ok. decided to give an update here u know why? coz, my dept now as got 2 confirmed cases.
wanted to blog when the first case was made known, but was rushing out assignments so didn't have the time. so much feelings and many things to say. where do i begin.
as of now: 2,033,452 cases. that's 2 million in english, 130k deaths = 130, 000 people died.
and a 1-day 447 spike today in Singapore, with about 3,699 tested and reported cases.
i'm pretty sure we're gg to hit the 5k mark. just a matter of time.
i think firstly, i wanna share like my feelings and reactions. again i know nobody cares, but just for the sake of documentation alright. ahhahs.
we're in the CB phase now. as from the last post when our PM gave his speech... everyone's been CB-ing here and there. i think its good humour. least it lightens the atmosphere.
memes were saying like.. CB then CCB (complete circuit breaker la), then maybe KNNBCCB. hahas
personally, i'm just really scared to go to work. its not that i'm scared to be physically present at work, but there's really no policies / organisation to protect ourselves at work. shift timings still doesn't promote segregation. physical segregation policies at work place are not effective because they are not well planned and thought through. everything is done based on paper work, for the black and white, for the protect - of the company's position and not our health. i'm probably gg to get into trouble if someone screenshot this space and it goes viral, or if MOH / company steps in here or anything. but really. i dun think i should hide coz i'm just expressing my concerns. but pls ah, anyone here pls dont take it viral. thanks.
but yea. just to give an example, for the first case, the guy who kena is from Team B. so on paper, those in Team B in his shift all asked to go home, Team A stays. so i was talking to one of the engrs who was taking her bag to go home. she was telling me its stupid coz she hasn't been in contact / near him but coz she Team B, she needs to go home. on the other hand, another tech who has been closely working with him, has to stay on at work just because his name is on Team A. now how?
like i told her, 1 case is 'just 1 case'. they dont see it as a beginning / potential of a cluster. and i was pretty sure then we're gonna see a few cases up in these few weeks to come. and lo and behold, just today, we recieved news of the 2nd case.
its like, we have common tool store. we have limited vehicles. everything is shared.
how are u going to manage that?
i really dont care what's the business conerns as of now. on the ground, we're all feeling the heat coz everyone's quite touchy and defensive. company scared ppl take advantage, while in fact, there are actual and serious risks around. but yea 'we not like in health care frontline'. just wait and see how the numbers are gg to rise loh. idk what constitutes as substatial.
so in my opinion there are 2 + 1 grps of ppl:
1. those genuinely scared and afraid to go to work.
2. those who just want to take advantage of the situation whom may / may not be concerned about covid
3. the mgmt, who thinks that only the 2nd grp of ppl exist.
so now, eveything is so screwed up coz there's really no contingency plans. ppl are doubting each other's agendas, politics and all the shit. its like, OMG GUYS. wake the fcking up.
it's alrdy such time of crisis. why cant we just work together, trust each other, and just really protect ourselves and each other. it just seems like politics and our safetly/health both equally weigh the same. i just think its very disgusting, even at this level. like all these experienced men, fathers, adults, engineers, mgmt,.... what is really our priority right now? even if i try to put myself in the mgmt shoes, i just dont understand all the 'measures' that we're taking.
i'm not saying that we close shop / total hut down or what. but there are really better ways to plan, cope and manage. shift timings. working space. since ops demand is on all time lull, what are the concerns? what's on hand? i really dont think its time to stick to rules and policies that are in place when everything is fine. just like our govt. one day say dont wear mask unless u sick (in which i was appalled then), and just ytd, it is compulsory to wear mask when u're if not kena fine.
i'm not saying that the decisions made are lousy. i'm saying that we need to be adaptable.
we need to think.
we need to enforce.
and enforce what's right, what's best to protect ourselves (health) so that we can protect those at home.
i really dont want to be bringing back the virus home to mother poon w/o even knowing.
"if i must go to work i want to go union"
"go ahead. fyi. company nv force you to come to work"
"Pls read MOH website for the guidelines. Mgmt said It's stated there."
"Doesn’t stated we need to be in contact for more than 30mins"
Pls refer to HR or Union. As per mgmt, 2 meters apart and 30 mins constant contact"
"Staff is voicing out his concern.. No need for unnecessary remarks. This is the time we have each other's back together, not apart"
we really dont need such... deliberations. why can't we put in more effort in think of how to practice social distancing at work and keeping ourselves safe?
the scary thing about COVID is that it's not scary.
its not scary enough to make people take precautionary measures unlike SARS. and what's even scarier is that a carrier may be asymptomatic. its like, i may be a carrier to my mother but i'm not showing symptoms. and if my immune system kills it b4 i really show symptoms, i really wouldn't know if i was even once a covoid carrier. and on the other hand, what if mother poon (CHOY TOUCH ALL THE WOOD) really kena. that's how all the unlinked cases sprout out uh. from the time u're a carrier and the time u show symptoms, it can be like 7 days? in that time frame, u can't even rmbr what u do, least whom u've meet, talked to or crossed paths with.
and ironically, its probably the first time that the elderly ppl grp are actually nonchalant about it while the younger ppl are taking it more seriously. usually its the younger kids that are rebellious and wanna go defiant and all. this time ah, alll the aunties and uncles just can't stay at home or cant be bothered. and what's alarming is that covid cases seems to be more severe with the elderly. oh wells.
and yea. on top of all these life's mess. there' still sch work that's all so ambigious and uncertain. the content and all is still there. but like we duno what to expect for the exams since the format has changed. our fyp also changed to ONLINE PRESENTATION. omg. i hate being infront of a screen.
it amplifies my insecurities. ahhs. for the record, i'm only comfortable and willing to have a proper video call with u. i still rmbr the first time when i was in montreal, we'd be online for like 1-2hrs. the time diff was 12hrs... so it was easier to keep track? hahas i kept u accompnay for ur night shifts while u kept me company during my monrng activities.
it was nice. and like all good things dont come to an end, those good days never lasted. i missed those days. it felt real. and it felt like they can last forever. oh wells. there's more impt things in life i guess.
hahas ok. lastly.
in times like this, i bo bian think of u.
i wonder if like are u worried for urself and ur fam. or like, if u even bothered if i am still alive.
but yea, even now when u physically see me, u can take it that i'm physically not there anyway. ashhahs. some times i also question my existance. but oh wells. just hope all's well going on ur side with sch and exams as well.
byes. gotta zz now. 6am reporting to work. gg through biometric assessed area as well. ahhas pray for me.
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