today was great. i felt that i was back. only from 7-10am. ahha. okok. hall elaborate later.
today. in the morning.. nat and i were franticaly runnig around the sch to get ready for the prize table and teachers and all. then we sang national anthem in the hall. then later went to prefects room to change. then wass aces' day!. haha. teachers are comical. haha. they do their actions very original. ahha. very funny. ws outgoing lar. ahha. then pang was kept smiling behind,haha. anwyyas.
later has to maintain order, and plan alot of stuff.. then i felt gd. the exco should be an individualistic in doing duty and while serving the sch. but should try not to be so individualistic in meetings, where it is to lead the prefects board.
aha. okoo. lets skip all that.
then was danceathon!. haha. the classes were great. i like neiritta's class best. they had very gd showmanship.. very for dancing to audiece. haha then.. 3/5 won. they had very good coordination. haha. very proud of them. unfortunately, our class lost. haiz. there goes another medal. always one. when we won chinese singing competion.. no medals.. when we lost danceathon, they have medals. aha. so sad.
ok. ervything was delays by like 1/2 h. but nvertheless, i felt that we have tried our best and i think it was gd that the flow was somehow and somewhat smooth. yays. after that, stayed on, attepmting to give my tchrs' day present which i rushed thorugh in 4hrs last night. aha. using film roles and aluminion tape and star to make a deco ornament. ahha. their reaction was like.. eh? wads this? haha.a. then i said. haha. aiya.. put on ur table nice liao. haha. ok
then i gave less then half of wad i made. coz cannot find the tchrs.. as i had to go shps. so i left my stuff in the prefects room.. give them on thurs bah.
so.. i took a cab down to shps.. at aroun 12. ahha. then first.. headed for tchrs room. haha. goash. so high tech. each teacher has a computer... flat screen, and a big table and drawers. steady lors. like office wrkerslike that.. ahha. then i only manage to see mrs yee, mr ong and ms zakia. hahaha. mr ong gave me a big red outdoor bag. felt so paiseh.. but then he insisted. ok lor.. so take.haha. felt really bad. he didn't taught me.. haha. but becoz i took care of his class.. in 2001. haha.
then later. meet pri sch friends.. all of them grew. ahha. 2 guys always take the same bus as me in the morning was there. ahaha. yup. they found me familiar i guess. ahha. from vs. then later.. met riane, jane, tabitha.. then sarah, dw, alexi and alot of ppl.. then in the end.. went out wif weiming, kyne, jeremy, riane, tab and jane. ahha. ate at pastamania... then went to watch movie.. bourne supremacy.. at cs as tm was totally packed.packed wif students. ahha. all the pri sch clicks. so fun. saw alot of kc girls, shss, shps ppl. was very happy. i felt like as if i know the whole world. haha.
for the movie.. the 1st 1/2 was dozing off.. cz didn;t get the plot. ahha. then later.. i understood.. amd felt that whoa. the movie is nice. should go watch.. alto of stunts. amazing.
after that, we left..hoping to see each other nxt yr. ahah. weiming gave me his sch badge. ahah. yay. acs badge. ahha. i collect sch badges.. ,then ;ater i accompanied tab to get smth. and then went home
on the way home, i think i say sean chia, ahhah. but both of us didnt recognise each other.. so i msg him. ahha. then his phone beep.. so i think was him.he sounded irritated wif me. coz last time i dun reply his msges coz i scared bill high.. haha. nvm. then in the 18 bus. ahha. these 2 guys. wanted my hp no. they tried to attract my attention.kept calling me.. haha. . haha. then i totally ignored them. haha.then called sara.. to plan for tml studying thing. haha. then could heard that one of them was like saying some vulgarities. ahaha.heck.
and now. finally home. was tired today. but was worth it. i love my pri sch friends. haha. miss them lts
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Monday, August 30, 2004
stupid. i blogged then the window closed coz of some virus
okok. today. i duno wad has gotten over me. i was being an irritant and some pest in the class. i expected the class to b quiet when the teacher is not around. that is wad the situation is usually.. but today.they were exceptionally noisy but later.. very tired during maths. haha. i juz simpy love 3/6. haha. okk. but yea. i guess i've irritated ppl wif my chao face lar.
but today.. i did not contribute to the nooise level in the class u know. ahha. i was guai-ly doing my physics.. whahaha.guai eh.
recess had exco meeting.. then after sch ahad danceathon pracitce. and u know wad. this is the first time i'm learning the dance. haha. and then. tml is the performance. coz uusallly i v bz to go for the practices. aha. hopefully tml i wun screw.
i can't wait for tml.. danceathon, "prize giving", aces day, tchrs day. ahha. our sch is mulit task lar. haha. okok. yup. and also.. can't wait to see primary sch friends!!. i miss them so much. hahaha yay. 1s a yr thing.
okok. i've bee bottling up alot of exco feeling lar. basically, theres so much for me to tell them. but so little opportunity. i guess i have to tok to them after the hols. tok to the whole board on how i feel. coz i seriously want a united board and that the prefects board will not crash. theres so much to do. so much to say. yet so little time and opportunity. haiz.
anyways. ervyday is a new day. thankk God for people. thank God for handphones. thank God for YOU. haha =D. tml is coming!!
okok. today. i duno wad has gotten over me. i was being an irritant and some pest in the class. i expected the class to b quiet when the teacher is not around. that is wad the situation is usually.. but today.they were exceptionally noisy but later.. very tired during maths. haha. i juz simpy love 3/6. haha. okk. but yea. i guess i've irritated ppl wif my chao face lar.
but today.. i did not contribute to the nooise level in the class u know. ahha. i was guai-ly doing my physics.. whahaha.guai eh.
recess had exco meeting.. then after sch ahad danceathon pracitce. and u know wad. this is the first time i'm learning the dance. haha. and then. tml is the performance. coz uusallly i v bz to go for the practices. aha. hopefully tml i wun screw.
i can't wait for tml.. danceathon, "prize giving", aces day, tchrs day. ahha. our sch is mulit task lar. haha. okok. yup. and also.. can't wait to see primary sch friends!!. i miss them so much. hahaha yay. 1s a yr thing.
okok. i've bee bottling up alot of exco feeling lar. basically, theres so much for me to tell them. but so little opportunity. i guess i have to tok to them after the hols. tok to the whole board on how i feel. coz i seriously want a united board and that the prefects board will not crash. theres so much to do. so much to say. yet so little time and opportunity. haiz.
anyways. ervyday is a new day. thankk God for people. thank God for handphones. thank God for YOU. haha =D. tml is coming!!
Sunday, August 29, 2004
hmms. ok today was teachers' day service. at 8 and 10. ahha. u know wad. the kindergarden tchrs stilll mrbr me sia. steady lar. whaha. so happy. then wish them lors. after church, joanne bought the cell go SMU makan. then canteen is like pro lar. haahah, foood court. imagine our tuckshup like that. aha.
later.. went aimlessly to town to find paper for teachres day. then cannot find. nvm. wasted time.
then went to airpot to study wif sara... saw yuan ting on the way when i was in the bus.today, studied wif sara and peixianw haha. made a new friend today.. dorothy.. her cousin....same churhc. haha. today i planned to finish my JUNE hols PHYSICS hw. ahha but stil canot.. late gg to muh through the night. aha. ppl been complaining about my dark eye bags. haha. then on the way to dinner.. to the canteen at t2, peixian saw her friend.. ookok
peixian knows joel. so abit connected here nad there. then she saw her grp of sch mates i think... coz they were laughing VERY loudly in the lift. so the 5 of us were laghign outside. haha. then so coincidentally, peixian knows them.aha.and one of them is joel's "brother".. according to px.(peixian for short). then i started laughing.. coz the door oopen.. then that guy saw me. ahha. then he stepped back and started to laugh. whaha. evyrone was laughing.. then later.. px say hi and all and headed off to canteen. whah
then later.. she and that friend.. whom i later knew that he was wei luo.. was toking on the phone. waha. then duno wad they toking. so we ate.
after all of dorothy and px left, sara, yt n i went back to study. haha. then sara left. then later. i then knew, thorugh joel that he was wei luo and all. ahah. he sounded curious that how i knew his friends and all.haha
so today, expriences proved that singapore is small. espically when everyone is secluded in a small full stop. wahah. . . . . okko. if u all dun undertnad wad i'e just spoken, its ok. coz firstly, i cannot explain things.. then 2ndly, its complicated. yup.
okok. for today. i am happy. as in. i was able to get out of the shakles of bowling. not that bowling is draggin me or a burden or wad lar.. but yar. i guess i'm mentally fatigue in bowling now. no confidence i guess. but anywyas, i can't wait for the 2nd round. history repeeats only wif a happy ending. ahha. yay. can see bowling friends again. =D.
tchrs day is coming. yay! shps. haha.
later.. went aimlessly to town to find paper for teachres day. then cannot find. nvm. wasted time.
then went to airpot to study wif sara... saw yuan ting on the way when i was in the bus.today, studied wif sara and peixianw haha. made a new friend today.. dorothy.. her cousin....same churhc. haha. today i planned to finish my JUNE hols PHYSICS hw. ahha but stil canot.. late gg to muh through the night. aha. ppl been complaining about my dark eye bags. haha. then on the way to dinner.. to the canteen at t2, peixian saw her friend.. ookok
peixian knows joel. so abit connected here nad there. then she saw her grp of sch mates i think... coz they were laughing VERY loudly in the lift. so the 5 of us were laghign outside. haha. then so coincidentally, peixian knows them.aha.and one of them is joel's "brother".. according to px.(peixian for short). then i started laughing.. coz the door oopen.. then that guy saw me. ahha. then he stepped back and started to laugh. whaha. evyrone was laughing.. then later.. px say hi and all and headed off to canteen. whah
then later.. she and that friend.. whom i later knew that he was wei luo.. was toking on the phone. waha. then duno wad they toking. so we ate.
after all of dorothy and px left, sara, yt n i went back to study. haha. then sara left. then later. i then knew, thorugh joel that he was wei luo and all. ahah. he sounded curious that how i knew his friends and all.haha
so today, expriences proved that singapore is small. espically when everyone is secluded in a small full stop. wahah. . . . . okko. if u all dun undertnad wad i'e just spoken, its ok. coz firstly, i cannot explain things.. then 2ndly, its complicated. yup.
okok. for today. i am happy. as in. i was able to get out of the shakles of bowling. not that bowling is draggin me or a burden or wad lar.. but yar. i guess i'm mentally fatigue in bowling now. no confidence i guess. but anywyas, i can't wait for the 2nd round. history repeeats only wif a happy ending. ahha. yay. can see bowling friends again. =D.
tchrs day is coming. yay! shps. haha.
bowling was horrible. hmms. i guess this month is a month where i lost all my touch. from 8th position.. dropped to 17th position coz of TODAY'S game alone. juz today's game. i'm not happy wif myself, but juz happy that i was awarded smth. hah. 110 119 111 . steady? superly consistant ar. consistant in a wrong way. canot find my line, didn't have the feel and all. totaly. it wasn't me who was bowling. i didn't know wad i was doing. mayb, tchrs' day is a gd day to stop bowling for a while aftera ll. let me startch from scratch. and uncle jack, u better start trng b div.
today, despite my terrible monments. there was billy. billy encouraged me. coz right, to add on, i was bowling beside siglap sec, and was surrounded by ppl who dunno bowling etiquette. anyways, they didn;t really affect me la, thryy juz added on to my irritating feelin. okok. he was nice. that angel haha. he bought drink for me!..bottle 100 plus.=). so touching right. yea. he came behind my lane to support. but i kept complaining. ahaha. sads for him. anyways. juz really wanna thank him. u've realy encouraged me in ur own ways. thanks a million.
i guess i', juz shaken?. vvery shaken. passion is not burning bright. not at all. billy's blog explains it all.
i felt cheated. they said top 20 will have trophy + hamper.. and i only got hamper. so sad k. only top 2 gor trophy, i dun mind giving up all my chocolates in x change for trophy. argh. cheats.
ok, 16th oct. round 2. during FINAL YEAR EXAMINATIONS. i guess its goona be a rough time for me. no trng, have leagues, have exams, have dance recitals, no time. and plus, i have to make a comeback. i aiming for 2nd this time no omre top 20. no masters. stupid.
anyways. after bowling, went to church. love that feeling.
then went for jocelyn's birthday. aha. was very tirid. and then. through weiliang and howie... i solved the mrt game!!!.."zen wwahaha.. i got it! yay. after 2 long months. hhaa. i felt so blech there. coz whole time i was tired and kept thinking about bowling n hw. like y am i slacking esp in 3/6. haha. played card games *sheng zhi........ i'll be back. muhahahhaa. okok
then took a cab home was tired, wif bowling ball and the hamper.
came home, read friendster testimonials. thankful for sean. he has reminded me a few points and reminded me of the old me. the marian b4 daddy zhao.. haiz. WAS a strong girl. WAS a determine girl. WAS a sincerely cheerful girl. time changes ppl. time will not heal a wound, it deepens it. y? coz of adjustments. those scratches. those falls.
ahha. i'm toking lit style.poetic. ok. enough. tired. tml have church.
today, despite my terrible monments. there was billy. billy encouraged me. coz right, to add on, i was bowling beside siglap sec, and was surrounded by ppl who dunno bowling etiquette. anyways, they didn;t really affect me la, thryy juz added on to my irritating feelin. okok. he was nice. that angel haha. he bought drink for me!..bottle 100 plus.=). so touching right. yea. he came behind my lane to support. but i kept complaining. ahaha. sads for him. anyways. juz really wanna thank him. u've realy encouraged me in ur own ways. thanks a million.
i guess i', juz shaken?. vvery shaken. passion is not burning bright. not at all. billy's blog explains it all.
i felt cheated. they said top 20 will have trophy + hamper.. and i only got hamper. so sad k. only top 2 gor trophy, i dun mind giving up all my chocolates in x change for trophy. argh. cheats.
ok, 16th oct. round 2. during FINAL YEAR EXAMINATIONS. i guess its goona be a rough time for me. no trng, have leagues, have exams, have dance recitals, no time. and plus, i have to make a comeback. i aiming for 2nd this time no omre top 20. no masters. stupid.
anyways. after bowling, went to church. love that feeling.
then went for jocelyn's birthday. aha. was very tirid. and then. through weiliang and howie... i solved the mrt game!!!.."zen wwahaha.. i got it! yay. after 2 long months. hhaa. i felt so blech there. coz whole time i was tired and kept thinking about bowling n hw. like y am i slacking esp in 3/6. haha. played card games *sheng zhi........ i'll be back. muhahahhaa. okok
then took a cab home was tired, wif bowling ball and the hamper.
came home, read friendster testimonials. thankful for sean. he has reminded me a few points and reminded me of the old me. the marian b4 daddy zhao.. haiz. WAS a strong girl. WAS a determine girl. WAS a sincerely cheerful girl. time changes ppl. time will not heal a wound, it deepens it. y? coz of adjustments. those scratches. those falls.
ahha. i'm toking lit style.poetic. ok. enough. tired. tml have church.
Friday, August 27, 2004
today i bowl super well lar. like 80 and 107 for the league. my hopes are gone. zen and reggie won me. argh. the lanes are soo swimming pool and patchy. so not nice. hate it. held my ball. do my thing. nothing comes out of it. except an 80 and 107. hear it.. 80 and 107
shuneng can't make it tml.. for the league. then i think donna. but she say she can't make it. so i think i going. like billy said. its my chance to reedeem myself. i have to. i must. i have to get a 180 avg tml. wif hcp, 190. pls man. let me comeback, atonment fot today. 80 and 107. pls pls pls. let it be dry. super super dry. dry till crankers die hahaha. meanie. whahaha.
i feel so useless. like so irritated. i wanna tok and nag and scream and complain to some guy. argh. i'm argh. irritated.highly disappointed. i am not a happy. not a least bit. let me whine. juz let me whine and whine.
readers, u guys can stop, cause i'll juz be whinning and yaking crap. argh. shit.s. is this helping? bowling. bowling bowling. my passion. will it die? i have doubts?. okok. ebough. no mood. i shall bowl a 200 tml. hah. win that yvonne lim. let me try... 202 212 230. hhwhha.a marian, getting this kind of scores? waahaha. vomits.
lames lar.
from november till now, nothing seems to be goingn right for me. nothing astonishing. no mood to count my blessings. nno ability to.
+ silence. typical.
She Will Be Loved
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye
shuneng can't make it tml.. for the league. then i think donna. but she say she can't make it. so i think i going. like billy said. its my chance to reedeem myself. i have to. i must. i have to get a 180 avg tml. wif hcp, 190. pls man. let me comeback, atonment fot today. 80 and 107. pls pls pls. let it be dry. super super dry. dry till crankers die hahaha. meanie. whahaha.
i feel so useless. like so irritated. i wanna tok and nag and scream and complain to some guy. argh. i'm argh. irritated.highly disappointed. i am not a happy. not a least bit. let me whine. juz let me whine and whine.
readers, u guys can stop, cause i'll juz be whinning and yaking crap. argh. shit.s. is this helping? bowling. bowling bowling. my passion. will it die? i have doubts?. okok. ebough. no mood. i shall bowl a 200 tml. hah. win that yvonne lim. let me try... 202 212 230. hhwhha.a marian, getting this kind of scores? waahaha. vomits.
lames lar.
from november till now, nothing seems to be goingn right for me. nothing astonishing. no mood to count my blessings. nno ability to.
+ silence. typical.
She Will Be Loved
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye
Thursday, August 26, 2004
ok. today in sch.. not much things on prefects.. in class.. i paid full attention in physics. haha. so funy. mrs lim made me the leader of some car competition.. giving me a choice and yet, contridicting herself.. eg. "u can dun join u know.. u are appointed as the leader already.. but u can dun join.. ". hahha. damn funy.
then today, bowling, gave the coaches their tchrs day cards. they were hapy.ahaha. we had cues when to give during trng and all. ahha.
after trng, stayed on for awhile. then now home..
i'm looking for new bowling shoe still. mine's since sec 1 and is reallt tight. pain lor.. currently, finding a gd one. to last me forever.. aha. yay. kokok.
dun have the blgogish mood.. i love my church members' blog.. those with the +:.. the x: is bowlers.. if u all didn;t know.. church ppl blogs' songs all so nice.hahha. mine's nice too. aha.but i changing it. .. haa. to suit my feeling i guess.. aha
can't wait for tchrs day. i wana see pri sch ppl. =D
then today, bowling, gave the coaches their tchrs day cards. they were hapy.ahaha. we had cues when to give during trng and all. ahha.
after trng, stayed on for awhile. then now home..
i'm looking for new bowling shoe still. mine's since sec 1 and is reallt tight. pain lor.. currently, finding a gd one. to last me forever.. aha. yay. kokok.
dun have the blgogish mood.. i love my church members' blog.. those with the +:.. the x: is bowlers.. if u all didn;t know.. church ppl blogs' songs all so nice.hahha. mine's nice too. aha.but i changing it. .. haa. to suit my feeling i guess.. aha
can't wait for tchrs day. i wana see pri sch ppl. =D
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
due to some unforseen circumstances, marian did not go to school today. can say its a pontang... but had alittle diaherroa and slight fever. was able to go but did not. hahaha. ahha.
okok. mrs joan lim called. coz mama called her but she nv pick up. then she call me, i pass my hp to mama.. then i heard her NAGGING on the phone to mama. haha.then later.. mama wasn't able to tok coz she wasn't given a chance and then put down. haha.so happy.. finnaly mama kenna nagged at. then she called again.. i picked up the phone.. "YOU VERY NAUGHTY AR.. NV GO SCH BUT CAN GO OUT?... blah blah blah./".. i was like.. hello.. i passed my hp to mama coz she wanted to tok to you. haha. have u heard of caller id?. ahhahha.
wadeva it is. joan lim is nice teacher lar. ahha.
anyways. tchr's day coming, and i guess this yr, i'm not giving tchrs anything but juz a piece of paper. muahahha. last time very enthu,.. now.. ahha.
ok. today played guitar for 2h.. so as to cover up the times that i did not pracitce.
today rained whole day. should have been in sch. i would study well. sads..
tmlis trng, fri is the kcbt 1st league!!. i've set my eyes on the top scorer trophy. haha. must win. die die muzt win at least 2 shiny scrap plastic home.
toking about studying, i guess i really dun have the motivation to study although i've been drilling motivational quotes in my head thru nick names. i have to study hard. thought about it. wanna try getting in sajc thru grades and not bowling. i guess its better. pls God, make me study. hard. today i read the Bible.. ths bk of John. aha. the movie.. Gospel of John, motivated me to do so and then i realised that the movie was exact same thing from the Bible. soooo happy k. then now got a picture of Jesus life. yea. haha.
i miss pri sch friends. i guess all of us have drifted. i've drifted from friends from other schs too. bowling friends and all. miss going out wif u guys. haha. i love bowling.
haha. i read msh friens' friendster acc profile.. those from the bowling team espically.... so sad k. aaha. majority of them hate their sch. haha. statements like.. ."wasted 3 yrs of my life in msh..".. "only like the bowling team...". hahahhaa. so funny k. msh like jail like that. as for me, kc.. well up til now, i like the sch coz of the bowling team.i like singapore because of bowling. its is bowling that i like stuff. i like ppl from bowling. haha. i love bowling.ahahha. okok. stop. haha. but yea. kc. was my 6th chioce.. "aiya.. anyhow put lar.. tml got to submit the form... 6th choice sure wun one lar.. wun b so sway..". haha. from mama. SHE'S WRONG. ahhaha.
POK JINSHENG. I STRONGLY DISAPPROVE U OF QUITTING BOWLING!!ahha.. did i freak u out> hahhahaha.
okko. my mind is thinkg alot. i've typed down muchof the thoughts. haha. there's more.. but also private ones. haha. yup. =). okok. shall end here.
okok. mrs joan lim called. coz mama called her but she nv pick up. then she call me, i pass my hp to mama.. then i heard her NAGGING on the phone to mama. haha.then later.. mama wasn't able to tok coz she wasn't given a chance and then put down. haha.so happy.. finnaly mama kenna nagged at. then she called again.. i picked up the phone.. "YOU VERY NAUGHTY AR.. NV GO SCH BUT CAN GO OUT?... blah blah blah./".. i was like.. hello.. i passed my hp to mama coz she wanted to tok to you. haha. have u heard of caller id?. ahhahha.
wadeva it is. joan lim is nice teacher lar. ahha.
anyways. tchr's day coming, and i guess this yr, i'm not giving tchrs anything but juz a piece of paper. muahahha. last time very enthu,.. now.. ahha.
ok. today played guitar for 2h.. so as to cover up the times that i did not pracitce.
today rained whole day. should have been in sch. i would study well. sads..
tmlis trng, fri is the kcbt 1st league!!. i've set my eyes on the top scorer trophy. haha. must win. die die muzt win at least 2 shiny scrap plastic home.
toking about studying, i guess i really dun have the motivation to study although i've been drilling motivational quotes in my head thru nick names. i have to study hard. thought about it. wanna try getting in sajc thru grades and not bowling. i guess its better. pls God, make me study. hard. today i read the Bible.. ths bk of John. aha. the movie.. Gospel of John, motivated me to do so and then i realised that the movie was exact same thing from the Bible. soooo happy k. then now got a picture of Jesus life. yea. haha.
i miss pri sch friends. i guess all of us have drifted. i've drifted from friends from other schs too. bowling friends and all. miss going out wif u guys. haha. i love bowling.
haha. i read msh friens' friendster acc profile.. those from the bowling team espically.... so sad k. aaha. majority of them hate their sch. haha. statements like.. ."wasted 3 yrs of my life in msh..".. "only like the bowling team...". hahahhaa. so funny k. msh like jail like that. as for me, kc.. well up til now, i like the sch coz of the bowling team.i like singapore because of bowling. its is bowling that i like stuff. i like ppl from bowling. haha. i love bowling.ahahha. okok. stop. haha. but yea. kc. was my 6th chioce.. "aiya.. anyhow put lar.. tml got to submit the form... 6th choice sure wun one lar.. wun b so sway..". haha. from mama. SHE'S WRONG. ahhaha.
POK JINSHENG. I STRONGLY DISAPPROVE U OF QUITTING BOWLING!!ahha.. did i freak u out> hahhahaha.
okko. my mind is thinkg alot. i've typed down muchof the thoughts. haha. there's more.. but also private ones. haha. yup. =). okok. shall end here.
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
sch was ok lar. duno y i feel so irritated again. the collar so tight. prractically canot breathe. failed ss. as usual. no talent in history at all.
anyways. i'm fighting wif myself. the happy marian in me is covered with thick cloud. trying to get out of bottomless pit. no one hears me. no one. only God. however, ppl around me are argh. its again, that negative thinking in me. this yr's board is too strong. meaning, eveyrone wants to do smth. and they are really insistant on their idea, unwilling to accecpt more comment/suggestions. i've decided to step back. see how they work. watch and observe. i can't go on fighting for my "own rights". its not worht it. its not gonna work. though of asking mrs sim that i juz wanna be a normal prefect. coz right, being one, ur suggestions are being heard. as an exco, no. so forget it.
after sch. during assembly. which was in class. tthe dance thing. i was told to bring my tap stuff along. friday and today. but then, she, keep telling me, no time. therefore, i again, gonna step back.
being quiet helps. but me, an expressive girl, can't. i needa vent vent vent.
after sch. trng!. was excited to yank the ball and whack the pins. i think ive injured or sprain my thumb. nvm. but i whack the pins hard. smiled throughout trng. mr jega came today. see how we train. hah.
i love bowling. i love the role of the capt as compared to exco.i have more say in things. on one can stop me. muahahah.. i juz love serving the team. but prefectorial board, i have so much doubts.
eg, gate guty. teachers are already complaining,.. y students are walking in while the annoucements are being made . and there's so so so many flaws lors. hah. so i going to ask vanessa to make me the exco incharge of gate. wanna make a difference. i guess with this authority.. i can do smth. rather than being one exco who juz shut up.
har. do i sound like a prefectionist?
tml.. i'm gooan go and find bowling shoes. mine is really too smalll.. get one good one,.. once and for all. hah.
last night. mama dreamt of anita mui. she said that they were having casual toks and all. she's been complaing to me that she has been dreamnin of the deads.. alot from dad. sis has been dreaming of dad. i haven. not even once since he died. i really want him back. no point harping and all.. but i really do. i am willing to give up bowlign for dad. serious.
ytd night, i dreamt that i was already playing for teens time.. together wif our youth pastor dennis... then i felt gd.. coz i could coordinate wif him. haha. yays. then later.. he gave a pat on my back and said "well done marian".. is that God speaking to me? i wanna tok 2 u God.
my internet suxs. evry pg i open, browse for like about 3mins. then close. waste my time lors. sch library coms are better. haiz. how. so much photos in my com. pls dun crash yet. oh pls. dun give me any more hurt feelings.
marian marian marian. haha. realised that more churh friends are getting blogs!. yay .haha., happy. i also wanna d.l photos from hp to com.. but my com is totally screwed. haiz.
haha. during chem.. was toking to sara about that gary genius.ahaa. planning to ask him to tutour sara and i chem and phy and all the sciences lar.. wif ss. haha. so at the same time, can be revision for him. hha.not reallly tutout lar.. juz go study wif us.. anything then ask him.aha. *gary. if u r reading this.. gd.haha. gd luck for ur prelims. haha.
so how?. wads my plan tml? today, when i woke up, i thank the Lord or giving me life. but in the afternoon, i did smth terribily bad and mischevious. totally contridicted my morning's short short prayer. shall not elaborate here.
okok. shall be gone.
anyways. i'm fighting wif myself. the happy marian in me is covered with thick cloud. trying to get out of bottomless pit. no one hears me. no one. only God. however, ppl around me are argh. its again, that negative thinking in me. this yr's board is too strong. meaning, eveyrone wants to do smth. and they are really insistant on their idea, unwilling to accecpt more comment/suggestions. i've decided to step back. see how they work. watch and observe. i can't go on fighting for my "own rights". its not worht it. its not gonna work. though of asking mrs sim that i juz wanna be a normal prefect. coz right, being one, ur suggestions are being heard. as an exco, no. so forget it.
after sch. during assembly. which was in class. tthe dance thing. i was told to bring my tap stuff along. friday and today. but then, she, keep telling me, no time. therefore, i again, gonna step back.
being quiet helps. but me, an expressive girl, can't. i needa vent vent vent.
after sch. trng!. was excited to yank the ball and whack the pins. i think ive injured or sprain my thumb. nvm. but i whack the pins hard. smiled throughout trng. mr jega came today. see how we train. hah.
i love bowling. i love the role of the capt as compared to exco.i have more say in things. on one can stop me. muahahah.. i juz love serving the team. but prefectorial board, i have so much doubts.
eg, gate guty. teachers are already complaining,.. y students are walking in while the annoucements are being made . and there's so so so many flaws lors. hah. so i going to ask vanessa to make me the exco incharge of gate. wanna make a difference. i guess with this authority.. i can do smth. rather than being one exco who juz shut up.
har. do i sound like a prefectionist?
tml.. i'm gooan go and find bowling shoes. mine is really too smalll.. get one good one,.. once and for all. hah.
last night. mama dreamt of anita mui. she said that they were having casual toks and all. she's been complaing to me that she has been dreamnin of the deads.. alot from dad. sis has been dreaming of dad. i haven. not even once since he died. i really want him back. no point harping and all.. but i really do. i am willing to give up bowlign for dad. serious.
ytd night, i dreamt that i was already playing for teens time.. together wif our youth pastor dennis... then i felt gd.. coz i could coordinate wif him. haha. yays. then later.. he gave a pat on my back and said "well done marian".. is that God speaking to me? i wanna tok 2 u God.
my internet suxs. evry pg i open, browse for like about 3mins. then close. waste my time lors. sch library coms are better. haiz. how. so much photos in my com. pls dun crash yet. oh pls. dun give me any more hurt feelings.
marian marian marian. haha. realised that more churh friends are getting blogs!. yay .haha., happy. i also wanna d.l photos from hp to com.. but my com is totally screwed. haiz.
haha. during chem.. was toking to sara about that gary genius.ahaa. planning to ask him to tutour sara and i chem and phy and all the sciences lar.. wif ss. haha. so at the same time, can be revision for him. hha.not reallly tutout lar.. juz go study wif us.. anything then ask him.aha. *gary. if u r reading this.. gd.haha. gd luck for ur prelims. haha.
so how?. wads my plan tml? today, when i woke up, i thank the Lord or giving me life. but in the afternoon, i did smth terribily bad and mischevious. totally contridicted my morning's short short prayer. shall not elaborate here.
okok. shall be gone.
Monday, August 23, 2004
waiting for them to pass me the diskette. argh. so now in librbary com. guess wad. their com is better then mine or.. and u know wad.. its faster and more accesible. juz that the banned s from d/ling msn. so sad right. haiz.
today. was very and super tired in sch. duno why also. i think mrs tang saw me slping in class. i feel super shit today. really. the exco board really need some trust lor. everybody and everyone wants to do smth. dun u all wanna slpit the wrk? yes, u al are exco. but hey. its about team wrk now, not so much of leading within the exco. u guys are leading the sch, not the board. and also, y get so wrked up when u all didn't get any annoucemetn? as in. u all realised and not being told. relax k. i'm also feeling this way. but really, u guys really need some trust and faith lors. steph is the head prefect. pls do, do do respect her as one and not "stealing/taking" away things she gotta do. yes. it seems stupid. but yea. its a fact. u all have passed the level to lead. wrking as a team is much more difficult than being a leader. its for me lar.
i wanna tell u guys. the last meeting, someone, as usual, cut my line... so i cannot continue. so forget it. btw, as i've mention, this is my blog. its my place and my world to tok shit and all... do not use any statement mention in my blog for serious business.. u can joke about me about my blog, but not go and spread stuff or comment to the world about it. its my life alright?
okok. no one is doing such stuff.. but juz a precaution. i've experienced this b4, not now but i do not want it to happen. haiz.
am i really anti-exco? i can't seem to relay my msg. why. its ok and challenging to be an exco. but so much pl wants to contribute. its like everyone. its gd. yes. but... pls, do not insist that ur idea or comment must be used or smth. be a team player can?
today. was very and super tired in sch. duno why also. i think mrs tang saw me slping in class. i feel super shit today. really. the exco board really need some trust lor. everybody and everyone wants to do smth. dun u all wanna slpit the wrk? yes, u al are exco. but hey. its about team wrk now, not so much of leading within the exco. u guys are leading the sch, not the board. and also, y get so wrked up when u all didn't get any annoucemetn? as in. u all realised and not being told. relax k. i'm also feeling this way. but really, u guys really need some trust and faith lors. steph is the head prefect. pls do, do do respect her as one and not "stealing/taking" away things she gotta do. yes. it seems stupid. but yea. its a fact. u all have passed the level to lead. wrking as a team is much more difficult than being a leader. its for me lar.
i wanna tell u guys. the last meeting, someone, as usual, cut my line... so i cannot continue. so forget it. btw, as i've mention, this is my blog. its my place and my world to tok shit and all... do not use any statement mention in my blog for serious business.. u can joke about me about my blog, but not go and spread stuff or comment to the world about it. its my life alright?
okok. no one is doing such stuff.. but juz a precaution. i've experienced this b4, not now but i do not want it to happen. haiz.
am i really anti-exco? i can't seem to relay my msg. why. its ok and challenging to be an exco. but so much pl wants to contribute. its like everyone. its gd. yes. but... pls, do not insist that ur idea or comment must be used or smth. be a team player can?
Sunday, August 22, 2004
argh. i swear that i can kill mr lim. he didn't tell us about the combines sch thingy k. this yr missed it. stupid. last yr.. bowled wif my groove ball.. which is bad. so i wanted to make a comeback this yr. and guess wad. i missed it. wow. i knew it only like this morning. argh. argh. i want to get in lor. keep trng and all. heard its at victors if i'm not wrong.. and victors is my most fav lanes!!!!. arh.hopes that yvonne lim wun be there.
today. after church.. when to pocket bowl for the womans 9 pin tap. and u know wad. its cancelled. so idiotic lors. coz not enogh bowlers. stupid. there goes the $150.. we payed $45 and all.. but then.. they refuned. so mad. so we juz go there and bowled on horrible-un-slideable lanes. then lyn and zen kept taking photos and videos using my phone. haha. wasted my time.
during church. was ok lar. pastor taught my class. sec 4s like have so much fun!!. so sad. i guess today, ppl reminded me of God. i have to keep on a close track wif Him. but i always find excuses. y?. i have to do smth about my walk wif God. Pastor dennis welcomed me on board into the worship team as a guitarist!. i'm happy. i guess that;s the ans from God. coz i've been asking God. when issit my time to serve in church? haha. God used His ppl!. yay. so have to go find jasper, learn from him ad then play by oct or nov? haha. i think its teens time first.
ok lar.recently, i haen been gg on sats. i see that many ppl are picking up guitar.. and loads of instru. i wanna play bass. but nobody heard me.haha. nvm. i guess i have to take my own step on my own path. wif God's guidence, i'm sure i can do it.
haiz. but, i still wanna bowl. my $150....
today. after church.. when to pocket bowl for the womans 9 pin tap. and u know wad. its cancelled. so idiotic lors. coz not enogh bowlers. stupid. there goes the $150.. we payed $45 and all.. but then.. they refuned. so mad. so we juz go there and bowled on horrible-un-slideable lanes. then lyn and zen kept taking photos and videos using my phone. haha. wasted my time.
during church. was ok lar. pastor taught my class. sec 4s like have so much fun!!. so sad. i guess today, ppl reminded me of God. i have to keep on a close track wif Him. but i always find excuses. y?. i have to do smth about my walk wif God. Pastor dennis welcomed me on board into the worship team as a guitarist!. i'm happy. i guess that;s the ans from God. coz i've been asking God. when issit my time to serve in church? haha. God used His ppl!. yay. so have to go find jasper, learn from him ad then play by oct or nov? haha. i think its teens time first.
ok lar.recently, i haen been gg on sats. i see that many ppl are picking up guitar.. and loads of instru. i wanna play bass. but nobody heard me.haha. nvm. i guess i have to take my own step on my own path. wif God's guidence, i'm sure i can do it.
haiz. but, i still wanna bowl. my $150....
Saturday, August 21, 2004
whahha. today is juz amazing lar. was at victors. screwed my first game.. mgs team 1 bowling beside us.. yvonne lim was there.. then got a 95, 175, 183,.. haha. wif the hcps.. it seems high... look ar.. 105, 185, 193..w hahahha. funy amazing ar, ok lar.the lanes were very easy. superly lor. i miss my target also can get strike.. coz my ball wil snap. shiok. yvoone lim whole time was toking mentallly lar. as in she was having a mental game.. could see that. then she got at 222, 215, 202. smth like that. haha. then the last game, 10th frame.. like having step ladder.. coz she got striek. then i got strike. then she got another strike.. and i think i got a 9? haha. damn funy. coz regina and i wanna beat her.. as in win her. coz regina is currntly 1st overall.. and she is 2nd.. so i think obviously, she has taken over regina.haha.interestin ar. then yar. we and regina whole time were making promises to get like 300. then lowered to 275...245..222....200..190. hahhaahahha. damn funy. well, it wrked.
1st game.. i keep sending too out... playing too in. wrong timing and all.. until uncle francis r. told me to stand at 22-25 and 3rd arrow.aahha. and whola. haha. there was a pocket strike after 4 consecqutive open gutters. ahhaa. amazing. another thing i learnt today was that.. "dun bowl as how u feel. bowl to suit the lane conditions.. " whichi t totally opp. form uncle jack."bowl using ur feelings!". ahha. but then.. uncle r statement was best for that time frame.
msh was bowling right at the end of the west, while we, kct1 was bowling right ot the east. haha. didn't get to see pri sch mate bowl.. haiz. haha. but today, they bowled well.. they got 4th. haha. gd ar.. for them lar. haha. overall.. for the day only. reggie got 2nd i got 8.. for girls.. wif the guys.haha. those strong ppl.. i kena pushed to 30. haha. and donna won me!. haiz haha. gd lar.haha. 1st game screwed. haa. nvm.. hopes to win. -most improved bowler-. haha.super funy.
after tt.. celebrated sam's bday.. jeff bought cake. ahha. ppl joined in and all.
then left for "meeting".. haha. went to settle the tchrs day stuff.. and all lar. ahha. was very veyr fun. i love the printing shoP! she's so understanding, responsible and flexible.ahhaa. so touching.. she also though us how to save money., so sweet right.. at bras baseh. haha.
then altter we all walked to bugis.. then took neos.. aha. and left them.. and joined back shu, regina, lyn, anuunar.. wif nicole. then later.. after awhiile. nic, lyn and anuaar left. then the 3 of us again. ahaha
really wanna thank them that i could b myself again. yea. haha. love it. love these ppl. i lvoe being mnyself. haha. wad.. coz after CA.. then relax. yay.a ha. i realised that i have diff. genre of friends. the smarts, the nerds, the funky, the cool. haha. everything. every single one of them is oo unique. ahha.
oh ya. kevin will be leaving sg for brunei for ns trng.haha. and cass has left sg for ny for studies for 2 yrs. so sad. ppl leave.
speaking abot leave. i guess i'm on my path of getting over daddy liao.. !!. yay. rejoice. half of my shackles is unlocked. yay. life is soo unexplainable lor. hopefully, i wun get locked again. but yea.. one is still on.. as in one shackles is stil on my ankle. get goota let go. still having emptiness. but i guess.. its the friends arund me that spurs me on. my passion and the passion that brings friends to me, passion of bowling. hah. love this game. i get wif reference to previous posts... i thinkits unspeakable loneliness... so wad if u know the whole wholrd wide worlld.. evry single one.. if one person close to u goes... u'll still be lonly. logical? makes sense?. to me lar.. yes. dadadadadada. can u imagine if he comes back?.. as in.. comes back physically forever. shiok man. then have complete family. now is like juz the pathetic 3 of us. sis not at home.. mama haiz.. its only dad that makes me happy. its him that makes mama happy. its him that makkes mama make me happy. i'm glad i have he's genes of which. i use them during mr pang's period!!. ahha. lovely. he also go around, making ppl feel comfortable, in his old uncle ways.. his smiles, his crap and his no-so intelligent mind which makes him so innocent. i really would wanna get a husband like my dad.
ahha. and u know wad..i saw my dad's young photo.. when he was in he's teens. he sooo cute k.. . super unromantic and cute. ahha
coz last time no hp.. so only through letters.. so papa.. and mama neighbours.. then alot of things happen.. cutely, liked each other. papa took the first step. gave mama his photo, at the back.. saying some romantc phrase.. eg.. the sun shines, my love like a flower grows by ur eyes.. "blah blah blah.. love, chin swee, ahahahhaha. i was laughing my head off. coz yound dad was like posing cursive hand writing. ahha. ove this man. he's cute man. haha. so shuai. hhaahahhaha. "gasp. only have eyes for ppapa.. tsk tsk
tml wil be bowling a pocket bowl. 9-pin tap after church. so sad.no trophy.. but but btu. got m0ney!!.ahha. yay. can keep money for jc!!..ahha. shiok.
ahha. i'm toking too much crap today.haha. juz a reminder....i love blogging as its a way for me to de-stress all the things burden in my heart.
1st game.. i keep sending too out... playing too in. wrong timing and all.. until uncle francis r. told me to stand at 22-25 and 3rd arrow.aahha. and whola. haha. there was a pocket strike after 4 consecqutive open gutters. ahhaa. amazing. another thing i learnt today was that.. "dun bowl as how u feel. bowl to suit the lane conditions.. " whichi t totally opp. form uncle jack."bowl using ur feelings!". ahha. but then.. uncle r statement was best for that time frame.
msh was bowling right at the end of the west, while we, kct1 was bowling right ot the east. haha. didn't get to see pri sch mate bowl.. haiz. haha. but today, they bowled well.. they got 4th. haha. gd ar.. for them lar. haha. overall.. for the day only. reggie got 2nd i got 8.. for girls.. wif the guys.haha. those strong ppl.. i kena pushed to 30. haha. and donna won me!. haiz haha. gd lar.haha. 1st game screwed. haa. nvm.. hopes to win. -most improved bowler-. haha.super funy.
after tt.. celebrated sam's bday.. jeff bought cake. ahha. ppl joined in and all.
then left for "meeting".. haha. went to settle the tchrs day stuff.. and all lar. ahha. was very veyr fun. i love the printing shoP! she's so understanding, responsible and flexible.ahhaa. so touching.. she also though us how to save money., so sweet right.. at bras baseh. haha.
then altter we all walked to bugis.. then took neos.. aha. and left them.. and joined back shu, regina, lyn, anuunar.. wif nicole. then later.. after awhiile. nic, lyn and anuaar left. then the 3 of us again. ahaha
really wanna thank them that i could b myself again. yea. haha. love it. love these ppl. i lvoe being mnyself. haha. wad.. coz after CA.. then relax. yay.a ha. i realised that i have diff. genre of friends. the smarts, the nerds, the funky, the cool. haha. everything. every single one of them is oo unique. ahha.
oh ya. kevin will be leaving sg for brunei for ns trng.haha. and cass has left sg for ny for studies for 2 yrs. so sad. ppl leave.
speaking abot leave. i guess i'm on my path of getting over daddy liao.. !!. yay. rejoice. half of my shackles is unlocked. yay. life is soo unexplainable lor. hopefully, i wun get locked again. but yea.. one is still on.. as in one shackles is stil on my ankle. get goota let go. still having emptiness. but i guess.. its the friends arund me that spurs me on. my passion and the passion that brings friends to me, passion of bowling. hah. love this game. i get wif reference to previous posts... i thinkits unspeakable loneliness... so wad if u know the whole wholrd wide worlld.. evry single one.. if one person close to u goes... u'll still be lonly. logical? makes sense?. to me lar.. yes. dadadadadada. can u imagine if he comes back?.. as in.. comes back physically forever. shiok man. then have complete family. now is like juz the pathetic 3 of us. sis not at home.. mama haiz.. its only dad that makes me happy. its him that makes mama happy. its him that makkes mama make me happy. i'm glad i have he's genes of which. i use them during mr pang's period!!. ahha. lovely. he also go around, making ppl feel comfortable, in his old uncle ways.. his smiles, his crap and his no-so intelligent mind which makes him so innocent. i really would wanna get a husband like my dad.
ahha. and u know wad..i saw my dad's young photo.. when he was in he's teens. he sooo cute k.. . super unromantic and cute. ahha
coz last time no hp.. so only through letters.. so papa.. and mama neighbours.. then alot of things happen.. cutely, liked each other. papa took the first step. gave mama his photo, at the back.. saying some romantc phrase.. eg.. the sun shines, my love like a flower grows by ur eyes.. "blah blah blah.. love, chin swee, ahahahhaha. i was laughing my head off. coz yound dad was like posing cursive hand writing. ahha. ove this man. he's cute man. haha. so shuai. hhaahahhaha. "gasp. only have eyes for ppapa.. tsk tsk
tml wil be bowling a pocket bowl. 9-pin tap after church. so sad.no trophy.. but but btu. got m0ney!!.ahha. yay. can keep money for jc!!..ahha. shiok.
ahha. i'm toking too much crap today.haha. juz a reminder....i love blogging as its a way for me to de-stress all the things burden in my heart.
Friday, August 20, 2004
aahaha. ok. ytd.. totally no time. k. ytd. went to sch.. and all.. then after sch. had prefects meeting again.. then left early for tuition wif nat... then tuiton was super long.. 3hrs of a maths. hah. was alive and then.. at 730... waited for bus to go air port to meet sara. then waited for the bus sooo long.. then finally reached there. ahaha. then left at 1030.. and reach home at 11 plus. eat dinner. ahaha. and then immediately proceeded wif the prefects stuufff/ do do do until like 1am.. then i was like.. argh.. didn't keep track of time. then rushed ,.. and nv practice maths and went to bed at 3?. haiz. so much hw not complete.
then today. exciting. so many ups and downs. in the morning.. 2nd day of exco duties. ahah. still not used to it and i think we shluld hvae a better way of doing duties as exco... then ya.. and u know wad.. i forgotteen totally about inside patrolling.. coz had to seee evelyn and so many teachers.. then was so disappointed lors..
in class.. a maths. hoho. the paper was so easy. that me and nat thonk too much till we lost. argh. not fair. i demand a challenging paper. then oday... chem was good. first tiem, mdn sheerema made the lesson interesting and gd. ahha. coz mrs tang and mrs koh was observing her. haha. then later... had exco meeting during recess. none of us keep track of tiem until eliz told us its 1044. .. then i think becoz of this, steph, forgot her duty. she's too stress. ahaa. has alot of expectations to keep up wif.. then anyway.. i went up to class... and gues wad.. i forgot to do grace!!!. argh. i missed 2 duites in 1 day. argh. wad kind of prefect lor. thank God geraldyne got help me take over wif charlene.. super duper guilty.
after recess.. ting xie... then left for international debate
hahaha, singapore and brunei.. combined.. aha. "this house believes that it is good to be a veterian...",. ahaha .live audience at caltercorp. aaha.(duno how to spell). then was gd lar..learn alot from that judged who spoke. proposition won! yay!. aahha. was gd. the last speak was funny lar.. "and for dessert...... we have spiniach brocolli ice cream.. appetitzers.. brocolli wif little veg oil.". ahaha. learnt alot. was the"briding minds" debate.. held every yr. this yr at singapore.
ok. the went back to sch.. ahah. wif all the blazierss. ahaha. so funny. then was walkig home.. wif nat.. then mr lim wanted to pass me smth impt. then in the end, ended up fetcing nat and i home. mr lim is super nice lor. he is really caring... as he was dropping nat off, he said.." natasha ar, be carful ar, the road slippery".. ahaha. nice guy. ahha. nice teacher.
then now at home. still in pinafore. ahhaa. w/o belt and unbutton collar. ahha. its alright right.. at home.ahahahaa. oook. anyway. tml, bowling at victors. will be my last day. hoping hard to get a 190 avg. haha. pray for easy oilings.. and super dry lanes. haha.
tchrs day coming.. then likevery stress.. and no time to do anything. ahha. have to clear all my work first. aha. hafta get new notebk liao. haha .okok.
currently using dad's com.. coz com got probs.. v scared crash.. so much photos inside.. ahaa. today's my dad 9th month!. fast eh.
then today. exciting. so many ups and downs. in the morning.. 2nd day of exco duties. ahah. still not used to it and i think we shluld hvae a better way of doing duties as exco... then ya.. and u know wad.. i forgotteen totally about inside patrolling.. coz had to seee evelyn and so many teachers.. then was so disappointed lors..
in class.. a maths. hoho. the paper was so easy. that me and nat thonk too much till we lost. argh. not fair. i demand a challenging paper. then oday... chem was good. first tiem, mdn sheerema made the lesson interesting and gd. ahha. coz mrs tang and mrs koh was observing her. haha. then later... had exco meeting during recess. none of us keep track of tiem until eliz told us its 1044. .. then i think becoz of this, steph, forgot her duty. she's too stress. ahaa. has alot of expectations to keep up wif.. then anyway.. i went up to class... and gues wad.. i forgot to do grace!!!. argh. i missed 2 duites in 1 day. argh. wad kind of prefect lor. thank God geraldyne got help me take over wif charlene.. super duper guilty.
after recess.. ting xie... then left for international debate
hahaha, singapore and brunei.. combined.. aha. "this house believes that it is good to be a veterian...",. ahaha .live audience at caltercorp. aaha.(duno how to spell). then was gd lar..learn alot from that judged who spoke. proposition won! yay!. aahha. was gd. the last speak was funny lar.. "and for dessert...... we have spiniach brocolli ice cream.. appetitzers.. brocolli wif little veg oil.". ahaha. learnt alot. was the"briding minds" debate.. held every yr. this yr at singapore.
ok. the went back to sch.. ahah. wif all the blazierss. ahaha. so funny. then was walkig home.. wif nat.. then mr lim wanted to pass me smth impt. then in the end, ended up fetcing nat and i home. mr lim is super nice lor. he is really caring... as he was dropping nat off, he said.." natasha ar, be carful ar, the road slippery".. ahaha. nice guy. ahha. nice teacher.
then now at home. still in pinafore. ahhaa. w/o belt and unbutton collar. ahha. its alright right.. at home.ahahahaa. oook. anyway. tml, bowling at victors. will be my last day. hoping hard to get a 190 avg. haha. pray for easy oilings.. and super dry lanes. haha.
tchrs day coming.. then likevery stress.. and no time to do anything. ahha. have to clear all my work first. aha. hafta get new notebk liao. haha .okok.
currently using dad's com.. coz com got probs.. v scared crash.. so much photos inside.. ahaa. today's my dad 9th month!. fast eh.
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
whaha. ok. today is really terible. the weather is so so stuffy. my classroom, oppsite this big red roof, reflects so much heat that it makes the classroom like as if its oven. my brain could not function during the last periods,. maths.. sara also. was goign mad laughing at little things. haha. big joke of the day man.. by mr pang.." do u think that by hitting the table u'll have a graph popped out infront of u??" haha. super funny.. he was having his constipated smile. whahhaa.
then after sch.. had our "executive lunch." ahhahah and our first exco meeting. hahah. kinda ok la. but i think we should organinse ourseleves alittle. too much things to be said. by me. haha. end
later. went to meet zen and reggie and lyn at swensans.. ****$1.39 for 5 scoops of ice cream leh. no joke. but must be b4 5. aha. cheap.. so is like so many students all there.. like massive canteen of icecream.. all ppl i uniform lor. the queue is alll students.
then went home.. played com till slp. ahha. amazing. then was bad lar. toking to ppl halfway then go like that. haha. then haven complete admin stuff and prefect stuff. haha. and.. A MATHS IS POSTPONED TO FRIDAY! arghs. ahaha. u guess wad. pang said smth lame again.. "haha, that means that u have one more day of agony to practice".. so ya.being quited messed up in class.. i started laughing. bursting into laughter. hahah.
ok lar. today quite lac. u know wad.. i feel like going out. tsk tsk. i must study. ahhaha. trying to find the discipline. hars.
juz found our demi and nigel's blog. ahha. nv tell me. aaha. ok lars. shall end here. i go eat my 1h dinnner. byes
then after sch.. had our "executive lunch." ahhahah and our first exco meeting. hahah. kinda ok la. but i think we should organinse ourseleves alittle. too much things to be said. by me. haha. end
later. went to meet zen and reggie and lyn at swensans.. ****$1.39 for 5 scoops of ice cream leh. no joke. but must be b4 5. aha. cheap.. so is like so many students all there.. like massive canteen of icecream.. all ppl i uniform lor. the queue is alll students.
then went home.. played com till slp. ahha. amazing. then was bad lar. toking to ppl halfway then go like that. haha. then haven complete admin stuff and prefect stuff. haha. and.. A MATHS IS POSTPONED TO FRIDAY! arghs. ahaha. u guess wad. pang said smth lame again.. "haha, that means that u have one more day of agony to practice".. so ya.being quited messed up in class.. i started laughing. bursting into laughter. hahah.
ok lar. today quite lac. u know wad.. i feel like going out. tsk tsk. i must study. ahhaha. trying to find the discipline. hars.
juz found our demi and nigel's blog. ahha. nv tell me. aaha. ok lars. shall end here. i go eat my 1h dinnner. byes
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
tired.today..lit was super easy but little time to write alot..
chem was a total mess. i knew how to do. then my mind keeps thinking too fast b4 i could write down, then i lost. then keep repeating until i confused. so iritatinn. then only 30mins. toatally no time. arghghg.
then today, bio and chem did experiments. very fun. hah. then skeleton and all aha.
then also, smth shocking happened, jaslin and i are added into the exco. shocked k. i was like.. sure mistake one lor. coz i think like so many pl doubt me. then like yar. aha. and guess wad. its true and its confirmed somemore.haha. congrats to steph, head prefect, and vanessa vicehead. and elizabeth seah, lizy, chia tsun, nat, shuhua, nicole and jaslin.. haha. i having mixed feelings lar. kinda scared.. coz from now on, have to be guai, and talk less. haha. took mee kinda long to digest that as a trainee, kenna promoted. haha. super funny.
then later.. had trng. very tired lors. siao. haha. after 1h, amazingly, gained energy and keep experimenting lines wif zen.but was mentally v tired.
then the sch league.. as in our sch one.. got trophy. shiok man. haha. i eyeing for top scorer. must man. ahah. hopefully will also win individual and team. so exciting. above all, mr jega wil be coming down. evenmore exciting.
next yr goona b roller coaster for me. so much challenges.. hahah. exciting. life is not juz about urself. haha. sudden;y thought of this. u can make a difference in a world. God uses ppl. I hope that through all these experiences and setbacks, i'll b able to rely and spend time wif God to mould me as a person. i mean.. a better one lar. haha. okok. =). i wanna thank God for open doors and opportunites. pls guide me wif ur light and use me wif the right focus, Lord. thanks.
chem was a total mess. i knew how to do. then my mind keeps thinking too fast b4 i could write down, then i lost. then keep repeating until i confused. so iritatinn. then only 30mins. toatally no time. arghghg.
then today, bio and chem did experiments. very fun. hah. then skeleton and all aha.
then also, smth shocking happened, jaslin and i are added into the exco. shocked k. i was like.. sure mistake one lor. coz i think like so many pl doubt me. then like yar. aha. and guess wad. its true and its confirmed somemore.haha. congrats to steph, head prefect, and vanessa vicehead. and elizabeth seah, lizy, chia tsun, nat, shuhua, nicole and jaslin.. haha. i having mixed feelings lar. kinda scared.. coz from now on, have to be guai, and talk less. haha. took mee kinda long to digest that as a trainee, kenna promoted. haha. super funny.
then later.. had trng. very tired lors. siao. haha. after 1h, amazingly, gained energy and keep experimenting lines wif zen.but was mentally v tired.
then the sch league.. as in our sch one.. got trophy. shiok man. haha. i eyeing for top scorer. must man. ahah. hopefully will also win individual and team. so exciting. above all, mr jega wil be coming down. evenmore exciting.
next yr goona b roller coaster for me. so much challenges.. hahah. exciting. life is not juz about urself. haha. sudden;y thought of this. u can make a difference in a world. God uses ppl. I hope that through all these experiences and setbacks, i'll b able to rely and spend time wif God to mould me as a person. i mean.. a better one lar. haha. okok. =). i wanna thank God for open doors and opportunites. pls guide me wif ur light and use me wif the right focus, Lord. thanks.
Monday, August 16, 2004
ok. my blog is like totally accessible. u type anything, my link sure up there. okok. anyways. today. quite a fruitful day.
first. sch. woke up 1/2h later than i supposed to. then rush rush rush and i was able to catch my usual bus!. wahah. ok. then sch..
bio test. hah. bad lars. its was likea 20 min tests only lors. argh. its easy. but all the q not specific enough. not sure wad they wanted.
then later... got back e maths. hoho. i actaully passed wif a B3. aha. super careless. all is like careless.. i calculated the gradient which is 6/9.. and i simplifeid it to 1/3.. brillant? and the rest was wrong and cost me 6 marks!. stupid. haha. then the rest is minor careless mistakes.. and graph not acccurate .haha i guess this is the best maths test i ever have in this yr. the most understood q. haha.
today this guy called "zhang feng qi" (i think) came ot our sch. haha. sch went wild and all. taiwan singer. haha. begged mrs tang to let the class go watch at the hall. aha. she agreed!. then those not interested and super unwilling to go, stayed in bio lab to watch video. aahha. damn scary lor. watched abortion. and like super scary. horrifying. the doc used metal stuff, insert it, and squash the baby sia. sooo evil lors. then steph say she watched a video.. "the silent scream". haha. also some abortion video. haa. coz when the baby at trimester stage, aka. 4-6months.. can feel liao and have developed nevrves cells accrding to steph. and then u know wad.. in that film, the baby actually open the mouth, to scream, but no sound.... while its being squashed and tear apart. arghh. i didn't get to watch. wasted. only could hear steph. must watch man. die die must watch. i think its super inhuamn and gross lors. can u imagine u kenna teared apart? i thank God for my life. serious.
ok.. after that.. had lunch in sch..and the 7 up coming exco had interview. wif 70 teachrs. ahha. alone.. ahha. then could see all 7 ppl kanchiong faces. haha. esp nat.haha. okok.
after that, went for guitar, and met up wif sara, ger, jerelene and theresa to go study at lao di fang. theresa and jerelene left at 530. ger at 8. me and sara at 920.. kao. i wasted the time from 415-530. could not focus and concentrate at all. then late.r. somehow, got back my momentum.. then shiong together wif sara. hha. ver fruitflul. btu still got alot alot of things i duno and cannot understand. aha
during this period, uncle gary was super helpful. he explain damn gd over the phone lar. and after that, i know how to do lors. pro right. hahha. i can't understand sara/ ger and tchrs chem lanuage but i can understadn his cem language. pro lar. he use gd examples. ahaa.
ok.. i juz finished my dinner. blogging and still trying to view the full page of this blog. haha. better chao.
first. sch. woke up 1/2h later than i supposed to. then rush rush rush and i was able to catch my usual bus!. wahah. ok. then sch..
bio test. hah. bad lars. its was likea 20 min tests only lors. argh. its easy. but all the q not specific enough. not sure wad they wanted.
then later... got back e maths. hoho. i actaully passed wif a B3. aha. super careless. all is like careless.. i calculated the gradient which is 6/9.. and i simplifeid it to 1/3.. brillant? and the rest was wrong and cost me 6 marks!. stupid. haha. then the rest is minor careless mistakes.. and graph not acccurate .haha i guess this is the best maths test i ever have in this yr. the most understood q. haha.
today this guy called "zhang feng qi" (i think) came ot our sch. haha. sch went wild and all. taiwan singer. haha. begged mrs tang to let the class go watch at the hall. aha. she agreed!. then those not interested and super unwilling to go, stayed in bio lab to watch video. aahha. damn scary lor. watched abortion. and like super scary. horrifying. the doc used metal stuff, insert it, and squash the baby sia. sooo evil lors. then steph say she watched a video.. "the silent scream". haha. also some abortion video. haa. coz when the baby at trimester stage, aka. 4-6months.. can feel liao and have developed nevrves cells accrding to steph. and then u know wad.. in that film, the baby actually open the mouth, to scream, but no sound.... while its being squashed and tear apart. arghh. i didn't get to watch. wasted. only could hear steph. must watch man. die die must watch. i think its super inhuamn and gross lors. can u imagine u kenna teared apart? i thank God for my life. serious.
ok.. after that.. had lunch in sch..and the 7 up coming exco had interview. wif 70 teachrs. ahha. alone.. ahha. then could see all 7 ppl kanchiong faces. haha. esp nat.haha. okok.
after that, went for guitar, and met up wif sara, ger, jerelene and theresa to go study at lao di fang. theresa and jerelene left at 530. ger at 8. me and sara at 920.. kao. i wasted the time from 415-530. could not focus and concentrate at all. then late.r. somehow, got back my momentum.. then shiong together wif sara. hha. ver fruitflul. btu still got alot alot of things i duno and cannot understand. aha
during this period, uncle gary was super helpful. he explain damn gd over the phone lar. and after that, i know how to do lors. pro right. hahha. i can't understand sara/ ger and tchrs chem lanuage but i can understadn his cem language. pro lar. he use gd examples. ahaa.
ok.. i juz finished my dinner. blogging and still trying to view the full page of this blog. haha. better chao.
Sunday, August 15, 2004
argh. freak. my com i think got virus. and my pcclin say "congradulations. pcclin did not find any virus.", argh. coz i can't open inter webs. some can open.. then loading halfway, the rest all dun load. eg my blog.. load till the archive part then dun load liao. argh.
ok. anyways. church. today, i realised that i love church. i really do each time when i go. its the ppl. the fellowship. after i step out, i feel different. as in not different to that big extent. i dun feel as enthusitic. hmmms. benjamin finally played for teens time! haha. he better teach me how to strum. hmmms. i duno whether issit time for me to serve in the music ministry or not.. God... show me ur plans and way mans. ahhaa.
ok. after that.. poochie, andrew chua, nigey and daniel w got rugby match.. ahha. under 16 at RI. wasted. all our church ruggers playing..wasted. had to study. so i din't go. haiz. ended up at airport
wif geraldyne and theresa. aha. was v tired. i didn't finish studying. coz took up too much time in chem. and i also realised, that my attention span seems to be declining. i have, i must study alone. argh. haha. turning into a loner. hahah. but yeea. its me.
juz got home. hah. facing mucch difficulties wif opening webs. mayb its the Lord, wanting me to study. haha. God works in sooo many ways. aww. theen i could actually oopen my friendster, after so many attempts to. then got 4 msgs. haha. from 4 unknown guys. aha. wth.. "can i have to honour to know u.. ".ahhaha. damn funny. then rest all samasama. all intro and stuff. haha. argh. get it right. i wun add u unless i've seen or know u b4. muahhaha.
gonna miss cass...flying to ny this fri. to study at the university? for 2.5yrs. haiz. there goes one bubbily apple. ahah. i shall be another 1~!. hhhhaha.
yups. aha. goonna go off soon..
*ps: ppl who tag. sorry if i dun reply.. coz i can't go into my blog but i can amazingly blog and go to cerain ppl's site. aahaha.
ok. anyways. church. today, i realised that i love church. i really do each time when i go. its the ppl. the fellowship. after i step out, i feel different. as in not different to that big extent. i dun feel as enthusitic. hmmms. benjamin finally played for teens time! haha. he better teach me how to strum. hmmms. i duno whether issit time for me to serve in the music ministry or not.. God... show me ur plans and way mans. ahhaa.
ok. after that.. poochie, andrew chua, nigey and daniel w got rugby match.. ahha. under 16 at RI. wasted. all our church ruggers playing..wasted. had to study. so i din't go. haiz. ended up at airport
wif geraldyne and theresa. aha. was v tired. i didn't finish studying. coz took up too much time in chem. and i also realised, that my attention span seems to be declining. i have, i must study alone. argh. haha. turning into a loner. hahah. but yeea. its me.
juz got home. hah. facing mucch difficulties wif opening webs. mayb its the Lord, wanting me to study. haha. God works in sooo many ways. aww. theen i could actually oopen my friendster, after so many attempts to. then got 4 msgs. haha. from 4 unknown guys. aha. wth.. "can i have to honour to know u.. ".ahhaha. damn funny. then rest all samasama. all intro and stuff. haha. argh. get it right. i wun add u unless i've seen or know u b4. muahhaha.
gonna miss cass...flying to ny this fri. to study at the university? for 2.5yrs. haiz. there goes one bubbily apple. ahah. i shall be another 1~!. hhhhaha.
yups. aha. goonna go off soon..
*ps: ppl who tag. sorry if i dun reply.. coz i can't go into my blog but i can amazingly blog and go to cerain ppl's site. aahaha.
Saturday, August 14, 2004
hhmmms.. wells. start wif happy thoughts first.
today went to tampines.. first, went to check my overall position.. haha. 5th!!! out of 55 girls. so happy. 1st regina. then 2nd is yvonne lim i think.. 3 is duno who. then 5th is zen, tied wif kawai. steady ar. kaiwai is sports sch one. ahha. then me!. haha. yay. then ok. thats its. happy.
bowling time.
msh was bowling on lane 10, we at 8. so could see lar. wyane is pro. haha. then finally got to see billy bowled. haha. then later.. ppl came, familiar faces and all. rodney rmbred me!. ahah. faithful sch mate. haha. sam also came.haha. he was in sch u.alot of msh bowlers..then saw uncle francis, alot of familiar ppl. then this wk is like very chiong. coz all the gerald yeo and all, all bowling today. ahha. sway sia.
so i bowled
was bad. really bad. firstly i really canot find my line. found it at the beginning of 2nd game only at lane 8... 7 was super diff. then kao... 8 frame lost the line again. then like whole day bowl, whole day thick oiling. hate it. jeffery said that sam's lane is like dry. argh. not fair!. ahha. i demand dry lanes. haha. coz dry lanes, crankers dies. haha. spinners also dies. haha
in the end, chalked up a 110 149 136. stupid avg plus hcp is 141. so irritating!!!.. my dream kenna ruined. i have to go masters. ahha. top 20 boys and 20 girls. haha. today zen bowled consistantly as weell. overall.. our team did very badly. lost to sam's team. ahha. their team this wk is all seniors mah.. so yar..
after game. sat wif sam, jeff and shu. then was waiting for scores. i think it was sji and barker who played so long. i guess lane broke down. haha. then toked to kevin. so poor thing. have to go trng in brunei. haha NS.hahha. future warrior.
then later.. went to tm to makan wif shu. zen and all pang sei us. so nvm. haa. we took 67 there.then the pro bowlers wif kev took same bus as us. their conversatoin damn funny. haha. some of the guys took public transport for like the 1st or 2nd time!!? haha. paing. haha.
reached there. walked to tm and the lost them. ahha. then at the traffic light, say billy, rodney, sam, and i think colin?... yar. then said hi and continued our way to food court!!> haha. ate food.
then walked around. and went into the yahama guitar shop!. ahha. somuch nice guitars man. really. i love the acoustic guitars. the electric and all. argh. ahahha
then took neoprints. wif out bowling balls.!. aha. so fun. first time i take wif shuneng. haha. finally sia. missing sam. the 3 musketeers. ahaha
then now came home,. goona go to study soon.
haha. shu and i. first time taking neos. ahaha. wif bowling balls somemore. most tiring photo i've ever taken. haha
today went to tampines.. first, went to check my overall position.. haha. 5th!!! out of 55 girls. so happy. 1st regina. then 2nd is yvonne lim i think.. 3 is duno who. then 5th is zen, tied wif kawai. steady ar. kaiwai is sports sch one. ahha. then me!. haha. yay. then ok. thats its. happy.
bowling time.
msh was bowling on lane 10, we at 8. so could see lar. wyane is pro. haha. then finally got to see billy bowled. haha. then later.. ppl came, familiar faces and all. rodney rmbred me!. ahah. faithful sch mate. haha. sam also came.haha. he was in sch u.alot of msh bowlers..then saw uncle francis, alot of familiar ppl. then this wk is like very chiong. coz all the gerald yeo and all, all bowling today. ahha. sway sia.
so i bowled
was bad. really bad. firstly i really canot find my line. found it at the beginning of 2nd game only at lane 8... 7 was super diff. then kao... 8 frame lost the line again. then like whole day bowl, whole day thick oiling. hate it. jeffery said that sam's lane is like dry. argh. not fair!. ahha. i demand dry lanes. haha. coz dry lanes, crankers dies. haha. spinners also dies. haha
in the end, chalked up a 110 149 136. stupid avg plus hcp is 141. so irritating!!!.. my dream kenna ruined. i have to go masters. ahha. top 20 boys and 20 girls. haha. today zen bowled consistantly as weell. overall.. our team did very badly. lost to sam's team. ahha. their team this wk is all seniors mah.. so yar..
after game. sat wif sam, jeff and shu. then was waiting for scores. i think it was sji and barker who played so long. i guess lane broke down. haha. then toked to kevin. so poor thing. have to go trng in brunei. haha NS.hahha. future warrior.
then later.. went to tm to makan wif shu. zen and all pang sei us. so nvm. haa. we took 67 there.then the pro bowlers wif kev took same bus as us. their conversatoin damn funny. haha. some of the guys took public transport for like the 1st or 2nd time!!? haha. paing. haha.
reached there. walked to tm and the lost them. ahha. then at the traffic light, say billy, rodney, sam, and i think colin?... yar. then said hi and continued our way to food court!!> haha. ate food.
then walked around. and went into the yahama guitar shop!. ahha. somuch nice guitars man. really. i love the acoustic guitars. the electric and all. argh. ahahha
then took neoprints. wif out bowling balls.!. aha. so fun. first time i take wif shuneng. haha. finally sia. missing sam. the 3 musketeers. ahaha
then now came home,. goona go to study soon.
haha. shu and i. first time taking neos. ahaha. wif bowling balls somemore. most tiring photo i've ever taken. haha
Friday, August 13, 2004
today.. nothing much happen. sch as usual...morning inside patrolling.. coughed out blood 2 times!!. ahha. wadeva. today.. e geog. not gonna do well. basket.. chpt 1 came out. teacher say on chpt 5. or issit 4. haa. the maunfacturing one. i switched to e geog lehs.. then chpt 1 i like nv b4.
after sch. was prefect meeting. ahha. sort of. the upcoming exco starting to have the exco-y tone. some of them. argh. not used to it. today, i realised that laughing alot helps. it helps u cure stress? ahaha. then yar lors. tml will being bowling 2nd block of 3 gmaes at tampines. will be exciting and interesting. hha. hopes to get into masters though. haha. super high aim. haha. let's pray for super dry lanes. crankers die. muahaha.
ok. that's about it. today watch the chnl 8 drama series. 9pm on. this guy said, "sometimes i feel empty, like something missing inside but i cannot use waords to describe...." then i was like. kao! issn't that my feeling,haha. and my line!. aha. then the girl.. a comforter lar.. say.. "i guess its loneliness.. blah blah blah...". whaha.
then i thought. me?lonely? haha. gotta be crazt. got so much friends liao. also, i like to wrk independantly. ahha. lonely? hmmms. maybe
after sch. was prefect meeting. ahha. sort of. the upcoming exco starting to have the exco-y tone. some of them. argh. not used to it. today, i realised that laughing alot helps. it helps u cure stress? ahaha. then yar lors. tml will being bowling 2nd block of 3 gmaes at tampines. will be exciting and interesting. hha. hopes to get into masters though. haha. super high aim. haha. let's pray for super dry lanes. crankers die. muahaha.
ok. that's about it. today watch the chnl 8 drama series. 9pm on. this guy said, "sometimes i feel empty, like something missing inside but i cannot use waords to describe...." then i was like. kao! issn't that my feeling,haha. and my line!. aha. then the girl.. a comforter lar.. say.. "i guess its loneliness.. blah blah blah...". whaha.
then i thought. me?lonely? haha. gotta be crazt. got so much friends liao. also, i like to wrk independantly. ahha. lonely? hmmms. maybe
Thursday, August 12, 2004
today kinda sux lar. let begin. in da morning. wake up... legs all jelly and like cnanot feel. then took me like 3mins to stand up and walk. then bathe and all.. and cough out blood. haha. it was slimy, dark brown and had blood streaks in it. like wad sia. haha. then i was like.. ermm. ya. so... hmm. how?. haha
then nvm. coz to prevent mama from nagging, i did not wake her up to accompany me to the lift. coz my corridor is damn freaky lar. ppl can hide there. so everyday i take the stairs. but it is only on the days that i have bowling that i need to do this. then today.. i carried my bowling bag. down the wonderful stairs. 6 storeys. cool eh. then cannot breathe proprply. like short breath. basket. nv such thing happen b4 lor.
then reached sch... slept in canteen again. then wasn't feeling healthy and jovail and all.. then drag myself up to class..and immediately sat down on my chair. could not breathe at all. sara was 'helping' me with breathing excerises... and immediately was eng ca. dnno wad i wrote. was in lala land. then later.. i had nose bleed . kept coughing. had flu and slight fever. haiz. today also e maths paper. thatnk god that i finished the paper juzt in time. was confident througout the paper despite the fact that i had no mood to do anything ytd.. btw. i think the exco for prefects out liao. got 1 person i feel that is not apporiate to improve the bboard. haha. okok. anyways..
after sch. ate lunch. went to tampines to train. b4 that, vomitted out my lunch and was feeling super tired. during trng. died for a little.. then juniors in my lane also v tired.. so i kept bowling. then i felt hyper. very hyper. kept going and going. then zen came to my lane. hah.
went home. started geog. couldn't take it, so slept.
then woke up by mama, forcing me to go doc. half dead by then. then doc say wad.. i got asthema b4. and might be having smth like a 'relaspe' but not. wad the hell lors. pls lar. i'm a sport person. erm yar. i dance and bowl. i need breath. i run i jump. i need breath. argh i dun want my air supply to be cut off so sooon.
then had dinner then now resting at com. talked to gary. realised that i didn't like serious tok or juz tok wif him for very long liao. bz ppl cannot find time. ahha. finanlly. i guess he reminded some important thigns that i have been lacking. seriously, i really cannot cannot focus. juz cannot. studying will think of bowling. bowling will think of sch. or ppl. in class would wanna slp. gary this person is amazing lar. we nv tok face to face b4, knew each other for so long, see each other almost everyday and yet, he knows how i'm feelign and thinking. kinda rare lar. even sara or geraldyne dun really know wads going on i my head lar. this uncle really good sia. amaze me. smtimes i wonder. how can he like manage his time so well. he's super bright lar. haha. this brings me back to my personal quiet time. i really really really have no no disccipline to do any qt. i feel that studies and time to replenish energy is more impt than qt?. this si so super rubbish lor.
wads wif me. am i really stress or is it juz deep physcological prob.
haha. today i cut myself. as in accidentally.. coz was playing wif pen knife. cutting my keychain. then cut my finger. thank god not right hand. but its my lef index. kinda deep and kept bleedin. ahha. i bleed from everywhere sia. nose, mouth, fingers. haha. but i felt pain. haha. yay. i'm human!
anyways. i realised smth too. i feel tt it is not as effective to tok to sara n gel than gary. amazing. this guy whom i know but duno. haha. but seriously. dad is really really affecting me. y y y. mama and melissa say i dun love him and i dun care about him and the family. is it all true. u ppl are connfusing me. i cannot stand my ground or be sure of how i feel. how. pls lar. gimme a break. and dad. why must u leave. u super irritating can. can come back anot. basket. u all ppl juz go like that. all of u, dad, diane, shaun. y. devil sux. u take away the gd. u cause me mental blockage. u give me pressure. wad to do. u are evil. 'papa, pl take a photoof me'. hah. wadeva. u come back and do that lar. i really dun undertand lors.. how can one's death cause so so much probs in one life. y.
this wk is ca wk. and yet. i have hw. how. btw. got back cheena. got lowest in class. i got 29..5/55. the 2nd lowest is 38/55 look at the gap. congrats to mel.haha. 43! ( or issit 41?). our sch did well for cheena o's. well done to the 4e ppl.and also 4na, 5 ppl. ok. gtg go now and really now/
then nvm. coz to prevent mama from nagging, i did not wake her up to accompany me to the lift. coz my corridor is damn freaky lar. ppl can hide there. so everyday i take the stairs. but it is only on the days that i have bowling that i need to do this. then today.. i carried my bowling bag. down the wonderful stairs. 6 storeys. cool eh. then cannot breathe proprply. like short breath. basket. nv such thing happen b4 lor.
then reached sch... slept in canteen again. then wasn't feeling healthy and jovail and all.. then drag myself up to class..and immediately sat down on my chair. could not breathe at all. sara was 'helping' me with breathing excerises... and immediately was eng ca. dnno wad i wrote. was in lala land. then later.. i had nose bleed . kept coughing. had flu and slight fever. haiz. today also e maths paper. thatnk god that i finished the paper juzt in time. was confident througout the paper despite the fact that i had no mood to do anything ytd.. btw. i think the exco for prefects out liao. got 1 person i feel that is not apporiate to improve the bboard. haha. okok. anyways..
after sch. ate lunch. went to tampines to train. b4 that, vomitted out my lunch and was feeling super tired. during trng. died for a little.. then juniors in my lane also v tired.. so i kept bowling. then i felt hyper. very hyper. kept going and going. then zen came to my lane. hah.
went home. started geog. couldn't take it, so slept.
then woke up by mama, forcing me to go doc. half dead by then. then doc say wad.. i got asthema b4. and might be having smth like a 'relaspe' but not. wad the hell lors. pls lar. i'm a sport person. erm yar. i dance and bowl. i need breath. i run i jump. i need breath. argh i dun want my air supply to be cut off so sooon.
then had dinner then now resting at com. talked to gary. realised that i didn't like serious tok or juz tok wif him for very long liao. bz ppl cannot find time. ahha. finanlly. i guess he reminded some important thigns that i have been lacking. seriously, i really cannot cannot focus. juz cannot. studying will think of bowling. bowling will think of sch. or ppl. in class would wanna slp. gary this person is amazing lar. we nv tok face to face b4, knew each other for so long, see each other almost everyday and yet, he knows how i'm feelign and thinking. kinda rare lar. even sara or geraldyne dun really know wads going on i my head lar. this uncle really good sia. amaze me. smtimes i wonder. how can he like manage his time so well. he's super bright lar. haha. this brings me back to my personal quiet time. i really really really have no no disccipline to do any qt. i feel that studies and time to replenish energy is more impt than qt?. this si so super rubbish lor.
wads wif me. am i really stress or is it juz deep physcological prob.
haha. today i cut myself. as in accidentally.. coz was playing wif pen knife. cutting my keychain. then cut my finger. thank god not right hand. but its my lef index. kinda deep and kept bleedin. ahha. i bleed from everywhere sia. nose, mouth, fingers. haha. but i felt pain. haha. yay. i'm human!
anyways. i realised smth too. i feel tt it is not as effective to tok to sara n gel than gary. amazing. this guy whom i know but duno. haha. but seriously. dad is really really affecting me. y y y. mama and melissa say i dun love him and i dun care about him and the family. is it all true. u ppl are connfusing me. i cannot stand my ground or be sure of how i feel. how. pls lar. gimme a break. and dad. why must u leave. u super irritating can. can come back anot. basket. u all ppl juz go like that. all of u, dad, diane, shaun. y. devil sux. u take away the gd. u cause me mental blockage. u give me pressure. wad to do. u are evil. 'papa, pl take a photoof me'. hah. wadeva. u come back and do that lar. i really dun undertand lors.. how can one's death cause so so much probs in one life. y.
this wk is ca wk. and yet. i have hw. how. btw. got back cheena. got lowest in class. i got 29..5/55. the 2nd lowest is 38/55 look at the gap. congrats to mel.haha. 43! ( or issit 41?). our sch did well for cheena o's. well done to the 4e ppl.and also 4na, 5 ppl. ok. gtg go now and really now/
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