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so today's it.

let me see if i rmbr correctly:

Girls
Individual- Gold, Sliver (kristel and nic)
Doubles- Gold
Team- Silver
Overall: Girls Champion.

Boys
Individual- Bronze (yiquan. ahhahs)
Doubles- Gold and Silver
Team- Gold and Bronze
Overall: Boys Champion.

Overall Sch Champion







7am breakfast.
8am in the alley.
9am bowl
8pm finished.
2am home. and almost dying.





let's talk abt me first.

i didn't do well as i expected myself to do. but honestly, i think that it was at my best and i couldn't have done anything bettter unless to find my mistakes earlier.

well. i learnt 3 technical things today abt myself when i'm on the approach during a competition..
1) i never slide.
2) i never put my thumb fully into the thumbhole = restricted swing = 0 timing.
3) i never stay low / proper weight transfer on the 4/5 step/slide.
major lesson: personal internal environment can be majorly affected by external surroundings.


for the first 2 blocks.. it was the singles and then the doubles event. 3 games each. i really bowled like as if i did not bowl major competitions before. i really felt that i was holding back and not pushing as hard as i do in trng. maybe in the process of taking any form of unnesssary pressure off, i accidentally removed that sense of strength? hahas. does it make sense? ahhahs. i was actually confused until coach said something bright during debrief. "eh marian. where's my little giant? u're not like how u're in during trng. i want u to BOWL". it took me abt 5sec to understand and did some form of realization.
another bright thing he said b4 the tournament was "ur opponent is just you" ... smth like that. cliche and heard of b4.. but when applied to that situation, it just works.
gd to seee familiar nationals faces. the times we fought together and now, against each other. ahhas. now older and fighting for different schs. that's smth nice to look forward to for every competition.



my singles. total screw. i know i bowled a 137 avg. its like an avg i bowled in sec 1. hahas. the lanes was super... disgusting. outside flooded. inside relatively clean. infront med length heavy oil. so as u bowl. it gets worse. and when u shift, it confuses u even more. ahhas. for me, i just couldnt' go through my normal routine. so finding a gd line to bowl wasn't really my challenge. HAH. loser!
but i felt that it was a total let down to myself. everyone was off form and i just couldn't grab the chance. ahhas. i was just suffering like everyone else.



doubles.
my doubles partner was cheryl. she bowled well and i bowled like.. 14+ ehwws. after the event, manda told me we got 6th! i was like.. major shit! if i had bowled slightly better than trng, i think bronze was within reach. not because we're damn zai. but because the lane condition almost killed alot of ppl including me. but i felt that this block was my turning point. felt that i was coming back. but seriously. 6 games alrdy. that's damn slow to come back.




team event.
ok la. we tried. we tried to pace ntu's first team beside us which eventually won the gold. but it wasn't enough. i dun that that we're that nervous to affect our bowling to this extent la. alot of factors. but mainly, i think we're not trained tgt well enough. for me, i think it was the best series that i could come up with for the day. 452 or smth. 15+ for 3 games. not that fantastic, but rewarding after trying so hard to get back using 6 wasted and emotionally draining games. well, at least my games are climbing, showing no signs of giving up. ahhahas.



for me overall, i just felt hard to have chemistry. we tried and all. but just lacked the trng time tgt. it was the first time we bowled together as a team to compete. it's just cannot i guess. and honestly, while bowling, i was really thinking of amanda.. wondering how's she's doing and all. but real proud of her. hope today's a gddd and valuable experience cum lesson for her. gd job!

well. i just felt that this part could be majorly worked on.
but oh wells.


i think dc project submission affected my bowling.
no, seriously. hahas.
mentally almost blocked out because i didn't sleep on thurs night.
damn sad that i won no drinks, no meals, no happy meals and no $50. wasted such gd deals. ahhahas.



the guys one the other hand, bowled better than expected. i guess coz other sch's boys crashed at the 'right' time. (sry ahhas). the lane cond in the 2nd blk was much more drier. and by 3rd block, backend was clean and nice. area was gd for me.
i think schs are thinking that SIM are biased thinking that we had the upperhand of trng with the oiling since we're the ones who organised this whole event, plus, we won. could sense it la. everyone was just out to kill us as well.




then after the whole thing, amanda, sz and bran surprised me! ahhas. they gave me a Marian's Challenge Trophy! AHHAHA. it was a bowlingpin trophy. hahahs. happily surprised and shocked. i know its damn ex la. and like... ahhahs. damn sweeeeet. (: the feeling's like.. i didn't get to the team i wanted, i didn't get to bowl with my closer friends, i bowled like shit and still get a trophy. hahahahas. thank u. i love trophies. ahhas. sucha great motivation.


oh yea:
thank u all the helpers and supporters for this event. i'm really amazed by all yr patience... to marshall from 8am-8pm. being a bowler, watching ppl bowl and not bowling is not a nice feeling altogher. thank u for all the kind and contributing effort so much. i don that i can ever last for more than 4hrs. that's my caps. thank u all for contirubting the the gold medals in small and unnoticeable ways. reallyl appreciate all the effort. (: hope that nobody takes u guys for granted yea. w/o u all, nothing of today is possible.




ok so...
then was supper! and another surprised. they somehow managed to buy a cake and stole a few metal spoons. hahahhas. (: damn touched.


i realised, this yr's bdays are v special for me. they happen on the 'right' times.
for eg... that day.. i was damn emo.. and my closer few friends totally surprised me. i didn't know how to react, feeling filled with emoness, but damn bloody touched.
today, i bowled like cow and not worthy of marian and yet, all the bday stuff really cheered me up.





u know, i really thank God for blessing ppl who think of me and stuff. really! i nv see bday as an impt day coz like almost everyday, i have a friend's bday. so like.. super draining to everyday go and plan smth or even send out a simple sms. i nv really treasure bdays. but i'm just so blessed to have ppl celebrating for me. its really these little gestures that remind me to be cheerful.
thank u for ppl who direct and indirectly remind me to stay cheerful; reminding who i am.






so now.
decisions.
i'm really not sure to continue on with this. very very half half of +/- reasons.
firstly, it's expensive and super inconvenient unless u're rich.
secondly, its always the case that during the trng phase b4 a major tournament that something or someone may just screw up my chance of getting a medal. be it team line up or personal bowling.
i think the 2nd reason outweighs the first reason more. i believe that if i've got the passion and determination to do smth, i'll do it will and go all out for it. its just that when u're alrdy at ur peak. somehting just have to screw; even if u're bowling or trng well.

u see. for eg. i could bowl well of roll offs i'm on peak during off seasons.
alrdy 8th yr into bowling, i really know what's affecting






on behalf of Brandon lee's management.

why i'm in SIM bowling.

the 18, 20, 21st bday kids.

(:



stolen forks from Han's. ahhahs.