crisis

sorry, dates of the posts are no longer the dates of events that happened.


1. Japan's tsunami + nuclear explosion.
2. first time in history Blacks has ever lost the championship title; to Bedok Kings, formerly known as SRC.
3. 24hr bowling

4. i've got a new job! (: i'm no longer that free now.




ok. the tsunami's probably like a wake up call.
it was oh so smooth sailing until devastating news of the tsunami blasted throughout all news telecast.


Finals of the rugby league was last sat, 12 march.
it was the date when Blacks lost her championship title for the first time. and it was the first time that tears of sorrow flowed down upon for Blacks; looking at the normal muddy ccab pitch. ok. full time was 10-10. then with extra time... it went to bedok kings 15-10. but yea. the team's much more organized this yr with their new coach. and i guess also because of all the club shareholders probs and hence the change in club ownership literally, the club has been through quite alot tgt.
on our side, i guess it really all voiced down to our attitude towards trngs. what u do in trngs will reflect out loud in game.
before this whole new generation of new blood came into the team, the team was much more aggressive, condescending (in a gd way), and very competitively driven. me being included in the new blood. i guess my 'batch' was probably like the crossover. before me, i think trngs were more focused and mentally intense.
this was the first time Blacks could send 2 teams to a 15s league. dun get me wrong. i mean, new blood is good. more women playing rugby competitively is good. but i guess before we even want to put on that Blacks jersey, we should all think twice if we are even worthy of it considering how hard our forefathers mothers fought to put where Blacks' name is now then.

i felt it.
its a darn good wake up call for me.
personally, i honestly feel more driven to do my own fitness and build up my own shoulders and fight back hard for the club's name. procrastination has shown its price and its something that has cost us so so much.
its not just a skin deep pinch. more like a battered and bruised root.




that aside.




U Sports 24hr bowling. 9am-6pm was the qualifying rounds. 9pm- 9am was the finals.
a total of 72 games was needed to be bowled by a team of not more that 15 ppl. each team probably had on the avg of 12ppl.
my team qualified. went down occ at 10pm and found out that i wasn't being registered because of miscomm.
was quite upset initially coz i gave up my biking adventure races (which was so darn coincidental, with the event also starting from 9pm - 9am) . but ok luh. looking at how strong the competition was and how 'consistent' my bowling trng has been, i just gave moral support ya. hahahas.

but it was fun!! (: like seriously. my team mates are just rubbishly funny but though some of us knew each other personally for the first time, it felt like we have known each other for a long long time. i mean we haven known each other since like yrs yrs ago, but it was only last last night that we started talking like that. hahahas.

the competition was tough though it was supposedly a fun bowl. it can never be fun if $$$ is involved in the prize. hahas. so not bad, our team came in 3rd! hahahs. (:
wanted to take photo together but i was the photographer. i mean coz its sucha rare chance that all of us can be tgt for once though.
hhahahas.


and u know, it was a saturday to begin with. with stl in the morng, a devastating rugby finals after that, and the team dinner following that, and finally with the 'day' ending on a sunday morng at occ, i was burnt. riding home was like a game to stay awake on the cold it-just-rained roads.
homed finally. i bathed, and crashed. till 3pm. woke up to eat. and slpt at 5pm till 8pm. whole sunday gone like that. mum ditched the outing as well. ): so did the celebration for my friend's bday coz she was sick.




U Sports all the way lah. ahhas. my touch team also sponsored by them. then everywhere's Usportsss. haahas.


i tied her hair too! hahahhhahas.


so some girly instincts in me too k! hahaas. nice right!


never in a tournament will u have so many trophies. top 8. each team, 15 ppl. so mathematically, (15 x 12 + 1) trophies on the table.


3rd!


trying to stay awake man!





that aside.


amanda's shop's opened at SMU arldy!!!! (: kinda excited for her. can sense her excitement. haahas. all u SMU students, go OhmyFruits to support her ya! she's opening on tues! (: hahas. so proud of her ya.








that aside.



finally got a job.
decided this job over the clinical one that uncle/dr. heng nung recommended me to. hahhas.
the job's with bel kok. HAHHAS.
(:
so lovin the job. coz its good pay and really OTOT TTM. its like a courier service kinda thing.. but more towards installation/technical stuff on those NETS machine. so its like a partner job with her to complete all the tasks to be done in one day, travelling tgt on our bikes. hahahhahahas.
vs mac delivery, its so much fun and chillax with good $$$$$$$$. i am so gg to be rich and i am gg to buy my $300 underwater cam. (havent decide which one yet though) hahahas.

and i'm kinda sad that i started only working this job so late. imagine if i'd work in jan/feb. i could have been like how may K richer.
oh wells. BA WO SHI JIAN.



so now with more things to do, i think i can be more proactive in my editing of photos/ videos.
procrastination will then be secondary since i'm more careful with my time now. (: hip hip hurray!


good night. work tmr again!

its been raining

since 12pm till 2am, the rain hasn't stop.

in the rain,
surya passed her prac 2! (mine's tmr! *cross fingers*)
there was trng at ccab today.
i went for tp social touch.


was fun to play social touch. it kinda felt like fitness. my thighs were aching after that. and since i'm in season, i'm supposed to be fit and not achy. hahas. but yea. social touch never fail to make me laugh till my stomach pain. hahas.




not that i want to be negative.
but i feel emo now.
maybe its the rain, and no, i'm not trying to blame the rain entirely for it.



the team list out and then again, i'm just getting so used to not see my name in it.
i didn't really expect anything, seriously.
but i just can't help feeling negative when i've there was this under mining desire there ya.






UGH. it'll be over soon.
next wk, i'm gg to be WORKING! (everyone say 'FINALLY' together now.) hahas.
either a bike delivery job or a clinical job.
the wierd thing is, when i accepted the bike job, the VERY NEXT DAY, i got offered a clinical job.
no, i haven't been job hunting. but really thanks to my wide social network, ppl somehow rmbr me. HAH. that's a skill YA. hahhahahahhas. not that i'm proud of it, but i'm just thankful.

i would have gone for the clinical admin job. coz its kinda flexible and not in the rain. hahas. the bike job would be fun coz it's gg to be with bel and i duno what to expect. hahas.


oh wells. see where the wind takes me, literally. when it starts all rainy and all, i might just quit the bike job and go for the clinical job.


in the meantime, recruitments are near!! heard that the fire and rescue one is open. but i've kinda psyched up myself for the paramedic one / snr officer. not only i want to enjoy my job, but i'm looking at the $$ as well ya. i dun go sim for nothing. i'm happy with a paper from TP though the society says its not enough ya.

up

my biggest mistake in life is being afraid to make mistakes.



one good thing i did on the field today was stepping in when i didnt have space on the outside. but wasted coz i didn't believe in my step. after gg through, i should have just continued bursting. like got shocked or smth. HAIZ.
made many booboos on the field also. felt that i was a liability to the full back/ out centre. as in like.. i think i wasn't aggressive as i should/can be.


that aside.
its the last game for Blacks Bravo for the season tonight! ahhas.
we managed to get 3rd out of the 5 teams. 4 clubs that is. coz Blacks sent in 2 teams.


many things to work on:
1) tackling: i wanna build up my shoulders for next season and put them to good use.
2) fitness: i wanna be more useful 24/7 on the field.


that 2 goals' enough to make me do many many things.
with that accomplished, i can be a more confident and aggressive player.
when one's not confident, is really as good as not playing. not only u are not contributing, u are being a liability. u're not gg to be the best u can be. and in that neither here nor there situation, its just not very helpful for the team and urself.


honestly ah, i'm sick and tired of being so sluggish. so afraid to do this do that. so afraid to make mistakes and be so bothered abt what ppl think of me. u know what. WHO CARES. grow up man. its time i start being confident and be the best of who i can become.

season

pretty much at the peak of my rugby / touch season now.
ok. no.
intensity there, but not really of my personal peak ya.


but yea, each trng, each game, each journey, i am learning.


been trng almost 6 days a wk. last sat took a 6hr bus up to KL at 9am. played a 33min game. (so not welcomed by the heavy downpour and lightning warnings) and flew back in 30mins to reach sg at 11pm.


been seeing my rugby friends more than anyone else.
and life's still the same for me; still waiting for the may intake for paramedic. recruitment starts in march. and i'm looking forward to it. i seriously thought through studying physiotherapy and i know i'd probaby do well in that field. but i dun wan to take another 3 yrs to do another diploma. that may be my long term plan vs my aerospace engineer LT future.
having said all that, i'm kinda alittle scared that i've been given so much time for rugby now, that i dun treasure all the trng time i have. u know.. ppl tend to treasure the things in relation.



haiz.
but honestly. in the midst of all the games.. contacttouchbowingcontacttouchcontactcontacttouch... nothing's really much happening in my life. spiritually, i'm probably all time low. like so low that i know i can't go lower anymore.hahas. that may be a good sign.


u know. i still want to be able to play the piano and violin... the read notes kind and not just hear and play anyhow.
and honestly, i still believe in my music talent more than whatever i am doing now. all along, it feels that i'm probably denying my talent in music and pursuing a more sporty lifestyle which yes, i enjoy, but do not get the satisfaction i get from music.



all that aside, through fb, found out that amanda's dog passed away.
i dont have deep feelings for animals. interacted with amanda's dog a few times only. but when i realized that he's gone, i kinda felt something. didnt realize that my heart do have a space for animals. but yea. if i can feel something, i duno what the teo family's gg through. though i think it's kinda different from losing a human. maybe something more deep and unexplainable.






i'm supposed to be editing wedding photos/ making wedding vids.. but i'm like.. no.1 procrastinator.



and now that i have time, my mind drifts to that foribben place of u.
and in 3 days, it could have been a 6yr feat.
anyone knows any remedy on how i can really let go of the past? its really not that i want to. but i can't. i did succeed during dec last yr. but it was probably just temporary. now its better luh.
i'm still waiting for all of us to grow up. when we're all older and more mature to face the past, look back and be able to scrutinize our actions and say how childish we were.
i'm just looking for an opportunity to clear the mess up yea. i'm 100% sure u've let the past go like as if nothing has ever happened before. on somedays, i give myself the 2% benefit of doubt and replace it with false hope.




from all the messthings and thoughts thats gg on now, i commit them to God.
only He never fail.

2A L1

first prac for 2A.

can't do pylon sylon. i keep clutching in. coz must be in gear 2 but like no energy like that leh. hahahs. scared stall.
plank like steady only. got 9sec also. ahahhas.

but omg. the difference of the bike vs my spark is huge la. i think its a yamaha ybr250.
SSDC use CB400 i think.



ok. and i can't put the bike on mainstand. ): 4pts if i can't do it.
and 4pts for each time i clutch in.




oh man.





then after lesson, hahas. saw a white slip on my bike. surya also kena. coz ubi there no parking for bikes leh. so alot of bikes just park outside the driving sch. ahhas. on pavement. FINE from CISCO. tmd. $70 i think. hahhahahs.
so much for saying "wah 1 yr on bike alrdy no fine" last wk. ahhahs.
KARMA ya.
hahas.

startinggg

ok. today's game against bedok kings, the former src.


it was the first game that i am in the starting for Blacks.
when we did unit skills, the backline really wanted it.
i know i really wanted it. and to be honest, i've never felt so focused for a contact game before.


during game, there were too many situations where by we're outnumbered on the outside.
the first nonsense i did on the field is when the opposition tried to kick the ball out, i wanted to keep the ball in so i hit it in. totally forgetting the existence of a knock-on rule (hitting the ball infront), i just had to hit the ball infront. how smart. looking back, i could have actually just catch the ball ya.
i just know that for some reason, i missed 80% of my tackles. the major breaking one was when the angmoh broke through. i chased like mad and managed to touch her jersey. i tried to leap and pounce on her having that leopard-ish imagery in my head to motivate me to go tt extra mile which might just make the difference. but when i did just that, she just ran off. felt like i've missed my prey. i regretted that. maybe i should have just pulled her jersey or smth.
UGH. felt like shit literally.


everyone was trying hard la.
but for some reason, the backline was really struggling to get that line speed.
ugh.




after the game, it was probably the first game the Blacks actually lost.
just a deep wave of sigh all around.




SIGH.

SIM Open

had to miss STL for this.

was ok.
i think i did.. ok.
1st blk of 3 games, kept striking but every non-strike is an open frame... i.e. i can't pick up my spares at all man. so i rmbr the 2nd game.. i had like 7 strikes in a game.. stringed some.. but opened the rest and it was only a 189! hahas.

2nd blk.. the lanes were different. not to my liking.. but my team mates liked it much better.
performance is erratic. 132 then a 183 or smth.

hahas.
actually i really thought we could bagged a medal. at least a 2nd. but i think we didn't work together enough. ahhaas. well, its the first day meeting each other since sept man. so chemistry is abit hard to achieve ya. hahhas.
but i guess what i could or would have done better is to ensure that everyone's on the same page. maybe like before the game, we could have a mini team talk or smth. be it to have fun or compete compete, we shouldn't really bowled like that today.



so aways. a littttleee bit regretted that i missed stl for this. but ok luh, to see back the old circle of bowlers, rep sch for the last few times and bowl with manda and all.. quite worth it la. hhhahas.


top bowler of each sch gets to go masters stepladder and get a placing and a nice SIM OPEN medal. ahahas.
and i missed that spot just because of that 132 game. i know i could have done better by a mile. i'm always so close, yet so far.
OH WELLS.


didnt stayed on. rushed down to rp for the game against RSC.
ok.. we won. hahas. the girls did a great job.. especially the forwards man! loong tio x2 x4 x10 and still gg on strong. hahas.




reallly tired today.





now, i'm onto cleaning up all my media shit, archiving impt documents, do up a proper resume, update bb, settle the email nonsense. hahas.
how busy can.
and 39042034298925 photos to edit. not for me, but is really for the ppl who needs it.

no strings attached

watched that movie today
and probably opened more minds of young teenagers.

poony_dancer NO MORE

SO IRRITATED BY HOTMAIL.

from Windows Live ID Support:
We have concluded our review of the information you provided. Our agents were unable to validate that you are the account owner. Our final recommendation is to create a new Windows Live ID account


LIKE SERIOUSLY.


has so much probs signing in. i was totally blocked la. even my bb can't recieve the emails.
so i was communicating with the Windows Live Support over a private forum since i've no access to emails.
was quite irritated la. coz all my impt mails are inside. and more so, the impt contacts since forever. ):


HOTMAIL SUCKS. hahs.

but i'm using my gmail for official stuff.

but, i've created sportspoon@hotmail.com for friendly use.
ADD ME ON MSN K.

gggrrr. but ok luh. now i'm majorly cleaning up all my software shits.

bowling trng

4 mth since i've bowled.
today went down for trng coz of the SIM Open on sat.

hahas. not bad, still can feel the ball abit. ahhas.
the rotation like change ah. breakpoint all longer and all.


HAHA.


ANYWAYS.




today, FATIMAH WAS 2 BIKE LOTS AWAY FROM ME WHEN I CAME BACK TO MY BIKE.
how heing man.
hahhas. and the best part, i re-parked my bike from that lot coz i felt like uncomfortable with a big big bike right beside me. so i parked 4 lots down. and AMEN to tt, i missed the fine. HHAHAHAHAH. ((:


so its still all clean record since i got my license! ((:
(dun speak too soon ya.)




and...
my HOTMAIL EMAIL IS DOWN.
i can't sign in/ read any emails that are being sent now.

(:

some of my fav photos from the set for now..

-

been thinking quite alot abt u lately.

seriously, i am pretty confident i'm over that.
but it really keeps coming back and its not that i want to.


sometimes i really do think we're connected in heart. i mean i can feel u. CHEH CHEH.
ahhas. no, seriously. i dunno how to explain, but sometimes though we're like so disconnected, i sense that u're not doing well. and when i just do go check it out... yea. i can be right in some extent. when we're tgt, it was like.. i know u lor. hahas. he too.. and that probably became one of the prob coz we over think.
maybe its just my creativity that its like that. but u're so not an online person/ nor a social network kinda person.. so wanting to know what's up for u is like.. cant ya.

i guess coz i'm like editing tons of wedding photos/ vids, it makes me wanna think of u subconsciously ya.
but one thing for sure, no one can replace u? hahas. ooops.


HAIYA.


i think........................... i need help.
i mean like. i cant go on like this right. i need to break free to start opening up to the glorious world.
still can't believe l'm so hooked on like that.

today's list

1. reformat HD
2. Transfer photos to HD
3. Reformat 320GB HD
4. Transfer Mission photos to HD
5. Transfer Songs to 320GB
6. Sync iTunes and 320GB
7. Transfer and Sync 320GB with HD
8. Reformat 100GB I and II
9. Backup Mac in HD using HD software

the real beginning

so this wkend.. TOUGHing it out mann.


as of now, my legs are really tight and my thighs feels like its gonna harden up and go into spasm soon.

saturday.
STL.
it was our first game against Blacks. we had a bye game on wk 1, and it was wk 2. every team was probably settling into the league while it was just the start beginning for us.
to me, i was kinda stressed out. i was put as captain with edna.. and i'm kinda not comfortable abt taking up the role. i kinda believe in referent leadership.. i.e, leading with knowledge and skills. i mean u can't have someone to lead the team when her level of skill is not one of the highest right. hahas. leading a bowling team was so much easier then i guess.
our coaches probably wanted us to get the experience and jump out of our comfort zone by leading a club team with ppl from different places. so ya. i'm can say i'm not one of the players who have great visionary skill or able to say right technical things to a team who has a very mixed level of experiences. we have the new, the very experienced and the very very experienced.
but yea, i'm probably not looking at any form of respect or any sorts... i'm probably just hoping to figure out my role in the team and being able to pull the team together?

another struggle was the position that i was put in. i'm always playing link/wing. but for this time, i'm being put to centre. looking back, while in pirates the yr before, and monsoon last year, i was again, put to centre despite my objection to it. hahas. but honestly, it was those games that i've played as centre pushed me out of my comfort zone to improve as a player. the most memorable one was the game at bangkok during Asian Champs, particularly during the one we played with the bangkok Bangers where we entered sudden death and lost very unfortunately.
apart for those, like in trngs, leisure games, i'm always dumping myself into link/wing position, just waiting for things to happen.


so.. back to sat's game.. i did have my few bright moments and few horrible moments.
1st half, i just rmbr doing a jam as a half, passing out the ball, and getting it back to do a nice inside pass to jeanette who did a really sharp run short. i felt like.. whoa. i can really do that if i start focusing and stop thinking that ican'tdoit ican'tdoit all the time. and in the 2nd half.. i was in the link position for that, laykwan just ran out wide and came in short while i stayed out to get the ball and score. that's quite nice.
for the horrible moments, it was when i was supposed to stay out, but i came in for switch. i did it once, regretted and sub-out. and the next phase when i subbed in, i did the exact same mistake as if i did not learn. then i subbed out again and almost broke down because i was just too stressed up. the subs weren't gg as well as it shld be. and because of that, we couldn't really execute our moves. our defense were shaky. particularly on my part. i'm so hesitant to pull my corners causing a breakdown int he defense policy. as link/wing, u can really see. but as centre, it's not as clear and i think i'd probably need the links to tell me.

but OK luh. ahhhas.
it was our first game together, not everyone turns up for trng.. so it was ok.
i think we will do more in the next few wks. i really hope we can do well in this league! at least 2nd!
ok la. i will do my best and promise myself to stop looking down one myself and start being confident.



before the game, i was at sentosa at 7am helping my friend in her wedding shoot, then gg for the game, and gg back to meet them to shoot again. and at 7pm, watched Just Go With It with chilling out bowlers. hahas. it was a great movie! ahhas.
with a 3am sleep and a 6am waking up time.. it was really a longgg day.





and so.
sunday.
meeting time for Blacks was 1pm. i was struggling to wake up at 12pm. and i didn't even know i woke up to tweet "KO-ED" subconsciously. HAHAHHAHAS. hilarious.
my whole body was aching and my thighs felt immobile.
picked up lynette and headed off to YCK for our first game together as Blacks B, against Blacks A. again, it was also a same situation where it was the first game for us and the 3rd game fo Blacks A due to the nature of the fixtures. hahas
Blacks A vs Blacks B.
hmm.
it was kinda interesting. but honestly, no one wanted to give chance/face. we called ourselves Team Bravo. HAHA. but honestly, i enjoy playing with this team so much. everyone's hopeful. i guess we're still a little unconfident of what we can do and achieve as a team. but i believe if we really want it together, we can do it.

i know that we're like down by 7 tries. it was like 7-0 in try count. but in some where in the 2nd half, siew huai broke bashed and stomped through the forward pack to score under the post. and so did adik who hasn't been playing rugby for a loonggg time. hahahs.
for me, i was actually quite sad that i got subbed in only at the last 5-7 mins. but i guess chongfu didn't want to put stress on my recovering ankle, so i'm kinda thankful for that in mind. hahahs. but in that few mins, and probably it was because of that few mins, i wanted to really do my best and not screw up. prior to the game, i knew my whole body especially my thighs and back were kinda tight and stiff. thus, i made effort to prep myself up psychologically for the game so that i wont get injured further. so i guess that helped in my game.

i rmbr the bright moment when there was alot of space on my side. so serena passed the ball to me and i ran, i wanted to step but didn't really have a clear idea of where to, so i did a few gallops. and with that, i manange to break through the winger. i rmbr i was shocked... hahhaas. then i heard the sidelines supporting me by calling out my name siol. i was truly very very encouraged by tt. but yea, the fullback pushed me out really pretty soon before i executed a deck to keep the ball in after my mind told me to. but ok luh.. the opposition winger wasn't also a Blacks player.. she was a sub from another team to make numbers for their team. so i shouldn't be too proud of it but to rmbr that feel and start improving from there.

another moment during the game that i'd rmbr was the one i tackled amanda. no, i didn't manage to bring her down. but i managed to stop her from giving a nice pass. heyy. i mean.. amanda ok. u know amanda how fast and if i can rmbr correctly i've probably miss tackled her 100%ly out of all the times i've trained with/against her. not referring abt bringing her down but to just touch her while she's trying to break the line. ahhas. so to just reach her on the field, it was an achievement to me. hahahhahas.

on another defending moment, the winger from the opposition didn't catch the ball. i could have gotten the ball instead of tackling her down after she missed catching the ball. hahahas. but ok la. A for effort.




soooo.


for this season, i'll be trying wanting to start being genuinely positive abt myself and stop thinking abt what i'm not doing gd, but looking at what i can do / be capable of. its probably the last chance i have the freedom of time to commit myself to the games/trngs before i start working.
yep.




and onto my life,
still seeking, and searching. not very passionately, but patiently in a very chillax fashion.



room and CLOSET are done with packing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPINESS CAN. :D :D :D :D :D :D
give me 5. give me 10! hahahahhahas.

how cool.
but i've got tons of photos to edit and videos to make.
better STOP procrastinating and playing ipod games. ahhas.
STARTTTTT

Up Up Here We Go

NTU's surf and sweat!

really burnt and tired now.
gonnna crash soon. 8am till like 6pm man.

out team was Up Up Here We Go.. with sharp, eda, surya and deeiana.


its been so long since i've enjoyed touch like that. as in like.. i really enjoyed the game playing with friends that everyone's so comfortable with. like u can just say anything and everything is just fun and hilarious. its been sooooo long since i'm out with such ppl. thank u.

the preliminary rounds, knock out rounds were quite easy.
until the quarter finals. omg.
played 7-7 till sudden death. but seriously, if its not for the ref, we would have won it. like seriously.
can't blame him anyway la. he's more of a contact than touch ref anyway.
no, but seriously! i'm not being biased towards me!


when it was time out.. he played on for 3 touches and the opponent just burnt us to make it a sudden death.
sudden death both sides kept scoring. until the last attack by us, surya broke through as half... so it was the dummy-half break situation. hahas. quite self-explainatory. hahas. but it was like that for a good 20sec? hahas.
until somewhere in the crowd, i heard... "timing!". maybe it seb or what... so i pulled back, step in and then burst out.. got the ball and scorreed!!! (before i felt helena touched me). maybe i'm too excited that i ground the ball first.. but i know i was really aware of her, whether was she able to touch me and all.. so i really really did ground the ball before she touch. it was a split sec kinda thing la.
but their team had their fair share of support from the spectators. but ok. the ref being the ref and cool and all (which i really honestly do respect), awarded the touch over the try since he was in doubt. he was the only ref, no lines man or what.. but it took him 10sec to decide on that. since he wasn't sure.. it'll just be best most appropriate to award the touch.


ahhas.


dyamn.
was reallly... UGH CLOSE.
too close to be over it.
no la. joking. HAHHA. but after the game, we all felt really good coz it was really really a good fight. actually we didn't expect to go so far though. knowing that we would be playing against a team with 3 guys and 2 fast girls, we're like all prepared to just chillax and enjoy touch. ahhahs. then half time it was like 4-3 or smth. too close a fight to not fight it out.


so yea.

we won nothing. but a great mind full of memories. (:
the 1st team... imba... hahas. they won like $3000 worth of stuff ok!!!!! the 3rd place won $2700 worth of stuff.. and it was won by that opponent of ours!!
ahhas. just felt so... WASTED!! HAHAS. but ok luh. it was fun. ahhahahs.



contact trng was from 4-6 couldn't make it in time.. my game ended around 5pm.. so by the time i reach.. not much time left anyway... so waited for sam's team.
so we just went serena's house for video session after that.

then dinner with my mama and sis and bedok pt. SERIOUSLY.



TIRED. gd night.

really thank u God for sucha blessed day.
this morng. weather forecast was like thunderstorm in sounthern, central and eastern side of sg. but it was big bright and sunny.
no no. not complaining of the heat, just thankful tt God held back the thunderstorm ya. (:


didn't take photos.
too sandy. ok. i am gg to invest in a cheaper anyhow digi cam.

photos from supi! (:

It's A Great Great World

watched that movie with mother poon and sis at tamp just now. a 10pm show.
mother poon even wanted to take neoprints b4 the movie can. HAHA. but must buy the arcade card to use the machine. too mahfan alrdy! so forget it.
ok luh. no storyline. but quite nice.
joanne peh is sooo pretttyyy!! love the photo where she was happily smiling away.







yea.


totally made my stand of living in a world of barter trade stronger.
i'd rather live in kampong lifestyle. like seriously.
this world is just too edited and ahead.

crossroads

and the irony is, the title of the last post was 'back on'. hahas.


i'm at the crossroads.
so many options of jobs.
i want to be a fire fighter. but i know the limitations. ):
so, paramedic.
and long term engineer/ technician.
and probably a mid-term insurance agent,
currently mac rider/ photographer/ web updater or whatever.


hahahs. i do have an idea, but not a crystal clear one.
and the best part, i'm not struggling with it.
no, for real. ahhas. i'm quite (:



i've been spending almost the whole dec/jan at home, bumming my life away. since life is so chillax, reading/replying emails becomes tough tasks. HAHA. i'm DONE with packing my room ( i know i've said this b4, but i just wanna highlight it again can). ahhas. but, the last lap.. my CLOSET. i've got tons of trng shirts, and a handful (literally) of cool gg out clothes. hahas.
i'm trying to do it tmr, but i guess i'd be procrastinating it. right now, i'm just trying to clear out some old empty boxes from the electronics that i've bought in the past, kinda not wanting to throw them away (idk for what, since theres really ZERO sentimental value in those). hahahs.

oh wells.


i just dont really like my sloppy sleep-at-5am-wake-up-at-1pm lifestyle. random trngs at night keeps me more or less sane, and more alive. hahas. totally not living a life that i was once living; stressful busy hectic but fulfilling lifestye.. a was.


ok.
but i'm like at the divider of my life right now, sorting things out literally. i've been tidying my songs, playlists, photos, hard and soft copies of things. needa do up my resume and stuff as well! i really wanna get into to the working life w/o having to think abt having time out to sort all these out.


so today.
since i was so darn bored (sorry all u students and workoholics out there, let me just blabb my free life here for a few moments ya. ahahas), i took out the journal that was once dedicated to you my ex-boyfriend to read. hahhas.
and i actually realized that i was really into in. not that i didn't know, but i think i've underestimated the depth of it. the posts are dated like 4-5 yrs ago, but i think my thoughts were quite focused and serious on building that relationship to an extent that it hurt the whole process i guess. hahas
while reading it, i did learnt out a few mistakes which made me have a thought process of writing to u and send a bike mail to your house, surprising u with a letter in ur mailbox w/o a stamp on it. how nice right. but TAEEEEHH. NO. maybe like 20 yrs later when we're all happily married and thinking that our thinking as a 16-22 yr old are just junk. hah.
but ok la. still very amazed by how passionate and crazy over a guy i can ever become. honestly, i dun think i can ever be as crazy over someone in the future. kinda quite certain abt it. yea, maybe i'm just biased now coz i've haven't met my mr. right now.
but seriously, who cares? hahas. i dun really care abt this right now though. i mean like, my sis' already married out. just left me, my mum and i. and if i were to get married.. my mum how. i know for sure, mum would want to see me get all happily married and all.. but i guess i still very much wanna be sheltered under her wing and make her angry to keep her alive and sane after all. if let say, one day i become that ideal perfect little daughter whereby i go "yes mum, i love u mum" all day, i doubt she'll get used to it. it may just make her go crazy or smth.
just fyi, i'm more of a "han-na, squint at the ipad whole day, eye sure spoil.. wear specs lah" daughter at home if u didn't know. (directly translated from the previous phrase). ahhahas. not that all angelic on the front ya. just deep inside.


but yup, i still do think abt you. not very much affectionately.. but just concerned for ur well-being/ spiritual health and stuff since u're in the army and slogging ur life out in mud and overseas trng. idk if its just a habit or am i still very much concerned for u as a friend despite what you've done to me what happened between us. but..... i'm still glad to say i'm over you (pretty sure as i can be).
just perhaps, the dates all cling onto me.. like since valentine's day is coming. and in the following month, it'll kinda be our 6 yrs anniversary if we're still working on it.... so i guess that's why memories starts energizing my lifeless neurons.



HAH.
GLAD I'M OVER THAT PHASE.



so. its the start of RUGBY and TOUCH season this wkend.
ironically, i'm not playing both but instead, starting it off with the 8k Safari Zoo run. ahhhas. my team's not playing in this wk's contact game and my team's the bye game for this wk's touch league respectively. hahahs. how timely rights! the ankle's healing up (after all the effort i've put in), still not that stable and pain-free, but i'm back to runnning, not sprinting at top speed though.
i'm probably looking at jogging the first 3k and walking out the rest. ahhas. since its gg to be around the zoo/ safari, i'd rather be walking and snapping photos on the way! (: hahas. 1, i can save my ankle. 2, i can get awesome zoo photos w/o having to pay admission fees. (:




why i'm blogging so much now is coz 1) i'm sorting out my itunes library. 2) i dun wanna overcharge my laptop. hahahs.
but, i think i'm just gg to leave it on and go to slp now. gd nice, and if anyone is still reading this space, much appreciated in some sense; be it enemies, friends, i still love u all. hahs.

back on

today i went back in trng for contact.
very much hesitant in going in for small grid.
during the contact drills, was totally struggling with it coz my ankle dont allow me go low.. and let alone drive it.

the sun was really hot.
after not trng for a gd 3 wks, gg back in today was really... a tough experience i'd say.
came abit late. so missed warm ups.
gg straight into trng and all the push ups made everything started to go in a flash.
its either the sun, or my terrible fitness.
but i guess its just both. haven't really been out in the sun as well.


so after trng, my ankle swelled up. and the inside started to swell as well.





cny was great for me.
maybe i'm kinda growing older, soi kinda wanna spend time with my mum, family and all more. oh wells.


i'm currently bumming my life away. like seriously.
i miss bowling. and i somehow miss gg to sch.
my dream of being a fire fighter is kinda dashed coz of the height and weight issues. ): quite upset abt it. but i'm looking at paramedic. i mean.. ya. exciting. but i'd rather something more physically challenging since i'm still young. i thought paramedic could be something after being a fire fighter awhile...
hate it when plans crash. but oh wells, glad i'm really getting used to it and not cling on to plans/ promises.


and one major good news: FINISHED PACKING MY ROOM. ((: 2 thumbs up pls!
just left the closet and i'm DONE.




haven't been blogging or posting photos.
i guess coz there really lots of social networks for me to vent my emotion outs. mainly facebook and twitter where i post my pictures and shoutout winding thoughts respectively.
no, not abandoning this place. hahas. still wanna keep record of my exciting life. hahas.


ok. bye.
still trying to get the hk photos up here!

Blacks HK Tour 2011

Day 1.

it started off with meeting weiyi and sam at the airport at 5am.



arriving and meeting the team for lunch!



with the awesomest famous egg tart from the Central.



and off for trng!



and totally underestimating HK's coldddd weather..



dinner!



my roomies!



my bed. and i bought things for the boy and girl. (:







and so. Day 2

first thing, trng in the morng at victoria park. nice park.
quite lovely with the coool breeze and morng sun. but its freezing ya. hahas.



then it was lunch.
split up to forwards and backs. ate somewhere near our hostel. quite nice the food.
warm water tasted good. ahhas.



had OTOT.
and hahas.. blacks girls totally wiped out giodarno colour socks.
the promotion's madness. i can't rmbr. but its in 7 pairs. hahas. so we each bought alot. hahas... paying only abt $2.80 per pair. hahas. naaissee.



left abt 10 mins. hahas. so yilin and i combed the streets of shops nearby our hostel.
there's this really cool adidas shop that sells lots of things that i like!
u can even customized ur shoe v detailedly.



then on our way to Jordan for the 15s game!
its alot of ppl taking the train during peak hour. but they all queued up! and its really fast for e passengers to get on and off the train. sg should follow this man!



up the really steep and winding road.


game time.
pity that my camera died before the game started.
u know why! i left my CHARGED battery back in the hostel. how smart.
but the game with the Causeway Bay club was awesome but left a few injured players. azurah was quite badly injured. someone had jacked her knee into her eye socket and it bled ALOT.
the hk x-ray showed nothing and told her that she's all fine. but now back in sg, after a more thorough check, u had fractured some of her bones in her face and its quite bad.
hope she get better asap!
the opponent had one girl injuring her neck or some sort.. so she was taken to the hospital by another ambulance as well.


then was team dinner at some jap/thai restaurant.
not bad. hahas. was gd.




some building. hahas. quite cool huh.



and then back to our hostel. it was like 1130pm. so no court (again.). some Blacks tradition for when the team goes on tours. heavily involves rookies for the club/tour as well. hahas. phew.






and lastly... Day 3 (sobz.)
was more of OTOT alrdy.







went to this ancient building. since 1906. niceee.


check out all the fire engines/ ambulances man!


took the ding ding to dried-food street! (: cheapest. 40c SGD mans.








then it was awesomest dim sum with the remaining team in HK.


and with all these food, we only paid like abt S$9 each. shiok only.




then it was dun nai! SHIOK. smells like egg tart. tasted like buttered egg. but its milk. (:


and the streets got PACKED. its the wkend!!


and its time to pack.. ): out of our cozy hostel.. and took the bus back to the airport.


EH. DOESN'T SHE LOOK LIKE LI JIA WEI? the pingpong player. hahas. seriously! ahhas


ordered inflight meal. dont usually do that. coz its $6. but we're all hungry. and the food's good though!
and took photo of my fire engine. (:


touched down.
and was welcomed by the Singapore Rain. quite sianz. coz i had to ride back.
the good news is.. i only paid $3.90 for parking at e airport! heehees. bad news was.. the rain totally sucked.
i waited at e airport for like 2 hrs in hope for he rain to stop (w/o knowing that this particular rain had been on for almost 2 days straight).. wanted to steal big black trash bags from the janitor's. but they were locked. so i went to starbucks and requested for those trash bags.
heing they were nice enough to give me. wasn't so worried abt riding in the rain la. just didn't want my things to get wet.. esp when canter bags aren't weather proof.



i rode home slowly and passed by a fallen tree. hahas. maybe if i had left e airport earlier, i might be hit by the tree? hahaas.
and homed at 3am. and the awesomest news: my bag wasn't wet at all!!! hahahas. POWER CAN. hahas. only the straps are soaking wet and probably ONE or TWO droplets of water on the bag. HAHAS! (:
so.. a job well done ! (:




overall, the tour has been great.
it would have be a mile better if i didn't have any injury. was kinda miserable and just v v sad a night, reflecting upon the day's events. thank God there's sulas on the bench with me. not a gd thing but not a bad thing. ahhas.
HAIZ.
but i thought we could take more initiative to step out of our comfort zone to know other ppl better rather than just be comfortable with our cliques. but nonetheless, i enjoyed the very short-lived 3 days i hk with a bunch of rugby girls from Blacks. (: