Ultimate!

RAINNED so heavily today that the sim photog club wanted to deploy photogs down to shoot Orchad river. and it rained all the way.

today, it was my first at trying Ultimate Frisbee! hahas
SIM social ultimate trng today.
was damn fun.
but tiring! hahahs
it felt like playing touch, center position with no subs. or constant PT suicides. ahhas.


and i realized, 8 yrs of bowling has made my wrist damn stiff. coz u're like suppose to flick the disc with ur wrist. but when ever i try to do it, it locks up. hahas.
then i tried my left. omg. so much better. hahahahs!!


was fun! coz it really allows u to step ur oppo ttm. ahhas.


i collided with this girl and i think her knee hit my thigh hard.
now its like stifff man. hahahs!

collegiate

lets skip the sch part.




collegiate league.
didn't expect cdans to be so short and dry.

much cheering from the poly teams.


i rmbr when i was in tp, i was like.. why the unis so quiet. so act cool.
now that i'm in sim, i'm like.. why the polys so siaow on and noisy.


ahhas.
oh wells.


didn't bowl well today.
i mean, ok la. last game totally killed me. 17 for first 2 games, neither gd nor bad. just that i'm abit rusty and pocket shot % damn low. pin 10 sparing not bad! but the rest.. aiya. abit frustrating.
but really, alot of pin 10s. alot.
bookie come sure cuii. and i'm talking abt 5-6 in a game kind.


i do not like arrogant bowlers.
arrogant bowlers will just probably rot in their own ego
and will continue to irritate not only fellow teammates, but give opportunities for opponents to shoot u down.
and not only that, because arrogant bowlers are just too confident of themselves, they'll nv ever improve.
HAH.
can't believe he said such thing just now!! tsk tsk.





today's perf really can be improved.
and, 1 month from sunig, sch hasn't officially started trng.
i need to do smth abt all my equippment.
and i need $.
for my 21st, i'd like early ang pows pls.
hahhas.


i should just like hold a party.. and like.. have this.. dun-buy-my-gifts policy.
instead, if u think u want to buy my object X, covert the cost price to cash and put it in an angpow and dropp it off as door gift. idea ar.
hahas.
or maybe like have a gambling den. hahahahahs. assigned bookies.
wah. RICH. hahahahhas.





AH.
anyway.
mid sem test coming up.
project dues are actually in a few wks.
SUNIG season is coming.

i have to do smth abt being focused and maximizing my effort and output for every single trng that i go to.


on top of that, i honestly didnt want to take up any leadership role after i grad from tp. but aiya. hopefully, this is time, it wont be a negative factor to my tournament performance at all ya.




okok.



plan plan plan.





i probably need a 管家公 or a 高显扬 in my life. ahhahas. (2 characters from HK dramas). HAHAHHA.
NAH.
i must be 馬幗英 or 刘三好. HAHAHHHA.

ok. gd nite.

the scenic run

hahas.


for PT today, we actually ran from ccab to orchad road and back.
it was supposedly a scenic route.
ok luh. not bad.ahhsh. cooling and cold.

it was drizzling. ahhahhas.

they say its abt a 5km run. i felt like a 6km ish run lorrs.. HAHAH. unfiittt. ahhas.


after the run, felt damn gd and refreshed. its been long since i've jogged. not a big fan of jogging. hahahs.
so yea.. the team run was quite shiok actually.
ahhas. let this be a start to motivate me to go running on my own ya. ahhas.



oh ya. last night..
hahahs.dreamt tt Glen n Daniel were capts of one of e 21 ships to many countries for sm educational YOG program under NSF.their ship is scheduled to set sail to England on thurs, tmr.12pm-12am.hahahs.other ships go other countries like china, germany, france n so on.all in one day ya. so to go, pls submit ur f...ull name, ic, dob. i dreamt tt Amandas Teo n i signed up for it.HAAHHAHA.

Inception

totally caught this very last min in my 4hr break tday.
caught it with shi at tphy! ahhas.
$5.50 ya. cheappp.



great movie. i wanna watch again. the whole idea of it is just so... correct. its like what i've always experienced in a dream... the concepts and stuff.
(:





then went back for business finance. totally didn't get it.




and off for roll offs.
was very happy during roll offs coz all my friends are here! amanda yq raymond gerald and all. ahhaha. and even aloy. hahas.
totally didn't perform for the roll offs. barely hit 150 avg. off of the offs.
HAIZ.
but whatever. i believe i can catch up.


and i want to complain.
i dont like it how we must pay so much for just 4 games and nvm. he collected our nebo card also. nvm. i go buy the 4 games myself also cheaperrr.
coach not here also, why must we pay the same amt when coach is here.
double forfieting pls.

>:(


and i dun like it how alliances are formed so quickly.
i believe this gives me more reason to train harder. AUG this yr, i will aim to make it. its not gg to be easy coz there's so many other bowlers who can produce scores ya.
needa start focusing on this alrdy. i aim to get top 5 for sunig singles. doubles and quartet goal setting, will leave it till ltr when the line up's out.
its not impossible. just difficult.


yea. and for this yr's sunig, i hope touch can fight for the gold as well.



ok. the next 2 months gg to be competitive and trying.
not forgetting, there's mid sem test as well ya.




today, marks the 4th yr since we went our separate ways.
u've been drifting in and out of my head these few days.
during the roll offs, it felt like u were there. coz 4 yrs back, it was a thurs, just right b4 collegiate league when u told me bad words. ahhas. and that made me like top female for the night or smth. hahas. i still rmbr all too clearly at hougang bowl there.

but i dun think my perf for the roll offs tonight was affected by u though.




OKOK.
i neeed to start pulling myelf together.
last yr to fight for many things before i move on to the working world.
i need a change.
i need to totally forget abt the whole emo part of my life, move on, be head strong and independent again. i dont want to need to draw strength and comfort from ppl arldy.

i just need to focus and be discipline.
more imptly, i need to start placing my whole trust in God once again.

x 10 and it goes on

morng, helped to coach the pri sch.
omg. cute kids. i love them lots as compared to the last pri sch i coached.
hahas. so much more well behaved x 10000.
(:


it was like drizzling.
and it was really cold.
been riding in the cold alot and really, thank God that i've not fallen ill as of yet.
amen to that.


10am came home. and amazed by how i can continue my slp till 1.30pm as if nothing happened in the morning. hahhash.



sch was boring.
lect was too boring.
it was so darn boring that i totally gave up playing lou's itouch games.




then was fitness.
the whole day, the weather was just so... chilly.
reached ccab, totally dread it. because its the last session for the whole fitness season, it was gg to be the hardest one.

wah. i was actually damn shocked that i was very very negative abt it.
it was so bad, that my physical self showed some form of rebellion- my nose starting dripping and all.
totally REPEL ya.
at the same time, i know i need to do this but just didn't want to put myself through all these. aka. wanted to just go easy on myself.
but ya, i'm just damn disgusted with myself, totally fml-ing away. ahahs
but gd thing team mates are damn nice ppl. hahhas. everyone was like positive though secretly negative abt it.
haas. (:


so.

10 x 100m
10 x 80m
10 x 50m
26 x 25m
and then a targeted 17 sets of 5burpups, 10pushups, 15 squads, in 15mins continuously. but ok, managed to only do 13 sets ya. hahash.


ZOMG. hahas.
totally got killed can.
okok. positively, because i was really trying to focus, the 100m went pass fast. but i think the 80m almost took me. hahas. ok la. honestly, i didn't give my 90-100% for all the runs. some were just 50%. but ok. on the whole, i think i pushed a relatively sufficient amt of effort for me to be proud of. hahas.
and the 26 x of 25m, though it was just 25min, it was 26 times ya. ahhahas.


in the process, i drank 2 full cans of 100plus.
during dinner, another can. abit too much, but heck. i need the electrolytes ya. ahhas.



so when everything ended, everyone all smiles man.



this was my comfort thing throughout.
it was in my hands the whole time.
for some reason, i think this tissue paper made me press on.
a littler distraction to be focused ahas




ahhas. took many photos after that.
seriously felt damn nus-oie man. totally felt that i was in nus. haahhas. awesome.
and now that sylvia's gg hall now, i can super crash her hall and really be nus student alrdy. HHAHAH.


dinner/supper was great. the whole fitness thing ended with zhicha at newton. ahhas


for me, quite ironic la.
its like... yay-bye-ccab-fitness...
but then on wed, its like hello-fitness-at-ccab-again. hahas. welcome back. under blacks. ahahas.





i sound very bimbo today.





ANYWAY.


sylvia was damn random today.
but at the same time, it was v v encouraging.
she suddenly talked abt the try i scored against NTU last sunig. hahas. the one that from wing, i backdoor to score in the centre very last minly that the defenders totally didn't see me kind. hahas. i even had time to check leftright and tell myself to put the ball down on the right line. hahas.
that was probably one of my top 10 moments in touch. hahahs. (;
so, thanks sylvia for that short moment of inspirational talk to continue on my fitness.

reverse psyching

hahas.


830am at turf is difficult.
the sun is hot.
and everyone felt v unfit.

play with the hk womens team today.
played center.
actually, today vs ytd, i kinda know why i'm in the center.

positively, but secretly abit negative,
at the wing, mistakes made are costly. its either u score or u dont. or, u're the last man left to make a decision that would affect the outcome. hahas.
at the center, at least u have ur links.

but ok la. today, i really focused.
i guess i really need such stress to calm myself down.
i mean like.. because u know who u're playing with, all the more, u dont want to let ur team down. no matter what, u cannot make stupid mistakes. so today, when i really tried to take things slowly, it kinda work coz i realize that it creates more room for me think than to unnecessarily rush my thoughts.
so, more room, more time, more composure, more performance.
that's how i see it loh.

so thanks phil.
her encouragements were effective. "All those jitters were not needed (:"
hahas. but i think i still needed the jitters to focus. but then again, should not show it. must look confident. hahas

so. we kinda won by like 7-0. hahas. (:
i think we managed to play well tgt though it was the first time we're playing today.
and honestly, i feel so inspired to improve myself.


but yea.
fitness sucks.
i must start trng consistently alrdy.

photo credits to phil's cam and hammie's hand.haha. (it rhymess!)
my cam totally cuii ardy. ):










so after that. went home to slp.
was v tired.


drifting in and out my sunday.




then had a very random meet up with the camp ppl.
ahhas
(:

though it was very random, it was fun.
supposed to meet alvin at ion right. then i walked all the way from lucky plaza to oc and realized its the other direction.
omg. orchad has really changed alot. need to hang out in town more often ya! hahas.





met wathone at her shop.
like omg. one piece of vest or smth... $695?! ahhas
and the store front totally dont do justice to the branded clothes ya. ahhas.








the old town coffee at fareast.
the chairs are shiok.
hahahas. MONOPOLY DEAL. FUNNNZ. ahhas.

oh yea. and the icecream with bread is GOOOD. hahahs.
the garlic and butter toast as well!! ((:

our new chill out place alrdyys.

Clean Bike Day

Morng, at turf city.
HK touch team came down to have a game with Monsoon and Blacks mixed.

played wing for the 2nd game.
and made costly mistakes.

so probably, that's why i'm put to centre for the team list.


tmr. i need to find out.
really discover myself.
find some solid reasons to move on. hahas. no, i am not emo.
just need to believe in myself.
i duno how to fill in such lacking. but because i know who i'm gg to play alongside tmr, i cannot just give up on believing in myself.
that's probably a major leap into all kinds of failure/whatever moving nots.

ironic or what, though the focus is playing against the HK team, what fears me is probably my fellow teammates. okok. snap out of it.



I CAN DO IT


today, i found out the guys can also be charming when playing touch.
u know, in the touch scene in sg, the mens' game are fast paced, aggressive and all those. while playing mixed, i realized that guys can be charming too. hahas. and he is Dev. ahhahs. who probably appeared in a mag that says "top 10 bachelor" or smth. its true. ok. let me take smth back, i dun think many guys are charming.
probably not at all.
but when Dev play, he's really a great team mate to play alongside.
yea.


anyways.

lunch was gd.
saw greg as he came back! for some reason, i felt happy to see him! (:
hahas. he's actually nice la. ahhas. though he can secretly be mean with all the fitness and stuff. but yea, (:
maybe coz i'm out of the club or smth, idk. but it was great having to see him around.




went home.
and....

washed my bike!
i felt that i needed to take care of him. ok i decided tt my bike should be a male and i'm probably gg to name him spidey. AHAHAH. wth.
but whatever.

check out the black pail of water.


and ta-dah!!!



super clean right. 1hr pls. i didn't have proper soap k. i used up one pail of water v sparingly. check out the rims. u can actually see the clean colour of it pls.
scrub scrub scrub.


bathe.


then rode to chongfu's hse to watch trinations.
australia vs south africa.
throughout the match, quite sad coz all the runs and break throughs, no support! that's the saddest thing. or like.. pass pass pass, then finally when its try time, drop ball!! ahhas.
but i think the most memorable thing was Quade Cooper.
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHS.
coz he got smacked out.
and.. he HIT THE DARN CAMERA THAT WAS FILMING HIM.hahahahhahas
1) the camera shook
2) he gave the camera the wth face
3) it was still filming him.
HAHAHAHAHHA.

then from esther's retweet:
QuadeCooper :Was a tough game! Very physical game from both teams and even the camera man lol.. Good start to the trinations :)

HAAHHAHA
totally cannot stop laughing.
but yea, i think seriously, he got injured he was bleeding after that. ahhahs.


yup.
chongfu had fried rice for us! (:



was a v family homely thing. (:
hahas.
and, not forgetting.. ESTHERUNAGI'S WAFFLES.
i think, ok la, give her some credit, it was a .. SUCCESS. hahahhahas.
it was nice.
plus the icecream.. ((:
gd. HAHAHAH.



so u see, we managed to clear it w/o any probs! (: ahhahhas.
ash and john.. are u seeing this? HAHAHAH.




yea. then headed out to serene centre for island creamery coz kh was craving for it. hahas. so random. sista! hahhas.
spent time stalking pp and stuff. quite funny.
i think he makes a really good bro-sista kinda thing. as in.. he's the sista and i'm the brudda. AHHAHAH.
whatever.

okok. i need to slp now. gdnite!


yea. and its like 8 friends' bday.
and happy birthday to my sis if she's ever seeing this. HAHA.

town

quite a sad fri.
miscomm so the dinner was off. ):


walked around town myself for like 5hrs. hahahs.
bought 3 shirts for under $25.


that's abt it.

sports psychology

today, had this sports psychology course by Edgar Tham under SIM.
its my 4th time listening to him speak arldy. ahha.
the whole IPS thing... all learnt b4. ahhas.
1 time in KC, 2 time in TP. now 4th time in SIM. ahhas. cool or not. HAHAHAH.

thus,didn't reallly learn alot (he'a quite speaker though)coz i've heard all those b4, but it really made me re-think and refresh my whole sporting life.


we did some exercises that required us to recall our past best and worst performance.
i wanted to think in touch context.. but, it was really abt bowling.
that was the problem, if u see it as a prob.



i mean like. i wanna focus more on touch now more than bowling. period, for now.



its either..
a) bowling is a routine sport that required alot of my brain power. so really, while trying to rmbr details of a sport, bowling would fit in.
b) ok. i think i am subconsciously more serious in bowling than for touch.

idk.




but in any case, it really pushed me to take note of my performance in trngs.
like for bowling, its alrdy a habit to make every shot count, to make every throw matter.
i guess for touch, because i've missed out a big part of in while i was in tp (that's probably the most unfortunate and regretful thing i've done in my sporting life), picking up the pieces now that i've graduated is not gg to be easy. i need that kinda routine mindset i have and still having (to my amazement) for bowling.


touch world cup is next yr.
some of us are trying for the squad.



to be honest.
i'm not one of the best player in singapore for a team to have.
and somehow, i know what's really putting a caps to how far i can grow- myself.
cliche and corny, but that's what it is.


i'm really struggling alot with my self-confidence still.
alot of times, is can one. but i dun have the right amt of confident to tackle opponents. i'm really afraid that it has successfully become a habit; part of my routine in my game. and this is bad. really bad.
i do not like.


i rly duno how to start and where to start from here.
the trng has recently started and i really hope to find my antidote.
i read the email and congrats, i'm being put in the Center.

i mean like.
omg. same prob in pirates and then monsoon.
i feel very comfortable at the wing, and probably thinks that i screw up less at the wing. but ppl and coaches tell me that i'm better at centre.
honestly, i have no idea which part of my playing style is centre.

u know, sometimes infront of strong teams, ok, not just that, let's just talk abt strong individuals. yea. when just upfront with 1 strong individual player, i'm always fearful that person would stepp through me.
it happens too many times alrdy.
sometimes i know its my body positioning, but it such a bad habit.



okok.
u know what. this is not gg anywhere because at the end of the day, i'm just gg round and round to say
1) low self esteem
2) its a bad habit.


so
i should sleep for my 830am lect.




oh ya. quite funny over the msgs on fb.
what i found it quite useful though it's vulguar:
do your best and fuck the rest



(: sry for the vulgarness. but this could help make one be positive. ((: hahas

my wk

whoas. i havent been bloggin much ya. ahhas


honestly, off-handedly, i can't rmbr what happened. i'm referring to twitter/fbphotos to refresh my memory. ahhas. tsk tsk.



MONDAY.

sch was boring.
this sem, really find it hard to learn from the lect. everything's so dry and common-sense/ learnt b4. not that i'm smart, but i need lects like Business Finance to keep me alive.

then i crashed NUS fitness.
quite unwilling after i recieved a call from manda to join the guys for steamboat. HAHA. but i answered the call infront of the girls alrdy.. so ahhahas.. ok la. not so nice to leave. and even if i go, i'd be feeling very guilty.

i mean like.. u know. when u know that u're gg to do a fitness session on a monday night, on sat and sun, u'll then to gorge urself in food without regret, in full faith that u'll burn it off on the monday night. so quitting and giving excuses to not do fitness will just kill u slowly in the long run. ahhas. ok.


so i went.
but though it was supposed to be a relative easy session, i almost died on the sudden burst of 300m after sets of 12x50m 10x80m sprints and so on.
and i heard next mon's gg to be like 10x100m , 10x80m .... 26x25m sprints, with duno what in between and more. how is that possible? hahas.
i think i need to train on my own b4 a fitness session. ahhas

so after that, since i missed the gang alot, i headed down to kristel's crib to meet them. ahhahhas. not bad. didn't get lost and infact, i knew the place quite well coz it's part of the area i deliver when i work at Singpost. (: hahas

though it was very short-lived, it was needed for a getaway and additional colours to my ohsoexciting life. ahhas.





manda and i made fondue! she bought all the stuff. i tell u, she's just like my mother. presentation is no.1 . ahhahas.



while in the lift otw to the carpark, spotted this inside. i am sure this litter belongs to kristel. ahhas. tsk tsk.



yup.
so...


TUESDAY.

hmmm.
sad that its a 830 and a 330pm lect day.
so inbetween, i met up with SYLVIA HO JIA EN.
ahhas. it was supposed to be very fruitful gym session and all. we meet at toa pahyo swimming pool outside. then realized... omg. the WHOLE AREA IS CLOSED FOR YOG. tmd. the gym / pool all closed. then even the safra gym is closed!
damn sad.
all the memories with the liangs like gone so fast. ):
best gym ever.

so siva and i wanted to go other gyms in pursuit of our great workout day. hahahs.
but no, the rest of the gyms are either not convenient or closed for YOG. tmd.
at that point of time, i really didn't like the whole yog thing. AHHAHA. just for that moment.


and the sun was damn bright and sunny.
hahas.


so we went to eat at toapahyo.
gd chill out session.
after when we're done.. OMG. RAIN.
and it was BIG. like a storm, possible-orchad-road-flood situation... hahas.
and my helmet was out on on bike, soaked and drenched.
damn sad.

so for today, i had to use the full face helmet. it's actually v comfortable! i like! hahas. but can't drink water from waterbottle. ahhas. and maybe its a psychological thing or a i-cant-hear-the-motor-that-clearly thing that made me rode faster. that's bad.


at 2.30, siva had to leave and THANK GOD, the rain stopped. like suddenly.

roads were wet and it was reallly COLD on the way back to sch for my 330pm lect.
business finance. didn't really like it. but this local lect GOOD. he should have taught us for the 1st 3 lect. so much better than the ang moh.i dun like rmit lect. i dun think they're gd anyways.
so BORING.


after lect. trng.
was quite a gd theory session actually. recap of what i've learnt b4 when i was under cathay / uncle jack. ahhas.
nothing's really changed.
supper at.. macs. :/
and homed.



so TODAY.


hated lect.
again.
she spent like 50mins on the cover sheet, asking around what's marketing and all. i mean like. come on. 4th yr of doing marketing subjects, do we really need to go through in such depth of what is marketing when really, the focus is on Global/International marketing??



grr.



went to town to meet ESTEE AND GANG AFTER THAT. ((:
happiest.

been so long since i've seen them. and no matter how long we've not talked, when we meet, we can still talk all the rubbish and be our very self. I LIKKE.

the last time i really set foot in town was probably in jan or early. totally didn't know how town really looked like.
when jerm told me like "after 313 u turn right" i was like.. what's 313? HAHA.
he was shocked that i didn't know what was that. hahas.
313 is NICE.





we're supposed to eat at this jap place jamin said that it was at orchad central.. but.. IT WASN'T. ahahhas
so we went to EwF to eat. not bad. ahhas.







found my worthy tap tap opponent. once i get my itouch, i will challenge u well. HAH.



then we went 313 cold rock for ice cream! (:







jamin's FOC stuff. ahahahas.
sg is so short of ppl that they're tapping on the NS men to do some dance for YOG. HAHAHAH. damn funny.


quite a funny grp shot. if only joelle and gabriel was around. ahhas.
i need to go town more.
and i need to hang out with these ppl more. ((:


ahhahs. our stupid 10sec magic trick in the girls toliet. ahhahahs.




after that,
i literaly rushed down to amk to get KOI bubble tea to surprise suan.
wanted to go iluma. but heing i called up first and they say no more pearls and they're closing soon. so i called up amk one. they say they closing at 1030 which was in 8mins. hahas. w/o knowing were it really was, i just head down to amk and parked at this random carpark. btw, cte jammed at a very wierd timing w/o any accidents ya.


yea. so, i used my phone's foursquare app to find out the exact address of KOI. AAHAH .blk 704. ok. my macdelivery skills in full force.
ahhas. found the place at 10:45pm. ahhas. awesome.
bought koi for my sis, suan and his sis and myself.
not really a big fan of bubble tea, but this is nice.


so yea, i delivered to the foo's residence.
thanks to the sis, the surprise went fine.
ahhas. all in the name to cheer the emo boy up.
i'm sucha liu-san-hao. (the current hk drama show girl. ahhahahs)


on the way home, a big black stray dog suddenly pop out of nowhere. iamed brake and horn like mad.. Lucky surve out no car and sped off straight. Heing sai.
seriously. SIAOW. it was a huge dog pls. like golden retriever kind of size.



so i came home.
and...

Omg. Mum bought me a jacket (the white/red one), the same as she bought for me the other time (the yellow/blue one). ahhas. she thought that it's diff. ahahas. just the colours ya. ahahas. i think mother poon is cooler than me by x1000000 times.





she's cool pls.


i haven't been working.
):
not that i dun have time. i can actually work from like 9-2pm. but i'm like slping and slping and not gg to the gym and carrying out the sessions that i'm supposed to. ):


i want to get like a pair of real raybans or like oakleys.
hahas. instead of my current $6 cotton on rayban-looking sunglasses and the act sporty, scratched out $16.90 sports sunglasses. hahahs. they both fog out. the sports one still can protect from uv.. the cotton on... totally cmi. hahas.

hahas. i reallly need to woorrrkk. ahhas.
best is not to think abt all these b4 i work.


for now,
i just have to get my interest back in studyying. really, i hate this sem's subject. i'm getting too bored and too involved in itouch.
i should start writing down notes. it may not be due to interest for a start, but just write down to stay awake and make it a habit b4 i really start liking it.



i love to pay attention in lecture.
i love lectures.
i love to take down notes.
i love to be attentive.
i love to have my notes filled with more notes.
i love to rmbr what the lecturer says.
i love my subjects.
i love to believe that i'd be learning from everything.




that should help.
(:



oh yea. new function man!
below my post, can have like a share it button. COOOL. (: hahahhaas.
now i can like share posts on my trips and stuff.hahha. yay!

the castle

sat morng was like competitive social touch. ahhas. quite fun.
saw another accident on the PIE. cfm drink driving. he banged into the lamppost. super mount curb at the bus stop opp trellis towers. heing no ppl walking on the pathway. if not another freak innocent death.


then off to derelyn's mansion castle to catch the all blacks vs south africa trinations game.
hahas. theme was seafood.
i think i was abit lazy to whipp out my cam and start taking photos. ):

we took like a 15min tour around her house.
it was really big. the biggest ever. i duno how many storeys. theres like indoor/outdoor pool, gym, theatre, many many bedrooms, big kitchen, in/out porch, garden, study rooms, library looking room.
i think any kind of words used to describe the castle would be an understatement.

this is the art piece that was very interesting.



the house had many art pieces as well. some of the paintings we damn nice that i had to stare at it for a few moments and soak in its awesomeness.
her dog Woookie, blending in with the carpet! ahaha. damn funny! the dog is damn cute.



dinner. this was part of the kitchen.


the mum made laksa! nicee! and the egg was huge





we all had dinner tgt in the dining hall.. and it felt damn family-ish. not to mention esther's AWESOME waffles... she made it with evaporated milk and forgot to put vanilla essence. AHHAHAHAH.
so with ate it with ice cream from Ben and Jerrys- flavours werePhish Food and Turtle Soup. hahas.



oh ya. damn funny.
after the match, chongfu needed to go off. he told me that my bike's blocking the way. HAHA. cannot be coz i parked right infront.
ahhahas.
i didnt believe.. but followed him out anyways. ahhahs.
THEN.
i saw my bike inbetween his car and another car (of a parallel parking) HAHAH. I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN A PHOTO OF THAT but didn't have my camera with me.

omg. they are damn strong pls.ahhas.
i locked my bike, main stand and all siol! ahhahs.
so they literally carried my bike away. they said if i didn't lock my wheel, they'd carry it far far away and out of sight. AHHAHA. damn funny.





yep. so after all that,
went home. was really cold.




sunday.
it rained all day long that it cancelled all my plans.
totally rained all day with floods all over singapore.

fri

nothing much today
just felt that my day was wasted with a 330pm lect.
still have 0 motivation to pay 100% attention.


on the way home, came across 3 accidents!! PIE. near BKE. and Bedok!
must be the rain and the fallen trees.

omg. the bedok one was jia lat.
it caused a jammm even though the accident was opp the road.
the windows of the 2nd deck of the double decker bus was smashed.
then i saw the tent.
and there was like 100 over residents standing there to watch.
few tp bikes and scdf vehicles.
quite jia lat.



came home, then found out what happen.
see the link here
bus 87 and it happend around 330pm.
THANK GOD, i rode today.
that would have been the bus i'd be taking to kaki bukit to change to 2 more buses b4 gg to sch.
injured victims were those at the back of the 2nd deck and that's where i'd usually be sitting.

mum sits that bus to go cell.
sis sits that to go home.


its like. omg.
what are the odds of dying in the upper deck.


came home, glen msged me abt another accident he witness involving a bike.
and just last thurs, my friend lost his friend to a bike accident.


seriously.




everyone should start riding bicycles.
that would be so much bettter.



supposed to meet 2 friends for dinner and all.
then she pangsehed.
hahas. left with him.
he's my gd friend, not that of a close bro kind. just gd friends.
but ... er... i was shy to just have dinner with him.
HHAHAHA.
omgs right.



didn't know i was THIS SHY till today!!
tsk tsk. and the best part is.. both of us were damn free and sian. ahhahahs. ya.
totally loosing my coolness ya. ahhahahs.

i guess i'm just afraid that i'd grow wrong feelings luh.
totally not a time now.
its actually quite funny when i told him over bbm.
and he just had to double confirm it that "haha. u shy huh!"
totally out to embarrassed me.


but all's gd. glad's nothing's change. as in.. no added awkwardness kinda thing.
(: hahahahhaahhas.




oh boy.




so since sis was coming home and i was back for dinner in the end, mum made hot pot again. yay. (:

sometimes...

sometimes u try and think of all the negative sides of things. but u realize, the more u try, the more u backfire coz it all doesn't matter.


sometimes i dun like typing all these down so publicly
i dun really want ppl to know how emo i can be
neither am i really seeking care.


just need to be heard
and be vented i guess.


HAHS.




i mean seriously.
if back then, i didn't promised so hard, think far and trusted so deep, i think this whole period would be so much easier. and u shouldn't have promised as well.
lesson learnt: nv ever make promises even if u think u're damn sure abt it.

things change, ppl change.
i dun believe in simplicity as of yet.
its gg to be 3 whole yrs soon since i've nv failed to think abt u each day.
without fail pls.
if this was academic, i could probably be a doctor now or a scholar.



then again, confidently, i see myself getting out of this trough real soon. (:
time do heal all things. but really really, really slowly.
never expect.



so. thank God, really.
i've picked up lessons u'll nv think u'll learn from shits.
but u do learn.
ya, u say and u know it.
what's impt is if really u do it. apply it.




not lecturing here.
gonna slp now.
i could have slpt like 2 hrs earlier but no. hahahas.
just have to be a delinquent huh.

one for one

hahas.

830am lect. woke up at 825am,
beat the traffic and reach sch at 8.59am b4 i'm officially late.
hahas.
it was yet another rain-no-rain-jacket-no-jacket situation.
PIE near bke there was like BIG droplets.all the bike stopped to put on their jackets. i went on with faith.
AHHA.
hero pls.
but true enough, thank God ttm, reached NP there just slight drizzle. ((: HEING.

so.
what's best.. lect is late. tmd. he came at 930am.
and he was like.. "yea. i thought i was 9.30am lect"
come on. who's gg to buy it? just say u caught in the jam la. we'll understand lors. ahhas. tsk tsk.




so. 4hrs break before 330pm lect.

we went Bishan to eat. decided on Swensen's coz its ONE FOR ONE. ahhahas.
huat ar.
((:

the queue was long. but worth the wait.





cheese burger pizza which really tasted like cheese burger.


i order the lagsana and it really tasted better than expected.


check out the bill!! huat ar. so one person like $15.70. with the pizza, soup, drink, ice cream and all. felt so worth it.



then KOI milk tea! hahas.
not a sweet tooth person.. so i'm a 25% sugar tea w/o pearls.ahahhas.








lect ended.
i dun like it when lecturers upload the notes so darn late that everyone has printed outdated notes though some print like 30hrs b4 lect starts kinda thing.
tmd.

so yea. totally wasn't paying attention.
playing lou's itouch all the way.






aft sch...

I

HAVE

NO

TRNG!


wanted to print notes.. but didn't really know what to print proper.
so forget it. tmr morng go sch then print.


didn't know what to do.
where to do.
wanted to go out but no point
wanted to go for a run, but the weather was really hot/humid kinda thing.
so forget it. went HOME and nua around the house duno doing what.



this sem's really very dreading.
i cannot fail any subs this sem. if i fail, i'd be missing the 2011 grad. so, i'll be grad in 2012. the horror. NO. defeats the purpose of why i'm in SIM.

let that be my motivation.
and yes friends, if u see me being very slackk, pls remind me of 2011 grad ceremony. i dun want to miss it.




i need to be more driven.
maybe as i'm getting older, i'm really loosing the drive.

fast

got home in 12mins today. what a record.
no, i'm not trying to set a record.
but the road was really clear.

my world cup fever

over these wkends, did so many things that left me not knowing what's day and night. bio clock totally screwed and my bike was really well used, pumping full tank, twice.

world cup in total. lost money.
- $40 on germany vs spain
- $30 on uruguay vs germany
- $30 on holland vs spain
but +$15 on spain for extra time. haha.

Sat morng- Youth in Touch.
played for Team Underwadder! ahhas (:
it was really great because all the ppl who went overseas came back! (:
dee mavis su wathone ju chu siti surya marli and i. it was like 5tp 5rp team. ahhas.



ok. we came in 2nd in the end.
faced pirates in the semis and team axis in the finals.
team axis is inhuman ok. ahhas. their team is made up of scary ppl who can burst like damn fast. hahas. so our objective is to not get thrashed so badly.
for pirates game, felt that it was alittle bit... erm. hard. as in like. in our team all of us, except for surya and siti were from pirates. i mean like... playing with them, i felt that yea, i do miss the times there, but at the same time, quite sad that its different now. as in like, i fell luh, like not together together enjoying touch like that. that's just a feeling from me.

but oh wells. glad that those who are in pirates are still playing touch.

chu's knee got prob during the pirates game! hope she's fine.
the sun was damn hot.
and it starteed to drizzle abit.
but really thank God for the day. for marli who was damn busy with tfs stuff, orgainzing the whole thing like by herself, and pulling the team tgt when we're damn tired.

ahhas. everyone's damn tired.
so after that...

BAN MIEN!



(: glad to be eating ban mien with mavis after a tiring wet+sunnily hot day.
i ate ban mien and yu pian mee fen after that. ahhas. siaow.



then. when home. nua for awhile.
then out to Aranda's Country club for Jerelene's 21st bday.
): that sara didn't go. but there was geraldyne, all the melissas, theresa, chengen and more kc ppl. (:

it was a small little gathering and jerelene was really pretty that day. she's like a princess.



then. i went home.
changed.
and OUT TO WORK.
from 12am-8am man.

hero pls.


was damn tired. but there's like the world cup 3rd/4th to push me.
sad that germany lost.

at around 7am was damn shagged.
almost fell asleep!! i kept talking to myself, singing out loud, randomly shouting out loud but didn't really help for long. ahhas. i surved and almost hit the curb. thank God it shocked me and i was wide awake for that moment.

i rmbr trying to find blk 61. ahahhas. because i was like in a half-asleep-trance mode, i went round round, making at least 4 u-turns. and the best part of it, i do know the place ya!
ahhahhaas. and finally i told myself to snap out of it go striaght one more and turn right.ahahahahahaas
damn funny.


in the midst, there was a guy who invited me to his home to watch the finals with him. i was like "er.. i have to make another delivery..". company policy also say cannot ar. ahhas. his house damn nice. got aircond and big screen LORR. hahas. nah. i'm a gd girl.

also got another house, foreigners. they look Iraq-ish. ahhas. 3 guys, 1 girl. all in their late 20s, early 30s i guess.
they invited me in to weigh myself. ahhahahah! they were like "hey. we really do not know how heavy an asian weigh.." so ok lor. since it was all in the name of fun, i took off my shoes and went in to step on the weighing machine. ahhahas.
the girl was shocked to know how light i was and the guy was stunned. he claims he's 100kg.. but seriously, he doesn't even look like if he's even able to hit 70kg.

ahhas. an no, i'm not light.
its all relative ya. numbers have no weight. they need to be in relation ya. ahhas.





finished work, stayed on for awhile to catch the match repeat. till 10am.


SLPT till 4pm. sunday.




6pm went tp to fetch desmond.
we all met up at jalan kayu to go....



sunset grill! ahhahas. CALAMARI RINGS. hahahs. out to kill Octo paul in the name of Holland fans. serious ar, octo paul makes me feel that the whole world cup's a conspiracy pls.



we just ordered lvl 5 and everyone buay tahan alrdy. haahhahas. looked like everyone finished trng/sunburnt and all.ahhahs.





then head on to Dessert Bowl at Serangoon gardens. (:


not a sweet-tooth person besides for choc and icecream. ahahhas.
there's like this durian moose which everyone says it's nice. not for me though. i HATE DURIANS. AHHAS. if like there's a truck with durians on the road within bluetooth range, i can smell it. ahhahs.



this photo looks like taken at someone's house ar! ahhs.



then went to play lan at parklane.
lan was fun. one team was thrashing other team in L4D. and when i mean thrash, i mean like reaching the safe zone in 3mins kind and the infected didn't even have a chance to attack. HAHAHA.




photo of kaheng and alvin. ahahhas. this was went the infected came in and attacked us. ahhahas. royston and xin yu joined us! (:



then head off to SIM for WORLD CUP FINALS at the teacher's lounge at lvl 5. hahahas





ka fei sao!!




our residential _____. ahahhas. at full time, they very busy.
those who bet under Singapore pools still have a fighting chance! hahahas.



Holland supporters!!




cuii ttm. hahahs. xin yu loooks damn fresh and able to go for a run. hahahs.






last stop... KAP MACS for breakfast.


kah heng likes his hashbrown like that..

hahas. u have no idea how much pepper packets were used.

so overall, went to so many places!
i've got the foursquare app. ahhas. so, i've collected a few badges on the night itself. ahhhas.

then slpt in sch. my phone died. so couldn't find the gang. everyone buay tahan. so they slpt at lvl 3 while i slept at the atrium. ahhas.
they have their 830am lect.
while mine's at 330pm.
didn't want to ride home and beat the morng traffic with the malaysians. wasn't in any state to ride also. hahas.

so left sch at 10am. abit groggy but its alrdy the best. hahhas.
reached home safely and had a really good 4hrs of slp till 2.30pm and then back to sch..

surprisingly, i was wide awake during lect.



then ar. best part: went for fitness.
AHHAHAH
oh my tian. my whole body's aching!! not from the late nights. but from sat's youth in touch. ahhas. totally.
i couldn't do the sprints. i just jogged 10 rounds and almost died.
the circuits, i didn't do full out. my neck was still in pain since sat. think i sprained it. hahas.

so last night was quite sad abt my mental. and really, i think its the lowest of my fitness level.
the highest was during last yr's bangkok asian champs.
now, its like.. i'm recovering for my torn ligament.

i mean like. its the worst stage because, u dun really have a reason to be weak.
a few months ago, u can attribute it to ur torn ligamment and all. now that its recovering and almost recovered, u really have no excuses alrdy. so in a way, its really not that great.


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