haze
dengue
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hahas. no la.
but i guess the haze alone was powerful enough to simulate an island-wide fogging which has proved to be effective. hahahhas.
no la. jokes.
i guess its coz ppl tend to get more aware of their surroundings.. so the prevent of mosquitoes would naturally follow and stuff like that.
the haze alone has forced so many activities to be cancelled.
ppl can't do sports out door. indoor courts are fully booked. needless to say, gyms are over crowding.
trng was cancelled last night. tmr's Touch tournament has been postponed. the Shell event cancelled. church outreach event also got postponed.
today for a moment in the office, it did felt likka scene towards doomsday.
haze creeped into the office, possibly through the aircond vents and it was actually obvious that the office was hazy. and outside the office, its an all time high of 400 PSI. and 400 is just an avg no over 3hrs. rumours said that it actually peaked at 462 and possibly higher...
some of the line maintenance guys had to stop work to go and see the doc.
when news got round that the PSI reached 400, ppl were actually scrambling alittle. for that moment, it did felt like Discovery Channel's Doomsday preppers. ahhhahhas
the HR ppl trying to order N95 masks but to no avail and possibly avaliable only by tue/wed. so the office hijacked the normal facemasks that's actually from the Heavy Maintenance side. hahahas.
ok. from a Marketing point of view, this is indeed a short term high profit business opportunity.
if only i were able to predict the siutation more accurately, i could have been a few thousand dollars richer over these few days. $moneymindedshit. hahahs
well, i could pre-order N95 masks and sell that now.
or, just get a few aunties who can sew stuff to help me sew some pretty face mask. put in like cool designs and stuff. hahas. i honestly think that all these will soon to emerge in Bugis street or some sort.
i could have few over to Laos/ Cambodia where such masks for motorcyclists are plenty. got pattern pattern all somemore. 1 pc usually cost about $2. if i do purchase in bulk.. + shipment all (actually can just lugg them back to sg on my own), i think i'm capable of bring the cost price to $1 per piece. and looking at the situation now, $10 sounds likka reasonable price since its a high-in-demand-low-in-supply case.... that's like an instant 900% profit. shit. hahhaas.
so if i were to buy a 200 pieces (200 x 10 - 200 x 1), i would have earned $1800.
just buy selling little pieces of cloth.
(i forsee a looongggg backandforthandbackandforth post brewing here.)
anyways.
speaking of which.
everday i work, i am confused.
its not about the tasks, but about my career path.
i think i seriously need some career advice.
actually not really. i just need to find a good day when i'm super neutral and start to draw out on paper, the pros and cons of my career route.
right now, its been too great. great as in good.
there's really lotsa opportunities to grow and i myself can't believe it. i secretly wish that my more capable marketing poly mates are in this company right now coz i do believe that it's gg to be an exciting journey with tons of learning experience since there's really so much concrete outlets for u to throw in what's been studied in theory.
i'm working closely together with this big boss, and he's really one guy that i respect alot.
really glad that i'm under him. he's all about making the both of us learn and grow and learn and grow.
he brought me to the airline house today and he personally introduced me to some influential ppl from our parent company which is also my dream company. and they're all v nice ppl.. nice as in.. i can't judge a person fully, but within just that few minutes, u can tell that these people do their stuff well, with clear objectives and with such experience, tt they are able to take everything into their stride w/o looking down on people. hahas. yea. not the perfect sentence structure for describing such amazing people, but that's just the gyst of it.
also went for my first meeting with the client. was at BAC, where practical sessions during my time at ATTC were held before the building was made. quite funny that the guy recognized me. and they have a very cool office too. the meeting room was made from the sidewall panels of an aircraft. from one look, my boss told me that its a side wall panel of a 757.
after the meeting, the group went to scc to chill out. talked about so much random stuff, some aviation, some haze, also mostly about bike stuff and more... superr funny.
got to know my boss abit more. and though he's really upz in the age category, he's really an active person. at that age, he actually does day trip and back on his roadie to desaru. and when he was younger.. the rides motorcross, and do all those thing that u'd never ever thought that sucha big shot would do. he also knows my dad. same company and with tons of experience. from line, to heavy, to the laws, to the management and so on. i think i've heard him mentioned about his trng overseas, his a/c licensing.. so many!!! and what's more, he's freaking humble, forward looking, sharp, willing to learn and spurr other around to not only learn but perform more than what they think they can.
seriously.
and so, while moving around today, was distracted by myself. i was consistently asking myself if i'm willing to do this for another say... 10 yrs. coz honestly, there's too much growth opportunities to just ignore. its not just about the money or up the ladder, but coming from a person with low self-esteem, i think i'm capable to contribute and give my best of whatever business marketing knowledge i've got. and also, i wouldn't want to miss working with all these people around me. materialistically, with what i'm doing and the kind of exposure i'm getting now - looking at the amount and kind of ppl i'm meeting with from the industry... its really a wasted opportunity if i do decide to step out of this and pursue my dream as a line maintenance engineer. coz right now, with what i'm doing/ who i'm working with, i guess i'm subconsciously building up my contacts and relations in this industry too.
hahas. and perhaps, getting in to my SIA trainee lae prog wouldn't be a problem. HAHHAS.
and the ironic and wierd thing for me is that with what i'm also doing now, whatever decisions that's being made... it indirectly affects the technicians and even engineers. its wierd because its just so far apart and how/who/what the decisions can affect. idk how to explain this, but for me, it gives me that bit of uncomfortable imrealllysoincapable feeling.
the big block of road block for me now is just my stubborness in still wanting to be a line maintenance engineer, at least for 10 yrs? and in 10 yrs, if i do decide to carry on with what i'm doing own, i'm sooo gg to be up there in the corporate ladder. not saying that because i think i'm damn capable or what, but looking at how the industry grows, opportunities and red ocean markets, reallly.
again, i just wish that some of my marketing friends would me here with me to look at this and be part of this growth.
but then again, in 10 yrs time, i'm sure to say that i'll be regretting not being an engineer at least for once in my life. its not just about fulfilling that selfish goal of mine, but with my kind of jobscope, having frontline experince would make a big difference and even bigger impact on the positive outcomes.
hahas. and another big problem now that i face is my closet.
as i realize that i'm starting to meet more upzthere people, i'm starting to feel ashamed of my polo tee and jeans though i'm given the green light. my boss understands and really dun mind... but i'm starting to mind on my own now.
sometimes i do wish that i'm naturally abit more girly to be more creative with more lady-ish fashion sense.
if i do finally decide with courage to make it a norm to wear formal everyday to work, it'll just be that 2 office black pants all the way, with the same 2 shirts. 1 is an uncomfortable girl-cutting office shirt, the other one is a slightly oversized guy office shirt.
i do try and take note of what some of the ladies in the office are wearing, but i really can't see myself in those. coz if i'm not comfortable, i am gg to be distracted and i can't be at my best.
i mean, if i'mma tomboy with an excellent fashion sense, no problem. now its like i'm neither here nor there and for the past decade of my life, besides wearing uniforms, i've been wearing just t-shirts and cargo pants or shorts. on a training day, it would be so much more easier coz it would be training shirt the whole day (if its socially acceptable in wherever i am).
for what was once a joking thing that i'm a tomboyish kinda person is now a serious enough problem to solve. and now, i'm feeling the repercussions of it. its no longer about i-dun-want-to-do-it, but i-have-to-do-something-about-it.
its not something that its easy for me to change overnight / come up with an excellent solution. i also dun have the finical power to experiment of get seek out sources. ahhas. speaking of which, i do think i'm quite a resourceful person... and i'm actuallly surprised that i'm stuck now.
ugh. i just wished that i'm born a boy. life would be so much simpler.
anyways.
sigh. how now.
back at it....
i do want to continue to work with my boss, expand my contacts, gain management experiences, contribute as starters for the processes within the airport operations.
at the same time, i do want to be an engineer especially while i'm still physically strong and gain all those technical knowledge and experiences.
if only i can do half half.
or like have 48hrs in a day.
or like i'm born with a special power that i dun need sleep / aka. vampire.
or start to abandon my engineering dream.
or chuck all the opportunities to one side like that. #likeican.
also looking back at my classmates in attc, i must thank them somehow.
not being sarcastic or what, but its also because of them that i wanted to so work hard in sch. and as i do so, not only i'm learning more while making full use of my time in sch, my passion for aircrafts has increased exponentially over that one year.
looking back at how much i slogged my life out for an MCQ exam (with hints), it makes me feel stupid and redundant BUT the knowledge / passion gained overwrites anything negative out of that. ahhas. especially that 1 wk super heavy airlaw module. never forget how painful it is to study... but out of all the modules that i've cover this is the module that's actually very application to everywhere u go in the industry especially with what i'm doing now.
hahas. and in some moments of the day, purely with a business/aviation mindset, i do wish that u're here with me to work together and set in implementations together. i guess with our respective 'expertise', we would be awesome working partners.
but anyohhow... i can finally say that i'm at a fork the road now. i'm taking in advices and i'm thankful for understanding busy ppl who actually bother about my career life to help me pave a way out.
all in all, really to God be the glory.
things dun just happen. they happen for a reason and its always according to His plan.
that day when i went to the fair at ITE, i wasn't supposed to go and also had other plans. but because of the big rain, i decided to just go 'for fun' which now turns out to be that big stepping stone towards my career path. i rmbr clearly on that day, i was v reluctant to even visit the booth because i didn't want to be tied to any company yet because i was (and still) waiting for ec's call. and as my friends were busy filing up the forms, had a chat with some of the HR/ and my current working partner... which eventually leaving me to hastily fill up the application form just in case if they are looking for a part-time worker. ahhahahhahas.
even after the 1st interview on a tuesday when i stubbornly declined the good offer for as a tech and go posted to something lower (which i didnt' mind)...things changed when my resume coincidentally landed in the right hands of that big boss whom bother to even look at it. apparently, the other big boss who was supposed to look through the resumes was on leave or some sort, so my current boss briefly look through the pile and decides to understand me through my resume.
and on thurs, i was called for a 2nd interview on a friday, on a day when i'm supposed to be out of the country for Church Camp/ Asian Club Championship; which both didn't happen because i was rejected by the camp commandment and my club couldn't send in mixed team respectively.
and also because with one of the head was gg on a 2 wk vacation, i was asked to start work on the following monday to sort of help carry out his task.
and because the whole chain of events, i'm doing what i am now.
not totally detesting it. not totally loving it. but just enjoying it for now.
yea part time worker vs what i'm doing now.
really. it all couldn't happen if its not for God working. i'm not just saying all these because i love Him or what. i mean i do, but my God is great and His unconditional love that leads to how He cares for us never fails to amaze me each time.
ok really, u dont have to read alllll of that.
i'm at a point where this is the best place of solace.
not the most trusted place since anyone and use this to turn it against me.
but its probably how i function all these yrs. and
randomly reading some of my post back in 2004 when i was about 15 yrs old. hahas.
some random posts here and here.
thats y sometimes though i dun feel like blogging, i still want to blogg to just keep track. and now after 10 over yrs of blogging, u can really see how i change i my thought processess. hahahs.
tired and i'm gg zzz now.
lastly, fear not.
the dark days are soon to be over and u shall be free.
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