been sick.

yea. since sunday.. almost fainted on e way home.. fever on off ranging from 38.3 to 39.7. sorethoart, on off flu. and alot of phlegm. in the mornings, addition of blood. so yea. pls pray for me.
mum says it might be my lung prob thing i guess. haha.
my immune system is like v weak this yr. haiz.

haha. but. i manage to still go sch and survive trngs and all. thanks to suppressants called panadol. learnt from meipeng that panadol can tahan u for 4 hrs.. but not cure fever. smth like that. so yea.!

been taking quite a wide range of med i think.. long, round, flat. all kinds lar.. today, mum gave me 2 orange tablet.. once taken, will really pespire alot. like literally alot. ahha. my classmates were really amazed by e amt of sweat. hahah!


projects are starting to all come in at one shot. can't even rmbr our grp members lar..

oh. one more thing. rmbr abt my trials? yea. not sure if i'm in the team, coz acc to them, nobody knows, but most prob. coz nx month, i'll be rep tp in the inter colligate league. its a 3 month long league. from like 730 till 1030 on thurs. :(. my nights are taken man. but ok lar. abit scary though. coz they're sending 2 teams of 8. my team consist of only 2 girls, inc me. and i'm like new. so i'm like the only new girl around to rep. abt pressure. coz natually (i suppose) guys tend to score higher, then as a team, gotta keep up with them to remain defending champions acc to our ex tp capt, with alot of emphasis.

oh well. really hope will get smth.



keep praying.
i've been searching and seeking.
to be brief, juz to share with u guys lar.

i strongly suggested we should all juz depend on the Word and the Authour

honestly, this wk been emotionally tough.
i'm exhausted with human beings in general. not like sick and tired of u guys or anything like that. but its like to a point where by, u are juz tired of.. reaching out? not sure if that's the approp. word to use..
handling friendships , relationships are getting like getting on to the trough. mentally and emmotionally heavy? haha. i duno lar.

am i back to where i was?
was i even there?

haha. sometimes i think i'm psycho. in need of a pro psychaitrist to analysis me and give me med.


but i guess, for now, and ever, God is the best psychaitrist.

with the flash, its better.

gonna post these 2 pic first. not feeling well.

I Will - Sonicflood

My Saviour, Redeemer
My love and my Lord
I'll give You all of my heart
My will and my soul
You take me as I am
A scarred and broken man
Lord, I surrender all I have to You
To You

Refrain:
I will give you everything
I will, I will
Make my life an offering
I will, I will

My Saviour, I'll never
Forget what You've done
You carried the weight of my sin
To the cross, the victory's won!
You make my heart brand new
Now there's nothing I won't do
Lord, I surrender all I am to You, to You

So when I lose my life,
I save it, I save it
And by Your Grace I'm saved
I know, I know it
And when You were on the cross
You gave it, You gave it all
Oh, yes You did
You gave it all

(Refrain)

I will give my heart to You
I will, I will
Broken and poured out for You
I will, I will

No price I pay
Will ever be too great for me

To rest alone in the love You've shown
I'm free, I'm free

You took the stripes
You took the pain for me

So now I sing a song of hope
I'm free, I'm free

So now I sing Hallelujah
I'm free, I'm free

PAP

won. so expected.


choices.

i really dun like the idea of opportunity cost.. having the next best choice forgone.



i duno.

i am not confused.
i am juz _________ .
as u can see, i also duno. it likes a climatic shift in me. i cannot comprehend. i wouldn't say that i'm challenged.
But, i faces with choices.


disappointingly difficult choices.

let go. let down.

the class.. partially.. some missiing!!

this is khairul i know he's tall. but after looking at the photo, i kenna shock lar. i didnt know this different can.

on the way back. on the left, 2nd row, not our class mate. yea.

spot the no. of things in paralllel?? in cluding the light. ahhaha.not planned k. duno who's all those beind e table. haha.

esther and i. haha. cool huh. done by accident of nite scence mode.

the class..

haha. (:

ok.

we had class outing today. some didn't go, but its alright. went to eat. then play pool. ok. was alrigh lar. but our class realllly duno where to go and bond lar. ahha
i guess it takes time.
ohoh. we have a new student today!! he's Adli.. yep.


how i wish all LECUTURES are like today's csa's speed. 1hr and cover alll. shiok man. like that process faster, end faster, learn faster, confuse lesser.
really hope not as slow as accounts. can die ar. know also become dunno.

did sports today. fun! must see how long i can keep this.
the trng days might change. haiz. *keeping fingers crossed*


made new friends again.
know this girl called nicole from HTM. she's really nice. and she like me who wants to join alot of ccas as well.

u know wad.
i thank God for constantly giving me like 101 opportunities to thank Him. like everyday, i feel that He's protecting me in TP. not from any hard or danger or wassoeva.. but i jus feel so safe in foreign land.



God is constantly reminding me to be determined.


like when i watched the show da chang jin again... (though i've watched it b4..) i aspire to be like her. humble, hardworking, dilligent, intelligent, strong-willed.
posessing alot of qualities that i somewhat, desire.



i thank God lar. honestly, He's super amazing. Indescribable.

bowling forum

well. today was bowling forum.

TP bowling is competitive.
only 24 will make it to the training team.
12 will be selected for nationals.
and.. only
8 will play.



its gonna be tough jus to fight for that place. and what's super shoik is hat. if u're in the sch team, trng wil be fully subsidised.
yes. *gasp*
its like a core sport in tp.. so $20,000 is invested everyear into it.
okok.
i'm goona work hard and serve the sch well.

haha.

slowly, fostering tp's blood in me

today, its my first day into the library. i love the library alot alot. 11 storeys. and like so many study tables, research stuff, printing machines and all. in awe. i am really going to make an attempt to be consistant and work hard. yea



ok. gues wad. the bowling trials is this sunday. 10.30am. which means, i'm gg for 8 am service. abit sad. coz future trngs will be as such. therefore, i'll have to sacrifice playing guit for service as well as junior ss. really abit disappointed. well pray.


"In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps"
-Proverbs 16:9


oh oh. btw. ytd.. was like mega verse day for me. haha.
amazing.

more econs for u....

"Whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ."
- Philippians 3:7
haha. opportunity cost!

and also on demand & supply...
"As goods increase, so do those who consume them."
- Ecclesiastes 5:11

stumbling upon sara's post...

couldn't help but to break the copyright rule heavily being banged on by dear TP.


oh!.. i recieved this sms on the 27/4/2006 at 12.18am. haha. i must blog bout this... this msg was sent by Marian.

" Sara. I suddenly miss u alot leh. "

wahahaha... i had to reread the msg a few times..hehehe. Like once in a blue moon you see her saying this kind of thing lah! nono. sms this kind of thing.hahaha. Couldn't help it lah... after reading that msg, it broke a smile on my face. haha... it so happened that on that day too, i was thinking about how as Marian starts school, we would be a different ends of the island and it would be so difficult to communicate with her.. knowing she doesn't want to waste sms, and seldom chats on the phone lah. hahaha.
Its going to be hard to keep in touch with all these secondary friends. ahhh!.. i've been wondering how to cope with studies, ministry, old friends, new friends, CCA.. aahhh.. all these are driving me nuts. have to quickly settle them.






hmm.. hydrophillic bonds. HARS.

oh man. LAMOFREAK. i want to see u in action- real live, soon soon soon. ahha. when time and schedule permits. ahha.

*distance may draw us further, but it make the heart grow fonder.* haha.
-cliche enough for u? wahhahahahah.s - LAUGH. its been long with this lit thingy.

more..

my acconts lecturer keep saying really hilarious things. the students in the theatre laughed, just to justify my statement. ahha.
and today's accounts, i really dun understand. why? coz he gooess soo super slow.
5 pages... 2hrs. imagaine that. in jc.. thats like abt 20mins-30mins lar.
he goes slow that he keep elaborating till i blurr. hafta go and read again. ahhaha.


a quote from mr. seah, APEL tchr, aka, Careperson.
"if u have a problem, go to a girl if u want sympathy but go to a guy if u want a solution"

been bumping into really alot of pri sch friends. the Tampines ppl. or rather, the EAST side ppl.. ahhaa. but so far, only like encounter 1 girl from shps, which is jasmine law. where's all the other girls man??

hmmm. suddenly rmbred this person i met at shss, adeline's friend.. freak out. finally recognise him. couldn't rmbr him at all, untill today. ahah.
suffering from dementia. haha.

okok..

i'm looking forward to gg to sch.. why?

CCA!!!!
ahha

tmr's some bowlig forum.. and the day after is some try out of another cca. haha. so fun! can't wait for next wk. haha.

oh yea, i've also signed up for Production Crew as well. its like logistics. smth which i've been wanting to do for a loong loong while.


been looking around in friendster. quite cool to know that my friends know my friends whom also know my friends through my other friends. haha.
the photos.
and and and. i think my WHOLE CLASS went jc. ahha. (not exaggerating). ahha. i'm OUTstanding as always from a four-sixer05. ahha. haha. still as now. and and and.. so many ppl joined council *congrats man. AM PROUD OF U GUYS. HAHA. soar on wings. haha. born to stand out our class motto...haha.those were the days




(: keep praying for those in the midst of their exams now!

the terrain.haha. nice pic ar.

lost and found. hahha.a

looks liike lost.

resilence.

hike

yahaha.

ytd.. when for a 7km hike with church mates! haha. ok lar. was fun. char and i attempted to run. upslope, and like after 4mins or so, canot already. aha. quite steep k. hahaha.

took photos. not very impressive ones.. okok ones.. but yea. was fun..

after, went back church, and got fever. ahah. coz i had sorethroat in the morning, and alittle flu. ahha. so i think i sped up the reaction. Dennis gave me a parcetamol. then was alright. that one really good. then felt much better. ahha. for dinner, ate 2 bowls of noodles. so yea.

went home.. i think the medicine loosing its power.. then got really sick.
i really felt like end was near. literally. i even typed a 'saved msg' in my phone.. so tt if i really die, when ppl read my phone.. they'll know that when someone is gg to dies, he/she will know. ahah. okok. nvm.
i was in my room, the door opened, fan offed, windows closed, trying to source out energy to msg char. haha.

and thus, i DIDN'T SWIM TODAY. argh. 1 straight wk already. no sports!


so today. studied with daniel. haha. gd gd lar. not that i had alot of work to do.. did my tutorials! (note the exclaimation mark). and did some of my stuff. but somehow, felt really tired.


ok. nxt wk is all the cca stuff. i hope that i really can have energy lar. okok.


btw. read my tag board. juz gland's msg will do. HILARIOUS CAN.


Gland: black coffee=kopi-o, black marian=mariano



ok.. some quick fun stuff...


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The boy's name Mariano is pronounced mahr-ee-AHN-oh. It is of Spanish and Latin origin, and its meaning is "manly." Also possibly related to Mars; a masculine variant of Marie. Marion, the English form (Marian for girls) was the given name of John Wayne, but is rarely used for American boys today.

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haha. hmm. GLANDINATOR