her thoughts

u know.
i take bus to sch, then i see the poly kids. HHAHAHS.


10 guys. at least 10 of them have the SAME i-am-cool hairstyle in a same bus.. u rmbr singers like paultwohill and slyvestersim. the long hair that sways as u walk and then covers have the face.
when 1 person has it, it is cool.
when the whole world has it, its NOT pls.
it then translates to posers.



ppl likes to dress up.
sometimes, on those days that i dont have trng, i do. that's will be fri and perhaps sunday. hahas.

why do ppl dress up?
to give themselves a name?
to create a sort of image?
to attract the opp sex?

i guess its a combination of all no matter how one tries to argue him/herself.




that's the thing abt marketing. making cheap shit look like drop dead gorgeous. the total manufacturing cost of a simple shoe can be like $1. then.. just because of some brains and some v colourful words and images.. the shoe becomes like a hunderd times the worth.

to me, its like... legalized conning. atas cheating.



ok. enough.



just now.. i went downstairs to put my bowling stuff in my friend's car. my lift corridor is freakin scary at 12am pls. seriously. coz like its under renovation. then everything looks eerie. the arrows of the new lifts are like lighted with blinking red and green lights. omg. damn scary.

after i done my stuff, climbed the stairs up. scary pls.
chicken heart.




these few days. i feel like drinking. i've got like a free can of redbull in e fridge and an expensive bottle of Belvedere that i bought from DFS from the last asian champs trip. for a few nights alrdy, i'm damn tempted to dump those 2 into my biking waterbag and cycle down to ecp to drink my night away.
hard core drinker huh.
i dont like to club. but i like to drink and be individually emo abt it. hate it when ppl drink, and act high. u know. sometimes u really know if a person's drunk or not or whether he's just plain acting silly, thinking that alcohol has given one an authority to be super loud an attract all the attention in the world. am i right to say that party drinkers? hah.

ah whatever.


how i wish i'm more brave than this so that instead of drinking... i'd be gg running now. many a times, i want to run at night to forget all the sorrows (.. siol.. HHAHAS). like seriously. with all the emoness, i'm sure can peak my performance. besides, it's healthy and beneficial to my games.



haiz. i missed playing the guitar, properly. and emoly. hahas. looks like ppl do have an impact on one's interest huh. i still love the guits alot, but it seems that at times, i'm afraid to pick it up and play. 3 guits and 1 violin are right beside me now. and a keyboard on my other side. when i play, the instrument and i become one. its like... it works as an amplifier for my shakin heart.


i duno why i'm so emo..
probably i'm really holding back too much.
too much for me to take.


perhaps, i just need to rmbr that afterall, i'm marian. period.