been the theory wk. like 8am till 5pm of theory.
hahas. didn't know as a part-timer, cisco really trains every single staff to be fit for the world. i mean like, since we're gg to be working in the airport, it would be the first/last touch point for every single visitor right.
hahas. throughout the course, i'm learning alot. and really, marketing (as much as i try to escape from it) is really very inevitable. even in the SOPs of security officers, it has blended in well.
life's been good coz for these 10-11 days of course, it seems like gg to sch. and being paid for it.
so day in day out, its like school, then trng. hahas. since contact's out of season, no intense fitness. but, touch season is on and wed's night Track of Pain is very much on.
just yesterday, only 5 ppl turned out. Track of Pain aka. TOP, was still on, hahas- Potluck style. each of us had to introduce our set of fitness and we shared amongst each other.omg. hahahas. shaggged max. hahas. since it was just the 5 of us. 3 very fit men who's 2 angmoh 1 super fast sgaporean + a very fit herseybaby, i had no choice but to try and keep up with the pain. hahahhaas.
but it was fun and conducive.
as of typing this now, stretching out my leg would send pain signals yea.
but yea. i do miss abit of contact work. all that hard work, seeing the team getting physically stronger. hope we dont stop here. we're gg to be back muchhhh stronger next year.
yep, i owe u guys an awesome post on my awesome #likeaboss bangkok trip! ahhahas.
so work life is more or less like that. still 80% thinking if i should really start my aerospace engineering career in june. nw with all the bombardments of airport security, terrorists, sops and all, i'm getting really interested in security, especially in the airport. hahaahhas! i'm still thinking of working as a traffic controller, sign on as an APO or something. hahhhahas. and about my fireman dream, i'm still very much sad about it and full with a revengeful disdain towards it. hahas. i mean no harm. just feeling sour coz i cant eat the grapes (chinese idiom lah, dey.) i still want to fight fires. hear my cries! hahhas
lastly.
hmmm..
its been loong since i've mentioned about you here.
and what's been awesome, i can sense that u're really getting out of my head. slowly, but surely evaporating. life's really been so much easier w/o u in my head every single day. finally man. after 5 long years of inner struggle.
maybe coz i've not personally seen u for a very long time. not once at all this whole yr. maybe since last dec.
it was somewhat like that previously, when i thought that i've let go of u totally, until i saw u on the rugby field and my life sank back down again. wahhahas.
but this time, i think it'll be much better. coz really, internally, i feel more..... relieved. (:
as for now, i'm still with a subtle sense of resistance towards relationships. i become very
so now. i lead an open lifestyle. but still, need a more disciplined walk with God who loves me the most.
i dont think its because of my absence in church / distance from Him makes me feel that we all need God's strength. but more so, its more like because i tend to do more things and get to exposed to more situations, i realized that everything's really in God's control and its not just about luck and fate and stuff. God's been the one who knows the big picture and plans everything out for everyone. no matter how small and insignificant u think u may seem to a huge God up there, God has His unfathomable ways of time and risk management and. hahas. i.e. someone prays for rain vs someone prays for sunshine. hahas.
so yes. we all need an assurance in life and its only with God being the Captain of our lives who can steer us in the right and best option. even if its through the waves, He'll really see us through. dun wanna go into all the verses coz it very much of the famous ephesians / jeremiah verses.
and yes.
i miss thailand. not so much of bangkok, but the villages in chiangmai. hope the battle there is gg on strong and the grounds are getting softer and soften. may strongholds crumble and fall and may those small groups of christians draw strength and expand His kingdom and really, tear down the walls.
keep them in ur prayers. i can't really disclose specifically. but just ask and pray. He knows. and He'll guide.
so. i really thank God for this month. the bangkok. the rest. the work. (: amen to everything.
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