POL-ITE 2006

we got:
- Girls overall champion
- singles 1st- she-na
- singles 2nd- angeline
- doubles 1st- she-na and angeline
- team 1st
- Boys team 3rd

bowling constantly (with 45mins break at 12.30pm)from 850am till 5pm. 8 straight hours of bowling.
image the coaches being there for us for 8 hrs. 4 teams.


there's alot to say. lets start proper.

lane assignment. was telling my team "haha. later suay suay bowl corner lane.. whateever it is right, hope we dun keena beside SP boys team 1 coz they're strong."
ok. so 1st half, qian qian, lane 24 (corner lane) and 23 is sp t1.

fun sia.

then nvm. i was like.. ok.. still got nxt half.. should be changing lanes.. where got so suay kennna twice corner lane. then.. THANKS AR. bowled corner again.

ok.

this morning i woke up with a line given by God, literally. 10-9. like dreams kinda thing. well. today, most of the time i was bowling a 9-10 , 10-10 area.

OK. i have to complain. i dun really like bowling corner lanes during tournament when the oiling pattern becomes crucial. the lane was freakin patchy. bowl 10-10, can actually skid to the right can. then play abit og angle 9-10, cross pocket, pin7.
sp guys eat lanes fast.. they play inside line.. so it dries and changes fast.

the first few shots of the day was done with a nervous heart. i woulldn't say 'pounding' but like throbbing hardly. could feel it. at pol-ite level, there's ppl with much higher standards compared to nationals.. haha. oh yes. and again, in my batch of bowlers there are the technically more zai/pro/monster bowlers. so those who usually win will win and its like rotational kinda thing. haha. foever competing with them. like.. grrrr. gotta step up- fast.


one thing to be proud of is that i spared 96% of my pin 7 and 98% of my pin 10. that's smth i can be proud of. other than that, no.
i didn't bowl well.
expected it i guesss. but i didn't expect it to be so badly. like. 137.9 avg today. of 8 games. grrr. if i'd bowl as well as i did in collegiate, i'll probably get smth seriously. firstly, the changes made to my thumbhole requires a change of my timing. so today, khairul helped me alot in the alignment... but the timing, abit too risky to change. so was wrong whole time. i really wanted to win doubles with asto. coz its her last year and its my first yr and seriously la, this is the chance.

overall, i've let myself down. coz i didn't push myself hard enough to push the team - me, asto, nadia, lynette. i tried and got mentally zonked. asto could feel it too. there was a pt in time that i feel like... man. what is bowling? like how sia? i let coach, tp, saa down. maybe not down lar. but like, not proud. haha. more imptly, i dun think God feels that i gave my best shots for Him.
honestly, i hardly spared (besides 7 & 10) strike percentages were also really low. those strike ones are like, drop ball. erks.


gd for the t1 girls who clinched the abv mentioned medals. esp to she-na and angeline who got all events medals.

sorry to say, but i was a little shocked at the guys. overall was 3rd. when i heard NP's name, i got shocked and got really sad la. coz in my heart, i knew tp boys could win. i guesss wad coach said was right, the other bowlers have stepped up, it is only right for us to step up further if we want to win. haha. he says that for next yr, we must get back both the girls and guys champion trophy. if not like.. not complete

i learnt hard lessons again. also from uncle sam who was there to support us.


the hunger to win next yr's polite is higher, or even the future tournaments. there's too much failure in tournaments already.

duno why. probablty i know? like.. after bowling.. very sianz. not bored.. but like.. wah piang- those kind of feelings. somemore raining. emo. hahahhaa.
went simpang for dinner then when alvin's house...

eveyone's shagged. 8-5pm lehs. but i want to thank all supporter who came down to support. 8 hrs looking at ppl bowl and not bowling is no fun at all. and esp coach, who is constantly on his feet, together with khairul and nicholas.


there are things that still gotta be done. SC. if i'd ask for a break, they sure won't give me. grr. nvm. pia man.


can't wait for worship nite. also of fine tuning needs to be done. recital is also coming up. bless my soul.

last trng b4

the day.

i added a total of 3 black tapes and 1 white tape.

shots are pretty much better but i'm still working on it. at least i hit at 152, 4 strikes, 1 spare and the rest opened

i dun really have much of a choice now, but to really bowl darn well.

visually, my ball seems faster, and break pt is longer down the lane. i really duno if i can still bowl a 10-10 at yishun.

my knee literaly jerked 5 times in total today. its the right knee. coz of my left knee, i think i've been unconciously put my weight on my right. so it becomes really painful now. when sitting down, i cannot straigten my leg. and this is bad.

after a few shots today, my right knee jerked after placing a gd shot. scared sia. its like without warning and suddenly.

i really hope that there's nothing wrong, slthough the left seems to be getting better but the right is getting worser.

lastly, dun think i'll be blogging tmr.worship prac is at 7pm tmr. i think will probably end at 10 plus. and wil be home around 11 plus 12. and on sat.... IT IS IT. hoho. gotta be at yishun by 8am.. probably be at asto's house at 7 or earlier to provide free morning wake up call for the hdb with her piano. ahhaha. jk.


anyays.

thank God for wilson today. had a chat with him abt sc matters.he understands my situation now. and i guess that's all i need from sc. haha. he ask me if i could run for the Pass It On in TP... 1.5k sprint. hahaa. dun think i can make it... as in i'm afraid my knees will give way. OKOK . I PROMISE to got back to the horrible CGH to get my knees checked again. haiz.

randomly, i just wished that i have a full family. like jill's. i wouldn't say i'm jealous seeing like a happy family kinda thing. but i'm thankful still, coz there are ppl out there who can b very desperate parental love literally.
anyways. NEXT. haha.


pls pray for me. for strength, concentration and agression on the lanes. btw. our dear team 1 boys burn-ed and got a 893 series... yea. haha. and of couse, back on me again, healing and protection over my knee. i hope to like 'burn' ahhaa. maybe just set up a small flame la. hahaha. ok lame.

btw. today i overslept and missed marketing lecture by mr. gary. ): sad ok. i called mr. gary b4 to ask for advice abt the marketing dip. i wanna see who's he actually. haha. haiz. intensive trng can be tiring i guess.



bye for now. the management wishes u good game and high scores. (:

lessons learnt

today. i've seen the other side of ppl. sadly, my classmates. i dun want to rant anything abt it here coz i feell that its case sensitive. but nevertheless, i've learnt that poly is really a place to grow up and face the working world.

i've also come to acknowledge that one can never have low self-esteem. with that, its gd enough to kill u and make u a less compenent fighter if u want to excel.

in addition, loyaltly. as much as i wanted to join this grp who asked me to join them much later, i had to be loyal to my agreement. never will i back out b4 completing the necessary task unless situations call of it.

also. by 14th nov, i have to make a decision to persue Dip in Lom, Biz or Marktg. mostly probably Marktg. i seeked the acad advisor today. and last mon. both said to go ahead with interest. sounds DUH. but when it comes to situation like such, it can be tough to go ahead with ur 'interest' so as to say. while talking to her abt my selection and stuff, this lecturer from CMM walked passed n joined in the conversation after hearing that i wanted to do CMM badly coz of all the photo, video and mainly media stuff.

after quite a long chat. i've decided, for now, to go ahead with my original Marktg, and further my studies in the U on media and stuff like that.
i'll probably seek mrs teo. my mose beloved eng tchr in my entire life for advices.

after sch, watched alittle of NP and RP match b4 heading for bowling. didn't realise that jon leow coaches np until i saw him on the field. nvm bout that.



today is wednesday.

which also means my 2nd last trng b4 sat.

i didn't enjoy it. i didn't even feel that i was bowling. i was literally throwing shots down the lanes, the dry dry lanes. sinfully carrying the heavy ball, rather than utilize it.
coach could tell that i was frustrated and angry. i promised that i will not be emo ever again, unless really, i have to be. haha. successfuly, (or not) i was resorting to anger and judgement on my porr equip.

after trng, coach spoke to me in private. one of the things he said was that "you don't deserve this. i've seen u bowl much better". oh man. i was encouraged la. i've been struggling ever since one fateful trng when some changes over took me, till now- its been bad. to add on and emphasize how horrible my bowiling is now, i bowling a score of 98. yes. i mean like, if i used house ball or smth, 'm sure to bowl better than that or smth.

trng as also did a little simulation. haha. whereby when we bowl and setting up our routine, we'll have ppl distracting, saying stuff to distract the bowler from performing.quite funny though.


today, no, for the past 2 months, i'm really disappointed in myself. no, not the low self-esteem thing, but the hunger. the hunger to want to bowl well to excel and do tp proud. the fighting spirit is getting tired. my routine is all messed up and i feel just not-right on the start-up, what more, down the lanes?


nvm about that. sat is it. we'll see. coach is really really anticipating sat's game. he has warned us to buy finger inserts incase anything happens on that day, and even to the extent of asking us to get extra shoe laces in case our shoe laces snap or smth like that. haha. how merticulous can unc lawrence get la. he's really like a caring bowling-dad.


i've been, as u can see, busy. busy with trngs.
thus, explains my infreq blogging as compared to the usual.
i've been practising my guit. still got like 10 more songs to figure out.

prac's on fri. 7pm. will probably end around 10 11pm. i hope that i have enough sleep for sat man.


among all this, i wanna thank God for charissa. she was doing Campus-E today and reminded me of a faithful servant. i have been unfaithful honestly as my percentage of submitting to tiredness has incresase drastically over these few wks.
haha. Ah Beng Christian Doing Evangalism For God. in short, ABCDEFG. hahaha. quite cool ar.



lastly, should i?



Hi Marian,

I am John XXXX XXX XXXXX, (LPSS). Member of PSS.

I have written to the Singapore Sports Council to request permission to take photos in the National stadium. The person in charge Mr Paul Loh (Executive for Group Communications) said that the National Stadium is our heritage, is a symbol of sports since 1973 and now making way for a better and modern one. He wants someone like you to help him to organize a photos competition next year to give all Singaporean a charge to capture the mood and character of the National Stadium before it disappear. They are welcome you and your society to be part of this project. In another words they need your help to organize the competition.


The contact of Mr Paul Loh is shown below:

Executive (Group Comms)
Commuications & Knowledge
Singapore Sports Council
DID: XXXXXXXX



Best regards,
XXXXXXXX John
Tel: XXXXXXXX
Email:XXXXXXX@nus.edu.sg
HP: XXXXXXXX




oks. firstly, i'm not sure if this is within my humanly power.. and it's quite vague. like who do i approach for all the necessary logistics and manpower and stuff like that. it should be done asap right? hurhur. i'm very excitied. but abit excitied. time constraint? but big opportunity once again. but there's many professionals out there and stuff like that, and i feel really inferior. ANDASS. WRU?? ASAP PLS. then i'll call to have a gd chat, first.


tims like such. i really wish that i have a SLR all to myself.
my want for an SLR has become a need. oh man. melvin should pass me some of his 'LB' luck. ahha. speaking of which, i feel that its been eons since i've seen meisy, kenneth, leying and many many more photogs whom have helped me so much.




pls do pray for me. i'm really worried for my IP and my knee. i hope that nothing happens.

Worship Night 2006

Team Temasek

its the season of IP.

so far, as of today, what i've heard,

TP has cliched champion in netball, volleyball (girls & boys)...
and more to come.

now is in the midst of IP for contact rugby.
soon to come, touch rugby and BOWLING.

the volleyball guys did great. was intensed.

i really wanna do well on sat. i dun want to go yishun just to bowl. i want to bring back something for tp and make ppl and God proud.

i hurt my back today. was so pain that i could get up. was sitting there in pain could cry out for help coz it was so pain. haha. then it was so pain that i cried. haha. 1st time sia.

ok. dates are drawing near. and i'm looking forward to them. but, as well as hoping that there's more time. hurhur. and even more xiong is that acacd syllabus seems to get tougher. probably the expectations?

nah. i'll give do my best and give my all. i know who's watching over me. :p

as usual. trng. i still cannot get back my release. i hate the way i'm bowling now. its just so not consistant and look as if i've just learnt bowlign like that.


ok.

i've got the team temasek jacket today! and yea, the sch's team temasek shirt. (: ahhaha. (: FOC. :p its meant to be. i know this. to promote institutional pride

Sports club Synenergy camp today and tmr.
i have trng. and tmr, after trng, gotta go sembawang to celebrate baby's 1st birthday.

do i need to explain myself which i've already did?

i need an understanding committee. at the rate we're gg abt, i'm goona break. and not just me. and the sad thing is that the 'breakage' is not caused by physical stress activites, but people's frustrations. so i have to move out of that area. that 'stressed' area.

nvm. tmr's trng at yishun. oks. so now, trainings to them has become excuses. can't go for the sevens game or wadeva. NVM. ): and yes. i still have to emphasize, trainings has now become excuses. how sad hur. when IP is next sat.


honestly, i really wished poly students are more open minded and quit being political and petty. haha. i've been doing alot of (official) calling lately for 2 sepearate grps. 1st, was the nyaa photogs, ahhaa. and 2nd, poly students (in general). haha. i noticed that poly students have really a bad command of the English Language. i'm not trying to say i speak well/ articulate well or wadeva, but the differences are really striking. and appalling. (as how mrs boey would putit- "so unbecoming!")

i have ppl saying "meeting where held ar?". or. "when are we going to have a meeting?" directly lifted, btw. then the poor articulation of my reciever had to repeat his/herself coz i couldn't decipher what he or she is saying.

i'm not putting anyone down or anything. probably all poly students should go for Language Arts Programme, inc. myself. Since polys in sg are to 'groom us for the future working world', shouldn't we at least start now? rather than putting Singapore's name at stake.

Singlish, to me, its fine. it makes us unique singaporeans. but at the same time, articulation is needed to let urself be understood.

ok. i'm not promoting any speak gd eng campaign. its just my 2 cents worth and i hope to do smth abt this in the near coming future.

 
my mama's bro's daughter's daughter. 

i felt so much better on the field today.

for fitness.i wanted the running one but we did hills instead.

i could actually trip over myself and fall hard, flat.

nevertheless.
i feel that we can bring smth back for U17. and aiysa has so much faith in our improvement.

anyways. to cut long short.

i've decided to dah dah dah, dah dah, and dah.
(: back on track again. and i know that God will be with be ever. HARS.

thank u. i'm back. alive and kickin'

marian-ed

"If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things, God may be praised through Jesus Christ" 1 peter 4:11.

such a timely verse. thank u girl. u know who u are. (i hope to be there man. and talke laots of photos.)


i tried doing accounting. must work harder.

ok. at the IT fair, i bought a $15 24-in-one wired-in card reader, and a CF 2GB highspeed card (kingston) at $69.90. yes. kill me. wanted to help evil twin get, but not enough cash. he bought his 1gb at $50 few wks ago. haiz. this means that my savings has now reduced by 30%, increasing the time frame of me getting my SLR. haiz.


boys had rugby today. againts NP. saw nigel.
pax was already playing for tp.

anyways. i shot the rugby match using one of the rugger's cam.. helped them take pics.. its a nikon D70s, Sigma 18-50 lens. puii. how close i needed to get man. i'm gg for canon. HAH. finally i've chosen the 'brand' i'm aiming for. cheaper aanyways. and can kope lens from evil twin. hahha.
pax's shorts tore today. took a shot of that. got a nc16 shot.. and a few gd shots. i used my pns though. though its still not focusin as well as it should be, its fine.



freak out. its Nov.1st. NOV. pls.
2 more months and its 2007.


IP is next sat and its getting freakier and freakier coz i'm still not very much prepared. today, bowling again.

i went to the alley. excitied to train,again. when i got 'booted' up and everything, waiting for the pin lines to come on, i had a moment to pause and think. i look at the lanes. the pins.

my passsion for bowling, this yr has taken onto a whole new perspective. i duno how to put it. but smth's just different. neither neg or positive way. just diffferent.

on the field and on the lanes its a different story. a different inside. not just a different game/sport or wadeva u call it. but a different me.


ok today.
one of my team mate is unable to come for trng due to a committee meeting. i'm in sc committee. main com. and i give up the meetings for trng coz i feel that bowling is my area to shine for TP. at the same time, it disappointed my comm members.
thus, i got alittle frustrated with her for a moment for putting comm mtng above trng esp when IP is one wk away.
so i reflected. through her, it gave me another deeper perspective of my sc comm members that i've been disappointing. it gave me a greater understanding of my sc comm.

and as for my sc comm. there's little transparency, understading and more imptly, trust. i dun wish to say anymore here. its not goona reflect well on the gd name of TP Sports Club.


i feeeel like running to an island with my bible, guitar and pen and not come back.
i feeeel like jumping off a cliff with a safety net below me.
i feeeel like sprinting like the wind with ppl chasing abfter me with a rugby ball in my hand.
i feeeel like shouting at the top of the mountain so that eagles may fly right infront of me.
i feeel like bursting willy foo's camera at high speed till the CF card is fulla dn batt is hot.
i feeeel like take my bowling ball. the plastic one, and throw it into the ocean.
i feeeel like being with u. walking with you, in our place hearing each other's heart.
i feeeel like reciting the whole Bible to ppl all around me with nothign in my hands.
i just wamma bowl well iln the IP and get that medal and shine for tp and God with me.



i just wanna feel marian again. someone that people can turn to. someone that ppl can feel encouraged by. someone whom can inspire.

got it from YH! thanksman. HAHA. ctrl + [printscreensyssr] then ctrl + v







my ex-p700 has fungus on its lens. and photos out dun seem to be focused. and shuttter is really slow. and i'm on auto mode.

ok.



my official gg home time for the week is 11pm.
official diinner time is 11.15pm.

my breaks in sch are like. admin time for me. even i wanna go do big business in the toilet gotta make it fast.


after sch, went to augustine's house to seek help for the guitar. i'm resorting to just whacking on the scales. the cds are tooo chim already. and like for mighty to save. needs at least 3 delay pedals. hoho.

nvm. i'm still trying hard.


msn trng was medical trng today. quite fun.

ytd durign trng, ball hit ankle. now it still hurrts big time and its swelling. yes. at this crucial point in time huh.



strong. independant



sincere believing hearts shows to fade away.

the web site.
recording breaking time of 5hrs! hahaha.




http://ascensiontny.blogspot.com/





anyone know how to do screen shot? like using the keyboard to take a snap shot of the com. glen liang! u know right. haha.

samaritian

the word sounds so nice on such a day.


as usual. i bought my milo. ahha. from a distance, as i walked, i saw the uncle taking the cup, all ready to make milo for me. haha. so once i place my coin on the table, i have gd milo to drink to start the day off.

anyway.

happily, i was drinking my milo peng.

then 69 came. ppl boarded the bus as they move along the queue. then all of a sudden, this teenager fell. not like fall down.. but fainted. ok.. not passed out, but collasped. she's still conscious, but on the ground, trying to get hold of herself.

wad shocked me totally is that STUDENTS FROM TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC just walked passed. w/o even looking or hesitating to help, what more give her a hand.
wa piang. i was really frustrated. coz the girl was just on the floor. and like 7-8 ppl passed her and no one picked her up.

i was moving along witht he queue and i can't want for 'my turn' to go to her spot and at least give her a hand or smth la. then finally, i was approaching her, as i was going to pick her up, she pulled herself up using the handrails... and walked unsteadily up the bus.

thank God there was a seat for her. she was pale.

and i'm still in shocked, appalled and terrible diasppointed with TP students. to add on, she's from TP. wah piang. i feel like splashing water at all of them can. i'm not trying to say that i'm gd or wad. but hello.

haha. my bag had this 'RESCUE' tag. ahahha. how ironic. i also had an intention to save the day today..

ok.

today had 3 hrs break. econs lecture sent all question marks flying around. biz stats is supposedly ez but they made it look complex.
went to TM. gd to see ALEXI! and ELIZ SEAH! haha.

then.. was 6pm.
went to sports complex to watch SP and RP play. of course i was for SP. so so so gd to see TIM, VIC, ASH, CLARISSA, WILSON, RYAN, PAX, PORKY, GERALD and more familiar faces of the rugby circle. felt so so gd to see them esp fire man. oh yes. evil twin is there. with f1.4 300mm lens. kill and then rob him pls. he sold his 70-200 to get that! AHHH. its really really really really nice and fast and like. WHOA.

anyways. SP won, expectedly. RP had this drop kick try which sent everyone clapping, even SP. but SP made rugby look effortless.. haha.

anwyays. there was touch trng today. i couldn't go. ): so headed for katong for my bowling.. bowling. oh boy.

started out with a drop ball. worked on it and got 6 strikes in a row. and was literally clearing my game. was gd. but then, once we started playing with scores.....
the horrible habits kick in. everything was WRONG again. ): i told myself to get a grip and heck abt the scores. i did. but it didn't work out.
in the end, i learnt that i haven't been trusting my ball, my shot and myself. too tension. tried too hard and then, loose the whole big focus of it.
the lofting the dropping. the gripping, the muscleling. follow through half way..


sheesh.

and i dun have the luxury of time.

ahhhhhhh. thurs i feel like gg to train myself. but there rugby and i dun want to miss. coz there's also a tournament. we'll see. i'l make sure i do TP, my team proud. and make God smile with the best of efforts that i'm goona put it.


my team really wants it badly. so so badly. we just wannt prove ourselves. of our potential. and i'm sure we can do it if we really want to and know how to.

affiramation

reminded 3 times by God.

1) during fri's bowling trng, uncle lawerance shared smth abt giving confidence. "some time u know it, but u just need confirmation"
2) Dennis (youth pastor) reminding the teens and youth ministry to affirm, encourage and build one another up ytd.
3) sermon. hightlighting the impt of affirmation.

wheee.

then i thought of sara's church. SOMEHOW. i really duno how's she gg abt in her church. so i msged her during sermon. i duno. just felt the prompt.



there's currently quite a no. of things on my mind now.
not in any order i guess.

- IP Bowling. oh my. (11.11.06)
- Dance Arts Recital and many combined pracs(2.12.06)
- Sports Club camp & recuitment ( 3,4.11.06)
- Worship Nite (18.11.06)
- Mission trip (03.12.06 onwards)
- Oasis Touch (25,26.11.06)
- photos for BBQ to be on web soon.
- SLR!!!! OH MAN. $$$$$$
- tutorials..
- pedal adapter
- 2 persons' printed photograph is missing.

and many more misc. stuff.

wheee. and the thing is, amazing, i'm not stressed nor burden sia! must be God's strength and help sia. rocks hur.
i guess i'm like achievement orientated or smth la. i just need all these to motivate myself. but with that, i know the line lar. its big and bold, yet faint and water-marked.


but, nevertheless, i'm worried for bowling IP. abt performing well. or just simply do my thing which i can't -for now (i hope).

abt my recital. because of NTL, i have to try catch up. and i'm gona miss 2 out of 3 combined pracs due to the upcoming eventssss... and i'm really worried for this. coz i dun like to be embarrassed. so i better make sure of my steps and all.

worship nite is the challenging one. gotta ask augustine for help. i gotta get hold of daniel lim for the electric guit stuff man. haha. but i think he's like MIA. haha. coz i really want to be a loud instrument for God and not disappoint Him.


haha. amongst all these. $$$ for an SLR and I PRAY for and IPOD. ahhaha. my plan is to invest in slr first then IPOD i think. so that with my SLR, i hope to win $$ and get ipod. HAHHA.



time is like flying. i got home at 5pm today. and i took a loong relaxing hp-gaming break for the week till 6pm. then tried to finish my tutorials but couldn't.. so ate dinner and hoooked up with the com now.
this is bad. haha
my tutorials are undone!! and trm SP rugggers are playing, in TP that is. haha. i hope to see ash vic ryan tim wilson and gang man. its beeeen LOOOOOOOOONG. and i can't find smth that i owe them. haha.
yes. and evil twin will be there. hahaha. not to play to shoot. ):

haha. I'M EYEING ON A 70-200 (if u're reading this, chris) haha. i needa borrow to take sports shots in particular, rugby.


btw. "to clear in 2 shots. make that 1."- my pre msn nick.
interesting how ppl think that its either bowling or photography.
at first, its bowling. a frame. objective is to hit 10pins down in 2 shots. if not, one. then i realise. photo. to clear (make do) with 2 shots? but usually its the one 1 shot that captures the moment. hahha. i just love my 'tagline': No other passion brings you to this level of exposure. applies to both bowling and photogprahy. photography is more fun coz its like word pun(for those who knows photography)...
in times of tiredness. sometimes, its the passion that pushes u to burn huh.



lastly, smth random. just out of curiosity. am i influencial? i get the erks with ppl starts 'following' every steps i take (if u'd understand). haha. not bhb lar ok. coz sometimes, it really gets too WADDD already la.

but.


i just want to thank God for this wk. He's been listening to someone who's not been listening disciplined-ly. me that is. amazing how He anwers our prays and proves to be a God of humour as well huh.

Time is still flying. and its accelerating now. really. its realy scary. before i know it. i'm very sure that i'll be siting for a paper already.
oh man. and the up coming projects plus assignments to come. *slaps head.

i surrender them to God. coz i know He'll carry His children. esp those in need. in need of hope. comfort and love.

briefly...

Training schedule from now till competition
Pocket bowl - 8.00 PM
25.10.06 Wed
27.10.06 Fri
30.10.06 Mon
01.11.06 Wed
03.11.06 Fri

Yishun Safra - 10.00 am
04.11.06 Sat

Pocket bowl - 8.00 PM
06.11.06 Mon
07.11.06 Tue
08.11.06 Wed
09.11.06 Thu

11.11.06 Sat - 0800 am
POL-ITE bowling championships 2006


Thank you and
God bless
Lawrence


btw. i changed psycho tut class from t30 to t33 so its earlier..

and.. bowling is as the same. bad. and horrible. 118. sometimes i just feel like running away to an isolated alley and train all by myself. 4 bowlers one lane. 2 hours. probably 20 frames? 40-50 shots?

no way. i must think of smth.


something to get back.

selections IP.

to add on. its getting freakier. abt my new found evil twin.

he has braces b4 that.
he goes to SAJC 1st 3 mths.
he starts conversations with YO.
he has my dad's christian name.

win liao lors.

even can competete with my SWL partner. sheesssh.


ANYWAYS. sch today was... O-K.
psycho tut was DRAGGGGGGY. expected it to be more fun. hurhur. class is quieeettttt. man. was actually dozing off during the first half hour.

Sports club. camp and recruitment not bad. hit 50 liao. target is 80-100 ppl like that. we're half way there.


then was trnng. today is the selection for IP. i've told coach that i would back out coz of bowling. we did fitness and again, a realisation of how unfit i was. sprint (100m jog 50m, sprint 100m jog 50m ) abt 10sec recovery mulitply by 3.. and it could send us aching backs and dizzy spells. for me was my knee. was really hurting after that. but it got back to normal though.

then was selections. coach split us to 4 teams and all. played 3 matches. today b4 trng, was quite off. i couldn't play rugby in all. lazy to type out all the can't-dos coz its ALOT. but during the game, i was back. (: not pro enough to be like called gd.. but was happy with my performance.

i looped charlotte and dived to score.. first time trying that. haha. but WASTED. SHE TOUCH ME FIRST. like split sec kinda thing. but was a gd one la. i learnt alot from HAHA and charlotte today. seniors are really patient with us.

the grass is really filled with flyign creatures like. fly here and there. irritating sia. then fly into my shorts.. shirt.. everywhere. when i got home, and when i bathe, wa piang. i see dead flies drifting down to the hole (forgot what's it called) when i was bathing la la. grrr.but the air is NICE man. PSI i heard is like 11?? haha.


anyways. selection results were out today. congrats to nic and suria for being the few yr1s to be in the IP team.. and the rest will be playing Oasis Touch... U21 and U17. PADANG SIA. how cool.BUT. after trng. i broke the 'bad' news to coach abt me having bowlign trngs on 1,3,5 and 1,2,3,4 on the following 2 wks, thus, missing rugby. then she said that she'll think twice abt putting me in the team for Oasis touch. ): i'm playing for e U17 cate. last year to do so.
but i guess its tough for her also la. my absents and all. we'll see.

but whatever the case. i'm still goona pia for bowling. and if i get into the U17 team, i'll play even harder. i make sure i get back my stamina first.


hmm. the contact guys are currentlyin their midst of their IPs now. hoho. i really wanna shooot them. as in photography la. gotta borrow body from serena and probably a 70-200 for someone somewhere or somehow.
AND. all th're matches are on MON AND WED! ): ): ): I HAVE LECTURES AND TUT. grrrrr.

and.

lastly, i know i'm not perfect. who is, besides God. and yea. if i'm a loser to you, what's a winner to you? haha. whatever it is. u still dun get it. nevermind alright. someday u will. and i won't screw off. and facts. hahaa. talk abt it man. and u tell me to be nice for once? haha. why not many times?


okok. i'm just being irritaiting. haha.

rmbr CHRISTOPHER TAN WEI JUN? wahhaha. its just hilarious. right chris? ahaha. chris rocks la hor. hahaha.


okok. i'm really loooking forward to the upcoming wks.

jab

 
just look at all the expression. ahhahaa. the liangs rocks. haha. uncle kok chi looks evil in that pic.. with the blue reflection on his spects. aahahah 

need to fall to rise.

ALWAYS LIKE THAT. 2wks b4 BIG GAME, SCREW.

wait. b4 i indulge into bowling talk, let me tell u how i begin my day.

woke up at 10am. thinking that lecture is at 9am. so got really angry and sat upright on the bed reflecting on how horrible and ill-ed discipline i am.

made my way to sch to help out with Sprots club. and on the way, i then realised that the lect is at 10am. i COULD HAVE RUSHED and be late rather than never.
and the lect is my first lect- PSYCHOLOGY.
ironic lars.


anyways. the alarm clock couldn't do much. i was dreaming. like dreaming, or rather, nightmaring. i dreamt of IP. not bowling, but rugby.
i dreat that the IP team made up of 80% yr1s and the rest is seniors. then the rest got angry. i dreamt that deedee, amanda, claire, izyan, mel and a few more yr1s got into the team.
was wierd la. i woke up dreaming that i was stuck in between of duno wad.

ANYWAYS. i got sick today. somehow. my nose was like tap sia. whole day. and i was worried coz i need to take the jab for mission trip today. and sick ppl can't take such jabs.

so at dr. kc's clinic, went with ulrica and glen. tried to look unsick so could take. ahaha. for some reason, i was really happy ot see themm. haha. we took the jab together. ahha.


so after that. homed.

and the heavy rain came. thank God its not tmr. if not rugby is goona be wet. ahha. i guess its time that we also train on wet grounds. coz we're dropping way too much balls in the rain.

anyways.




BOWLING. YES.
today. HORRENDAOUS. I had the cheek to bowl a 121 today. b4 that it was a one-lane bowler of 147.

always like that. 2WKS B4 BIG GAME AR. screw k. and i'm really fed up. i'm not giving up ok. i'm still goona keep hitting it till it gets consistant.
when i was bowling today, i didn't feel like a bowler. coz i didn't had direction. or rather, my directions were just so hijacked.

i really need unc henry or francis yeo or whoever man. i seem to be like.. floating on the basics. i dun like.


You can't depend on your eyes if your imagination is out of focus
http://www.lightedpixels.com/
super darn cool.
his pics brings a tear to my eye..


hmmm. CHIRS is hilarious.
he's like my evilnice long lost twin bro. haha. ok.
he likes rugby. i like rugby
he likes photography. i like photography.
he drinks 250ml of milk twice a day. i drink 500ml once a day.
he likes shooting sports photog. i like shooting sports photog.
he's a canon user. and i'll probably be a canon user.
he likes cats and dogs. i like rain. (HAR. does this count?)
he drools. ok la. i drool when i'm really really tired or sick.

hahhaaaa. for those who know me. i think u guys are trying to cross refer or smth tight.ahaha. u know i know we know they dun. AHAHA. .FUN SIA.



now the status is 70% canon 350d and 30% nikon d70s. hhaha.

ok. so if i said this post is random, would u believe?

i just 'dun like' ppl who judge. who assumes.

and by saying that i dun like, i'm already judging which would make me a greater sinner.

if ppl just duno where to draw the line. where to stand. wad to say. how to say. would it still matter?

honestly. here am i trying to help. and DUDE. (oh man. i'm starting to get irritated with this word), stop calling me dude in the middle of the night when talking abt serious stuff.

and i mean that i'm darn right serious abt photography. and when it concerns $$ that i can actually use to spend on food, i'm even concerned. so wads with the 'u're changed'. so wad if i am? for worse or better, i know that i'm listening to God up there.

and when it comes to showing love, its been long since i felt this particular struggle. coz i love everyone, inc u and u and u.

i'm not posting this post to vent my anger or create awareness in anybody. coz i dun wish for some person to actually come ans SMS me sayin 'i dun want to be ur brother anymore'. can it be more obvious?

just as i was typing.. "ppl for making my day". lucky for u. i've successfulyl controlled myself not to tell u how i feel and all. i know, it'll be better so that u can be aware of how i feel and so on. but i'm so so sure that u'll take it in a negative way. and i mean, as always.

i'm not trying to be mean here, coz i'll never be mean. but oh wells. often than not, good intentions dun really get paid off at times. and if u're gonna be emo abt it, i dun really care, coz i can't do much. but i hope some reflections (i can't find a not so harsher word to use) are made.


lastly. ppl do change. and for me, i'm learning. but when it comes to u telling me in a way that it seems to be in an attempt to ask me to change (or whatver), i suggest u be more specific and constructive by telling me where and which area in my life. give me an opportunity to defend myself.
and pls. not because of any personal agenda or pride or ego. whatever u call it.


a very gd example is mr. j. lim and steph sim.. ahhahahahaa. yes u again. they tell me i'm blunt and not respectful. i acknowledge that and love them even more for watching over me. aahhaa. (steph. those were the times man. ahhahaha.)


i'm not angry nor sad nor happy now. i'm just.. just... ergh by it. by the whole i-know-it-all-and-pls-dun-tell-me-i-know-what-i'm-doing kinda of ppl.
its up to u how u're gonna respond to this post. in love, i'm not wanting to tear anyone down, but express my feelings. coz i know, by telling u directly, as mentioned, it'll come out to u as negative.
its becoming too frequent. and why why why there's not acknowledgement or wadsoeva. i'm typing wad ever i'm feeling.

this is how it is that it's conveyed/portrayed to me. u can defend/justify or wad. but this is how i got it. get it?
i am harsh. and i know i'll be if i hope the best in ppl and friends around me. this is justifiable especially among the 10 of us. (*points to the pic below)

so i've done my part. and hate to repeat all of this. coz God's children love each other.

Selamat Hari Raya!

to all.

i did spend it nicely.

woke up with a nightmare at 12noon. and then, watched tv, packed my table. and went out for G5 dinner. its the meisy, the serena, the kenneth and the jason.

and again. we spent our time at John 3:16. its at funan- a photog shop. really lvoe the ppl there. haha.


so. up till date,

CANON OR NIKON?
can't these two companies merge and be one big happy family and share their pros and cons? sheeshhh. brain wrkecking.

as for my CV for NYAA coffee table bk. its the 25th and i haven written nor selected my best 3 shots!!! freak out. hahaha.


haha. i'm (: that ppl actually reads my blog. and especially ppl that i've not been communication wtih for eons. haha. like denise de cruz. HOW LONG IS THAT DENISE? hahaha. 2 yrs? HAHA. at least steph and abby like last yr kind. HAHAAHHAHAA. (: thank u ppl for making my day. hahahaha. BIG ENCOURAGEMENT to be a living testimony can. (:

 
i'd do anything to work with these 9 ppl again. we should all start up a company. hahha.