Monday, March 14, 2016

the ups and downs

quite an eventful week i must say.
let's no got in chronological order.


last fri, it was the finals!




12 - 10 to Blacks.
too close a match.

its worth to mention that we're first to score, leading most of the time, half time 10-7 to us.. but Blacks scored one more in the last 15 mins so yea. hahahas. just like in life, it always the final few steps that overwrites the initial stages, despite it being how good and all.

but no doubt, it was a good fight. we can probably win a the title for the most improved team, having losing to the same team, 59-0 in the round stages. hahas. during the finals, the game was so tight that i really believed we had it. not that i didnt b4 the game started, but during the game it was just too close.

i didnt expect to play though i was on the sub list. i mean, i havent been to a single trng and the last game i played was the first game of the season. ahhas. so technically, i'm not really 'in season'. ahhas. but at the last 10mins, one of my teammates had pulled her neck, so coach subbed me in. after the game, he briefly mentioned that "it is such a great thing to have an awesome flanker on the bench, just that when u're thinking of adding weight to the scrum, u realize she's only 40kg". hahahahhahas. that was funny. but no, i'm much more than 40kg. hahas. but yea, with the total lack in trng, went i got on the field, i was actually shakinggg. hahahahs. its been awhile since i've felt such apprehension and pre-game jitters. i mean, i did have a great warm up, but was really confident that i wouldnt be playing. ahhahs.

that 10 mins on the field felt too short and too long. too short coz we needed that time to get it back. too long coz all the scenes were just being mentally broken down.

but ok. anyways, post game partying as usual.

thank God i took leave for the next day because of joel's wedding and sch in the late afternoon.


:') 12 march 2016

so this is my fav pri sch friend joel. thanks for remembering me and thanks for the invite. i really enjoyed the wedding service coz the vids are so fun-loving and real, without feeling cliche and all. such things can only be done via the heart. thank u for the awesome peranakan spread too. was really goooood.
after graduating from... primary sch, i think we only met on 2 occasions. 1 was a random gathering and the other was when i we bump into each other at bedok mall while i was having lunch with mother poon. in pri sch, u know how the tchrs like to do everything according to height.. lining up, sitting down, moving in and out of classrooms. so yea, he was usually my partner or if not, sitting around me. hahahs. so i'd always see him before, during and after school. hahas. he was the one that taught me how to ride a bicycle too, allowing me to crash and accidentally scratching his blue bike. also, i rmbr him giving me a note before our bcg... ahhas. and since he's married now, i can now say i had a crush on him when i was in pri sch. HAHA.
so anyway, really glad that he's able to find such a lovely lady like yvonne to spend the rest of their lives with tgt. may u continue to be such a fun-loving person especially to ur wife and i wish u guys a very blessed marriage.


ok. and earlier this week, aunty irene passed away.

she's my dad's aunt or smth. basically part of the family. my dad's side of the family is really complicated and i dont really know all the links. but she's pretty close.
during the funeral and cremation when i saw how mother poon cried, my heart was sinking alot and i had to really control it and act nonchalant coz after all, i'm still that hard-headed little girl in her eyes right.

right after cremation, we took a bus down to SGH to visit Godpa in the high dependency ward. he has gout (idk whats tt) and then pneumonia where his lungs have water. when i looked at him, tears almost start to flow out but i had to keep shutoff valve tight.
God pa and God ma is a couple from church who really loves me alot other than my biological parents. u know in life, we have ppl whom we dont really talk to much, but u know they just love u alot. yea. that's how it is between me and my godpa and god ma.
so really, i cannot afford to lose them now, and selfishly, forever.



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so yea. all the ups and downs.
idky but these few days been thinking of those 3 persons alot. esp u. crazy.
i've always been trying to let go but it just keeps coming back as unsettled shit.
and esp when i have such ups and downs, i always want to tell you.
i've already been forced to lose 2 of them, but.... nvm.
i dont even dare to dwell into such realms again. i can't.


anyways.
been really stressed also. with all those emotional shit gg in and out, there's still work and sch. growing up, i've always thought that as i grow up, while inclining towards more 'adultish' thinking, i may just be able to control my feelings or emotions more, at least steer them towards the greater practical good. but nah.
i'm also beginning to qns myself why am i studying, y am i working as a technician, can passion put food on the table for the family and so on.
i wish to blog more but i'm really tired.
perhaps getting older, i'm beginning to lose the significance in documenting my life (though its pretty useful to use this platform to find dates of events. hahas).
may i stop thinking of u.

Monday, February 29, 2016

Air Show 2016

its the end of feb and i've decided to blog again.
hahas. really, its been really a tough month with work and sch that i dont even have energy to play my pointless mobile games. yup, sch started in Jan.
many events have happened within these 2 months like Estee's & Zh wedding, LMD bowling tournament, safari zoo run and so on. (actually i think that's about it, can't rmbr what else.)
havent been to trng or running coz of work (we totally strolled during the zoo run.. hahahs. okok. collectively running maybe 1k? ahhahahahas)
its also the start of 15s league and Touch league and i havent been able to go for a single game or trng at all. timing isn't really nice, but i guess to be committed means to be having to make sacrifices.




a vid to sum up a day of work at the Singapore Airshow 2016. :')

decided to blog this time coz we're just done with Singapore Airshow 2016 and really, it took up 80% of awake hours. we changed cost centre, so our shift schedule was also adjusted. 2 on, 2 off. all morng, 7am to 7pm. the whole experience, despite minor hiccups and administrative disappointments is still great. i mean, i dont just learn about the technical groundling handling skills, but i get to meet and work with ppl from other companies in this industry. most of the time, we're dealing with business jets apart from our usual commercial birds so it can get pretty interesting.
but really, it was physically challenging. but because everyday is a new day with new challenges, you can just 'dont mind' the tiredness. coz while i face work struggles, i still have to catch up with my sch work. so after work, i usually go bedok macs and try to catch up on my lect till about 12am- then work next day again. i still rmbr not being about to do some simple maths calculations - on the calculator. can't even typed in correctly.. try 5 times, 5 times diff ans; thats when i told myself to stop and go home to rest. hahahahs.  i think mother poon felt it even more. there was a time i didnt see her for 3 days. i'm out to work b4 she's up and when i'm back, she's alrdy in her room.
i'm just so glad to be back with my team.
here's some of my fav photos from all the  (almost 20GB worth of vids and photos.) not in any particular order coz there's really alot of fav photos and blogger is not so friendly with arranging / sorting ur photos.


oh yes. the first thing i did was arriving the 9 Black Eagles. (: raihan was guiding me along. no photos coz its the military transport apron and no taking of photos. but that really helped to build my confidence. and the planes were really really really beautiful. felt damn proud when the pilot like salute me to thank me while taxiing in their cockpit. :)

guys from my department, but from different Teams except uncle J. hahas. finally a day when all of us are at work tgt.


one of the most memorable towing.
suppposed to just tow the Global 6000. but coz alot of delays around, so i ended up having to convoy tow in the A380 as well. ahhahas a little bit scary for me coz i dont do headset towing at my work, so i'm very inexperienced with this.  i think its more scary for the i/cs.. knowing that the inexperienced one is doing the convoy tow. but glad it all went well. just that W1 taxiiway is really too narrow. but yea, good job to raihan n i. ahhahas





hahahs. and yes, the memorable long walks out to get the bus after a long tiring day of work coz of admin issues (as usual). there was one day we had to walk like 3km out... about 40mins maybe? i mean u can say its just 3km. but with a long day of wing walking and walking and more walking... 3km is a feat.


memorable day. coz we held short for over 3hrs. in the hot sun. lotsa communications complications overhead. but well, we're just techs... so.. selfie time! hahahhas. ok la. it could have been worse with heavy rain and all. 

with the chinook. could have had a future with it if i really signed on as an Aircrew Specialist. 
and yes, with our very own tow tug at its best. how often do you get to see the original colour of the towtug. ahhahs. and it shines somemore. and and.. the seat is comfy with no holes and all. hahhahas. 


and yes. during Trade days, thank God we had time to visit the booths since it was low movement since most of the aircraft were alrdy in to stay for the trade days.




never since disc brakes so clean b4. ok take photo. i really like Trade days coz the booths are alive and some of the ppl (who dont discriminate) bother to explain their technologies to you even though they clearly know that i have 0 buying power. also, its not so madly crowded during trade days. everyone there has probably got some relation to aviation, so there's this sense of familiarity amongst the crowd and its pretty comforting to some extent (vs public days).


HAHA. me on repeat and repeat and repeat. those 


worked with these 2 guys alot. v grateful for them, willing to 'take the risk' to let me do the job and being patience with me. not supposed to say this but.... hahahs. how often do u get to drive the Elektro (the electric towtug usually used for smaller jets). hahahhas.


rain or shine we do the job.
heard that it was the first time ever that it rained. some of us didn't even have our raincoat with us (another admins issue but whatever) there was one night it was Cat A, so bad that all of the planes who were supposed to departed were grounded. and 2 of our guys were stuck at W1, on our open top non-convertible tow tug. ahhahas. but with the rain falling so heavily like tt and w/o lights, it was quite scary.



the ops room at SADA; and photo with png, one of the airtug drivers. very humble hardworking guy with an OCD level that i can identify / empathisize with. ahahas. alot to learn from.  




not forgetting our very hospitable clients who welcomed us to their chalets to makan! and its not ur usual low cost catering food ok. they had macaroons and atas capsule coffee and atas idkthename kind of food. i've never really had a whole macaroon to myself b4. so it was good. 




EMS helicopter! just had to take a photo with it. 
and the last thing for this event did was towing the 2 Airbus Helicopter. because of a miscomm and pressure, i actually caused the 1st helicopter to delay. ;( but thank God that the pilot, though could tell he was abit upset, was really nice and understanding. and it was good coz i had a chance to work with 2 of my team guys. throughout this period, didn't get to work much with them coz they are from the other shift.
also, hold the tail and walk from sada all the way to W1 for safety purposed. hahas. so was talking to the trainee apprentice (yea, we had a total of 10 trainee apprentice, 5 to 1 shift) during the long walk. was nice and the walk didn't feel long though it was under the hot. the talk was also gd, coz at least i know i'm  not alone while facing all these unnecessary work /trainee politics. though minor, but worth talking it out. 




A400M. it was aaaaabit emotional for everyone during their departure actually. ahhahas. the msians from the RMAF. they're one of the first few to arrive and their plane was just infront of our containers. so we see this plane before and after the start of work. and also, they'd join us during our breaks (behind the containers), chilling out during rest times and all. so friendships were forged during all these little breaks. furthermore, its malaysia, so of course there's this unspoken familiarity and kinship. 





 the most memorable (and longest no defect, all about clearance) departure i ever did, whats more... with my part-time airshow bf. Schd to leave sada at 1400hrs for refuelling and departure at 1600hrs. Postponed till abt 2000hrs when i saw it in the sky. Ahhahds. But it was still awesome coz we towed the A380 all the way down to the other end of the military runway (due to wind direction), really slowly, as if synchronising with the serene setting sun, along with the colourful runway lights. 
the military runway. how often do u get to tow an aircraft for depart on the runway? what's more.. the military runway. heehee. 
It was really evening sun till the sky turned dark with shiny stars when we finally remove the bypass pin, headset transmittor and waved bye to the capt the flight engineer. With my fav tech, away from all the hustle and bustle of tradeshow and dying down comms in such setting, it was really peaceful.  Haha. If only my eyes could take photo/vid of the whole setting (no photography in that area). 


i still rmbr this day. was our 2nd morng shift, and we're reallly tired from all the rain and all. so being back at changi apron did feels alot like home - finally somewhr we can identify ourselves with.

ok.. some of the photos i posted on instagram..

day 4 of prep..

and some of the friends i managed to meet up with during the airshow. some of which are ex business partners / customers. sometimes it feels abit awkward coz where i'm at now is really far from the stuff that we used to tal. abt  hahas.



glad to see these  2 especially. ahhahs
stephanie sim who's now likka manager in CAG. hahahs. 
Funny how while she's a manager at CAG, i'm a tech with my company. what are the odds. Just like in the old sch days, we're both in the exco for prefects (HAHA,yes).. she was always the righteous head prefect while i was always the rebellious one, trying to legitly bend the rules for students. I rmbr not coming to agreement with her 80% of the time but somehow in the end, we managed to work tgt and the results are always better than expected. In many ways, u have inspired me in many ways and i'm proud to be "stephanie sim's batch". ;) and she's still as awesome.. coming up with the self-check in departure kiosk or smth. 


 


for a 0700 - 1900 work hours, it's always rewarding coz we get the see both the sun rise and sunset. 
interestingly, in the morng as we head towards our container, we are facing the rising sun. and while gg back, we're always facing the setting sun. 




2 of my fav photos. its actually different (not about the editing) but abt the angle of the sun rays. hahas.






one of my fav shots too. pity that my phone wasn't able to process it well.

the b52 bomber fly past on the 2nd day of public day. heard that this plane (always) wanted to be part of the airshow but coz the low engines / wide wing span can't clear the bridge along northern tow rd of aviation park road. so yea, all that effort for them for just this less than 2 mins fly past. still a sight. uncle J would be v happy to see this.


some vids (uploaded on my instagram.. didn't upload via youtube if not cant hear the music. sighz.)

the B52 bomber fly past if u guys missed it.

fav parts by the Black eagles.

the amazingly crazy Sukhoi by the RMAF. what aerodynamics, camber and all. ahhas. just need 2 super powerful jet engines and u can do anything u want. really amazing. 




last airshow me and this airshow me.
interesting how 2 yrs can change so much.

all in all, i'm just glad with not only the experiences, but also with the friends made. its not often that we get to work with different guys from other departments. really wished that some of my batch mates / just passed out techs could join coz it'd be so fun and great time of learning tgt. but oh well, that incident always come back to haunt me and really, if rumours seems to overwrite friendships or the need to know the truths, then i think i should just let go. sometimes its just too hard to hang on, letting the happy times go may be a better option.


also, because its all so aviation and all, i just wish i still had the both of u with me.
kthnxbye.