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happy Birthday to me.
and the morning of the 20th of September 2012. the sun shone so faithfully.
thank u classmates for the pleasant surprise, the full chocolate cake from Awfully Chococlate, all the wishes and especially the thoughts and effort.
its been yrs since i've blown out candles on a full cake.
abit hard to believe that i'm 23. still feeling 21.
thank u classmates.
though u guys have been a restless irritating bunch of teenage boys, thank u for being part of my aerospace journey with me. though i think i can be very stern and demanding for a distraction-free classroom, thank u for being patience and understanding. hahas.
though we mutually bully each other day in day out, there's some form of care and share inside la.haaas. we all know it, just that its not that expressive uh.
(:
u guys have really made my day.
really.
u dont know how much it means to me.
this yr especially.
so then. since we're all so near Jalan Kayu, its Sunset Grill with abit of celebration, over level 35 buffalo wings. level 35 dictates the spiciness of the chicken wings btw.
so we left the bar with our stomachs filled with 20% food, 80% water. hahhahhahas. (:
the mixture of such experience, on such a day, with such a company just makes everything priceless.
after that, took a long ride down to pulau NTU to catch SIM's game against NUS for sunig. hahas. good game i must say. was a relatively fast paced game.
yep.
that was my 20th Sept of 2012.
more photos from the practical the day before. HAHHAS.
soldering...
trying to make it into a ball-like pearl. hahas
it wasn't easy. the yellow stuff quite nice ah here. hahas. the yellow stuff's called flux. its the acidic residue from all the soldering. hahas. here it looks like a crystal or some sort ah. ahhahs
as some would say... 'the Ring of Resistance'. ahhahs. (the brown stuff is a circuit resistor)
and this is group 2 of SAME11. that's our they split our class up for all the practicals.
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yea.
all the wishes from friends on fb, twitter, instagram, whatsapp, sms, really. hahas.
though it may just be one liner, it really means quite alot to me.
i mean like to bother and take out time to type out letters shows some from of care and love right. (:
so thanks really.
more so, it reminds me that i've got friends who want me to be happy. and all the more, it gives me solid reasons to be a happy person again.
honestly, like i've said on a few post back, i was really... 'apprehensive' for my bday. the reason was still about you. to be blatantly honest, i was very concerned if you are gg to wish me happy birthday. even on the day itself. even when i was about to blow out those candles, i had to accidentally blurt out ur name in my mind which i really didn't want to.
for these 6 yrs, u haven't wished me a simple happy birthday. and i still believe that 20th sept would be a date that u would still remember at least. i know its baseless analysis and judgements but still, just let me be a girl for this.
i just went to fb and clicked on the 'view friendship' part to confirm it. and indeed, it was just 2 post from me to you, with no replies. and i still can rmbr how long it took for me to craft out that 2 simple casual liners and even longer to click the 'post' button.
and so this yr,
u still didnt.
idk, but its pretty amazing how much faith and hope i have on this. and idk that's all that rationale / source behind it.
okok.
and actually, there were a few reasons for me to ignore petrol/time/effort/energy cost for me to go all the way down to NTU just to watch a touch game on the night of my birthday.
it was between that, gg to ecp, or home.
and i eventually chose to travel from jalan kayu to ntu and back to bedok with a total of 80km +.
reasons were...
sunig, to meet caroline, to spend some time with my touch ruggers, to watch a good game of Touch for the university games, and secretly for an opportunity to meet you. maybe the latter comprises 80% of my reasoning. one of ur og mates was playing, so i had thoughts that some of u guys might go down to support her or so since its so near to ur halls. so then, i would catch a sight of u on my day.
nope. futile deductions.
but oh well, at least i get to see caroline and some of the other girls and guys.
u see. how to not be remindef of u when ur name's everywhere!
now u know the name. but it not obvious anyways since i've got at least 13 of such names on my fb. :p
haahhahhhas.
enough is enough.
though i'm very disappointed (not because u didn't wish me) because now, i dont have any opportunity to bravely and courageously spark off a conversation with u and just to tie up some loose ends and hopefully, gain one more awesome bro back; it gives me a rationale platform to really force myself through some difficult procedures. ok. that' didn't sound right. ahhahs. sounded like some SOP to follow or something. HAHAHS. no, but really. i guess now its only right to insert the quote "it is never easy for a change to happen as it requires u to move out of ur form/routine" - something i got out from my glorious days as a sch team bowler. hahahs. sch team siol. HAHAS.
i think i'm also becoming more and more comfortable in this emo, self-wallowing pity state which i totally detest and to a point, disgusted by it.
so marian, wake up.
start being Poon Marian again.
i was once a strong fighter and i know i can be such again.
time check. its 4:53am
tired. but still need to do up the schedule for next wk's adventure!
hahas. i mean i got home at 2am from ulrica's nus dance production and supper after that. but it was like 2-3hrs worth of catching up of my social life from what i've missed out on this past wk and all the uploading of photos.
yea. and ideally, i've planned to work the 7am shift which requires me to be at the airport in 2 hrs time. looks like i'm gg to work the afternoon one through the night! ): dont like evening shifts. morning sunrise and atmosphere in t3 is really priceless and rewarding. in dire need of that now.
but really, i want to thank God.
for i know that He has not left me.
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