why am i even struggling?
or, allowing myself to struggle so as to say?
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28
(today's verse of the day. see how God works!)
tmr is coffeeshop nite.
blink of an eye can.
1) we've been practising- marc's band.
2) i've just got the song from joelnah- dennis' band
3) just learnt the song, still v much unsure- joy's song.
4) hopefully can remember the steps though- elaine's team.
all for tmr. right. 4 items. 4 more opportunities to let God smile.
seriously. been hearing this word 'inadequate" quite a no. of times this wk. during prayer today, jovin mentioned abt the word too.
tonite, gotta prac LIFESONG and YOU STILL ME. no. 2 and 3. and its like 1.33am now, with inadequate sleep last night. 4am till 9am.
but one thing, i'm just thankful that i'm enjoying what i'm doing now. coz its music man. HARS.
things to be done b4 sunday., aka the next yr, 2007.
- 7 psycho quizzes. long ones.
- psyco project due. video and ppt presentation
- 4 more grp projects. rockin man.
- 2 mtng mins. find 1, type 1.
- burn cd for uncl kc and glen and unc david
and i've got a feeling that there's more stuff which i can't rmbr. and i thought it supposed to be a break.
i mean like. i serve God and try to make Him (: always. but i get tired. i knoe He's one gd encourager with the Word n messengers around. but still. the but. it just gets scary each time.
inadequate trust?
i thought i had. probably i have. just being plainly decieved by not-so-nice influences.
do u know that i wanna say "iloveu" to alot of ppl. and "stopdeciving" to also a handful of ppl as well. let's just so called, 'categorise' these ppl. ironically, where/how i know them, contridicts so much. i duno. i'm just saying stuff how my heart feel. probably, as contridictry as it seems, i may b the one who's judgemental. then again, what gives me the reason to? why? how?
and yes, in both ways, they are, so called. my friends! *claps.
dun want to mention nor hint at anyone here coz it won't be pleasing to anyone.
but i just want to amplify how i feel. coz, sometimes. i feel uncessarily tired and overly sensative. i do want to tell u guys. but at the same time, the strong word: judgement just falls into place so nicely. runaway? feel like booking a ticket on a plane and fly away. to live in Mehmon with the villages back in N Thailand. hah. fairytale. probably its just ppl being selfish la huh.
but i want to thank God. like for being superly encougaging. there's this verse in Isaiah that says that "even youths grow tired and weary.. but they'll soar on wings like eagles" and stuff. can't rmbr the full thing. then there's another that says sufferings to disicpline to this and to that..in hebrews. basicaly, to grow stronger.
it takes time la.
chill manz. smths i just want to shoulder to lean on and be nuah for a few mins. haha. but with that, those thoughts alo come with thoughts of wanting to put a hault as well. i think gary would probably understand wad i'm trying to say. (haha. just feel it la.) i dun want to be oh-so-g-i-r-l anymore.
probably yet another peek hole to my 2007 new yr resolutions which i always prolly take time to do. erks
enough of being erm. erm. emo and COMPLAINT QUEEN. haha.
i shall just continue to be cheerful in my ways in love and allow ppl around me to (: . though i mey still feel neg by them. ITS OK. coz i know and confident that God is there sia. how cool.
ahha. yet another random rant.
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