It's not often that ive got heaps to say here...
typed abit..
and decided not to carry on.
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Just abit more
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
People
HEY.
TODAY, i... went.. to.. the.... HANGAR!!!!!!
its not just a Hangar. but its SIA's Hangar. and lo and behold The Hangar 6. hahahs
hahas. my airport pass still not cleared yet, but i've got the official clearance.
so so exciting can.
i think i honestly almost teared when i was walking under the wings of the A380 being heavyily under maintenance with the empty cowlings and the engines everywhere.
thats when i realized, shit. this is it.
i think i was going insanely crazy, grinning from side to side. even my working partner was like "u very happy to be here?" what a question. OF COURSE.
ok, technically, no, coz i still wanna be a Line maintenance engineer at the parking bays.
but this is still it!
i really dk why i felt so overwhelmed coz its not my first time dealing with the big planes. it never gets boring huh. (pls dun tell me that its not enough a long a period of time. everyone tells me that so just let me discover it myself can. its dampening, though its not effective in so.)
ANYWAYS.
u know, in those moment, i did do a comparison with my current prospects now, and i was willing to give up, abandon and throw away all those golden God-blessed opportunites, all the contacts, all the prospects, everything.. just to do what i wanna do and be with who i wanna be.
what i'm doing now, is like having a distant relationship with a plane. always finding better ways for it, always helping it at the back, but never really getting my hands on to physically mend it. hahahs.
and was telling my working partner that u know what, after's today's visit, i'm just so fueled to be more pro-active and thickskin to get all kinds of unshameless help from all the EC ppl that i'm working with now. i shouldn't think too much because in life, we gain some, we lose some, and we can never satisfy everyone.
i think i'm confused.. but more into denial of what's good for me.
but this image really reminded me alot of stuff today.
most of the times, the cause for regret is just the lacking of initial passion.
ahhas. that sounded likka quote from some pro guy right. ahhas. its me. hahahhahas
but read this...
i thought of the quote "all the world's a stage, everyone are merely players".. googled it and woah-la... a classic piece from Shakespeare.
hahhas. its been so long since i'm analyzed a piece from Shakespeare. used to be able to write pages and pages trying to figure this wired up thoughts. probably losing that ability now. but still able to soak it up with faint comprehension.
and all of a sudden, i dun want to grow up.
not because i'm afraid of the challenges, but i just feel like as we move up and meet with people on the more advanced stages in life, they tend to complicate life and forget the existence of a simple, true and uncomplicated life.
yes, it is understood that Man is never satisfied and wants the best for himself, and that's how we've been surviving and adapting to overcome all the odds that have crafted us into who are we today.
but sometimes, aren't we forgetting the basics of existence.
before i go on, i just want to say that i'm not targeting at anyone and this is collective.
Man as in Human in the most generic form.
is there a difference between emotions and attitudes?
i bet there are hundreds of great authors that write superb books with the ability to grasp the concepts of such intangible drive factors.
for me, i have to value 'attitudes' more than 'emotions' though its the probably the emotions that drives the attitudes. well, its also vaguely applicable vice-versa. i probably value my attitudes more than my emotions coz at least my attitudes steer me towards a better direction most of the time where my emotions can just lead to complicating and eventually creating that idea of hesitation which leads to improbable failure.
this probably sounds like the infamous mind-vs-heart problem that all teenagers and young adults face. but lets just not go into that.
again, from Google "define: ____" (hahas. Google should start paying me for all these promotion)
Attitude
vs
Emotion
linguistically, since 'emotion' is an product of instinct, there has to be a stimulus somewhere right; while
'attitude' fits in the puzzle as a 'settled way of thinking'.
i really dont know.
but at this age where i'm neither damn old with heaps of experiences, or damn young to be considered as immature or native, i do have my set of principles and values in which i think everyone has to have one of their own to own. they may be altered- negatively or positively. but if its crafted out of the positives right from the beginning, we should focus on retaining and maintaing it, disallowing anything to waver its footholds.
coz the negatives will come and hit u strong, leaving u baffled and blinded in massive confusion.
these may just dissolve ur identity, leaving u feeling all hopeless and souless, seemingly to lose that fully functionally compass that u once believed was the keystone that gives out the best permutation from ur heart and mind.
as i start to wander deeper, with each step i take, i do feel myself taking it wrongly. its not because of my own government being screwed up (maybe its is + denial), but its just the whole feeling of knowing that it is a should-not-be move, and you move.
everyone tells u ok. u feel uncomfortable. but is it ok?
thats when as a Christian, i become thankful for having God with me, with the Amour of God. (Eph 6:10-18).
The Helmet of Salvation
The Shield of Faith
The Breastplate of Righteousness
The Belt of Truth
The Sword of the Spirit
The Gospel of Peace
i dun think i wanna act holy and all here. but there's really no need to go high on search if u're able to be still and hear God's voice. being able to hear His voice and identify it gives u that affirmation that you should be standing still and firm in what u believe in; because what u believe in should ultimately be glorifying Him and that should steer u in to the best of paths.
and for all those who are non-Christians out there reading this, i know it sounds likka lot of biblical crap that u see everyday. i can't explain the peace and assurance i do get if i'm able to just listen to His Voice, but this is really how my God works and i do pray that one day, u guys will finally understand and feel what i've experienced as a Christian.
sometimes i do wish that i know less,
hahas. and sharing with u a long-time-ago vid with a vid that my friend just shared with me.
true that.
hence, better to not get in to, so u can't even get out of.
not a complete sentence structure, that's how life is.
never complete.
TODAY, i... went.. to.. the.... HANGAR!!!!!!
its not just a Hangar. but its SIA's Hangar. and lo and behold The Hangar 6. hahahs
hahas. my airport pass still not cleared yet, but i've got the official clearance.
so so exciting can.
i think i honestly almost teared when i was walking under the wings of the A380 being heavyily under maintenance with the empty cowlings and the engines everywhere.
thats when i realized, shit. this is it.
i think i was going insanely crazy, grinning from side to side. even my working partner was like "u very happy to be here?" what a question. OF COURSE.
ok, technically, no, coz i still wanna be a Line maintenance engineer at the parking bays.
but this is still it!
i really dk why i felt so overwhelmed coz its not my first time dealing with the big planes. it never gets boring huh. (pls dun tell me that its not enough a long a period of time. everyone tells me that so just let me discover it myself can. its dampening, though its not effective in so.)
ANYWAYS.
u know, in those moment, i did do a comparison with my current prospects now, and i was willing to give up, abandon and throw away all those golden God-blessed opportunites, all the contacts, all the prospects, everything.. just to do what i wanna do and be with who i wanna be.
what i'm doing now, is like having a distant relationship with a plane. always finding better ways for it, always helping it at the back, but never really getting my hands on to physically mend it. hahahs.
this is taken off google. a Boeing 747 cargo owned by SIA.
currently my office com's desktop wallpaper.
and was telling my working partner that u know what, after's today's visit, i'm just so fueled to be more pro-active and thickskin to get all kinds of unshameless help from all the EC ppl that i'm working with now. i shouldn't think too much because in life, we gain some, we lose some, and we can never satisfy everyone.
i think i'm confused.. but more into denial of what's good for me.
but this image really reminded me alot of stuff today.
most of the times, the cause for regret is just the lacking of initial passion.
ahhas. that sounded likka quote from some pro guy right. ahhas. its me. hahahhahas
but read this...
i thought of the quote "all the world's a stage, everyone are merely players".. googled it and woah-la... a classic piece from Shakespeare.
All the World's a Stage
All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first, the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms.
Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slippered pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first, the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms.
Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slippered pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.
William Shakespeare
hahhas. its been so long since i'm analyzed a piece from Shakespeare. used to be able to write pages and pages trying to figure this wired up thoughts. probably losing that ability now. but still able to soak it up with faint comprehension.
and all of a sudden, i dun want to grow up.
not because i'm afraid of the challenges, but i just feel like as we move up and meet with people on the more advanced stages in life, they tend to complicate life and forget the existence of a simple, true and uncomplicated life.
yes, it is understood that Man is never satisfied and wants the best for himself, and that's how we've been surviving and adapting to overcome all the odds that have crafted us into who are we today.
but sometimes, aren't we forgetting the basics of existence.
before i go on, i just want to say that i'm not targeting at anyone and this is collective.
Man as in Human in the most generic form.
is there a difference between emotions and attitudes?
i bet there are hundreds of great authors that write superb books with the ability to grasp the concepts of such intangible drive factors.
for me, i have to value 'attitudes' more than 'emotions' though its the probably the emotions that drives the attitudes. well, its also vaguely applicable vice-versa. i probably value my attitudes more than my emotions coz at least my attitudes steer me towards a better direction most of the time where my emotions can just lead to complicating and eventually creating that idea of hesitation which leads to improbable failure.
this probably sounds like the infamous mind-vs-heart problem that all teenagers and young adults face. but lets just not go into that.
again, from Google "define: ____" (hahas. Google should start paying me for all these promotion)
Attitude
Noun
|
vs
Emotion
Noun
|
linguistically, since 'emotion' is an product of instinct, there has to be a stimulus somewhere right; while
'attitude' fits in the puzzle as a 'settled way of thinking'.
i really dont know.
but at this age where i'm neither damn old with heaps of experiences, or damn young to be considered as immature or native, i do have my set of principles and values in which i think everyone has to have one of their own to own. they may be altered- negatively or positively. but if its crafted out of the positives right from the beginning, we should focus on retaining and maintaing it, disallowing anything to waver its footholds.
coz the negatives will come and hit u strong, leaving u baffled and blinded in massive confusion.
these may just dissolve ur identity, leaving u feeling all hopeless and souless, seemingly to lose that fully functionally compass that u once believed was the keystone that gives out the best permutation from ur heart and mind.
as i start to wander deeper, with each step i take, i do feel myself taking it wrongly. its not because of my own government being screwed up (maybe its is + denial), but its just the whole feeling of knowing that it is a should-not-be move, and you move.
everyone tells u ok. u feel uncomfortable. but is it ok?
thats when as a Christian, i become thankful for having God with me, with the Amour of God. (Eph 6:10-18).
The Helmet of Salvation
The Shield of Faith
The Breastplate of Righteousness
The Belt of Truth
The Sword of the Spirit
The Gospel of Peace
i dun think i wanna act holy and all here. but there's really no need to go high on search if u're able to be still and hear God's voice. being able to hear His voice and identify it gives u that affirmation that you should be standing still and firm in what u believe in; because what u believe in should ultimately be glorifying Him and that should steer u in to the best of paths.
and for all those who are non-Christians out there reading this, i know it sounds likka lot of biblical crap that u see everyday. i can't explain the peace and assurance i do get if i'm able to just listen to His Voice, but this is really how my God works and i do pray that one day, u guys will finally understand and feel what i've experienced as a Christian.
sometimes i do wish that i know less,
or rather, know less of what's unnecessary.
maybe its all for our own good to build up defenses that eventually protects our brittle heart.
for i was young and brave once, and now i feel likka little red riding hood, treading on the thin line of ice- never really knowing what's underneath. never really knowing if the platform's gonna be able to support the weight of that one step.
one step is all it takes to bring u plummeting down under, in to the unknown cold icy depths of the dark, unrecovered.
hahas. and sharing with u a long-time-ago vid with a vid that my friend just shared with me.
true that.
hence, better to not get in to, so u can't even get out of.
not a complete sentence structure, that's how life is.
never complete.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
my business opportunity
i think we're all going to die.
haze
dengue
H6N1
.
.
.
hahas. no la.
but i guess the haze alone was powerful enough to simulate an island-wide fogging which has proved to be effective. hahahhas.
no la. jokes.
i guess its coz ppl tend to get more aware of their surroundings.. so the prevent of mosquitoes would naturally follow and stuff like that.
the haze alone has forced so many activities to be cancelled.
ppl can't do sports out door. indoor courts are fully booked. needless to say, gyms are over crowding.
trng was cancelled last night. tmr's Touch tournament has been postponed. the Shell event cancelled. church outreach event also got postponed.
today for a moment in the office, it did felt likka scene towards doomsday.
haze creeped into the office, possibly through the aircond vents and it was actually obvious that the office was hazy. and outside the office, its an all time high of 400 PSI. and 400 is just an avg no over 3hrs. rumours said that it actually peaked at 462 and possibly higher...
some of the line maintenance guys had to stop work to go and see the doc.
the HR ppl trying to order N95 masks but to no avail and possibly avaliable only by tue/wed. so the office hijacked the normal facemasks that's actually from the Heavy Maintenance side. hahahas.
ok. from a Marketing point of view, this is indeed a short term high profit business opportunity.
if only i were able to predict the siutation more accurately, i could have been a few thousand dollars richer over these few days. $moneymindedshit. hahahs
well, i could pre-order N95 masks and sell that now.
or, just get a few aunties who can sew stuff to help me sew some pretty face mask. put in like cool designs and stuff. hahas. i honestly think that all these will soon to emerge in Bugis street or some sort.
i could have few over to Laos/ Cambodia where such masks for motorcyclists are plenty. got pattern pattern all somemore. 1 pc usually cost about $2. if i do purchase in bulk.. + shipment all (actually can just lugg them back to sg on my own), i think i'm capable of bring the cost price to $1 per piece. and looking at the situation now, $10 sounds likka reasonable price since its a high-in-demand-low-in-supply case.... that's like an instant 900% profit. shit. hahhaas.
so if i were to buy a 200 pieces (200 x 10 - 200 x 1), i would have earned $1800.
just buy selling little pieces of cloth.
(i forsee a looongggg backandforthandbackandforth post brewing here.)
anyways.
speaking of which.
everday i work, i am confused.
its not about the tasks, but about my career path.
i think i seriously need some career advice.
actually not really. i just need to find a good day when i'm super neutral and start to draw out on paper, the pros and cons of my career route.
right now, its been too great. great as in good.
there's really lotsa opportunities to grow and i myself can't believe it. i secretly wish that my more capable marketing poly mates are in this company right now coz i do believe that it's gg to be an exciting journey with tons of learning experience since there's really so much concrete outlets for u to throw in what's been studied in theory.
i'm working closely together with this big boss, and he's really one guy that i respect alot.
really glad that i'm under him. he's all about making the both of us learn and grow and learn and grow.
he brought me to the airline house today and he personally introduced me to some influential ppl from our parent company which is also my dream company. and they're all v nice ppl.. nice as in.. i can't judge a person fully, but within just that few minutes, u can tell that these people do their stuff well, with clear objectives and with such experience, tt they are able to take everything into their stride w/o looking down on people. hahas. yea. not the perfect sentence structure for describing such amazing people, but that's just the gyst of it.
also went for my first meeting with the client. was at BAC, where practical sessions during my time at ATTC were held before the building was made. quite funny that the guy recognized me. and they have a very cool office too. the meeting room was made from the sidewall panels of an aircraft. from one look, my boss told me that its a side wall panel of a 757.
after the meeting, the group went to scc to chill out. talked about so much random stuff, some aviation, some haze, also mostly about bike stuff and more... superr funny.
got to know my boss abit more. and though he's really upz in the age category, he's really an active person. at that age, he actually does day trip and back on his roadie to desaru. and when he was younger.. the rides motorcross, and do all those thing that u'd never ever thought that sucha big shot would do. he also knows my dad. same company and with tons of experience. from line, to heavy, to the laws, to the management and so on. i think i've heard him mentioned about his trng overseas, his a/c licensing.. so many!!! and what's more, he's freaking humble, forward looking, sharp, willing to learn and spurr other around to not only learn but perform more than what they think they can.
seriously.
and so, while moving around today, was distracted by myself. i was consistently asking myself if i'm willing to do this for another say... 10 yrs. coz honestly, there's too much growth opportunities to just ignore. its not just about the money or up the ladder, but coming from a person with low self-esteem, i think i'm capable to contribute and give my best of whatever business marketing knowledge i've got. and also, i wouldn't want to miss working with all these people around me. materialistically, with what i'm doing and the kind of exposure i'm getting now - looking at the amount and kind of ppl i'm meeting with from the industry... its really a wasted opportunity if i do decide to step out of this and pursue my dream as a line maintenance engineer. coz right now, with what i'm doing/ who i'm working with, i guess i'm subconsciously building up my contacts and relations in this industry too.
hahas. and perhaps, getting in to my SIA trainee lae prog wouldn't be a problem. HAHHAS.
and the ironic and wierd thing for me is that with what i'm also doing now, whatever decisions that's being made... it indirectly affects the technicians and even engineers. its wierd because its just so far apart and how/who/what the decisions can affect. idk how to explain this, but for me, it gives me that bit of uncomfortable imrealllysoincapable feeling.
the big block of road block for me now is just my stubborness in still wanting to be a line maintenance engineer, at least for 10 yrs? and in 10 yrs, if i do decide to carry on with what i'm doing own, i'm sooo gg to be up there in the corporate ladder. not saying that because i think i'm damn capable or what, but looking at how the industry grows, opportunities and red ocean markets, reallly.
again, i just wish that some of my marketing friends would me here with me to look at this and be part of this growth.
but then again, in 10 yrs time, i'm sure to say that i'll be regretting not being an engineer at least for once in my life. its not just about fulfilling that selfish goal of mine, but with my kind of jobscope, having frontline experince would make a big difference and even bigger impact on the positive outcomes.
hahas. and another big problem now that i face is my closet.
as i realize that i'm starting to meet more upzthere people, i'm starting to feel ashamed of my polo tee and jeans though i'm given the green light. my boss understands and really dun mind... but i'm starting to mind on my own now.
sometimes i do wish that i'm naturally abit more girly to be more creative with more lady-ish fashion sense.
if i do finally decide with courage to make it a norm to wear formal everyday to work, it'll just be that 2 office black pants all the way, with the same 2 shirts. 1 is an uncomfortable girl-cutting office shirt, the other one is a slightly oversized guy office shirt.
i do try and take note of what some of the ladies in the office are wearing, but i really can't see myself in those. coz if i'm not comfortable, i am gg to be distracted and i can't be at my best.
i mean, if i'mma tomboy with an excellent fashion sense, no problem. now its like i'm neither here nor there and for the past decade of my life, besides wearing uniforms, i've been wearing just t-shirts and cargo pants or shorts. on a training day, it would be so much more easier coz it would be training shirt the whole day (if its socially acceptable in wherever i am).
for what was once a joking thing that i'm a tomboyish kinda person is now a serious enough problem to solve. and now, i'm feeling the repercussions of it. its no longer about i-dun-want-to-do-it, but i-have-to-do-something-about-it.
its not something that its easy for me to change overnight / come up with an excellent solution. i also dun have the finical power to experiment of get seek out sources. ahhas. speaking of which, i do think i'm quite a resourceful person... and i'm actuallly surprised that i'm stuck now.
ugh. i just wished that i'm born a boy. life would be so much simpler.
anyways.
sigh. how now.
back at it....
i do want to continue to work with my boss, expand my contacts, gain management experiences, contribute as starters for the processes within the airport operations.
at the same time, i do want to be an engineer especially while i'm still physically strong and gain all those technical knowledge and experiences.
if only i can do half half.
or like have 48hrs in a day.
or like i'm born with a special power that i dun need sleep / aka. vampire.
or start to abandon my engineering dream.
or chuck all the opportunities to one side like that. #likeican.
also looking back at my classmates in attc, i must thank them somehow.
not being sarcastic or what, but its also because of them that i wanted to so work hard in sch. and as i do so, not only i'm learning more while making full use of my time in sch, my passion for aircrafts has increased exponentially over that one year.
looking back at how much i slogged my life out for an MCQ exam (with hints), it makes me feel stupid and redundant BUT the knowledge / passion gained overwrites anything negative out of that. ahhas. especially that 1 wk super heavy airlaw module. never forget how painful it is to study... but out of all the modules that i've cover this is the module that's actually very application to everywhere u go in the industry especially with what i'm doing now.
hahas. and in some moments of the day, purely with a business/aviation mindset, i do wish that u're here with me to work together and set in implementations together. i guess with our respective 'expertise', we would be awesome working partners.
but anyohhow... i can finally say that i'm at a fork the road now. i'm taking in advices and i'm thankful for understanding busy ppl who actually bother about my career life to help me pave a way out.
all in all, really to God be the glory.
things dun just happen. they happen for a reason and its always according to His plan.
that day when i went to the fair at ITE, i wasn't supposed to go and also had other plans. but because of the big rain, i decided to just go 'for fun' which now turns out to be that big stepping stone towards my career path. i rmbr clearly on that day, i was v reluctant to even visit the booth because i didn't want to be tied to any company yet because i was (and still) waiting for ec's call. and as my friends were busy filing up the forms, had a chat with some of the HR/ and my current working partner... which eventually leaving me to hastily fill up the application form just in case if they are looking for a part-time worker. ahhahahhahas.
even after the 1st interview on a tuesday when i stubbornly declined the good offer for as a tech and go posted to something lower (which i didnt' mind)...things changed when my resume coincidentally landed in the right hands of that big boss whom bother to even look at it. apparently, the other big boss who was supposed to look through the resumes was on leave or some sort, so my current boss briefly look through the pile and decides to understand me through my resume.
and on thurs, i was called for a 2nd interview on a friday, on a day when i'm supposed to be out of the country for Church Camp/ Asian Club Championship; which both didn't happen because i was rejected by the camp commandment and my club couldn't send in mixed team respectively.
and also because with one of the head was gg on a 2 wk vacation, i was asked to start work on the following monday to sort of help carry out his task.
and because the whole chain of events, i'm doing what i am now.
not totally detesting it. not totally loving it. but just enjoying it for now.
yea part time worker vs what i'm doing now.
really. it all couldn't happen if its not for God working. i'm not just saying all these because i love Him or what. i mean i do, but my God is great and His unconditional love that leads to how He cares for us never fails to amaze me each time.
ok really, u dont have to read alllll of that.
i'm at a point where this is the best place of solace.
not the most trusted place since anyone and use this to turn it against me.
but its probably how i function all these yrs. and
randomly reading some of my post back in 2004 when i was about 15 yrs old. hahas.
some random posts here and here.
thats y sometimes though i dun feel like blogging, i still want to blogg to just keep track. and now after 10 over yrs of blogging, u can really see how i change i my thought processess. hahahs.
tired and i'm gg zzz now.
lastly, fear not.
the dark days are soon to be over and u shall be free.
haze
dengue
H6N1
.
.
.
hahas. no la.
but i guess the haze alone was powerful enough to simulate an island-wide fogging which has proved to be effective. hahahhas.
no la. jokes.
i guess its coz ppl tend to get more aware of their surroundings.. so the prevent of mosquitoes would naturally follow and stuff like that.
the haze alone has forced so many activities to be cancelled.
ppl can't do sports out door. indoor courts are fully booked. needless to say, gyms are over crowding.
trng was cancelled last night. tmr's Touch tournament has been postponed. the Shell event cancelled. church outreach event also got postponed.
today for a moment in the office, it did felt likka scene towards doomsday.
haze creeped into the office, possibly through the aircond vents and it was actually obvious that the office was hazy. and outside the office, its an all time high of 400 PSI. and 400 is just an avg no over 3hrs. rumours said that it actually peaked at 462 and possibly higher...
some of the line maintenance guys had to stop work to go and see the doc.
when news got round that the PSI reached 400, ppl were actually scrambling alittle. for that moment, it did felt like Discovery Channel's Doomsday preppers. ahhhahhas
the HR ppl trying to order N95 masks but to no avail and possibly avaliable only by tue/wed. so the office hijacked the normal facemasks that's actually from the Heavy Maintenance side. hahahas.
ok. from a Marketing point of view, this is indeed a short term high profit business opportunity.
if only i were able to predict the siutation more accurately, i could have been a few thousand dollars richer over these few days. $moneymindedshit. hahahs
well, i could pre-order N95 masks and sell that now.
or, just get a few aunties who can sew stuff to help me sew some pretty face mask. put in like cool designs and stuff. hahas. i honestly think that all these will soon to emerge in Bugis street or some sort.
i could have few over to Laos/ Cambodia where such masks for motorcyclists are plenty. got pattern pattern all somemore. 1 pc usually cost about $2. if i do purchase in bulk.. + shipment all (actually can just lugg them back to sg on my own), i think i'm capable of bring the cost price to $1 per piece. and looking at the situation now, $10 sounds likka reasonable price since its a high-in-demand-low-in-supply case.... that's like an instant 900% profit. shit. hahhaas.
so if i were to buy a 200 pieces (200 x 10 - 200 x 1), i would have earned $1800.
just buy selling little pieces of cloth.
(i forsee a looongggg backandforthandbackandforth post brewing here.)
anyways.
speaking of which.
everday i work, i am confused.
its not about the tasks, but about my career path.
i think i seriously need some career advice.
actually not really. i just need to find a good day when i'm super neutral and start to draw out on paper, the pros and cons of my career route.
right now, its been too great. great as in good.
there's really lotsa opportunities to grow and i myself can't believe it. i secretly wish that my more capable marketing poly mates are in this company right now coz i do believe that it's gg to be an exciting journey with tons of learning experience since there's really so much concrete outlets for u to throw in what's been studied in theory.
i'm working closely together with this big boss, and he's really one guy that i respect alot.
really glad that i'm under him. he's all about making the both of us learn and grow and learn and grow.
he brought me to the airline house today and he personally introduced me to some influential ppl from our parent company which is also my dream company. and they're all v nice ppl.. nice as in.. i can't judge a person fully, but within just that few minutes, u can tell that these people do their stuff well, with clear objectives and with such experience, tt they are able to take everything into their stride w/o looking down on people. hahas. yea. not the perfect sentence structure for describing such amazing people, but that's just the gyst of it.
also went for my first meeting with the client. was at BAC, where practical sessions during my time at ATTC were held before the building was made. quite funny that the guy recognized me. and they have a very cool office too. the meeting room was made from the sidewall panels of an aircraft. from one look, my boss told me that its a side wall panel of a 757.
after the meeting, the group went to scc to chill out. talked about so much random stuff, some aviation, some haze, also mostly about bike stuff and more... superr funny.
got to know my boss abit more. and though he's really upz in the age category, he's really an active person. at that age, he actually does day trip and back on his roadie to desaru. and when he was younger.. the rides motorcross, and do all those thing that u'd never ever thought that sucha big shot would do. he also knows my dad. same company and with tons of experience. from line, to heavy, to the laws, to the management and so on. i think i've heard him mentioned about his trng overseas, his a/c licensing.. so many!!! and what's more, he's freaking humble, forward looking, sharp, willing to learn and spurr other around to not only learn but perform more than what they think they can.
seriously.
and so, while moving around today, was distracted by myself. i was consistently asking myself if i'm willing to do this for another say... 10 yrs. coz honestly, there's too much growth opportunities to just ignore. its not just about the money or up the ladder, but coming from a person with low self-esteem, i think i'm capable to contribute and give my best of whatever business marketing knowledge i've got. and also, i wouldn't want to miss working with all these people around me. materialistically, with what i'm doing and the kind of exposure i'm getting now - looking at the amount and kind of ppl i'm meeting with from the industry... its really a wasted opportunity if i do decide to step out of this and pursue my dream as a line maintenance engineer. coz right now, with what i'm doing/ who i'm working with, i guess i'm subconsciously building up my contacts and relations in this industry too.
hahas. and perhaps, getting in to my SIA trainee lae prog wouldn't be a problem. HAHHAS.
and the ironic and wierd thing for me is that with what i'm also doing now, whatever decisions that's being made... it indirectly affects the technicians and even engineers. its wierd because its just so far apart and how/who/what the decisions can affect. idk how to explain this, but for me, it gives me that bit of uncomfortable imrealllysoincapable feeling.
the big block of road block for me now is just my stubborness in still wanting to be a line maintenance engineer, at least for 10 yrs? and in 10 yrs, if i do decide to carry on with what i'm doing own, i'm sooo gg to be up there in the corporate ladder. not saying that because i think i'm damn capable or what, but looking at how the industry grows, opportunities and red ocean markets, reallly.
again, i just wish that some of my marketing friends would me here with me to look at this and be part of this growth.
but then again, in 10 yrs time, i'm sure to say that i'll be regretting not being an engineer at least for once in my life. its not just about fulfilling that selfish goal of mine, but with my kind of jobscope, having frontline experince would make a big difference and even bigger impact on the positive outcomes.
hahas. and another big problem now that i face is my closet.
as i realize that i'm starting to meet more upzthere people, i'm starting to feel ashamed of my polo tee and jeans though i'm given the green light. my boss understands and really dun mind... but i'm starting to mind on my own now.
sometimes i do wish that i'm naturally abit more girly to be more creative with more lady-ish fashion sense.
if i do finally decide with courage to make it a norm to wear formal everyday to work, it'll just be that 2 office black pants all the way, with the same 2 shirts. 1 is an uncomfortable girl-cutting office shirt, the other one is a slightly oversized guy office shirt.
i do try and take note of what some of the ladies in the office are wearing, but i really can't see myself in those. coz if i'm not comfortable, i am gg to be distracted and i can't be at my best.
i mean, if i'mma tomboy with an excellent fashion sense, no problem. now its like i'm neither here nor there and for the past decade of my life, besides wearing uniforms, i've been wearing just t-shirts and cargo pants or shorts. on a training day, it would be so much more easier coz it would be training shirt the whole day (if its socially acceptable in wherever i am).
for what was once a joking thing that i'm a tomboyish kinda person is now a serious enough problem to solve. and now, i'm feeling the repercussions of it. its no longer about i-dun-want-to-do-it, but i-have-to-do-something-about-it.
its not something that its easy for me to change overnight / come up with an excellent solution. i also dun have the finical power to experiment of get seek out sources. ahhas. speaking of which, i do think i'm quite a resourceful person... and i'm actuallly surprised that i'm stuck now.
ugh. i just wished that i'm born a boy. life would be so much simpler.
anyways.
sigh. how now.
back at it....
i do want to continue to work with my boss, expand my contacts, gain management experiences, contribute as starters for the processes within the airport operations.
at the same time, i do want to be an engineer especially while i'm still physically strong and gain all those technical knowledge and experiences.
if only i can do half half.
or like have 48hrs in a day.
or like i'm born with a special power that i dun need sleep / aka. vampire.
or start to abandon my engineering dream.
or chuck all the opportunities to one side like that. #likeican.
also looking back at my classmates in attc, i must thank them somehow.
not being sarcastic or what, but its also because of them that i wanted to so work hard in sch. and as i do so, not only i'm learning more while making full use of my time in sch, my passion for aircrafts has increased exponentially over that one year.
looking back at how much i slogged my life out for an MCQ exam (with hints), it makes me feel stupid and redundant BUT the knowledge / passion gained overwrites anything negative out of that. ahhas. especially that 1 wk super heavy airlaw module. never forget how painful it is to study... but out of all the modules that i've cover this is the module that's actually very application to everywhere u go in the industry especially with what i'm doing now.
hahas. and in some moments of the day, purely with a business/aviation mindset, i do wish that u're here with me to work together and set in implementations together. i guess with our respective 'expertise', we would be awesome working partners.
but anyohhow... i can finally say that i'm at a fork the road now. i'm taking in advices and i'm thankful for understanding busy ppl who actually bother about my career life to help me pave a way out.
all in all, really to God be the glory.
things dun just happen. they happen for a reason and its always according to His plan.
that day when i went to the fair at ITE, i wasn't supposed to go and also had other plans. but because of the big rain, i decided to just go 'for fun' which now turns out to be that big stepping stone towards my career path. i rmbr clearly on that day, i was v reluctant to even visit the booth because i didn't want to be tied to any company yet because i was (and still) waiting for ec's call. and as my friends were busy filing up the forms, had a chat with some of the HR/ and my current working partner... which eventually leaving me to hastily fill up the application form just in case if they are looking for a part-time worker. ahhahahhahas.
even after the 1st interview on a tuesday when i stubbornly declined the good offer for as a tech and go posted to something lower (which i didnt' mind)...things changed when my resume coincidentally landed in the right hands of that big boss whom bother to even look at it. apparently, the other big boss who was supposed to look through the resumes was on leave or some sort, so my current boss briefly look through the pile and decides to understand me through my resume.
and on thurs, i was called for a 2nd interview on a friday, on a day when i'm supposed to be out of the country for Church Camp/ Asian Club Championship; which both didn't happen because i was rejected by the camp commandment and my club couldn't send in mixed team respectively.
and also because with one of the head was gg on a 2 wk vacation, i was asked to start work on the following monday to sort of help carry out his task.
and because the whole chain of events, i'm doing what i am now.
not totally detesting it. not totally loving it. but just enjoying it for now.
yea part time worker vs what i'm doing now.
really. it all couldn't happen if its not for God working. i'm not just saying all these because i love Him or what. i mean i do, but my God is great and His unconditional love that leads to how He cares for us never fails to amaze me each time.
ok really, u dont have to read alllll of that.
i'm at a point where this is the best place of solace.
not the most trusted place since anyone and use this to turn it against me.
but its probably how i function all these yrs. and
randomly reading some of my post back in 2004 when i was about 15 yrs old. hahas.
some random posts here and here.
thats y sometimes though i dun feel like blogging, i still want to blogg to just keep track. and now after 10 over yrs of blogging, u can really see how i change i my thought processess. hahahs.
tired and i'm gg zzz now.
lastly, fear not.
the dark days are soon to be over and u shall be free.
Friday, June 21, 2013
hazey dazy
hilo! and so, because of work, i've got less time for my exciting life which has implicated this space with the deficit of exciting posts.
ok. life now, is probably all about the haze. hahas. lets go into that later. its just too overrated for now.
(literally, with PSI currently at 250, which is becoming a norm.)
and u know what, i.am.still.sick. wts.
its been probably 8-9 days alrdy. i dont rmbr being sick for this long. i guess its coz i'm stubborn - didn't see the doc, didnt get the much required anti-biotics, but just being over self-confident with my own immune system. i mean i'm getting better day by day, but this is seriously too long!
maybe its also coz of the haze... and i've not ran in 11 days. omg.
all those weeks of fitness/speed trng gone to waste in 2 wks just like that.
it just feels that u've lost something that u've worked so hard for.
anyways.
as u know, last Sunday was Father's Day. didn't realized that until Sunday itself.
and so, on instagram, posted this up in memory of the biggest man of my life.
Happy Fathers Day to my most fav guy on the planet!
Though u may not literally be on earth right now, being able to meet with ur old friends makes me experience the footprints u’ve left behind in the Aviation Industry. Im so glad to be proud of it now and in the attempt to carry on the Poon legacy. Hahas
Imagine that we’re working in e same company now. It’ll be weird coz if I do make it as an engineer, I’m gonna be able to legally boss u around. :p but yea… sad to have lost an immediate walking-engineering-dictionary. We’re all doing good now. Hope u’ve having fun up there.
✈
i really miss him.
its not just about his love that i miss, but his no-link jokes, his big black dirty hands, his Hugo-Boss-before-work smell and his after-work--decomposing-hydraulic-oil-sweat smell, the knocking and banging sounds he make (coz it would mean new toys/furniture just for me), and really, just his company to make this family complete. i can't seem to get out of those living norms, for me that is.
to be honest, after he left, no doubt that we're all managing well after so many years. however, there's always this lingering void that in whatever ways u try to do it, u cant seem to successfully eradicate that empty space. this household was alway cheery with this laughter, really a perfect complete family of 4.
dinner out was always likka perfect 4 in a table. now its just the 2 of us, or occassionally with the sister. Always an empty seat.
it's really never and can't be complete.
now that i'm getting older, my sis has married out of the house, it leaves just a me and my growing older mother poon. thankfully, shes's still full of energy to an extent where sometimes i really think she's physically stronger than me....still. but yea, with age, it comes with all the physically aches.
bah.
ytd.. mother poon wanted to buy some N95 masks for me.
but not surprisingly, everywhr ran out of it. so she got home trying to digg some out for me and found theses!
well... these are my dad's and he probably koped it from SIA for the family during the SARS period which was just a few months before he passed on. hahas. they can't be used anymore though coz the metal piece rusted and the inner mask is covered with rust dust.
but i just find it funny how my dad is still able to protect this family though he's not physically around anymore.
sucha nostalgic night today.
coz today, i took a no pay leave. wait. its not because of the haze. not so impractical.
i've got a shoot for a client for the morngs from wed - sat. took on this job prior to joining the company. so i applied half day no pay leave (except for today that i took a full day off.. because i had to go for medical check up to satisfy my company's job application procedure)
honestly, its quite a big client, so just these 4 1/2days of work, i'm getting equivalent monetary returns as to what i'm getting a month for the current job that i'm in.
Shell's is my client's client. hahas.
quite a big event...
on wed, it was the first day of the event and there were supposed to be at least about 10 GOHs that i've gotta cover for the media / PR agencies affiliated to it. was actually quite apprehensive for it coz its been long since i've shot big shots. and what's more, this time, i've covering sucha large scale event on my own. so with my anxiety, i borrowed gab's camera as a 2nd camera - just in case my old 30d fails and that i dont have to change lens so often. and wah, he's so nice as to lend me his Mark II. feels so good coz its full frame and all. with the 16-35mm on it, it was extraordinary. yea. another aim to work harder. hahahahs.
anyways, the event was cancelled, but the company continue to do a dry run in which i still covered it for the day.but since the haze is at its hazardous level, today and tmr and probably even on sat's schedule are cancelled.
from a marketing point's of view, its damn sad coz an event like this to create publicity and all has gone to waste. all the planning, the hardwork, the manpower, the resources, and especially the money all gone down the drain man. really sigh. yea, and it even came out in the news that the event was cancelled.
but yea, it was indeed a good break and rest for me. even had time to enjoy lunch at home with mother poon today. vietnamese spring rolls. always wanted to do it on my own.
esp with my favs: tung hoon, prawn, hotdog, corn, carrot, veg, and mother poon's whipped up thai sauce.
see so nice right! i make one lehhh. #skilled #ikr #youdontsay
hahas. and so, if all else fails, i've still got another alternative future route. whahhahaas.
medical checkup.
i grew 1cm!!!!!!!!!!! Huat ah.
and my bp is so low that the doctor kept retaking it with disbelief. Ahhas. "83/47... hmm. I guess i'll just have to accept that" bauahahahs. But yea. Im always with low bp. Last time wanted to be cool and donate blood... everything clear until the last moment when they took my bp, they had to reject me.
and so.
The Haze.
with an all time psi record of 371.
this morng, after gg down to ecp to meet up with the client, i went back home to put back the stuff, then went out again to do my medical checkup.
was using my Laos-bought-checkered-face-mask, that when the client saw me, he immediately went to his van and gave me his N95 mask. :D yea, reallly THANK GOD for that.
coz even while trying to protect myself from the haze especially while riding, i felt that my eyes were getting watery and those eeky stuff in my nose keeps on building up. applying what i learn in Bio class in sec 4, i rmbr these substance is caused by irritatnts stimulating the cillas of the walls of the respiratory track, so mucus-producing glands get activated. hence, the over-production is a problem. and with my previous stubborn virus/ bacteria and now + haze, i'm really feeling it in my system.
so with the N95, life got better. hahahs
further more, its not available anywhere in the market. haahhas. and on fb, some even suggest an emergent of the black market for these masks. WAHHAHS.
but yea, the social media stream has been quite entertaining.
comparing PSI with PSLE scores, stock market exchange values, bowling high scores and so on. all full of shit, but making this uncomfortable period of time more bearable.
as i was free (oh such a rare moment in my life that i had to cherish it), i was watching Channel News Asia. frequent updates about the haze situations. and i realized how this whole haze thing leads to other bigger issues like bilateral relationships between countries, especially amongst those within the ASEAN treaty if u may call it.
and i guess as how many are uphappy with the government and all, they are trying their best to protect the country and at the same time, figure out ways to salvage a mother-nature situation those its mainly caused by the actions of human.
i was actually quite surprised at one of the minister's comment that was headlines of a news article.. it says "Stop-work order may be issued if haze worsens" when the psi read at 321 at that point of time. hahas. i mean like, u mean its not bad enough?
but yea, then i thought through again, having such an order would mean an implication of the country's financial growth. hahas. and i guess coz its also during the school holiday, there's no need to issue such an order because as working adults, we all should have that right mind to protect ourselves right.
and so, it was last night that the haze escalated from 190 - 290. that would mean a sleepless night for many of the country's leaders, having to spend their nights a conference room in their full working attire and all. so i guess as singaporeans, we should be thankful for having a government that cares?
but if i'm the govt, i would find ways to produce the N95 masks and have like the community centres to distribute it to those who bothers to seek out for one right. that's primary... as compared to trying to find out who caused the fires/ and how to put it out and so on. i mean these are the root-causes of the problem, but it would be better to protect out people with more practical means right?
ok, i'm not the govt, so of course, its easier for me to say all these. ahhhas.
and also, this is not the first time such thing is occuring leh. its a yearly thing and how/what that country does to its plantation is predictable. its nots something out of the blue. i mean u can attribute it to the wind-conditions / weather and whatever nots that impacts the haze situation in our country right. but i think its always good to have a contingency plan ahead, especially when such situations are predictable.
and u know they always say that in life, people are generally never prepared until the problem occurs. why wait for it to happen? prevention is better than cure right. u can talk about the resources and all, but we're dealing with health issues here that no money can buy.
i'm not angsty now la. just see that there are soooo many loopholes that can be filled up with constructive criticisms, and that if singaporeans can be abit more pro-active and action-taking to help each other out rather than just complaining. this includes me coz really, there's nothing much i can do but to tell the world to keep hydrating with good and clean water into ur bodily system.
hahas. and yes, i have to express my angstyness to the country that says that we (singapore) are acting "like a child" over the haze.
of course we are. afterall, we are still a growing country.
but look who created the problem. we're not exactly pin-pointing or blaming anyone as a general population.
look, our representative leaders has kindly raised out our helpful hand and dilligently focusing on solutions to solve ur problems at the expense our resources for our own self-protecting (and more useful for ourselves) means. so i think, comments like such are reallllly unnecessary. its ur negative repercussions that we've got to deal with. #noremorse #itwasntme yea. move on.
and i'm also secretly proud of how our govt responded to such comments. focused. dilligent. efficient.
just get on with solving the damn prob and not create unnecessary tension.
situations like these and really make relationships go either ways... they either tighten the bonds, ur just create more political tensions.
i truly believe that with the amount of tolerance and perseverance we have as a country after coming thus far, we're capable on surviving on our own, just basing on the leadership and how the country works. but tooo bad... were just a small red dot on the map and we do need those external resources.
ANWAYs. had a company bbq just amongst the Airport Ops dept ytd.
was abit awkward for me coz i didn't know everyone. basically, its likka social thing for the office side and airport side ppl to get together.. so i saw some of the techs from the airport.
but yea. it was after all, a wed with a following official workday the next day.
anways. kinda time to sleep now.
gd nite.
and may the haze fly away.
or SEND THE RAIN. amen.
Sunday, June 16, 2013
vids and me and ATTC
hahas. sad to say, in both vids i'm wearing the same shirt though its a different day altogether.
different production.
one is by one of the FD students, and the other is the official corporate video. i think i'm capable of saying...... wiser things, but since i have to be corporately correct and generic, this is what u get. ahhahahs. but nonetheless, it does not deviate from the truth.
not posting up here for publicity, but just for keepsake.
the coupled weekend
not sure what to put for the title for the post today.
been sick with URTI.
the flu's mad and cough's persistent.
the workload never seems to end and monday's gonna be quite a workday.
left the office at a miserable time of 9.30pm with the flu, cough and fever... and headed down the devon's bday surprise / asian champs debrief at dan's place.
was freakin tired, but nonetheless, the h2h session were nice and its so rare that teammates can come tgt this close likka family. really must treasure all these and work on it while we're at it.
and i got home at about 330am!
finally could catch up on my sleep debt though it was short lived.
11am, woke up and realized that i've gotta rush out the club's interviews for the blog and newsletter. couldn't finish in time coz i had to head down to church by 1.30pm for worship prac.
been soooo long since i've played the guitar with the band and quite disappointing. tmr it'll finally the be the first time i'm gonna be playing for Service since last year. so i hope no screw ups!
got home, and finally off to dinner with mother poon and chenxi.
and now its like 1:30 am.
just done with the newsletter and interviews.
havent practiced the songs
and yes, one last impt thing..
i actually BROUGHT HOME work to do. tmd. first wk nia, brought home work. zhun boh.
tmr gotta be in church by 9am and after that i needa go get shoes for monday before i can go for the big meeting. i dun think i should go trng tmr since i'm still not feeling well and i gotta get work done on a SUNDAY.
so much for the wkend and its hello monday again.
this is too crazy.
and its giving me more drive to get out of the whole office life.
and this vid is from a HK drama and i freaking feeel it.
so much that i bothered to whip out my camera and take a vid of it for that whole segment.
if i were to extract all the eng subtitles and put it here, u would probably think that its a post originally by me. ahhahahas.
but yes. words of wisdom, coming from some HK drama.
#truestory.
been sick with URTI.
the flu's mad and cough's persistent.
the workload never seems to end and monday's gonna be quite a workday.
left the office at a miserable time of 9.30pm with the flu, cough and fever... and headed down the devon's bday surprise / asian champs debrief at dan's place.
was freakin tired, but nonetheless, the h2h session were nice and its so rare that teammates can come tgt this close likka family. really must treasure all these and work on it while we're at it.
and i got home at about 330am!
finally could catch up on my sleep debt though it was short lived.
11am, woke up and realized that i've gotta rush out the club's interviews for the blog and newsletter. couldn't finish in time coz i had to head down to church by 1.30pm for worship prac.
been soooo long since i've played the guitar with the band and quite disappointing. tmr it'll finally the be the first time i'm gonna be playing for Service since last year. so i hope no screw ups!
and off to pasir ris for Surya's wedding!
best couple. Samir reminds me of some singer who has cut a record-breaking single album. hhahas
and malay weddings at voiddecks never fail to amaze me. the decos are just so awesome.
and this was the baju kurung i got which makes me look likka waitress at some atas shangi hotel restaurant. but it has some chinese culture to it... once i've got the money, i'm gonna get one peranakan kebaya coz at least its stands for who i am. (:
quite sad that most of the teammates weren't around at the same time for a team photo. but nonetheless, it was funnn. (:
i wish her all the best and still kinda excited for her as she moves into the next phase of her life.
got home, and finally off to dinner with mother poon and chenxi.
and now its like 1:30 am.
just done with the newsletter and interviews.
havent practiced the songs
and yes, one last impt thing..
i actually BROUGHT HOME work to do. tmd. first wk nia, brought home work. zhun boh.
tmr gotta be in church by 9am and after that i needa go get shoes for monday before i can go for the big meeting. i dun think i should go trng tmr since i'm still not feeling well and i gotta get work done on a SUNDAY.
so much for the wkend and its hello monday again.
this is too crazy.
and its giving me more drive to get out of the whole office life.
and this vid is from a HK drama and i freaking feeel it.
so much that i bothered to whip out my camera and take a vid of it for that whole segment.
if i were to extract all the eng subtitles and put it here, u would probably think that its a post originally by me. ahhahahas.
but yes. words of wisdom, coming from some HK drama.
#truestory.
Friday, June 14, 2013
first steps first
wah. hello and its thursday!
sucha week for me.
its a big leap of faith towards the start of my career in the aviation industy.
there's really lotsa interesting things i wanna share with u guys right now but i'm down with a heavyyy flu and i'm reallly tired. but let's go! since i'm still excited. hahas.
apart from my main job for now, i've also helped out with another part time job that does exterior cleaning and polishing of jets. its ad-hoc basis, no commitment needed, so i should be able to manage that.
and so monday was the start of 2 jobs for me.
for mon and tues, after work, been gg down to seletar to clean and polish jets! ahahas
but i must say, it was v tiring. 8am -5.30pm. then 6pm -2am. and then again for the next day. and the next day. by then, i've clocked in 50 hrs of work officially over 3 days.
didn't even play 1 round of candycrush or anything. was focused and i've really learn alot, exponentially over these few days.
u should have seen the high level standard of cleaning man. every speck of dirt. even those at the belly of the fuselage and landing gear. and it was sheer hard work.
i knew i wanted to work not just because of i'm literally getting my hands on the plane, but i needed to get my mind off things that have been bothering me so much lately. and really, i guessed it helped.
in moments that i was reallllly tired, i realized it was different when i'm with planes coz i've never thought of giving up. and it further affirmed me that this is the kind of place i wanna be in.
its all because of.... ME. hahas
what i'm offered is the 1 yr training + 2 yr bond trainee prog. but i dun want coz i'm stubborn and want to bang on the doors of SIA. it was proposed that i go to cabin carpeting which is of a lower pay and all as compared to techs...i didn't mind coz its still abt airplanes.. but i guess when my resume reached the GM, he was kinda impressed as he saw that i was a degree holder and hence, suggested that i go and help out with the business side.
and so, to cut all the excitement short, i'm right now with some business development and management thing... and hopefully, once my airport pass is done, i can do other stuff! though its not clearly specified.
hahas.
so far so goood.
the culture is really harmless coz everyone is focused on contributing positively to the industry; very unlike the business industry where everyone is at each other's throat. maybe coz its only my first week and too early to say. hahas. but i'm abit overwhelmed by how much they trust me with their work.
honestly, i do doubt my capability...not because i think i'm stupid or what, but there's so much unknown and for me to learn!
and the big boss is really nice. he allows me to wear polo and long pants to work. sometimes if feel abit awkward coz everyone around is in office wear. but i really dun intend to waste money on any. but i think i would need to digg out my presentation clothes during poly days if he brings me to meet clinets. hahahs. anyway, i think i should be able to not-shamelessly request for a set of uniform since i'm also with the technician side right. hwhahahas.
oh yea. and there's alot of excollegues from my previous OJT company! its quite nice to see them again. also, coz the company is very close with SIA, most of the ppl are subcons.
got to speak with some of the SIA engineers too. and ytd, there's this guy who came finding me after knowing that i'm his friend's daughter. he's gonna help me with my application too! (: feel so blessed. ahhas. slowly, i'm discovering more of my dad's circle of friends and i just very happy to be part of it. they are all really old ppl, but with ten thousand years of experience kind. so speaking to him really gives me alot of insights.
honestly, with what i'm doing right now, there's so much more opportunities as compared to being an engineer. i guess i'm still quite useful in some sense coz of all the marketing knowledge. but i rmbr ytd, around 11am, i was like.. its only 3rd day and i can't tahan office job alrdy. though its aviation-related, its still deskbound and i feel that its really a challenge to be focused and productive. kept drinking water and going to the toilet in an attempt to keep my limbs active. and u know, last night, i keep having severe cramps on my right calf. hahhas.
but yea, with what i'm expected to do now, i finally feel that my ppt and excel skills is finally put to good use after all these yrs. back in those yrs with sch presentations that reap no financial returns, this time is different. hahas. but right now, i'm still trying to figure out how to optimize MS Access. can die.
anyways. i'm really tired now.
4 days in a row. haven't been trng or running. :/
maybe that's why i'm sick now.
my nose has been dripping all morng.. did all the planning and complicating cross referencing stuff with my spinning head, and i think i did well.
ok.
and lastly, u rmbr about the post about being upset about not being able to go church camp?
yea. if i went, all of these wont be happening.
coz last fri was the interview and i'm asked to start work on monday alrdy.
and so, when God closes one door, it opens another. in fact, many more.
and if He doesn't answer ur prayers, its not that He's not listening, but He's got something better installed for you. (: hahas
all these cliche phrases seems so real to me during these few weeks.
and so... the conclusion?
i honestly cannot decide as of now. i'm quite enjoying the tasks right now coz i'm finally able to put all those yrs of studying into good and useful use in terms of indirect financial growth for the company....and further more, i think the prospects are really looking too good to be true.. but if its deskbound, its really torturous.
as for the engineer goal, its quite set and not that easy to raise up the ladder. it would also mean another 2-3 yrs of trng and all before i can get certified to work on the planes. but i dun mind ah coz its really with the planes. just no office job for me until i'm like 60+ or smth.
ok. i'm gonna crash now.
nighty friends.
sucha week for me.
its a big leap of faith towards the start of my career in the aviation industy.
there's really lotsa interesting things i wanna share with u guys right now but i'm down with a heavyyy flu and i'm reallly tired. but let's go! since i'm still excited. hahas.
apart from my main job for now, i've also helped out with another part time job that does exterior cleaning and polishing of jets. its ad-hoc basis, no commitment needed, so i should be able to manage that.
and so monday was the start of 2 jobs for me.
for mon and tues, after work, been gg down to seletar to clean and polish jets! ahahas
but i must say, it was v tiring. 8am -5.30pm. then 6pm -2am. and then again for the next day. and the next day. by then, i've clocked in 50 hrs of work officially over 3 days.
didn't even play 1 round of candycrush or anything. was focused and i've really learn alot, exponentially over these few days.
u should have seen the high level standard of cleaning man. every speck of dirt. even those at the belly of the fuselage and landing gear. and it was sheer hard work.
i knew i wanted to work not just because of i'm literally getting my hands on the plane, but i needed to get my mind off things that have been bothering me so much lately. and really, i guessed it helped.
in moments that i was reallllly tired, i realized it was different when i'm with planes coz i've never thought of giving up. and it further affirmed me that this is the kind of place i wanna be in.
each time i thought of taking a break, i looked at my focused collegues and continued on. they're really a bunch of nice ppl and the boss even bought us dinner on both nights! (: just look at the freakishly shiny leading edge.
probably shinier than my room mirror.
some places were really tough to clean coz we needed to look up, bend down and all. backached, fingers were sore and all. some of the guys have blisters on their hands too coz of the machined polisher.
but yea, it taught me to be patience and really to give my best in everything that i do.
was polishing the window trimmings and there were moments when my thoughts were like "aiya, this spot so small, nvm la". but again, when i look at how my colleagues work, i just gotta suck it up.
after takining 7hrs to polish 24 window trimmings, looking at it shine was a moment. and i knew that if i had give in to those thoughts, though i would give myself an excuse that "aiya one time only", i can be sure that there will be more such times that i would do that.
and so.
onto my normal job..
honestly i'm not clear of my job scope. ok, not just me but i think the HR and GM also duno.its all because of.... ME. hahas
what i'm offered is the 1 yr training + 2 yr bond trainee prog. but i dun want coz i'm stubborn and want to bang on the doors of SIA. it was proposed that i go to cabin carpeting which is of a lower pay and all as compared to techs...i didn't mind coz its still abt airplanes.. but i guess when my resume reached the GM, he was kinda impressed as he saw that i was a degree holder and hence, suggested that i go and help out with the business side.
and so, to cut all the excitement short, i'm right now with some business development and management thing... and hopefully, once my airport pass is done, i can do other stuff! though its not clearly specified.
hahas.
so far so goood.
the culture is really harmless coz everyone is focused on contributing positively to the industry; very unlike the business industry where everyone is at each other's throat. maybe coz its only my first week and too early to say. hahas. but i'm abit overwhelmed by how much they trust me with their work.
honestly, i do doubt my capability...not because i think i'm stupid or what, but there's so much unknown and for me to learn!
and the big boss is really nice. he allows me to wear polo and long pants to work. sometimes if feel abit awkward coz everyone around is in office wear. but i really dun intend to waste money on any. but i think i would need to digg out my presentation clothes during poly days if he brings me to meet clinets. hahahs. anyway, i think i should be able to not-shamelessly request for a set of uniform since i'm also with the technician side right. hwhahahas.
oh yea. and there's alot of excollegues from my previous OJT company! its quite nice to see them again. also, coz the company is very close with SIA, most of the ppl are subcons.
got to speak with some of the SIA engineers too. and ytd, there's this guy who came finding me after knowing that i'm his friend's daughter. he's gonna help me with my application too! (: feel so blessed. ahhas. slowly, i'm discovering more of my dad's circle of friends and i just very happy to be part of it. they are all really old ppl, but with ten thousand years of experience kind. so speaking to him really gives me alot of insights.
honestly, with what i'm doing right now, there's so much more opportunities as compared to being an engineer. i guess i'm still quite useful in some sense coz of all the marketing knowledge. but i rmbr ytd, around 11am, i was like.. its only 3rd day and i can't tahan office job alrdy. though its aviation-related, its still deskbound and i feel that its really a challenge to be focused and productive. kept drinking water and going to the toilet in an attempt to keep my limbs active. and u know, last night, i keep having severe cramps on my right calf. hahhas.
but yea, with what i'm expected to do now, i finally feel that my ppt and excel skills is finally put to good use after all these yrs. back in those yrs with sch presentations that reap no financial returns, this time is different. hahas. but right now, i'm still trying to figure out how to optimize MS Access. can die.
anyways. i'm really tired now.
4 days in a row. haven't been trng or running. :/
maybe that's why i'm sick now.
my nose has been dripping all morng.. did all the planning and complicating cross referencing stuff with my spinning head, and i think i did well.
ok.
and lastly, u rmbr about the post about being upset about not being able to go church camp?
yea. if i went, all of these wont be happening.
coz last fri was the interview and i'm asked to start work on monday alrdy.
and so, when God closes one door, it opens another. in fact, many more.
and if He doesn't answer ur prayers, its not that He's not listening, but He's got something better installed for you. (: hahas
all these cliche phrases seems so real to me during these few weeks.
and so... the conclusion?
i honestly cannot decide as of now. i'm quite enjoying the tasks right now coz i'm finally able to put all those yrs of studying into good and useful use in terms of indirect financial growth for the company....and further more, i think the prospects are really looking too good to be true.. but if its deskbound, its really torturous.
as for the engineer goal, its quite set and not that easy to raise up the ladder. it would also mean another 2-3 yrs of trng and all before i can get certified to work on the planes. but i dun mind ah coz its really with the planes. just no office job for me until i'm like 60+ or smth.
ok. i'm gonna crash now.
nighty friends.
Sunday, June 09, 2013
denv
.
my dad was young and he didn't had to leave.
i didn't know what i was doing today.
i ate expired packet noodles.
and got bitten by a mosquito
and wished that it carried
DENV
and that you wouldn't be reading this space
.
my upset stomach
In and out, up and down the Main Electronics Bay External Access Door of a B747.
if only life's like that- we can enter and exit the chambers of our thought processes as and when we want to.
a Saturday like none other.
the usual Touch scene is up in KL and so is the church peeps. its been long since i've had a no-plan saturday. brought mother poon out for lunch, then we went to walk around Bugis. dinner there. hanged out at coffeebean and all till 11pm.
my stomach was upset today. its not those cramps and its been long since i've got an upset stomach. perhaps in years.
i know my stomach is strong, being trained by the bacteria from food from the table / food from the village and all. hahas. so, for my stomach to be upset, i had to google out some cause of it.
ok. consciously, i know that i'm unexpectedly moody today and it might be the major contributing factor.
but i didnt know i'm thaaaaaaattt affected by whatever the reasons.
i dun think i'm denying it. yes i am affect, but idk the scale.
before i continue, i would like to add in a disclaimer to you who's going to be reading this: pls dun feel bad or guilt stricken or whatsoever ok. this is said not to really provide you with comfort for that matter, but i just dun want it to be another probable additional weight to whatever baggages u are carrying right now because i still care for u as a friend. period. just do me this favour. tyvm.
was just thinking about myself today.
perhaps i've met another me. a mirrored image of one who's got very similar thought processes as me.
after 23 yrs of my life, i'm pretty sure that i can be a perfectionist and i've recognized that long ago.
and so, being a perfectionist ties together with expectations right. and since its very common and logical that perfectionist face a great deal of disappointments because of the perfected expectation being set, i've long ago tried to make several adjustments to not be so OCD in that sense.
and so, it becomes a situation in which a perfectionist tries to perfect the art of not being a perfectionist.
does the irony make make sense?
and to fail that as a perfectionist, its hits back like a resounding gong.
today walking around with mother poon, i felt quite empty and soul-less. it was a wierd feeling because usually, with a known cause, its easier to deal with. but with a cause that's so ambiguous, it felts that i'm floating of air w/o a surface to stand on. hahas. not a ghost la.
i'm starting to think that mother poon has some psychic power or. though i dun think i've expressed any sorrow or what, (but just telling her that i've got an upset stomach), while we're chilling at coffeebean playing with our phones, she raaannndddooommly asked.. "how's u and D?" i was like... HUH. where did that come from?! and she went on telling me about his mother and all. i dun think both mothers have been keeping in contact since my mum hasn't been going to church... but this was too randomly APT ok. mother poon, its been 7 yrs and that's damn random.
bah.
anyway, after much thought while drifting, i guess i'm the cause of everything.
i dun mean to take up the full responsibility coz it takes 2 to tango, but i just feel that if i had been even more
then again, if i'm disciplined about my feelings, does that mean that it becomes constrained and to a point that it can be classified as untruthful?
this is sucha complex discussion that while typing lotsa ambiguous baseless solutions, i'm backspacing most of it, trying to restructuring, rephrase and re-search.
sometimes, if not, most of the time, i think i can understand what u are dealing with because i've dealt with those issues before, with my own worked out remedy that was proven successful - perhaps only for a period of time / or when the situation starts to bend and contorts itself.
in some points of the day, i felt that i've come up with great explanations for u, but i've lost it in dilution.
and because we do really have an exponential effect on each other, our emotions become very clear despite everything we've tried- be it to be truthful or to hide...and it just becomes very diffusing-ly clear.
i wouldn't stay that there's any cover-up for the both of us, but i might like to say that we might have an inability to identify our problems before we can work on solutions to solve it if there was ever one.
honestly, wrt relationships, i have no idea what i'm searching for and in fact, i dun think there's even a search going on.
its like i've abandoned my heartfelt feelings 7 yrs ago along with that ship that sank deep down w/o knowing the cause of it. investigations have proven to be futile. and i dun think NTSB can even be helpful.
and along the way, i've killed many hearts with a heart that can be so cold with a failed regulator.
probably, its not about not giving them a chance, but i think i've given up on giving myself a chance.
True that. (randomly from Tumblr)
and coupled with today's verse of the day on my phone...
at this point of time, i have re-recognised that i'm tired.
tired of what? idk.
letting go? i've always wanted to.
perhaps is all again the risk-management matrix which fluctuates out of a readable scale.
and so, for me right now the best is to again.. give my best in whatever tasks that i'm responsible to and optimize my time in whatever ways.
i know someday again my bottle's gonna be filled and explode again. but i guess allowing this cycle to take place is a form of solution, not the best, but at least its one to keep me going.
it somehow feels that i'm going back to square one.
i'm going back to the start.
hahas. i dun really like this post coz it feels that i've not established anything / got anything sorted out. usually while blogging, i find myself heading to an eventual place of refuge by sorting out tangled wires. but this time round, it just feels like i'm going another round and another round. quite disappointing. but whatevers, and i dun care.
gosh, and u know what.... after feeling all that weight, saying all that, thinking and trying to sort all that out, i realized that i'm not in a bgr; or ggr. hahas. it feels so much like it. sounds so much like it.
perhaps i've got the secret gift of celibacy after all. hahahhhas.
stucked.
and all this while, i've pocketed these words for you: "i'm happy to let you use me", though it sounds so bloody wrong and its not that u're just gonna deny it, but be sorely against it. ahhas.
i wanted to meet up with u that night to not only catch up with our lives, but really straighten out all our issues it was so much. but since there was just simply too much a back and forth decision-making situation on both of our parts, which i eventually still wanted to meet up, i had to deny that access for myself. but looking back, i'm quite glad i didn't allow myself to coz i think (at this point of time), i wouldn't be able to practice any form of self-control when i'm with u, letting my dopamine-producing neurons go wild, working as partners with my heart to take charge of my whole-being and obviously logically regretting it later.
tmr's Sunday. and i should be happy coz its sunday.
lets all just act in the way we're supposed to be and not deviate from whatever norms that's being set out.
Saturday, June 08, 2013
synopsis
today was kinda interesting.
(another update about my future. aviation stuff again. hahahs)
had a last min 2nd interview with the GM of the prospective company to work out something for me in the company.
ok, basically, from the last interview i was supposed to get a job that involves cabin upholstery. simple carpeting stuff in the plane. after him seeing my resume, he felt that the job did injustice to my qualification, and hence, we wanted to offer me something better. whoas.
so nice right!
honestly, i dun think u can find such people in the business world. its not often that ur resume can actually stand out / they actually bother to read ur resume. i guess also its coz of the amount of colours i've used and made it very editorial-ish. so in the stack of black and white resumes, mine stood out. i dun think mine would stand out if it was in a pile of resumes by prospective marketers.
anyway.
the company ppl are really v nice. i've alrdy made this friend in the HR dept and she's really like helpful. hahahhas.
and so, we spoke for about 20 mins? together with the HR manager.
the gm was from SIAEC as well, also a friend of my dad! he's worked in Delta shift (my dad's Charlie), so since C-D would have some overlap, they knew each other.
i'm really loving this industry in the sense that i'm getting to find out my dad's circle of friends one by one. from the times in OJT, in Sch, and now, my prospective jobs.
i've also established with them that i'm still waiting a response and SIAEC and i would abandon/leave the job if they would call one day. he and the HR manager are ok with it! whoas. i was really blunt but i knew that i had to be honest. and they even said that they can even work something out for me. ok, i'm really not hoping/expecting anything from that, but for them to listen and understand my goal / planning and give such understanding..... i really didn't expect that.
i got a feeling that he wanted me to be some business exec to manage b2b customers, and to deal with aircraft parts and stuff coz i secretly think the company is moving into MRO. but during the interview, i kept emphasizing that i'm super against office desk-bound job coz i know i can't last 8-5 infront of the computer like that, day in day out. i did it for a few months before and it was.... BAH. likka whole new meaning to my tolerance level for office job. ahhahas.
so anyway, i think it was difficult for him also coz not only i have not attain any form of license to work on anything, i didn't want to go for the trng and be bonded to be a tech. at the same time, i wanted hands-on experience. i told him i'm ok with whatever pay i'm gonna get coz right now, that's not my priority. hahahs. i think if i'mma big shot and should meet someone like me, i'm pretty sure i would slammm the door in the face of mine. hahhahas. i also added that i've got some projects and events on my own as a photographer that i've agreed prior to today's meet and he says i'm free to take no-pay leave as and when. whoassss!
but yea, i'm surprised that they not only listened but decided to work something out.
but from what i know, i think they see that i've got potential because of my attitude and stuff like that.
i met some of the staff during the ITE Alumni engineering event in which i shouldn't be going but went anways with some of my classmates because i wanted to go and see the new campus and the 737 at their backyard. (eh. u should have gone and see the sch. tmd. they got duno how many gasturbine engines in their lab just for like fun/experiment/practical). hahaas.
that's also when i put my name down in the list since all my friends did too, and i mean, y not since its just another door avaliable for me. so i guess since the setting wasn't office-ish and all formal, i was just being casual self talking about aviation stuff and all the random jokes about it... so i guess thats how they got to know me better in that sense. it was nice and too casual........... and now to this?! realllly unexpected. hahahs.
and so. honestly, i'm asked to start work on... MONDAY.
?! (and today's friday btw.)
i was supposedly to wait for my airport pass first before i start work as some cabin refurbishing stuff in changi airport. but now i'm asked to start on monday, to be attached to both the engineering and marketing side. i really duno what to expect but one of the guys told me that i've got stuff to do on monday in relation to the project they are working on alrdy. some data involving microsoft access and he seemed to be relieved that i had some basic knowledge about it. ahhahhas.. (thank God for poly education which includes the mindless computer modules in which we thought that it was useless since we all alrdy know how to use. ahahs)
i was also introduced to the marketing manager and she seemed very nice too.
to me, the 2nd visit to the company was just... all too pleasant to me. its my 2nd interview and i've alrdy been introduced to the stuff, in my polo, long pants, wet crocs and a sling army-ish dirty looking bag. and they all look really friendly. maybe coz its dress-down fri or smth, but its not like those normal business office-ish feeling.
when i was working with nera / macdonalds... while installing the terminals/sending food.. i got many glimpses of the different business office settings and a light taste of the environment / culture and stuff. so to me, with the wide (though not indepth) experiences i have about offices and their organisational culture, i must say that this company is really nice.
but honestly, its really toooo early to tell. 2 visits, less than 1hr in total, obviously there's more to experience, but for now, lets just take it as it is.
so anything. that's the highlight for today.
other than that, finally i had time to run all my errands. i went to the bike shop. i got all my shoes repaired and rugby boots sewn. also went to joo chiat complex to get a nice looking baju kurung for my good friend's wedding next wkend.
wahs. so expensive! the normal looking ones are on the avg of $120. i wanted to get likka peranakan kebaya to suit the event and also since its my culture and stuff, but 1 kebaya top alone is $55 at its cheapest. and its not likka top, but just the jacket. the full suit is also about $120 the cheapest. i want to faint. there's also a $15 baju kurung one down stairs, just the top but didnt look nice.
in the end, by God's grace or some sort, i found a shop that's got offer. from $120 to $50 since they are clearing stock. and the aunty was chinese! so she intro me to a nice baju kurung that looks abit chinese so that i can retain some form of cultural identity. ahhahas. had to alter the loooong skirt so that it wouldn't be sweeping the floor. an additional $10. so in total $60 spent!
i guess since its for my good friend's wedding, its ok. and also since i've got many malay friends who are getting married these few months too... it'll be useful. ahhahas. but i think i shouldn't take so many photos. if not all the same. ahhahahahhas.
but all the baju kurungs and kebayas in joo chiat are really v nice. i really dun mind being a malay liao. wahhahahha. while altering the skirt, the shop owner and i were having a chat also. it was very random and the first thing she asked me was "ur boyfriend malay?" hahahahas. and continued on with "u ever got a malay boyfriend" and asked about my opinions and stuff. ahhahas. was quite funny actually. it was likka mini h2h session with a total stranger. then she went on sharing about her friend's daughter who has a malay bf and all.... the skirt really took thaaaaaatt long to alter. but it was nice la. hahahas. i mean the short conversation we've had was nice. and we've also evaluated that the 2 biggest clashes is the religion part and hence the family part in which i totally agreeed too. we also said that love can be great (爱很伟大, as we spoke in chinese) but other factors can caused major problems. soo funny.
weather was crazy. riding in and out of places, it rainnned whenever i was on the road and stopped when i've reached a destination as if on cue.
disciplinedly went down to TP track to complete my runs since i didnt do it last tues.
for some reason, i did the 600m one under 3mins! hahas. to me, its an achievement unlock. (:
idk if its coz of the newly glued sport shoes/ the fav sb that i was wearing / the cool weather and light drizzle/ the day's events or what, but i did have a good session and didn't feel like i was gg to die.
(:
maybe coz i wanted to do justice to my fitness level also.
this week been too good.
been out with mother poon. even went to jb with her and sis on wed.
ate alot of good food and hence, i feel really guilty. hahas.
ok. i could have been up in KL now. either for Asian Club Champs or Church Camp.
but i guess God has indeed planned something better for me.
if i was not in sg today, i could have missed this opportunity.
ahhahas. and i realized that i've got so many ppl to be accountable for. one information, and i've gotta mandatorily inform 6 people formally over emails and whatsapp. that excludes mother poon and the much closer friends. so today, it was just busily running errands and making expeditious arrangements for the weeks to come.
i feel that i've been blabbbbing alot recent in this space abt all the little stuff. ahhas.
anyways. hahahas.
this what it feels like now.....
(another update about my future. aviation stuff again. hahahs)
had a last min 2nd interview with the GM of the prospective company to work out something for me in the company.
ok, basically, from the last interview i was supposed to get a job that involves cabin upholstery. simple carpeting stuff in the plane. after him seeing my resume, he felt that the job did injustice to my qualification, and hence, we wanted to offer me something better. whoas.
so nice right!
honestly, i dun think u can find such people in the business world. its not often that ur resume can actually stand out / they actually bother to read ur resume. i guess also its coz of the amount of colours i've used and made it very editorial-ish. so in the stack of black and white resumes, mine stood out. i dun think mine would stand out if it was in a pile of resumes by prospective marketers.
anyway.
the company ppl are really v nice. i've alrdy made this friend in the HR dept and she's really like helpful. hahahhas.
and so, we spoke for about 20 mins? together with the HR manager.
the gm was from SIAEC as well, also a friend of my dad! he's worked in Delta shift (my dad's Charlie), so since C-D would have some overlap, they knew each other.
i'm really loving this industry in the sense that i'm getting to find out my dad's circle of friends one by one. from the times in OJT, in Sch, and now, my prospective jobs.
i've also established with them that i'm still waiting a response and SIAEC and i would abandon/leave the job if they would call one day. he and the HR manager are ok with it! whoas. i was really blunt but i knew that i had to be honest. and they even said that they can even work something out for me. ok, i'm really not hoping/expecting anything from that, but for them to listen and understand my goal / planning and give such understanding..... i really didn't expect that.
i got a feeling that he wanted me to be some business exec to manage b2b customers, and to deal with aircraft parts and stuff coz i secretly think the company is moving into MRO. but during the interview, i kept emphasizing that i'm super against office desk-bound job coz i know i can't last 8-5 infront of the computer like that, day in day out. i did it for a few months before and it was.... BAH. likka whole new meaning to my tolerance level for office job. ahhahas.
so anyway, i think it was difficult for him also coz not only i have not attain any form of license to work on anything, i didn't want to go for the trng and be bonded to be a tech. at the same time, i wanted hands-on experience. i told him i'm ok with whatever pay i'm gonna get coz right now, that's not my priority. hahahs. i think if i'mma big shot and should meet someone like me, i'm pretty sure i would slammm the door in the face of mine. hahhahas. i also added that i've got some projects and events on my own as a photographer that i've agreed prior to today's meet and he says i'm free to take no-pay leave as and when. whoassss!
but yea, i'm surprised that they not only listened but decided to work something out.
but from what i know, i think they see that i've got potential because of my attitude and stuff like that.
i met some of the staff during the ITE Alumni engineering event in which i shouldn't be going but went anways with some of my classmates because i wanted to go and see the new campus and the 737 at their backyard. (eh. u should have gone and see the sch. tmd. they got duno how many gasturbine engines in their lab just for like fun/experiment/practical). hahaas.
that's also when i put my name down in the list since all my friends did too, and i mean, y not since its just another door avaliable for me. so i guess since the setting wasn't office-ish and all formal, i was just being casual self talking about aviation stuff and all the random jokes about it... so i guess thats how they got to know me better in that sense. it was nice and too casual........... and now to this?! realllly unexpected. hahahs.
and so. honestly, i'm asked to start work on... MONDAY.
?! (and today's friday btw.)
i was supposedly to wait for my airport pass first before i start work as some cabin refurbishing stuff in changi airport. but now i'm asked to start on monday, to be attached to both the engineering and marketing side. i really duno what to expect but one of the guys told me that i've got stuff to do on monday in relation to the project they are working on alrdy. some data involving microsoft access and he seemed to be relieved that i had some basic knowledge about it. ahhahhas.. (thank God for poly education which includes the mindless computer modules in which we thought that it was useless since we all alrdy know how to use. ahahs)
i was also introduced to the marketing manager and she seemed very nice too.
to me, the 2nd visit to the company was just... all too pleasant to me. its my 2nd interview and i've alrdy been introduced to the stuff, in my polo, long pants, wet crocs and a sling army-ish dirty looking bag. and they all look really friendly. maybe coz its dress-down fri or smth, but its not like those normal business office-ish feeling.
when i was working with nera / macdonalds... while installing the terminals/sending food.. i got many glimpses of the different business office settings and a light taste of the environment / culture and stuff. so to me, with the wide (though not indepth) experiences i have about offices and their organisational culture, i must say that this company is really nice.
but honestly, its really toooo early to tell. 2 visits, less than 1hr in total, obviously there's more to experience, but for now, lets just take it as it is.
of course, putting up my guard, but not yet my defenses.
so anything. that's the highlight for today.
other than that, finally i had time to run all my errands. i went to the bike shop. i got all my shoes repaired and rugby boots sewn. also went to joo chiat complex to get a nice looking baju kurung for my good friend's wedding next wkend.
wahs. so expensive! the normal looking ones are on the avg of $120. i wanted to get likka peranakan kebaya to suit the event and also since its my culture and stuff, but 1 kebaya top alone is $55 at its cheapest. and its not likka top, but just the jacket. the full suit is also about $120 the cheapest. i want to faint. there's also a $15 baju kurung one down stairs, just the top but didnt look nice.
in the end, by God's grace or some sort, i found a shop that's got offer. from $120 to $50 since they are clearing stock. and the aunty was chinese! so she intro me to a nice baju kurung that looks abit chinese so that i can retain some form of cultural identity. ahhahas. had to alter the loooong skirt so that it wouldn't be sweeping the floor. an additional $10. so in total $60 spent!
i guess since its for my good friend's wedding, its ok. and also since i've got many malay friends who are getting married these few months too... it'll be useful. ahhahas. but i think i shouldn't take so many photos. if not all the same. ahhahahahhas.
i've ever got a close guy friend who commented that how come i take sooo many photos in a single wedding event. but it turned out to be many wedding events with the same dress. paiseh that he even took notice and highlighted that out to me. ahhahhahas. so since then, i've bought (actually no, mother poon paid for it) 2 more dresses for furture weddings since i'm of the age now.
but all the baju kurungs and kebayas in joo chiat are really v nice. i really dun mind being a malay liao. wahhahahha. while altering the skirt, the shop owner and i were having a chat also. it was very random and the first thing she asked me was "ur boyfriend malay?" hahahahas. and continued on with "u ever got a malay boyfriend" and asked about my opinions and stuff. ahhahas. was quite funny actually. it was likka mini h2h session with a total stranger. then she went on sharing about her friend's daughter who has a malay bf and all.... the skirt really took thaaaaaatt long to alter. but it was nice la. hahahas. i mean the short conversation we've had was nice. and we've also evaluated that the 2 biggest clashes is the religion part and hence the family part in which i totally agreeed too. we also said that love can be great (爱很伟大, as we spoke in chinese) but other factors can caused major problems. soo funny.
weather was crazy. riding in and out of places, it rainnned whenever i was on the road and stopped when i've reached a destination as if on cue.
disciplinedly went down to TP track to complete my runs since i didnt do it last tues.
for some reason, i did the 600m one under 3mins! hahas. to me, its an achievement unlock. (:
idk if its coz of the newly glued sport shoes/ the fav sb that i was wearing / the cool weather and light drizzle/ the day's events or what, but i did have a good session and didn't feel like i was gg to die.
(:
maybe coz i wanted to do justice to my fitness level also.
this week been too good.
been out with mother poon. even went to jb with her and sis on wed.
ate alot of good food and hence, i feel really guilty. hahas.
ok. i could have been up in KL now. either for Asian Club Champs or Church Camp.
but i guess God has indeed planned something better for me.
if i was not in sg today, i could have missed this opportunity.
ahhahas. and i realized that i've got so many ppl to be accountable for. one information, and i've gotta mandatorily inform 6 people formally over emails and whatsapp. that excludes mother poon and the much closer friends. so today, it was just busily running errands and making expeditious arrangements for the weeks to come.
i feel that i've been blabbbbing alot recent in this space abt all the little stuff. ahhas.
anyways. hahahas.
this what it feels like now.....
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