the web site.
recording breaking time of 5hrs! hahaha.




http://ascensiontny.blogspot.com/





anyone know how to do screen shot? like using the keyboard to take a snap shot of the com. glen liang! u know right. haha.

samaritian

the word sounds so nice on such a day.


as usual. i bought my milo. ahha. from a distance, as i walked, i saw the uncle taking the cup, all ready to make milo for me. haha. so once i place my coin on the table, i have gd milo to drink to start the day off.

anyway.

happily, i was drinking my milo peng.

then 69 came. ppl boarded the bus as they move along the queue. then all of a sudden, this teenager fell. not like fall down.. but fainted. ok.. not passed out, but collasped. she's still conscious, but on the ground, trying to get hold of herself.

wad shocked me totally is that STUDENTS FROM TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC just walked passed. w/o even looking or hesitating to help, what more give her a hand.
wa piang. i was really frustrated. coz the girl was just on the floor. and like 7-8 ppl passed her and no one picked her up.

i was moving along witht he queue and i can't want for 'my turn' to go to her spot and at least give her a hand or smth la. then finally, i was approaching her, as i was going to pick her up, she pulled herself up using the handrails... and walked unsteadily up the bus.

thank God there was a seat for her. she was pale.

and i'm still in shocked, appalled and terrible diasppointed with TP students. to add on, she's from TP. wah piang. i feel like splashing water at all of them can. i'm not trying to say that i'm gd or wad. but hello.

haha. my bag had this 'RESCUE' tag. ahahha. how ironic. i also had an intention to save the day today..

ok.

today had 3 hrs break. econs lecture sent all question marks flying around. biz stats is supposedly ez but they made it look complex.
went to TM. gd to see ALEXI! and ELIZ SEAH! haha.

then.. was 6pm.
went to sports complex to watch SP and RP play. of course i was for SP. so so so gd to see TIM, VIC, ASH, CLARISSA, WILSON, RYAN, PAX, PORKY, GERALD and more familiar faces of the rugby circle. felt so so gd to see them esp fire man. oh yes. evil twin is there. with f1.4 300mm lens. kill and then rob him pls. he sold his 70-200 to get that! AHHH. its really really really really nice and fast and like. WHOA.

anyways. SP won, expectedly. RP had this drop kick try which sent everyone clapping, even SP. but SP made rugby look effortless.. haha.

anwyays. there was touch trng today. i couldn't go. ): so headed for katong for my bowling.. bowling. oh boy.

started out with a drop ball. worked on it and got 6 strikes in a row. and was literally clearing my game. was gd. but then, once we started playing with scores.....
the horrible habits kick in. everything was WRONG again. ): i told myself to get a grip and heck abt the scores. i did. but it didn't work out.
in the end, i learnt that i haven't been trusting my ball, my shot and myself. too tension. tried too hard and then, loose the whole big focus of it.
the lofting the dropping. the gripping, the muscleling. follow through half way..


sheesh.

and i dun have the luxury of time.

ahhhhhhh. thurs i feel like gg to train myself. but there rugby and i dun want to miss. coz there's also a tournament. we'll see. i'l make sure i do TP, my team proud. and make God smile with the best of efforts that i'm goona put it.


my team really wants it badly. so so badly. we just wannt prove ourselves. of our potential. and i'm sure we can do it if we really want to and know how to.

affiramation

reminded 3 times by God.

1) during fri's bowling trng, uncle lawerance shared smth abt giving confidence. "some time u know it, but u just need confirmation"
2) Dennis (youth pastor) reminding the teens and youth ministry to affirm, encourage and build one another up ytd.
3) sermon. hightlighting the impt of affirmation.

wheee.

then i thought of sara's church. SOMEHOW. i really duno how's she gg abt in her church. so i msged her during sermon. i duno. just felt the prompt.



there's currently quite a no. of things on my mind now.
not in any order i guess.

- IP Bowling. oh my. (11.11.06)
- Dance Arts Recital and many combined pracs(2.12.06)
- Sports Club camp & recuitment ( 3,4.11.06)
- Worship Nite (18.11.06)
- Mission trip (03.12.06 onwards)
- Oasis Touch (25,26.11.06)
- photos for BBQ to be on web soon.
- SLR!!!! OH MAN. $$$$$$
- tutorials..
- pedal adapter
- 2 persons' printed photograph is missing.

and many more misc. stuff.

wheee. and the thing is, amazing, i'm not stressed nor burden sia! must be God's strength and help sia. rocks hur.
i guess i'm like achievement orientated or smth la. i just need all these to motivate myself. but with that, i know the line lar. its big and bold, yet faint and water-marked.


but, nevertheless, i'm worried for bowling IP. abt performing well. or just simply do my thing which i can't -for now (i hope).

abt my recital. because of NTL, i have to try catch up. and i'm gona miss 2 out of 3 combined pracs due to the upcoming eventssss... and i'm really worried for this. coz i dun like to be embarrassed. so i better make sure of my steps and all.

worship nite is the challenging one. gotta ask augustine for help. i gotta get hold of daniel lim for the electric guit stuff man. haha. but i think he's like MIA. haha. coz i really want to be a loud instrument for God and not disappoint Him.


haha. amongst all these. $$$ for an SLR and I PRAY for and IPOD. ahhaha. my plan is to invest in slr first then IPOD i think. so that with my SLR, i hope to win $$ and get ipod. HAHHA.



time is like flying. i got home at 5pm today. and i took a loong relaxing hp-gaming break for the week till 6pm. then tried to finish my tutorials but couldn't.. so ate dinner and hoooked up with the com now.
this is bad. haha
my tutorials are undone!! and trm SP rugggers are playing, in TP that is. haha. i hope to see ash vic ryan tim wilson and gang man. its beeeen LOOOOOOOOONG. and i can't find smth that i owe them. haha.
yes. and evil twin will be there. hahaha. not to play to shoot. ):

haha. I'M EYEING ON A 70-200 (if u're reading this, chris) haha. i needa borrow to take sports shots in particular, rugby.


btw. "to clear in 2 shots. make that 1."- my pre msn nick.
interesting how ppl think that its either bowling or photography.
at first, its bowling. a frame. objective is to hit 10pins down in 2 shots. if not, one. then i realise. photo. to clear (make do) with 2 shots? but usually its the one 1 shot that captures the moment. hahha. i just love my 'tagline': No other passion brings you to this level of exposure. applies to both bowling and photogprahy. photography is more fun coz its like word pun(for those who knows photography)...
in times of tiredness. sometimes, its the passion that pushes u to burn huh.



lastly, smth random. just out of curiosity. am i influencial? i get the erks with ppl starts 'following' every steps i take (if u'd understand). haha. not bhb lar ok. coz sometimes, it really gets too WADDD already la.

but.


i just want to thank God for this wk. He's been listening to someone who's not been listening disciplined-ly. me that is. amazing how He anwers our prays and proves to be a God of humour as well huh.

Time is still flying. and its accelerating now. really. its realy scary. before i know it. i'm very sure that i'll be siting for a paper already.
oh man. and the up coming projects plus assignments to come. *slaps head.

i surrender them to God. coz i know He'll carry His children. esp those in need. in need of hope. comfort and love.

briefly...

Training schedule from now till competition
Pocket bowl - 8.00 PM
25.10.06 Wed
27.10.06 Fri
30.10.06 Mon
01.11.06 Wed
03.11.06 Fri

Yishun Safra - 10.00 am
04.11.06 Sat

Pocket bowl - 8.00 PM
06.11.06 Mon
07.11.06 Tue
08.11.06 Wed
09.11.06 Thu

11.11.06 Sat - 0800 am
POL-ITE bowling championships 2006


Thank you and
God bless
Lawrence


btw. i changed psycho tut class from t30 to t33 so its earlier..

and.. bowling is as the same. bad. and horrible. 118. sometimes i just feel like running away to an isolated alley and train all by myself. 4 bowlers one lane. 2 hours. probably 20 frames? 40-50 shots?

no way. i must think of smth.


something to get back.

selections IP.

to add on. its getting freakier. abt my new found evil twin.

he has braces b4 that.
he goes to SAJC 1st 3 mths.
he starts conversations with YO.
he has my dad's christian name.

win liao lors.

even can competete with my SWL partner. sheesssh.


ANYWAYS. sch today was... O-K.
psycho tut was DRAGGGGGGY. expected it to be more fun. hurhur. class is quieeettttt. man. was actually dozing off during the first half hour.

Sports club. camp and recruitment not bad. hit 50 liao. target is 80-100 ppl like that. we're half way there.


then was trnng. today is the selection for IP. i've told coach that i would back out coz of bowling. we did fitness and again, a realisation of how unfit i was. sprint (100m jog 50m, sprint 100m jog 50m ) abt 10sec recovery mulitply by 3.. and it could send us aching backs and dizzy spells. for me was my knee. was really hurting after that. but it got back to normal though.

then was selections. coach split us to 4 teams and all. played 3 matches. today b4 trng, was quite off. i couldn't play rugby in all. lazy to type out all the can't-dos coz its ALOT. but during the game, i was back. (: not pro enough to be like called gd.. but was happy with my performance.

i looped charlotte and dived to score.. first time trying that. haha. but WASTED. SHE TOUCH ME FIRST. like split sec kinda thing. but was a gd one la. i learnt alot from HAHA and charlotte today. seniors are really patient with us.

the grass is really filled with flyign creatures like. fly here and there. irritating sia. then fly into my shorts.. shirt.. everywhere. when i got home, and when i bathe, wa piang. i see dead flies drifting down to the hole (forgot what's it called) when i was bathing la la. grrr.but the air is NICE man. PSI i heard is like 11?? haha.


anyways. selection results were out today. congrats to nic and suria for being the few yr1s to be in the IP team.. and the rest will be playing Oasis Touch... U21 and U17. PADANG SIA. how cool.BUT. after trng. i broke the 'bad' news to coach abt me having bowlign trngs on 1,3,5 and 1,2,3,4 on the following 2 wks, thus, missing rugby. then she said that she'll think twice abt putting me in the team for Oasis touch. ): i'm playing for e U17 cate. last year to do so.
but i guess its tough for her also la. my absents and all. we'll see.

but whatever the case. i'm still goona pia for bowling. and if i get into the U17 team, i'll play even harder. i make sure i get back my stamina first.


hmm. the contact guys are currentlyin their midst of their IPs now. hoho. i really wanna shooot them. as in photography la. gotta borrow body from serena and probably a 70-200 for someone somewhere or somehow.
AND. all th're matches are on MON AND WED! ): ): ): I HAVE LECTURES AND TUT. grrrrr.

and.

lastly, i know i'm not perfect. who is, besides God. and yea. if i'm a loser to you, what's a winner to you? haha. whatever it is. u still dun get it. nevermind alright. someday u will. and i won't screw off. and facts. hahaa. talk abt it man. and u tell me to be nice for once? haha. why not many times?


okok. i'm just being irritaiting. haha.

rmbr CHRISTOPHER TAN WEI JUN? wahhaha. its just hilarious. right chris? ahaha. chris rocks la hor. hahaha.


okok. i'm really loooking forward to the upcoming wks.

jab

 
just look at all the expression. ahhahaa. the liangs rocks. haha. uncle kok chi looks evil in that pic.. with the blue reflection on his spects. aahahah 

need to fall to rise.

ALWAYS LIKE THAT. 2wks b4 BIG GAME, SCREW.

wait. b4 i indulge into bowling talk, let me tell u how i begin my day.

woke up at 10am. thinking that lecture is at 9am. so got really angry and sat upright on the bed reflecting on how horrible and ill-ed discipline i am.

made my way to sch to help out with Sprots club. and on the way, i then realised that the lect is at 10am. i COULD HAVE RUSHED and be late rather than never.
and the lect is my first lect- PSYCHOLOGY.
ironic lars.


anyways. the alarm clock couldn't do much. i was dreaming. like dreaming, or rather, nightmaring. i dreamt of IP. not bowling, but rugby.
i dreat that the IP team made up of 80% yr1s and the rest is seniors. then the rest got angry. i dreamt that deedee, amanda, claire, izyan, mel and a few more yr1s got into the team.
was wierd la. i woke up dreaming that i was stuck in between of duno wad.

ANYWAYS. i got sick today. somehow. my nose was like tap sia. whole day. and i was worried coz i need to take the jab for mission trip today. and sick ppl can't take such jabs.

so at dr. kc's clinic, went with ulrica and glen. tried to look unsick so could take. ahaha. for some reason, i was really happy ot see themm. haha. we took the jab together. ahha.


so after that. homed.

and the heavy rain came. thank God its not tmr. if not rugby is goona be wet. ahha. i guess its time that we also train on wet grounds. coz we're dropping way too much balls in the rain.

anyways.




BOWLING. YES.
today. HORRENDAOUS. I had the cheek to bowl a 121 today. b4 that it was a one-lane bowler of 147.

always like that. 2WKS B4 BIG GAME AR. screw k. and i'm really fed up. i'm not giving up ok. i'm still goona keep hitting it till it gets consistant.
when i was bowling today, i didn't feel like a bowler. coz i didn't had direction. or rather, my directions were just so hijacked.

i really need unc henry or francis yeo or whoever man. i seem to be like.. floating on the basics. i dun like.


You can't depend on your eyes if your imagination is out of focus
http://www.lightedpixels.com/
super darn cool.
his pics brings a tear to my eye..


hmmm. CHIRS is hilarious.
he's like my evilnice long lost twin bro. haha. ok.
he likes rugby. i like rugby
he likes photography. i like photography.
he drinks 250ml of milk twice a day. i drink 500ml once a day.
he likes shooting sports photog. i like shooting sports photog.
he's a canon user. and i'll probably be a canon user.
he likes cats and dogs. i like rain. (HAR. does this count?)
he drools. ok la. i drool when i'm really really tired or sick.

hahhaaaa. for those who know me. i think u guys are trying to cross refer or smth tight.ahaha. u know i know we know they dun. AHAHA. .FUN SIA.



now the status is 70% canon 350d and 30% nikon d70s. hhaha.

ok. so if i said this post is random, would u believe?

i just 'dun like' ppl who judge. who assumes.

and by saying that i dun like, i'm already judging which would make me a greater sinner.

if ppl just duno where to draw the line. where to stand. wad to say. how to say. would it still matter?

honestly. here am i trying to help. and DUDE. (oh man. i'm starting to get irritated with this word), stop calling me dude in the middle of the night when talking abt serious stuff.

and i mean that i'm darn right serious abt photography. and when it concerns $$ that i can actually use to spend on food, i'm even concerned. so wads with the 'u're changed'. so wad if i am? for worse or better, i know that i'm listening to God up there.

and when it comes to showing love, its been long since i felt this particular struggle. coz i love everyone, inc u and u and u.

i'm not posting this post to vent my anger or create awareness in anybody. coz i dun wish for some person to actually come ans SMS me sayin 'i dun want to be ur brother anymore'. can it be more obvious?

just as i was typing.. "ppl for making my day". lucky for u. i've successfulyl controlled myself not to tell u how i feel and all. i know, it'll be better so that u can be aware of how i feel and so on. but i'm so so sure that u'll take it in a negative way. and i mean, as always.

i'm not trying to be mean here, coz i'll never be mean. but oh wells. often than not, good intentions dun really get paid off at times. and if u're gonna be emo abt it, i dun really care, coz i can't do much. but i hope some reflections (i can't find a not so harsher word to use) are made.


lastly. ppl do change. and for me, i'm learning. but when it comes to u telling me in a way that it seems to be in an attempt to ask me to change (or whatver), i suggest u be more specific and constructive by telling me where and which area in my life. give me an opportunity to defend myself.
and pls. not because of any personal agenda or pride or ego. whatever u call it.


a very gd example is mr. j. lim and steph sim.. ahhahahahaa. yes u again. they tell me i'm blunt and not respectful. i acknowledge that and love them even more for watching over me. aahhaa. (steph. those were the times man. ahhahaha.)


i'm not angry nor sad nor happy now. i'm just.. just... ergh by it. by the whole i-know-it-all-and-pls-dun-tell-me-i-know-what-i'm-doing kinda of ppl.
its up to u how u're gonna respond to this post. in love, i'm not wanting to tear anyone down, but express my feelings. coz i know, by telling u directly, as mentioned, it'll come out to u as negative.
its becoming too frequent. and why why why there's not acknowledgement or wadsoeva. i'm typing wad ever i'm feeling.

this is how it is that it's conveyed/portrayed to me. u can defend/justify or wad. but this is how i got it. get it?
i am harsh. and i know i'll be if i hope the best in ppl and friends around me. this is justifiable especially among the 10 of us. (*points to the pic below)

so i've done my part. and hate to repeat all of this. coz God's children love each other.

Selamat Hari Raya!

to all.

i did spend it nicely.

woke up with a nightmare at 12noon. and then, watched tv, packed my table. and went out for G5 dinner. its the meisy, the serena, the kenneth and the jason.

and again. we spent our time at John 3:16. its at funan- a photog shop. really lvoe the ppl there. haha.


so. up till date,

CANON OR NIKON?
can't these two companies merge and be one big happy family and share their pros and cons? sheeshhh. brain wrkecking.

as for my CV for NYAA coffee table bk. its the 25th and i haven written nor selected my best 3 shots!!! freak out. hahaha.


haha. i'm (: that ppl actually reads my blog. and especially ppl that i've not been communication wtih for eons. haha. like denise de cruz. HOW LONG IS THAT DENISE? hahaha. 2 yrs? HAHA. at least steph and abby like last yr kind. HAHAAHHAHAA. (: thank u ppl for making my day. hahahaha. BIG ENCOURAGEMENT to be a living testimony can. (:

 
i'd do anything to work with these 9 ppl again. we should all start up a company. hahha. 

 
sorry steph.. i juz love this pic of u.. saying stuff from ur heart to ur brains to ur voice and out to save all. haha. 

 
this is y nat and lizzy has to be beside me. hahhaa. 

 
lizzy seah making sense with all the duties. ahha. 

 
hahaha. go nat go! 

 
haha. the 10 of us. ah hua where? the times where we get so afraid b4 teh board meeting. afraid to scold harshly. afraid to laugh. afraid to say thigns that are hurtful coz we'd really wanna enocourage. haha. i miss those times. 

 
laugh pls. look at sara! ahha. 

 
ahha. adam's family. sec 2. HAHAHHA. when cameras couldn't focus fast. haha. 

 
ahhaa. abby far left. then sara and i and mel. aahha. abby. u're the inspiration. hahah. 

 
hahhaa. gd ol' times huh. 

 
is that like 26 ppl whowanted VJC? ahhhaa. in the end like 2 only right? the rest all sa, mj, tj, cj. hahahaha.