisions. ppl always say 'to follow ur heart'. but reallly, in Singapore, external influences, both gd and bad, would probably make the 70% of ur choice.

its like for example, i could have gone to NAPFA or like Laselle to like persue photog, music and all.. but like business in tp is a more practical choice.
so maybe, resorting to like CMM is like a mix of both.
hahha
but all in all. i do know that i'm still wanting to save lifes, very much wanting to be a doctor.. AHAHA. eh. come to think of it, a person who would is probably somewhat like me is Peter Moey, the doctor and the super musician. and i really mean super. haha. i guess thats why we more or less can talk to each other well.


we'll see. will ensure the i'm on the right track with God's hands yea. dun wanna go wrong and regret all over again.


haha. mean while, i think i should finish up my mission reflections. AHHHAAHHA. must save the day again. ahhah.

WHOOTS. HI 29TH FEBRUARY. its like ehwws la. tmr whole day is abt meetings after meeings. 10am, SC meeing. 230pm, the NE Camp meeting, then at night, cell. thank God for cell group. what a nice way to spend such a day like that hur.

Twisted Fury

took 3 buses, carrying a cardboard box with a 14pound bowling ball. from mt faber to safra tamp. not easy. haha.


so yea. i think i kinda told him that my ball speed is slow... i feel that is fast for me la. hahha. but comparing to like guys and all, its slow. so yea, slow. so he drilled a longer ball... i tried it during trng today.. nice breaking angle. but not solid. as it like.. doesn't hit all the pit like hard coz i think the ball is abit too long. but i like the way the ball reacts. now the bowler has to improve herself, and get more rev, then the ball will really work.

its a good ball.

so in conclusion, i pronounce my Scorchin' dead. its too light, the span isn't right already, and it's just flat out. so yea.

haha. (: hope it gets better.

eight$

went for that interview today. would probably only get the job like mid march. ): by then, sch should be like.. on the way to starting.

had sc meeting. after that, ballet.
then went to get my knee guard and stuff.


yea. i bought like 3 nice presentable tops, (not lubsup t-shirts) at eight dollars. they're having a sale kinda thing. so its quite cheap.

yea.

ok. random. i still want to watch jumper although hearing bad comments!. haha.

twisted..

trng today was.. gd.
haha. way quite tiring with 3 of us on a pair of lanes today. haha. gerald used his new twisted fury today. got so inspiried to get it. ahha. i need a new ball. coz my core's dead and not reactive anymore. ahhaha. whoots.
i think twisted fury reminds me of my old SlayR. love that ball. i'm gonna up my weight to 14 lbs also. ahah. we'll seee abt the spare ball.

saw the weather forecast.. 'thunderstorm' till wed. (coz the info's only till wed).

been busy with very miscellaneous stuff. havent really pack my room nor my closet yet.

been alitle unsettled. i also duno why. it feels that smth like bad's gonna happen. or like smth serious not properly solved/dealth with.
whoots.


probably abit scared that i might loose the eye for photography. coz w/o a pns, i still feel very uncomfortable and not 'complete'. whaha. i'm eyeing the canon 860is. but i'm more confident with casio's noise. maybe coz my dead casio is a semi-prosumer. so the noise is beeter than a canon entry pns. haha. o well.. we'll see how it goes....


went shopping with mama on sunday. went imm to see sofa again. stopped by bodyshop.. and i think i was quite amazed by the makeup stuff. i guess makeup are pretty interesting.. but like.. lazy to make up and stuff ar. ahahha. once start, sure hard to maintain. whahah. somemore during the day, it'll like get worse, and have to touch up. sure sianz one.

cant wait for this yr's rectial though. but i'm quite sure that rugby would probably clash with the trngs.

"All in, STB estimates it could be hundreds of millions of dollar worth of publicity over the next two and a half years.

More than enough to outweigh the US$75 million cost of staging the Games."


ok. that's scary.- from ChannelNewsAsia.

abit worried that Sg is growing so fast, although investors kp saying not to worry.! everything seems to be going on too well. hope that we all can cope with the inflation and stuff like that. cheers for the government. may God grant them wisom to lead this country well please.


had the Soccer BBQ today in church. saw cindy in church today! pleasant surprise. haha.gary's friend. haha.


ok. so tmr's the bowling tournament for.. urm.. the GRC. ahha. i hope i wont pull the team down coz i'm not on form. haha. still under going some changes in my timing and all. ):


all in all, i pray that God is guiding me. something's still not really nicely right. heard that this yr's recital gonna be 4-6dec! )): mission is like from 1-14dec. i dun want to go like 2nd half only. ): PRAY. Pray that the recital, for some reason, will like push back all the way to like 1-2 or smth like that. PLEAAASEEEEE.

Black and Gold' Party

interested parties, PLEASE contact me!
as in really.... PLEAASEEEE. ahhaha.

its a Saturday Night kinda thing. !

Singapore to host Youth Olympics in 2010

-Photo from IOC web.

whoooots.
well done singapore!
i was like listening to my phone radio so closely la. haha. i felt reallllly happy.

really moving up. (:
the IMF, the now this. plus, the Formula One, and the IR...
i'm really happy coz i know that the Sports development in Singapore is gonna take on a major role. if i'm only was much younger to embrace it all. haha. $75m has been budgeted for this event la. thanks gd goverance! (:
loooking forward

today, after a gd swim with joelle, went to safra to get my bowling stuff.
on the way to the bus stop, andy drove by. hahaha. surprised to see this old senior of mine. he sent me home coz he had time! ahaha. thank God really. coz with the bowling balls, its like alittle irritating to up and down buses. ahha.

after that, i had went to IKEA with mama and sis to see sofa and get a big box. haha.





i think if dad was to shop with us, he'd be happy to be in IKEA.

ok. after much thought. i think Canon 860IS would be smth i'd like to get. $$$$$$$ marns.
alittle tired. shall go sleep.