its getting freaky.
coz..
"project due next yr la"
but by actuly fact, NEXT WEEK.
told u like before u know it, its like another new year.
tmr it'll be like my last post for the yyear.
and tmr. last day for the yr.
like shuold i go watchnight service of go take fireworks?
according to my pro-ed photogs ppl. they're REALLY resourceful. like where's the fireworkds goona be blasted at.. where to get great view and stuff. so there'll be like 4 rounds. 10pm, 10.30, 11.30 and 12. it'll be a gd time to train myself in shooting fireworks. coz all along, it has been like overlyhorriblilyexposed.
OR.
watchnight service. use tripod. then later catch the last train. and make my 1st shot of 2007, and make sure its a gd one.
hmm. i have to meet up with gary quek some time soon. if not later go army. cannot. and GARY. if u're reading this, i'd better take a PIC WITH U SOON. coz i havent done so in like.. er.. i havent done so.. after like 4 yrs of friendship?!
well. today. teens time. wanted to do my online quizes coz its goona be due...but i didn't coz no interenet access. so couldn't so alot of things....WAIT. OH SHUCKS I FORGOT ABT MY CDS. AH. brb.
ok.
so tonight. burn midnight oil. yet again.
well. was thinking. these 2 wks. no trng at all beides sc mtngs. church alone can really pack ur week up. haha. glad to have survied dec.
mum just updated me on the financial statement of the house and erm. hmm. well. hahaa. gotta save more.
ok. i've gotta go. quite a no. of things to clear.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Thursday, December 28, 2006
sdneirf
wads the back of them?
why am i even struggling?
or, allowing myself to struggle so as to say?
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28
(today's verse of the day. see how God works!)
tmr is coffeeshop nite.
blink of an eye can.
1) we've been practising- marc's band.
2) i've just got the song from joelnah- dennis' band
3) just learnt the song, still v much unsure- joy's song.
4) hopefully can remember the steps though- elaine's team.
all for tmr. right. 4 items. 4 more opportunities to let God smile.
seriously. been hearing this word 'inadequate" quite a no. of times this wk. during prayer today, jovin mentioned abt the word too.
tonite, gotta prac LIFESONG and YOU STILL ME. no. 2 and 3. and its like 1.33am now, with inadequate sleep last night. 4am till 9am.
but one thing, i'm just thankful that i'm enjoying what i'm doing now. coz its music man. HARS.
things to be done b4 sunday., aka the next yr, 2007.
- 7 psycho quizzes. long ones.
- psyco project due. video and ppt presentation
- 4 more grp projects. rockin man.
- 2 mtng mins. find 1, type 1.
- burn cd for uncl kc and glen and unc david
and i've got a feeling that there's more stuff which i can't rmbr. and i thought it supposed to be a break.
i mean like. i serve God and try to make Him (: always. but i get tired. i knoe He's one gd encourager with the Word n messengers around. but still. the but. it just gets scary each time.
inadequate trust?
i thought i had. probably i have. just being plainly decieved by not-so-nice influences.
do u know that i wanna say "iloveu" to alot of ppl. and "stopdeciving" to also a handful of ppl as well. let's just so called, 'categorise' these ppl. ironically, where/how i know them, contridicts so much. i duno. i'm just saying stuff how my heart feel. probably, as contridictry as it seems, i may b the one who's judgemental. then again, what gives me the reason to? why? how?
and yes, in both ways, they are, so called. my friends! *claps.
dun want to mention nor hint at anyone here coz it won't be pleasing to anyone.
but i just want to amplify how i feel. coz, sometimes. i feel uncessarily tired and overly sensative. i do want to tell u guys. but at the same time, the strong word: judgement just falls into place so nicely. runaway? feel like booking a ticket on a plane and fly away. to live in Mehmon with the villages back in N Thailand. hah. fairytale. probably its just ppl being selfish la huh.
but i want to thank God. like for being superly encougaging. there's this verse in Isaiah that says that "even youths grow tired and weary.. but they'll soar on wings like eagles" and stuff. can't rmbr the full thing. then there's another that says sufferings to disicpline to this and to that..in hebrews. basicaly, to grow stronger.
it takes time la.
chill manz. smths i just want to shoulder to lean on and be nuah for a few mins. haha. but with that, those thoughts alo come with thoughts of wanting to put a hault as well. i think gary would probably understand wad i'm trying to say. (haha. just feel it la.) i dun want to be oh-so-g-i-r-l anymore.
probably yet another peek hole to my 2007 new yr resolutions which i always prolly take time to do. erks
enough of being erm. erm. emo and COMPLAINT QUEEN. haha.
i shall just continue to be cheerful in my ways in love and allow ppl around me to (: . though i mey still feel neg by them. ITS OK. coz i know and confident that God is there sia. how cool.
ahha. yet another random rant.
why am i even struggling?
or, allowing myself to struggle so as to say?
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28
(today's verse of the day. see how God works!)
tmr is coffeeshop nite.
blink of an eye can.
1) we've been practising- marc's band.
2) i've just got the song from joelnah- dennis' band
3) just learnt the song, still v much unsure- joy's song.
4) hopefully can remember the steps though- elaine's team.
all for tmr. right. 4 items. 4 more opportunities to let God smile.
seriously. been hearing this word 'inadequate" quite a no. of times this wk. during prayer today, jovin mentioned abt the word too.
tonite, gotta prac LIFESONG and YOU STILL ME. no. 2 and 3. and its like 1.33am now, with inadequate sleep last night. 4am till 9am.
but one thing, i'm just thankful that i'm enjoying what i'm doing now. coz its music man. HARS.
things to be done b4 sunday., aka the next yr, 2007.
- 7 psycho quizzes. long ones.
- psyco project due. video and ppt presentation
- 4 more grp projects. rockin man.
- 2 mtng mins. find 1, type 1.
- burn cd for uncl kc and glen and unc david
and i've got a feeling that there's more stuff which i can't rmbr. and i thought it supposed to be a break.
i mean like. i serve God and try to make Him (: always. but i get tired. i knoe He's one gd encourager with the Word n messengers around. but still. the but. it just gets scary each time.
inadequate trust?
i thought i had. probably i have. just being plainly decieved by not-so-nice influences.
do u know that i wanna say "iloveu" to alot of ppl. and "stopdeciving" to also a handful of ppl as well. let's just so called, 'categorise' these ppl. ironically, where/how i know them, contridicts so much. i duno. i'm just saying stuff how my heart feel. probably, as contridictry as it seems, i may b the one who's judgemental. then again, what gives me the reason to? why? how?
and yes, in both ways, they are, so called. my friends! *claps.
dun want to mention nor hint at anyone here coz it won't be pleasing to anyone.
but i just want to amplify how i feel. coz, sometimes. i feel uncessarily tired and overly sensative. i do want to tell u guys. but at the same time, the strong word: judgement just falls into place so nicely. runaway? feel like booking a ticket on a plane and fly away. to live in Mehmon with the villages back in N Thailand. hah. fairytale. probably its just ppl being selfish la huh.
but i want to thank God. like for being superly encougaging. there's this verse in Isaiah that says that "even youths grow tired and weary.. but they'll soar on wings like eagles" and stuff. can't rmbr the full thing. then there's another that says sufferings to disicpline to this and to that..in hebrews. basicaly, to grow stronger.
it takes time la.
chill manz. smths i just want to shoulder to lean on and be nuah for a few mins. haha. but with that, those thoughts alo come with thoughts of wanting to put a hault as well. i think gary would probably understand wad i'm trying to say. (haha. just feel it la.) i dun want to be oh-so-g-i-r-l anymore.
probably yet another peek hole to my 2007 new yr resolutions which i always prolly take time to do. erks
enough of being erm. erm. emo and COMPLAINT QUEEN. haha.
i shall just continue to be cheerful in my ways in love and allow ppl around me to (: . though i mey still feel neg by them. ITS OK. coz i know and confident that God is there sia. how cool.
ahha. yet another random rant.
Christmas Dinner at Tim's
afternoon, caught Night at The Museum with church ppl. was quite a nice story. heart felt words. haha. hilarous. been loong since i've laughed like that in a cinema. watched it at grand cathy hall 1. super big. real cool.
after that. met zen to go tim's house. haha. zen gave me present sia. love her. been so long since we've caught up. real glad for her that she's the capt now. coz really, when i was a capt, zen's been helping me out tons much more than my vcapt. but really. she deserve it. coz she's really responsible and like, u can count on her on things that need to be done. as for wong yew liang. haha. glad that he is too. i'm sure he's experienced, well, that was how we got to know each other too. humble in his ways, he does alot to benefit the team in a clearer direction.
well. good luck to the both of them yea. pray that both of them will grow as they conitnue to learn and experince so much more that's ahead of them.
i miss sajc bowling team, alot.
ANYWAYS. there.
many ppl came. to me, aw man. like emo sia. ahhaa. no la. was cool. the caterd food cost $30 each. but we had gd food. like had waiter or smth to clear our plates and pour drinks. and they dressed like smartly. yea.
(: to see many of them. took alot of pics. 4 grp pics. i took one. the other 3 took by the waiter. 2/3 of them were blur. so i posted the last, slightly underexposed one.
had gift exchange. ahha. totally forgot abt it. so i took quite a no. of pics.
raining whole day, but we enjoyed ourselves with the compay of long friends. lastly, wanna thank tim for opening his house and having understanding family members to tahan any unbearable noise level and for orgainising yet anoter social event.
thought through quite a bit today actualy.
after reading gary's word press, even thought through more. hhaha. [BTW. I DID NOT bhbly ask for ur no. k! haha. that woulf be highly sialan of me. hahaa. its sz come tell me abt u know the m guy. (HAHA) then i saw u. so asked him abt u. hahah. then later duno how, i got added into some convo in msn with sz and m and u. HAHAHAHAHA.]
but yea..
nonetheless. God has planted me with so so much great friends who care for me. i guess, with that, i still have to learn how to let go. its been close to half a year, and despite upslopping n downslopping, its pretty much the same inside. its just v disappointing to feel that even as friends, its somewhat difficult to be. like look. talk abt communication. i can surely say that within these period of time, no form of communication has been done. probably an occasional oneway communication by me? i'm just afraid to decieve myself and ppl around me, unintentionally. i do not want to succumb to any wrong feelings to guys who care for me out of pure friendship and brotherhood.
i just want u to understand that ppl around u care for u and hope to see u back up again.
haha. well well.
TMR'S prac, then prayer, then shooting, then dinner. hahha. better make sure i'm aware the time. n WAKE UP ON TIME.
Monday, December 25, 2006
merry Christmas to all.
nonetheless, Christmas time is here and filled with church activities.
its a Christmas night and i'm at home now, blogging, sorting out photos, DOING PROJECT WORK. and ATTEMPTING to finish my 7 ONLINE PSYCHO QUIZZES. fun sia-.
briefly,
fri night was carols by candlelight prac.
sat was christmas eve service followed carols by candlelight
today is chirstmas service.
ok.
this year, Christmas to me seem to be tilting off to a whole new deeper, indepth time, yet festive occasion.
Christ is born again, is coming again and there's little time left
that kept repeating or rather, flashing across my mind in times of quietness.
i have to say i'm struggling. with myself that is. probably with negative thoughts of myself and sinful reasons against ppl. not sure if its me or wad. but like. the world, in general is becoming blinded by worldly desire and possessions, sparing little thought for others. almost all is seeming to be centering around this little pharse "me myself and i". everything just seems to judgemental, incorrect and erks.
it scares me.
thoughts of being low self esteemed, the prolly "not gd enought" fills that canal. technically. i've been guitaring quite alot these few days. mamy a times, feeling like. man. i'm so inadequate. like there's so many things i can't play or like be a instrument that God can be proud of. i know God loves all stuff like that. still. those daunting thoughts.. erks. what more. ppl play in C, i can prolly play in G.
i wanna techincally expand my musical foundation coz i've got none. getting exhausted of self learning and stuff. Peter moey's been superb.
u know that carol..
"my weakness is no stranger..."
yea. carols by the year are getting more 'worshippy' me.
as of photography part. my camera HAS TO SPOIL during this season YOU KNOW. thank God for graciously providing me with Choon Tee's camera if not i'll be really discouraged. coz really. nah.
technically, inadequate. so so inadequate. i want to have like photography training or smth. or liek another IMF event wheere a whole buch of pro photogs will talk photog language so that i can learn. not being bhb but ppl (like non photogs) give positive comments abt my compositioning coz that's what ppl usually look at. but like photos. they tell me stuff abt the colour, depth of field, angle, and stuff like that. really appreciate it. but its like. i'm aware of the no-so-nice part, but just dunno how to rectify them. superly disgusting.
lighter note. Carols by candlelight. this event really showed me the determination and commitment that the logistics guys have put it. i'm really amazed by xu kai de. he has helped in the banner by giving inputs to solve probs that jas eve and i can't solve. he's raised up questions that needed some thought process and gave much constructive comments casually.
the rain. i guess its a blessing, as always. like i've said, blindled by worldly possessions, we find it hard to thank God at times.
though it has brought us certain technical disappointments, surely and certainly, it has taught me many values.
the boys stayed up the whole night, outside church, taking turns to ensure that all the equipments are safe. when it rained at night, they started sherltering all equippments and all. basically, everyone was anticipating CBC to be held at the main entrance of the church.
however. the rain sent everything to be cleared from the initial location up to the sanctuary. there, certain decisions had to be made like.. not using tap shoes coz it'll ruin the flooring of the alter. positions had to be reshuffled. the no rehearsal was done at the sanctuary. all, familiarised with the flow at the inital plan.
but in the midst of the Service, of ppl coming in and out of church, christmas greetings and dinner, the logistics guys have been braving the rain to move countless logistics, running up and down ensuring that every area is doing fine and much mroe which i think its so behind the scence that i do not know.
service like such to me, can be tiring. emotionaly. its so behind the scene that even if 1 person feels blech, its behind the scene. and because all the hardwork is so concelled, ppl dun appreciate them as much as they deserve. like take for example. after the event, performers get the "u did very well... well done.. gd performaces.. dah dah dah". how many a times do we go up to the logistics sound crew to say "the sound was gd, the performance went well". well, maybe one or two, but after all the blood and sweat?
one of my co-organisers back in sec sch once told me this.. "after the whole programme, ppl often comment abt the tecnical flaws. yes, constructive critisims. but are we forgoing the hardwork and the 'went-wells' that many have put in?"
i feel like. i also duno. like ppl. dumping responsiblities.. like procrastinating.. like not keeping pormises. like givng reasons. like not being accountable. like not being sincere. like not being truthful and understanding. all makes me feel.. lonely? like, yea. many friends, many friends.
how many can i talk to, till deep right down.
i just want to thank God for planting you. like how we share the smae struggles. and like how it is you. hahah. was quite funny, after like what..6yrs?. but i really wanna thank God for your presence. we had a 5hr phone call. the longest ever had. i nv like talking on the phone, not that i dun like to, but i can't mulit-task. if i talk on the phone, it would mean forgoing my necessary com stuff and all.
but seriously, that call was really assuring and relieving to a certain extent.
thank you.
sometimes i just pray for like everyone to be like super transparent and truthful and sincere. so much has changed. the focus seems out of focus. like using the 70-300mm. on the LCD, it looks clear, on the com, man disappointing.
ANY-A-WAYS.
AMEN. coz Chirst is BORN. and i pray hard that ppl will know that Christmas is abt JESUS' BIRTH and not just abt the economic growth, tourism and lights and sounds. like this year, everywhere party party party. really gg off can. man.
well. this is not my annual 'summation' of the year. haha.
but speaking of worldly desires. i want ipod, DLSR, xhange laptop, and the list goes on. HAH. totally. stuff that i can't afford will just be an inspiration to me. making simple things looks cool. haha.
to end off with my tagline..
"No other interest brings you to this level of exposure."
smth abt photography.
i just hope that i can be a right inspiration to all.
haha. i miss the sun, the field, the boots and the pins. somehow.
its a Christmas night and i'm at home now, blogging, sorting out photos, DOING PROJECT WORK. and ATTEMPTING to finish my 7 ONLINE PSYCHO QUIZZES. fun sia-.
briefly,
fri night was carols by candlelight prac.
sat was christmas eve service followed carols by candlelight
today is chirstmas service.
ok.
this year, Christmas to me seem to be tilting off to a whole new deeper, indepth time, yet festive occasion.
Christ is born again, is coming again and there's little time left
that kept repeating or rather, flashing across my mind in times of quietness.
i have to say i'm struggling. with myself that is. probably with negative thoughts of myself and sinful reasons against ppl. not sure if its me or wad. but like. the world, in general is becoming blinded by worldly desire and possessions, sparing little thought for others. almost all is seeming to be centering around this little pharse "me myself and i". everything just seems to judgemental, incorrect and erks.
it scares me.
thoughts of being low self esteemed, the prolly "not gd enought" fills that canal. technically. i've been guitaring quite alot these few days. mamy a times, feeling like. man. i'm so inadequate. like there's so many things i can't play or like be a instrument that God can be proud of. i know God loves all stuff like that. still. those daunting thoughts.. erks. what more. ppl play in C, i can prolly play in G.
i wanna techincally expand my musical foundation coz i've got none. getting exhausted of self learning and stuff. Peter moey's been superb.
u know that carol..
"my weakness is no stranger..."
yea. carols by the year are getting more 'worshippy' me.
as of photography part. my camera HAS TO SPOIL during this season YOU KNOW. thank God for graciously providing me with Choon Tee's camera if not i'll be really discouraged. coz really. nah.
technically, inadequate. so so inadequate. i want to have like photography training or smth. or liek another IMF event wheere a whole buch of pro photogs will talk photog language so that i can learn. not being bhb but ppl (like non photogs) give positive comments abt my compositioning coz that's what ppl usually look at. but like photos. they tell me stuff abt the colour, depth of field, angle, and stuff like that. really appreciate it. but its like. i'm aware of the no-so-nice part, but just dunno how to rectify them. superly disgusting.
lighter note. Carols by candlelight. this event really showed me the determination and commitment that the logistics guys have put it. i'm really amazed by xu kai de. he has helped in the banner by giving inputs to solve probs that jas eve and i can't solve. he's raised up questions that needed some thought process and gave much constructive comments casually.
the rain. i guess its a blessing, as always. like i've said, blindled by worldly possessions, we find it hard to thank God at times.
though it has brought us certain technical disappointments, surely and certainly, it has taught me many values.
the boys stayed up the whole night, outside church, taking turns to ensure that all the equipments are safe. when it rained at night, they started sherltering all equippments and all. basically, everyone was anticipating CBC to be held at the main entrance of the church.
however. the rain sent everything to be cleared from the initial location up to the sanctuary. there, certain decisions had to be made like.. not using tap shoes coz it'll ruin the flooring of the alter. positions had to be reshuffled. the no rehearsal was done at the sanctuary. all, familiarised with the flow at the inital plan.
but in the midst of the Service, of ppl coming in and out of church, christmas greetings and dinner, the logistics guys have been braving the rain to move countless logistics, running up and down ensuring that every area is doing fine and much mroe which i think its so behind the scence that i do not know.
service like such to me, can be tiring. emotionaly. its so behind the scene that even if 1 person feels blech, its behind the scene. and because all the hardwork is so concelled, ppl dun appreciate them as much as they deserve. like take for example. after the event, performers get the "u did very well... well done.. gd performaces.. dah dah dah". how many a times do we go up to the logistics sound crew to say "the sound was gd, the performance went well". well, maybe one or two, but after all the blood and sweat?
one of my co-organisers back in sec sch once told me this.. "after the whole programme, ppl often comment abt the tecnical flaws. yes, constructive critisims. but are we forgoing the hardwork and the 'went-wells' that many have put in?"
i feel like. i also duno. like ppl. dumping responsiblities.. like procrastinating.. like not keeping pormises. like givng reasons. like not being accountable. like not being sincere. like not being truthful and understanding. all makes me feel.. lonely? like, yea. many friends, many friends.
how many can i talk to, till deep right down.
i just want to thank God for planting you. like how we share the smae struggles. and like how it is you. hahah. was quite funny, after like what..6yrs?. but i really wanna thank God for your presence. we had a 5hr phone call. the longest ever had. i nv like talking on the phone, not that i dun like to, but i can't mulit-task. if i talk on the phone, it would mean forgoing my necessary com stuff and all.
but seriously, that call was really assuring and relieving to a certain extent.
thank you.
sometimes i just pray for like everyone to be like super transparent and truthful and sincere. so much has changed. the focus seems out of focus. like using the 70-300mm. on the LCD, it looks clear, on the com, man disappointing.
ANY-A-WAYS.
AMEN. coz Chirst is BORN. and i pray hard that ppl will know that Christmas is abt JESUS' BIRTH and not just abt the economic growth, tourism and lights and sounds. like this year, everywhere party party party. really gg off can. man.
well. this is not my annual 'summation' of the year. haha.
but speaking of worldly desires. i want ipod, DLSR, xhange laptop, and the list goes on. HAH. totally. stuff that i can't afford will just be an inspiration to me. making simple things looks cool. haha.
to end off with my tagline..
"No other interest brings you to this level of exposure."
smth abt photography.
i just hope that i can be a right inspiration to all.
haha. i miss the sun, the field, the boots and the pins. somehow.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Friday, December 22, 2006
thumb
this morng.. went for Sports Symposium and Team Temasek meeting. turnout rate was bad. hmm. haha. its smth abt TP with hols and projects.
ANYWAYS. after that we psycho project.
then went home to rest and get ready for league.
bowled today. the 1st time i've bowled after polite. it sucked. totally. the lanes were insane. after the oiling.. i had 5 begger immediately. talking abt lane conditions man.
then was league. errms. was OKS. but. got worse. i think my thumb is back to pretty-nice-and-unhard state. so it got blisters. first, the bubble on the thumb was seen. i tried to cover it up with skin patch b4 it burst annd wet the ball and will literally KILL if put the skin patch over.
nevermind.
then soon, it burst.
not as bad lar. still could bowl.
then my thumb, towards the palm, had blister and soon became an open wound. couldn't hold the ball literally.
was so bad. daryl had to put skinpatch for me which sent me hitting him and really hiitting my own hand hard. it was pain ks. reminded me that time when uncle jack help me put skin patch over my very very sore, opened, and blooded thuumb. that one was still ultimate. uncle paul from the counter 2 storeys above heard my cries of pain.
today didn't scream. but felt that electrifying sensation throughout. i manage to hit a 126! was literally taking the heavy bowling ball and letting it go onto the lanes.
erks.
so much for wanting to bowl well.
BUT. NVM. now I'VE GOT HANDICAP. HARS. ahhah.
so if lets say i bowl a 170 avg. it'll probably be a 190. MUAHAH. ok
hmm.
hmm. been reading blogs and stuff. in my free time that i actually had. or rather, when i wanted to take breathers. realised that quite a no. of events have happend for rugby. like the bbq, world alll schs, and stuff.
i need to reflect on my year. its coming soon. 2007.
ANYWAYS. after that we psycho project.
then went home to rest and get ready for league.
bowled today. the 1st time i've bowled after polite. it sucked. totally. the lanes were insane. after the oiling.. i had 5 begger immediately. talking abt lane conditions man.
then was league. errms. was OKS. but. got worse. i think my thumb is back to pretty-nice-and-unhard state. so it got blisters. first, the bubble on the thumb was seen. i tried to cover it up with skin patch b4 it burst annd wet the ball and will literally KILL if put the skin patch over.
nevermind.
then soon, it burst.
not as bad lar. still could bowl.
then my thumb, towards the palm, had blister and soon became an open wound. couldn't hold the ball literally.
was so bad. daryl had to put skinpatch for me which sent me hitting him and really hiitting my own hand hard. it was pain ks. reminded me that time when uncle jack help me put skin patch over my very very sore, opened, and blooded thuumb. that one was still ultimate. uncle paul from the counter 2 storeys above heard my cries of pain.
today didn't scream. but felt that electrifying sensation throughout. i manage to hit a 126! was literally taking the heavy bowling ball and letting it go onto the lanes.
erks.
so much for wanting to bowl well.
BUT. NVM. now I'VE GOT HANDICAP. HARS. ahhah.
so if lets say i bowl a 170 avg. it'll probably be a 190. MUAHAH. ok
hmm.
hmm. been reading blogs and stuff. in my free time that i actually had. or rather, when i wanted to take breathers. realised that quite a no. of events have happend for rugby. like the bbq, world alll schs, and stuff.
i need to reflect on my year. its coming soon. 2007.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Carolling 2006
well. God was sueprly merciful. with 3 consecutive downpours casuing floods in parts of Singapore, there came no rain when night came.
this morning. catch up with the ex exco. only nat, tan, nunis and jaslin came. ahhah. bz ppl. ahha. was gd to see the few of them.
first stop was eve's house. as usual, aunty ann would cook up lots of gd food for us.
was gd to see shaun, my couz.(:
had a great time of fellowshipping and eating.
not long, we went to changi airport pasta fresca and sang our carols. there weren't many ppl. but i know that they're listening. (: really felt gd that some of the ppl clapped. the manager is really nice and hospitable.
last stop, was zheng's house. so so gd to see kernal and LINda! haha. was like cam whoring whole time.
my batt died by then and i had to rely on eve's cam.
should have brought choon's DSLR.
just finished uploading the pics.
i borrowed my sis' cam. its a canon powershot. pics are REALLY SMALL. like 200kb. but the colour and image is gd as compared to eve's casio. hmm. i think canon lenses are no doubt, much more precise?i miss my casio. they said they'll call me by 3 days or 3months. looks like its goona be 3 months now. ):
had difficulties with the lighting. didn't want flash coz its really harsh.
oh yea. i highlighted my hair ytd with eveleen at this shopin serangoon gardens. jas went with us to cut her hair too. i did brown and copper brown. eve did brown and red. haha.
like the VidalSesson advertisment. haha. was quite exciting to see colours on my hair though. haha. but overall. the result made me looked super girlified. after the cut and dye, was dropping things and all.. and couldn't even catch a flying wallet. ahha. so we're like.. it must be the hair. later go play rugby cannot catch ball die ar. ahha.
but really. really KAWAYI (is this how u spell.)
after that, had gd food at the stall near by!
selene joined us and this was wad we ate. was gd.
so many things to do!!!!!> photosphotosphotos.meetingsmeetingsmeetings. there's liek 3 tmr. 2 is under SAA and sports club. one is projectwork. after that gtg church to do the banner. then like gotta do my chirstmas presents too. hoho. fri. is goona be like dance prac all the way. in the morng gtg settle the song with marc and band.
still got to do meeting minutes. plus recover the past meetings, settle sports symposium. and probably bowl the league during the week.
bogged man. thanks to God for the cool weather man. (:
Monday, December 18, 2006
day at Singapore Zoo
with nat, mel, abby and bridget.
reminiscing the pri-sch-holding-of-raffia-string-days. with different ppl, much older now.
so so nice to be with kc girls again. what more, my very own classmates.
nat's doing very very well in aussie, topping the level. with like B A A A A. hahaha. glad to here that they're doing gd. (:
well.
wet whole day round though.
but had a great time together. haha.
will post pics up soon... just the ppl.
really not easy to take a gd shot of the moving animals, w/o flash, with super cloudy clouds and wet weather.
kinda tired to do stuff today. like clear all my last min stuff. chirstmas pressyz been tough as always. ahahha. first was the start then the spoon then the photo and now the ____ . it gets toughers every year hor.
oh well.
haven't been practising for carols by candlelight though.
so bogged down.
i should be enjoying myself. ok. well at least i am for now. with the new keyboard. as in like keyboardpiano kind.
ok. today's the release of the N's results though.
my friends did well. ahha.
gd gd. (:
ok. off tmr. i'm gonna like highlight my hair or smth tmr. ahha. i use to say "i'll never ever do anything to my hair".. well. haha. got influenced by poly students. haha. oh wells.
christmas is coming! i'm afraid that it'll like go past fast too soon.
such an emo night. the rain hits so hard. so so hard. the v next day... 1 yr ago.
things
reading ulrica's and solo's blog really brings a tear to my eye. haha. really.
sat and sun. fully packed. things to do/ have done so far..
- ballet coaching class
- free movement class
- tap class
- csn meeting
- church dance
- carols by candlelight(cbc) prac
- CBC band prac.
- csn banner: buy cloth and paint the whole thing
- carolling
- outing with 4/6 to the zoo!
- outing with ex excos
- print photos
- project grp meetings
- mission trip photos ofr uncle kc and glen
- get cds and dvds to burn
- hard drive almost full. gotta get one soon.
- collection of free mp4 from times mag.
- update my life record book, NYAA record book
- return library bk
- sports symposium briefing
- bowling league tournament
- 1001 things more. like pick up my camera that's under repair.
IN 2 WEEKS
FUN ANOT.
and, thafully, there's no bowling nor rugby trng till next yr. but its like. i duno if i'm tired. aha. coz i still find joy in God in doing all these.
and yes. I'VE LOST MY WATERBOTTLE AGAIN. AGAIN. took a cab to church today... coz was raining so heavily.. i told myself.. yea. see ar. i leave it here, sure forget to take. better put in my bag. then i continued.. but then since i know, sure won't forget. true enough. i left it in the taxi. ):
so should i get the green/blue one now? ): the bottles are like seasonal. the green one lasted me for NTL. the blue one for Oasis.
well. maybe physically tired, heartly excted.
sat and sun. fully packed. things to do/ have done so far..
- ballet coaching class
- free movement class
- tap class
- csn meeting
- church dance
- carols by candlelight(cbc) prac
- CBC band prac.
- csn banner: buy cloth and paint the whole thing
- carolling
- outing with 4/6 to the zoo!
- outing with ex excos
- print photos
- project grp meetings
- mission trip photos ofr uncle kc and glen
- get cds and dvds to burn
- hard drive almost full. gotta get one soon.
- collection of free mp4 from times mag.
- update my life record book, NYAA record book
- return library bk
- sports symposium briefing
- bowling league tournament
- 1001 things more. like pick up my camera that's under repair.
IN 2 WEEKS
FUN ANOT.
and, thafully, there's no bowling nor rugby trng till next yr. but its like. i duno if i'm tired. aha. coz i still find joy in God in doing all these.
and yes. I'VE LOST MY WATERBOTTLE AGAIN. AGAIN. took a cab to church today... coz was raining so heavily.. i told myself.. yea. see ar. i leave it here, sure forget to take. better put in my bag. then i continued.. but then since i know, sure won't forget. true enough. i left it in the taxi. ):
so should i get the green/blue one now? ): the bottles are like seasonal. the green one lasted me for NTL. the blue one for Oasis.
well. maybe physically tired, heartly excted.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
i am back!
ok. exams are fine, considering the amt of study i did.. i think i'm gonna pass with God's mercy. seriously.
ok. i'm working darn hard for the next exams. mark my words
so so so much has happened.
mission trip was totally way way way too cool.
this yr, i've learnt alot alot alot. so much, i can't contain it. literally. (yea that song).
so blessed i can't contain it
so much i gotta give it away
thailand, herself has thought me so much. the sincere smiles of the villages and the hopeful laughter of the children is simple priceless. trust me. i want sara to come with us next year. really.
nonetheless, we grew alot spiritually, as well as in terms of unity.
when i got there, joel, emma and aunty elaine left. there was jsut jasper, me, andrew, gland, solo, ulrica, rach, kathy, georgamay and jasmine. just the few of us.
dances became really repeative and tiredness really got into us. just the few of us, we grew together.
although i went there so much abt half passed the trip, i could felt the battle.
seriously, many a times, i felt that i wasn't useful. was there to just, increase the manpower statistically, not even physically. constantlt, i knew that out faithful prayer partners back in sg were praying hard for us.
this yr, for me was very much different. i did lesser dances and medical work. i was taking photos for the team most of the time. chalked up 2275 photos in 8 days. this yr, i had to keep a look out of my surroundings and be watchful literally. really. i'm still always in awe of God' creation. always during the journeys in the van/pickup/car.. i'd never fail to take photos outside of the vehicle, and always find myself unable to sleep although v tired. i simply love the land- away from everything.
there, i didn't have to worry abt not having a hp with me. no emails. no meetings. with the exception of my textbooks. i knew that i had God, and i had my bros and sis in Christ.
i guess to cut it all short, God is faithful. we had a minor accident and left the convery in a panic state for a short moment. but, God was still faithful and kept the convey as one.
oh yes. travelling off the shores of sg, passing through countless security checks alone is an experience. i get the stares. i get the questions.
ok. i'm working darn hard for the next exams. mark my words
so so so much has happened.
mission trip was totally way way way too cool.
this yr, i've learnt alot alot alot. so much, i can't contain it. literally. (yea that song).
so blessed i can't contain it
so much i gotta give it away
thailand, herself has thought me so much. the sincere smiles of the villages and the hopeful laughter of the children is simple priceless. trust me. i want sara to come with us next year. really.
nonetheless, we grew alot spiritually, as well as in terms of unity.
when i got there, joel, emma and aunty elaine left. there was jsut jasper, me, andrew, gland, solo, ulrica, rach, kathy, georgamay and jasmine. just the few of us.
dances became really repeative and tiredness really got into us. just the few of us, we grew together.
although i went there so much abt half passed the trip, i could felt the battle.
seriously, many a times, i felt that i wasn't useful. was there to just, increase the manpower statistically, not even physically. constantlt, i knew that out faithful prayer partners back in sg were praying hard for us.
this yr, for me was very much different. i did lesser dances and medical work. i was taking photos for the team most of the time. chalked up 2275 photos in 8 days. this yr, i had to keep a look out of my surroundings and be watchful literally. really. i'm still always in awe of God' creation. always during the journeys in the van/pickup/car.. i'd never fail to take photos outside of the vehicle, and always find myself unable to sleep although v tired. i simply love the land- away from everything.
there, i didn't have to worry abt not having a hp with me. no emails. no meetings. with the exception of my textbooks. i knew that i had God, and i had my bros and sis in Christ.
i guess to cut it all short, God is faithful. we had a minor accident and left the convery in a panic state for a short moment. but, God was still faithful and kept the convey as one.
oh yes. travelling off the shores of sg, passing through countless security checks alone is an experience. i get the stares. i get the questions.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
i'm off to save the world. hahhaha
wheeee. till 11th dec!
did i mention. that i'm having 2 papers on the 12th?
haha. i called marketing tchr to tell her i was sick that's why i was absent. she told me that we have marketing paper on mon 5pm. so i wwas like.. thank God. first paper 5pm.
BUT THEN. I checked my timetable online. ACCOUNTING 9AM MON. FUN SIA. ahahhaha. wonder how issit goona bee. ahahah. PRAY.
and yes. WITHOUT IPOD OR ANY MUSIC PLAYING GADGETS. but books. how sia.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Dance Arts 19th Recital
after months of hardwork, it all voiced down to that 4 or 5 mins of glamour. haha.
hmmm. for my first item, i made a HUGE mistake.i duno how else to emphasize the huge mistake. but its really huge. haha. in front of the stage, everyone was in 5th position-still. i did a piroutte. a turn la. OH MAN. EMBARRASSING CAN. ahhaa. and like infront of the camera- filming. GRR. i hope they cut that away. then becasue of that. got afftected. then couldn't balance after the turns. hahahha. bah. then ms emi looked quite worried at the stage.
i was really nervous. too nervous, and unprepared.
for tap, everyone psychoed themselves to look sexy. ahhaha. then the audince cheered and really gave us alot of enouragements coz it was a realy fast dance after all. ahaha. when it was like silent at one part, we heard ms susan (tap tchr) cheering at the side curtains. ahhaha. we smiled eeven more. i really enjoyed that moment on stage. the whole 5 mins was so so fun. ahaha.
i've learnt alot.
like. u really need to practice to be 'perfect'. not exactlly perfect, but excellent in ur dance. coz its smth u wanna present to ppl who paid $$ for there tixs.
and really, u gotta enjoy wad u're doing. seriously. it shows.
as for lightings. stage lightings are super cool for photography. esp at the side curtains. eveyone is so expressive be it backstage or performeers.
everythign happens so quickly. and u gotta be ready.
b4 my items. i really prayed. for ballet. i must say i wasn't reallly focused on the dance but on like.. the 'wad if's'. wad if i fall and stuff. for tap, i learnt my lesson, and told myself to let loose and just go enjoy gd music, lights and smiles. and i did enjoy myself.
took alot of photos again.ahhaa. oh yea. when taking grp shots, dun risk of not wanting to kill ambience by using flash. use flash. coz if not, really. 40 over ppl no photos. stress.ahaha. usually in grp photo, its the ppl that want to look gd, so flash nice nice then no shake. haha.
after dance.. saw robin.hahaha. he came to support his friends. haha. i didn't call anyone to come... ahhaa. as always. shy. PUII. aha. but yes, shy in dance. haha.
ok. my english is getting bad. literally.
anyways. i really enjoyed myself today, even though i've let ms emi down. this yr's standard is really up. the hip hop is super awesome. ahhaa. i think ms susan is really proud of us. ahhaa.
thanks to mama for the makeup, all the aunties, all my friends, esp teachers and aunty jill who made everything possible. i think through this, i'm becoming more girl- looking for makeup, glitters and stuff like that. HAHAHA. yes. haha. NAH. ahha.
lastly, i think i'm gonna put more effort and passion into my dancing as well. been bochuping for quite some time. haha.
Friday, December 01, 2006
rehearsal
hmm.one basic thing to thank God is that, i'm well! coz of the jab i guess. i didn't feel sick in the evening. in the morning.. was fighting to climb up the stairs.. ahha. kept praying.
(:
did like thousand and 1 thing in sch, trying to help clear as much. glad that i've settle my part on marketing,.. left with pom.
quite scary. its dec 01.
rehearsal was loooong section 1 + 2 + 3 + technical + full dress.
from 1pm-11pm.
haha. yes. be shocked. the unseen side of me to many.
to explain the sunglasses- its coz of the heavy makeup, that i had to put those on to walk out of my neighbourhood. haha.
haha. and the last pic, its amanda. she looks super cool.ahha. (: esp when she dance her hiphop. man. haha.
opportunity cost marian, opportunity cost.
the tap costumes were like.. gd enough to compete with e hookers. yea. u know. haha. hilarious.
ok. anyways. i forgot alot of my tap steps. turn wrongly and stuff like that. thisis due to the lack of gg to practices. hahha. hmm. i think i've irritated this girl behind me.. she had to tell me where to go for one of the formation, while dancing. ahha. on stage.
ballet was fine. just not confident.
gotta love the stage more pls.
thankfully its full dress rehearesal. we had it with the music twice.. but like.. my 2nd time was worse. aahhaha. i'm goona prac tmr morng.
better try clear pom first.
then pack tmr, and prac tmr. haha.
Ooo. thousand and 1 things to do again.
(:
did like thousand and 1 thing in sch, trying to help clear as much. glad that i've settle my part on marketing,.. left with pom.
quite scary. its dec 01.
rehearsal was loooong section 1 + 2 + 3 + technical + full dress.
from 1pm-11pm.
haha. yes. be shocked. the unseen side of me to many.
to explain the sunglasses- its coz of the heavy makeup, that i had to put those on to walk out of my neighbourhood. haha.
haha. and the last pic, its amanda. she looks super cool.ahha. (: esp when she dance her hiphop. man. haha.
opportunity cost marian, opportunity cost.
the tap costumes were like.. gd enough to compete with e hookers. yea. u know. haha. hilarious.
ok. anyways. i forgot alot of my tap steps. turn wrongly and stuff like that. thisis due to the lack of gg to practices. hahha. hmm. i think i've irritated this girl behind me.. she had to tell me where to go for one of the formation, while dancing. ahha. on stage.
ballet was fine. just not confident.
gotta love the stage more pls.
thankfully its full dress rehearesal. we had it with the music twice.. but like.. my 2nd time was worse. aahhaha. i'm goona prac tmr morng.
better try clear pom first.
then pack tmr, and prac tmr. haha.
Ooo. thousand and 1 things to do again.
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