God's love is so bountiful.
i need His strength.
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Last day of sec sch (28.09.05)// 10,925 files, 221 folders
ok. i promised to blog ytd. ahah. but was too tired from running here and there whole day long.
today. i didn't study. not at all. was in church. successful repaired the fender guit in church.. but broke a littlt part of it. a minor one. shall fix it after o's. ok. let's skip all those..
if the whole chunky thing below is read, i salute u.
haha.don't waste time? :)
yesterday..
well. last day of sch.
as a convent girl, in a secondary sch of chij Katong Convent.
the joys of being free as a convent in sch.
the loudness of girl talks being exchanged.
the amplifed cries of in need of *ahem, being thrown everywhere.
- its all packed in this convent package.
lets. start all over.
i hated kc. USED TO. i dreaded. my 6th choice, owing to my mum's "aiya.. where got so suay one.. 6th choice kenna.. juz any how put one nearby ger sch can liao". and i wrote kc.
i dreaded. missing all my pri sch friends. the support of my gang. and of course, my dearest brothers out there.
i joined bowling.
my fire for sch increased. i was fighting hard for my sch in sec 2, dying to give all that i had to kc through bowling. subsequently, i wanted to fight for singapore, and thus, incresing national loyalty. (hars. man. must be the excessive sutyding).
i was rewarded my God, with a 4th place, with recognition, and of course $$$ and all the subsequent awards. august 2003, i became captain for my team. and yes, another big stepping stone.
2004. quite a leadershippy-ish tough yr for me. was a trainee prefect who did not like how the sch was being gover, by the exco. individualist girl who did not believe in e importance team wrk, with the exception of sports and games. slowly, team work became one of my priority. with this, love, happiness, passion and etc flows in. shan't dwell on this.
anyways. in addition. with the 9 sub combination. make that 10 for the amt of sub to be studied.
love of sch of course, was bountifully growing like mad lar.keep wanting to serve, occasionally forgetting mysellf and my close friends.
oh yes. ahha. and it also marks the end of eating in class, given a label.
many things went on.
2005.- v difficult yr for mejumped from a trainee to exco..in addition. bowling team faced serious probs. i couldn't step down as a capt. till like ytd-kinda-thing. its like although "stepping-down", my 2 v dear bowling tchr i/c kept on askin me to do stuff, i rejected them, putting o's as my top priority. but was declined. burmur.
i've learnt alot. i met this girl called stephanie sim. hahas. i mean.. i know her since sec 3.. she's e head prefect, so i had to work with 9 other ppl- vanessa, elizabeth seah, elizabeth tan, chai tsun, shu hua, natasha, nicole, jaslin, and yes, steph.
from there...
the importance of teamwork, understanding, flexibility, adaptabilty was inculcated. much conflicts, resolved, many lesson learnt. come to think of it.. w/o steph, i would be ultra pai.
and pb05 was urberly blessed with higly committed seniors, being superly spontaneous. ppl like.. sara, tiffany, celine, geraldyne n many more others were like highly efficient that we even had to tell them to chill and give opportunites for the juniors and trainees, which we shouldn't lar. "its the best batch of seniors i've ever had" quoted from our pd mistrees some time back ago. will nv forget it.
so...
all this serving and all... led me to puting my brains and all energry into thinking of soltions for sch improvement and high productivity, as well as maining a good balance in the welfare of the prefects.
and..
one fine day. i felt really low. i couldn't understand and all. so yes, marian went counselling. ahha. shockingly. and alot of stuff is said. won't say it here.
but one root prob she told me was that.. in every leader.. we also have to be appreciated n like be rewarded. yes, there's ppl out there who serve and constantly gave their 100%, expecting nothign in return.. but one day.. they'll feel low and slashed. one day. amazing huh? (haha. thus, i wanna takke psychology one day)
in the process of the bowling days, made alot alot of friends. one of the most best buddy is yewling and gary. haha. gary is erm.. the bus interchange and bowling alley kinda thing alr. the story is long and funn and lame. ahha. as for yl. he's e capt of sji lar.. so we kinda like toked in our capt-kidna language..for like 4-6 months? then started talking as friends on 1st april on b div. (he started playing april fool on me first can). haha. oh yes. did i mention? i tag he's board once. and he said he couldn't believe it.. and even said i was an imposter of marian. haha.
who wants to pose me? *collaspes.
so. all in all. my life in kc. i would say it acts as a partially permeable membrane, filering out all imature thoughts n hopeless reckless actions, emarging out to a.. better person?
yesterday. felt that i didn't like thank the sch enough. have this thing that wanting to thank the whole sch. but dunno how.
well. wemt through so much. met more friends, learnt more stuff, discovered more talents, all walking in the footsteps of God.
1 chapter is closed, or rather, a new chapt is soon to be began. goona press on living my life as a bright light and salt for the world. my next aim: to compete for Singapore, and bring salvtion to ppl though music; all in all, serving with cheefulness, showing yeomanship, explifying my sec sch values of INTEGRITY.
10,925 files, 221 folders
= currently in "my pictures"
inclusive of bowling church and all. basically, everything.
haha.
right.
aiya. another long chunky post. hope this wil like encourage u all lor. coz-
One life, live it!
dun waste it. make the best out of it for urself and others. u'll feel joyful.
-proud to be a kc girl.
today. i didn't study. not at all. was in church. successful repaired the fender guit in church.. but broke a littlt part of it. a minor one. shall fix it after o's. ok. let's skip all those..
if the whole chunky thing below is read, i salute u.
haha.don't waste time? :)
yesterday..
well. last day of sch.
as a convent girl, in a secondary sch of chij Katong Convent.
the joys of being free as a convent in sch.
the loudness of girl talks being exchanged.
the amplifed cries of in need of *ahem, being thrown everywhere.
- its all packed in this convent package.
lets. start all over.
i hated kc. USED TO. i dreaded. my 6th choice, owing to my mum's "aiya.. where got so suay one.. 6th choice kenna.. juz any how put one nearby ger sch can liao". and i wrote kc.
i dreaded. missing all my pri sch friends. the support of my gang. and of course, my dearest brothers out there.
i joined bowling.
my fire for sch increased. i was fighting hard for my sch in sec 2, dying to give all that i had to kc through bowling. subsequently, i wanted to fight for singapore, and thus, incresing national loyalty. (hars. man. must be the excessive sutyding).
i was rewarded my God, with a 4th place, with recognition, and of course $$$ and all the subsequent awards. august 2003, i became captain for my team. and yes, another big stepping stone.
2004. quite a leadershippy-ish tough yr for me. was a trainee prefect who did not like how the sch was being gover, by the exco. individualist girl who did not believe in e importance team wrk, with the exception of sports and games. slowly, team work became one of my priority. with this, love, happiness, passion and etc flows in. shan't dwell on this.
anyways. in addition. with the 9 sub combination. make that 10 for the amt of sub to be studied.
love of sch of course, was bountifully growing like mad lar.keep wanting to serve, occasionally forgetting mysellf and my close friends.
oh yes. ahha. and it also marks the end of eating in class, given a label.
many things went on.
2005.- v difficult yr for mejumped from a trainee to exco..in addition. bowling team faced serious probs. i couldn't step down as a capt. till like ytd-kinda-thing. its like although "stepping-down", my 2 v dear bowling tchr i/c kept on askin me to do stuff, i rejected them, putting o's as my top priority. but was declined. burmur.
i've learnt alot. i met this girl called stephanie sim. hahas. i mean.. i know her since sec 3.. she's e head prefect, so i had to work with 9 other ppl- vanessa, elizabeth seah, elizabeth tan, chai tsun, shu hua, natasha, nicole, jaslin, and yes, steph.
from there...
the importance of teamwork, understanding, flexibility, adaptabilty was inculcated. much conflicts, resolved, many lesson learnt. come to think of it.. w/o steph, i would be ultra pai.
and pb05 was urberly blessed with higly committed seniors, being superly spontaneous. ppl like.. sara, tiffany, celine, geraldyne n many more others were like highly efficient that we even had to tell them to chill and give opportunites for the juniors and trainees, which we shouldn't lar. "its the best batch of seniors i've ever had" quoted from our pd mistrees some time back ago. will nv forget it.
so...
all this serving and all... led me to puting my brains and all energry into thinking of soltions for sch improvement and high productivity, as well as maining a good balance in the welfare of the prefects.
and..
one fine day. i felt really low. i couldn't understand and all. so yes, marian went counselling. ahha. shockingly. and alot of stuff is said. won't say it here.
but one root prob she told me was that.. in every leader.. we also have to be appreciated n like be rewarded. yes, there's ppl out there who serve and constantly gave their 100%, expecting nothign in return.. but one day.. they'll feel low and slashed. one day. amazing huh? (haha. thus, i wanna takke psychology one day)
in the process of the bowling days, made alot alot of friends. one of the most best buddy is yewling and gary. haha. gary is erm.. the bus interchange and bowling alley kinda thing alr. the story is long and funn and lame. ahha. as for yl. he's e capt of sji lar.. so we kinda like toked in our capt-kidna language..for like 4-6 months? then started talking as friends on 1st april on b div. (he started playing april fool on me first can). haha. oh yes. did i mention? i tag he's board once. and he said he couldn't believe it.. and even said i was an imposter of marian. haha.
who wants to pose me? *collaspes.
so. all in all. my life in kc. i would say it acts as a partially permeable membrane, filering out all imature thoughts n hopeless reckless actions, emarging out to a.. better person?
yesterday. felt that i didn't like thank the sch enough. have this thing that wanting to thank the whole sch. but dunno how.
well. wemt through so much. met more friends, learnt more stuff, discovered more talents, all walking in the footsteps of God.
1 chapter is closed, or rather, a new chapt is soon to be began. goona press on living my life as a bright light and salt for the world. my next aim: to compete for Singapore, and bring salvtion to ppl though music; all in all, serving with cheefulness, showing yeomanship, explifying my sec sch values of INTEGRITY.
10,925 files, 221 folders
= currently in "my pictures"
inclusive of bowling church and all. basically, everything.
haha.
right.
aiya. another long chunky post. hope this wil like encourage u all lor. coz-
One life, live it!
dun waste it. make the best out of it for urself and others. u'll feel joyful.
-proud to be a kc girl.
Friday, October 28, 2005
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Psychotic Prac.
i did not do the whole of EXPT 2.
i only drew the table. the graph and question all nv do.
[pause]
if i didn't know how to do.. and left it blank. its ok. i admit defeat. but i know. grrrr..
its about heat lar. so irritating. cooling curve. i know lor. do b4 lor. juz couldn't get my scale right. wanted to perfect it. ended up screwing up.
just pray that expt 1 will pull me up though i didn't do like v well for it.
man. its the first time i ever cry, for a wad.. 15% paper? i failed my eoy overall also like nv cry. now its like prac. (should i say.. only?).
forget it lar.
the prob is hor. i wanna take physic as my L1R5. chem. no. but seems like i'm doing well in chem.. so far. aiya. forget it forget it forget it.
just focus.
ok. today keep rainining at night. thank God i'm home safely already. the lightning is really continous lar.
btw.. DO YOU KNOW? Singapore holds a record for the most lightning in a year? coz we're at the equator and all lar. since no big natural disater.. monsoon enough will kill us. so yar.
tmr is the super last official day of sch in my secondary sch days.
missing the days already. goona miss my days as a convent girl. though 4 yrs... sill bonds lar. tmr should be bloging abt all these lar. so yar.
juz thank God for today. thank God that i came early to sch. pray that i will go sch early tmr too. thank God for all those physics ppl who did not burnt themselves today.
i only drew the table. the graph and question all nv do.
[pause]
if i didn't know how to do.. and left it blank. its ok. i admit defeat. but i know. grrrr..
its about heat lar. so irritating. cooling curve. i know lor. do b4 lor. juz couldn't get my scale right. wanted to perfect it. ended up screwing up.
just pray that expt 1 will pull me up though i didn't do like v well for it.
man. its the first time i ever cry, for a wad.. 15% paper? i failed my eoy overall also like nv cry. now its like prac. (should i say.. only?).
forget it lar.
the prob is hor. i wanna take physic as my L1R5. chem. no. but seems like i'm doing well in chem.. so far. aiya. forget it forget it forget it.
just focus.
ok. today keep rainining at night. thank God i'm home safely already. the lightning is really continous lar.
btw.. DO YOU KNOW? Singapore holds a record for the most lightning in a year? coz we're at the equator and all lar. since no big natural disater.. monsoon enough will kill us. so yar.
tmr is the super last official day of sch in my secondary sch days.
missing the days already. goona miss my days as a convent girl. though 4 yrs... sill bonds lar. tmr should be bloging abt all these lar. so yar.
juz thank God for today. thank God that i came early to sch. pray that i will go sch early tmr too. thank God for all those physics ppl who did not burnt themselves today.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
chem prac
based on my level of knowledge of dear chemistry.. what i've done today is far better than ever. :D
following are my ans..
acid: Hydrochloric acid
titration: 19.4 cm3 (forgot 2 dec place) => SWL! HAHA.
mol/dm3: 0.103mol/dm3
S: Aluminium
T: Calcium (supposed to be lead)
in the process... there's a few spelling mistake. modificaiton q.. no time.. so i juz wrote.."find the amt of gas produced and compare." then i grew a digram of the apparatus.. w.o any explaination. haha. no time.
but overall. it was my best lar. so proud of myself. for once in chem. first time. i could actually calculate....hars.
welll. hopefully.
how did i know it was HCL?
haha. was playing with the 3 known acids given.. sulphuric, chloric and nitric. so i didn't know how to observe from the test.. so i add silver nirate to all 3 known.. and compared it with P. and concluded HCL. happiyl wrote it down at the last 10th min.
after sch.
it was raining.
our sch was flooded. literally.
at the foyer.. the drain suddenly like burst kinda thing... then the pipe all leak. ahha. so i ran to the office.. and ahhahahaa. super funny...
i went in, at a loss of words.. so one admin lady asked me.." yes... er.. may i help u?"
"er.. err.. erm... the sch.. er.. FLOODED"
ahhaha. then all the admin ppl sharply turned and looked at me.. and went.. "huh?".. ahha. of course ai panicked.. having so many ppl starin at me.. so i pointed outside the office.. which was the foyer..
and they all ran out.
haha. hilarious lar.
but our sch was literally flooded. literally. should have brought my cam.. the dc prefects had to run to the table near the music room. then the attendants were frantically pushhing the water out of the way.. to a nearby semr-drain, also in the foyer.. under the waterhose. so yes.. this was the major leakage.. the our drains in the sch compound were also flooded.. but not as bad...
so yea.
went to study there again. was crowded. couldnt' study whole day. was soo restless and like conclucded stressed. so ok lar. tahan for awhile. then attempted to study. then became very high. its becomin my norm. so anyways.
that's it.
thank God for today.
1 more wk. 1 more...........
following are my ans..
acid: Hydrochloric acid
titration: 19.4 cm3 (forgot 2 dec place) => SWL! HAHA.
mol/dm3: 0.103mol/dm3
S: Aluminium
T: Calcium (supposed to be lead)
in the process... there's a few spelling mistake. modificaiton q.. no time.. so i juz wrote.."find the amt of gas produced and compare." then i grew a digram of the apparatus.. w.o any explaination. haha. no time.
but overall. it was my best lar. so proud of myself. for once in chem. first time. i could actually calculate....hars.
welll. hopefully.
how did i know it was HCL?
haha. was playing with the 3 known acids given.. sulphuric, chloric and nitric. so i didn't know how to observe from the test.. so i add silver nirate to all 3 known.. and compared it with P. and concluded HCL. happiyl wrote it down at the last 10th min.
after sch.
it was raining.
our sch was flooded. literally.
at the foyer.. the drain suddenly like burst kinda thing... then the pipe all leak. ahha. so i ran to the office.. and ahhahahaa. super funny...
i went in, at a loss of words.. so one admin lady asked me.." yes... er.. may i help u?"
"er.. err.. erm... the sch.. er.. FLOODED"
ahhaha. then all the admin ppl sharply turned and looked at me.. and went.. "huh?".. ahha. of course ai panicked.. having so many ppl starin at me.. so i pointed outside the office.. which was the foyer..
and they all ran out.
haha. hilarious lar.
but our sch was literally flooded. literally. should have brought my cam.. the dc prefects had to run to the table near the music room. then the attendants were frantically pushhing the water out of the way.. to a nearby semr-drain, also in the foyer.. under the waterhose. so yes.. this was the major leakage.. the our drains in the sch compound were also flooded.. but not as bad...
so yea.
went to study there again. was crowded. couldnt' study whole day. was soo restless and like conclucded stressed. so ok lar. tahan for awhile. then attempted to study. then became very high. its becomin my norm. so anyways.
that's it.
thank God for today.
1 more wk. 1 more...........
Monday, October 24, 2005
clockwise point, anti-clockwise point.
been jumpin to the jam literally.
its the dance for today. "jump jump jump.... " and it goes on.. with dancers jumping for God.
hars.
ytd and today was guitar madness lar. ytd had prac for service.. learnt ultra lot from zhen qin. he and dennis were the ppl to inspire me to take up that guit.
so anyways..
today.. morning, mission dance prac. then was guitaring then was dance then guitaring and more guitaring.. and later.. was guitaring again.
so in conculsion,
i was guitaring.
ahaha. left hand kinda tearing. but its all worth it lors. =)
to add on. i lost my 2nd most favourite pick. the grey Jim Dunlop 0.73mm pick. the one i always hand around my neck.
in total, i've lost 3 picks. all 3 are my top fav. how sad can. didn't even depart with it properly.
basically. the first that i've lost was my 3rd best pick. transparent, by a shoe brand... and i hang it around me wherever i go. and it lost.
2nd one that not really lost.. but BROKE will playing a not so nice guit from sch. that was my no. 1 pick lar. its black, and i used it for my performance for coffeeshop nite04 and chillin' under the stars05. its like..heartbroken. though it was not a very gd pick(tt's y it broke) but had e sentmentials and all.
3rd one. haiz. the pick that i used to stum always. my first service, teens time and all.. i used this pick. and now. its lost!!!!
i'm determined to find it.
anywyas. to add on more guitar stuff. the takamine guit that zhen used to play for teens time, had its G-string broke. as in.. note G that string lar. ahha. and today, i used it.. and the D-string broke. have a feeling that the B and E strings are gonna break as well.
boy. its like wah-whee wkend for me lar. minimal studies. well. it has motivated me to hard core on wk days though.
hmm.. why is my title clockwise point, anti-clockwise point.
haha. coz its stuck in my head.
ahah. by countless times said by lydia and the dance team. its for the song Reach for the stars.. the bridge. ahhaha. super funny lar.
yes. yesterday. Uncle Willie passed away. kinda like miss his cranky jokes, english-cum-malay language. i duno lar.
its like ppl are all starting to die. starting to leave me. and like how many ppl out of the dead literally, are saved lar?
haiz. Time and tide really waits for no man.
anyways. lets talk about happy stuff.
u know wad. u ppl who tag my board and acutally read this whole lot of nonsencial-crap... have made my day.. or rather..my night. haha. somehow. and especailly the last few tags. thank u for that major encouragements lar.
and also. i love studying. (if u can't tell.. i'm juz trying hard to make-belief) its working! haha. don't u love studying.?
let's a song to share with u all.. i'll try to put the song up. its a nice song. played for service today.. its fun to keep runing down the bass.. try it! =)
Worthy is the lamb
Thank you for the cross, Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace
Thank you for this love, Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace
Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious
High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
The Darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb
ok. goona be out of action and back in action soon.. hah. i think i'm goon ablog about my pracs.. this comin week. ahha.
i'm scared for O's. literally shiver at the though of sitting down adn writting my index no.
its the dance for today. "jump jump jump.... " and it goes on.. with dancers jumping for God.
hars.
ytd and today was guitar madness lar. ytd had prac for service.. learnt ultra lot from zhen qin. he and dennis were the ppl to inspire me to take up that guit.
so anyways..
today.. morning, mission dance prac. then was guitaring then was dance then guitaring and more guitaring.. and later.. was guitaring again.
so in conculsion,
i was guitaring.
ahaha. left hand kinda tearing. but its all worth it lors. =)
to add on. i lost my 2nd most favourite pick. the grey Jim Dunlop 0.73mm pick. the one i always hand around my neck.
in total, i've lost 3 picks. all 3 are my top fav. how sad can. didn't even depart with it properly.
basically. the first that i've lost was my 3rd best pick. transparent, by a shoe brand... and i hang it around me wherever i go. and it lost.
2nd one that not really lost.. but BROKE will playing a not so nice guit from sch. that was my no. 1 pick lar. its black, and i used it for my performance for coffeeshop nite04 and chillin' under the stars05. its like..heartbroken. though it was not a very gd pick(tt's y it broke) but had e sentmentials and all.
3rd one. haiz. the pick that i used to stum always. my first service, teens time and all.. i used this pick. and now. its lost!!!!
i'm determined to find it.
anywyas. to add on more guitar stuff. the takamine guit that zhen used to play for teens time, had its G-string broke. as in.. note G that string lar. ahha. and today, i used it.. and the D-string broke. have a feeling that the B and E strings are gonna break as well.
boy. its like wah-whee wkend for me lar. minimal studies. well. it has motivated me to hard core on wk days though.
hmm.. why is my title clockwise point, anti-clockwise point.
haha. coz its stuck in my head.
ahah. by countless times said by lydia and the dance team. its for the song Reach for the stars.. the bridge. ahhaha. super funny lar.
yes. yesterday. Uncle Willie passed away. kinda like miss his cranky jokes, english-cum-malay language. i duno lar.
its like ppl are all starting to die. starting to leave me. and like how many ppl out of the dead literally, are saved lar?
haiz. Time and tide really waits for no man.
anyways. lets talk about happy stuff.
u know wad. u ppl who tag my board and acutally read this whole lot of nonsencial-crap... have made my day.. or rather..my night. haha. somehow. and especailly the last few tags. thank u for that major encouragements lar.
and also. i love studying. (if u can't tell.. i'm juz trying hard to make-belief) its working! haha. don't u love studying.?
let's a song to share with u all.. i'll try to put the song up. its a nice song. played for service today.. its fun to keep runing down the bass.. try it! =)
Worthy is the lamb
Thank you for the cross, Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace
Thank you for this love, Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace
Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious
High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
The Darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb
ok. goona be out of action and back in action soon.. hah. i think i'm goon ablog about my pracs.. this comin week. ahha.
i'm scared for O's. literally shiver at the though of sitting down adn writting my index no.
Saturday, October 22, 2005
fryday
whee.
i guess i'm high.
haha. too much studying.
and u know what... i want to have a passion, hobby and fire for studying...
been studying like i've nv studied b4.
not really sure what has gone into my head.
crash crash crash.
i thinked i've sprained my right wrist.
or maybe, strained it?
haha.
wheeeeeeeee.
handphone games are fun can.
i was playing monopoly on one of the days.. and i WON!
its like econs like that.. demands. ahhahhaa. =)
gonna like blog superly randomly.
been studying at the airport.
made new friend through sara's church friend's classmate.
studied.
many familiar faces were seen.. its like a habitual routine.
to an extend that a guy wave and smiled at me when i came.. and i gave that "eerr.. ok" kinda smile. haha.
AND what's best... on thurs.. like shps day like that.. i saw many grps of PRIMARY sch FRIENDS!!. missss them super loads lar. yay!!! said hi and all. so happy.
aahaa. camped at airport on wed. yes. was alone. ahha. 28hrs in the airport. same spot. ahha. this grp of 6 guys also camped there. ahaha. they're like pro lar. they were exchanging facts across the tables. and facts were so chim that it seemed so foreign to me. haha.
ahah. they had alot of ways to de stress. they played cards.. took turns to read comic. but when its time to study.. they really hard core. pro.
i survived the night with 3-4 1/2hr slps. felt v v accomplished with 7 phy chpts and 1 and 1/2 of pilot pen used up fully.
stuyding alone was gd. had no one to talk to. no one to msg coz its like at night. so was like productive. wad distracted me was the high tendency to slp. kept eating to stay alive.
miss bowling alot. miss running. i haven't run for like 5 whole wks can. feel to horrible and like boxed up. no sports done!. man.
i wanna climb walls fly arounf bike up and down and sail sail sail sail.. ahhaha. wheeeeeee. boooya!. wahha.
sry/ juz entertaing myself. ahwahs.
was lookin thru friendster. hmmm. its all abt fashion.
y do ppl like fashion? y bother kping up with it? to fit it? for socialising purposes?
oh yes.
this wk. my faith is like tested lar.
was talking to this friend, stanely abt God. and seriously. it was a firey sort of 'argument'. we had totally diff ideologies and perspective. He's a chrsitian, a charasmatic. i'm a anglician. i dunno wads the diff in actualy fact. i know theres this difference lar.
i think he sort of teared? and my heart was like crumpled up. seriously.
it lasted from 6:30 till 8:40pm. on wedsday. i was opened with his concepts lar. and i seriously cannot agree with some stuff like..."this is not form the bible.. but its true and its impt" and all lar. then the way the church sees it its really cynnical and like really judgemental in a way.
well. we have diff agenda. its difficult lar. we all want salvation. so its like.. the conversation was heated up. i concluded my last sentence. went to the toilet. went back, smiled and "ok-let's get back to work. :)"..
"ok"
so yea. ended.
anyways. yep. i'm gonna crash tonigh. haha. crash on my guit lar. my electric guit literally got dust lar. then my pedal also like lazy to take out. ahha. so gonna like use the amp only toight. haha. whee.. thank u understanding neighbours. ahha.
thank God for created walls.
i guess i'm high.
haha. too much studying.
and u know what... i want to have a passion, hobby and fire for studying...
been studying like i've nv studied b4.
not really sure what has gone into my head.
crash crash crash.
i thinked i've sprained my right wrist.
or maybe, strained it?
haha.
wheeeeeeeee.
handphone games are fun can.
i was playing monopoly on one of the days.. and i WON!
its like econs like that.. demands. ahhahhaa. =)
gonna like blog superly randomly.
been studying at the airport.
made new friend through sara's church friend's classmate.
studied.
many familiar faces were seen.. its like a habitual routine.
to an extend that a guy wave and smiled at me when i came.. and i gave that "eerr.. ok" kinda smile. haha.
AND what's best... on thurs.. like shps day like that.. i saw many grps of PRIMARY sch FRIENDS!!. missss them super loads lar. yay!!! said hi and all. so happy.
aahaa. camped at airport on wed. yes. was alone. ahha. 28hrs in the airport. same spot. ahha. this grp of 6 guys also camped there. ahaha. they're like pro lar. they were exchanging facts across the tables. and facts were so chim that it seemed so foreign to me. haha.
ahah. they had alot of ways to de stress. they played cards.. took turns to read comic. but when its time to study.. they really hard core. pro.
i survived the night with 3-4 1/2hr slps. felt v v accomplished with 7 phy chpts and 1 and 1/2 of pilot pen used up fully.
stuyding alone was gd. had no one to talk to. no one to msg coz its like at night. so was like productive. wad distracted me was the high tendency to slp. kept eating to stay alive.
miss bowling alot. miss running. i haven't run for like 5 whole wks can. feel to horrible and like boxed up. no sports done!. man.
i wanna climb walls fly arounf bike up and down and sail sail sail sail.. ahhaha. wheeeeeee. boooya!. wahha.
sry/ juz entertaing myself. ahwahs.
was lookin thru friendster. hmmm. its all abt fashion.
y do ppl like fashion? y bother kping up with it? to fit it? for socialising purposes?
oh yes.
this wk. my faith is like tested lar.
was talking to this friend, stanely abt God. and seriously. it was a firey sort of 'argument'. we had totally diff ideologies and perspective. He's a chrsitian, a charasmatic. i'm a anglician. i dunno wads the diff in actualy fact. i know theres this difference lar.
i think he sort of teared? and my heart was like crumpled up. seriously.
it lasted from 6:30 till 8:40pm. on wedsday. i was opened with his concepts lar. and i seriously cannot agree with some stuff like..."this is not form the bible.. but its true and its impt" and all lar. then the way the church sees it its really cynnical and like really judgemental in a way.
well. we have diff agenda. its difficult lar. we all want salvation. so its like.. the conversation was heated up. i concluded my last sentence. went to the toilet. went back, smiled and "ok-let's get back to work. :)"..
"ok"
so yea. ended.
anyways. yep. i'm gonna crash tonigh. haha. crash on my guit lar. my electric guit literally got dust lar. then my pedal also like lazy to take out. ahha. so gonna like use the amp only toight. haha. whee.. thank u understanding neighbours. ahha.
thank God for created walls.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Bio Prac.
i wasn't given a marker, a glass slide, cover slip and ruler.
happily.. i attempted to do the first Q using my petri dish as my microscope silde. imagine that.
then it came to a point..whereby it state.."to the glass, add a drop of iodine to the edge.." i was like.. err.. petri dish.. er.. circle.. haha.
then.. stupidly, after wasting 10mins or so... i then raised my hand.
man.
10 mins = 600 sec.
in addition.. i didn't understand the 1st q. i didn't read properly.. made superly brief sketchings.. which i think can only obtain 1/4 marks.
so..
my distinction is kinda FAR.
coz.. prac is a heavy one. not to mention abt my 2nd q.. dun even know what the q is seeking for... last q. 5 m. hars.
me: "mrs tang.. i'm gonna let u down.."
mrs tang: "dun worry.. u still got ur theory. juz do well in it."
hmms. ;). my oil.
anyways. 1 down. 18 papers to go.
haiz.
was looking thru the videos of my dances.. the church ones. i was smiling to this com screen lar. like some dances.. really.. could tell that the ppl really enjoying themseleves.. dancing to their max.
i really do hope that our mission dances can examplify God's joyfulness..
let's pray for that yea.
ahha. and also.. i dun think i can make it for pracs like.. ahhah. juz learnt 2 whole new dance last sun.. dopefully can catch up. anywyas.
that's kinda abt it.
hhaha. did i mention. my rate of ink flow is 2 days per pen?
i duno wad to say...
happily.. i attempted to do the first Q using my petri dish as my microscope silde. imagine that.
then it came to a point..whereby it state.."to the glass, add a drop of iodine to the edge.." i was like.. err.. petri dish.. er.. circle.. haha.
then.. stupidly, after wasting 10mins or so... i then raised my hand.
man.
10 mins = 600 sec.
in addition.. i didn't understand the 1st q. i didn't read properly.. made superly brief sketchings.. which i think can only obtain 1/4 marks.
so..
my distinction is kinda FAR.
coz.. prac is a heavy one. not to mention abt my 2nd q.. dun even know what the q is seeking for... last q. 5 m. hars.
me: "mrs tang.. i'm gonna let u down.."
mrs tang: "dun worry.. u still got ur theory. juz do well in it."
hmms. ;). my oil.
anyways. 1 down. 18 papers to go.
haiz.
was looking thru the videos of my dances.. the church ones. i was smiling to this com screen lar. like some dances.. really.. could tell that the ppl really enjoying themseleves.. dancing to their max.
i really do hope that our mission dances can examplify God's joyfulness..
let's pray for that yea.
ahha. and also.. i dun think i can make it for pracs like.. ahhah. juz learnt 2 whole new dance last sun.. dopefully can catch up. anywyas.
that's kinda abt it.
hhaha. did i mention. my rate of ink flow is 2 days per pen?
i duno wad to say...
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Saturday, October 15, 2005
"fail prelims? nvm! also can.."
yes. that was quoted by mrs lim.. SAJC's principal..
i think i can even wuote the whole sentence/ para..
"we have 89 students who got into SAJC through DSA. for those who obtain over 20pts or even fail your prelims, nevermind! also can! so long as for O levels, you score 20pts and below, if not, we'll have to kiss you good-bye" - mrs.lim, principal of sajc.
hahahha.
man. wad a sigh of relief. tons. i'm delighted. thrilled.
so, today.
its the battle of VJC & SAJC...
let's go step by step..
firstly..
`vj(at 10.10am) had a uproaring welcome.. student councils were really battling all out to keep receptors. each were given goody-bags at random. goody bags consist of vj stuff like post-it, brochure, water, and a bag of twisties.
`Sajc(at 11.25am).. well.. a more calmer welcome. and yes.. i was shocked that they scannaed our bus pass to get our i/c.. and later.. took record of how many ppl from wad sch came. to say, i was whoa by the.. the.. wanting/eager-to-know-who's-comin-in-nxt-yr.... and the goody bag was a whoa shoe-bag with a paper and interact club thing inside.
`vj. i was impressed, overwhelmed, thrilled by the science facilited they had. the equipments most probably. felt that i was sort of urged to study hard hard hard.. and really.. it made chem not so boring after all. this even made me have the thoughts about gg vj.
`sa. no science stuff really. so ya. fullstop.
`vj. the bowling booth. ok. err.. really quiet and really erm.. civillised ppl. sat there, smile and introduced. strangers.
`sa.. the bowling booth.hmm. felt like i knew everyone. they, even called my name.. ahaha. i wrote my name, and contact on the paper.. and 100%ly reluctantly wrote my L1R5 in one of the required boxes. i felt happy. and somehow, homed.
`vj. principle tok. didn't attend. was really interested.
`sajc. went for the tok. view video. and also.. ahha. realised that the virtual touring of the campus is kinda redundant since they're moving into new grounds nxt yr.. so yar. haha. and i am v happy with mrs lim. ;)
`vj. wanted to join odac there. only. haha. (no gary, not because of u). ahha. (i know u won't think of this.. but yar. haha. ;p) anyways. yar. odac is fun can. =). but its like.. i only wanted odac. full stop.
` sa.. ultimately, bowling. well, its a commitment and a promise, practially an agreement of loyalty and faith to dear sajc. wants to join guitar essemble, and student council as well. gonna pray abt it. coz time is at stake. PLUS. travel time is gonna really kill. so i pray for an express bus from bedok to toapahyo or even better, pp. i'll see if i can write to sbs for this selfish deisre.
*
`vj. went there. ok. its juz another orientation.. wacky ppl. exciting enthusism. felt vj-ish.
` sa.. went there. welcome-home feelin. nothing much is siad besides the principle's msg..juz felt at home. felt that the whole wide world is my friends.. ahaha. as if. but yar. that's how i felt.
`vj. i duno wads the vision, values.. etc. nil sine laboror? (from vs actually.. ahha).(?)
` sa. every saint is a servant leader.
haha. values.. intergity, responsibilty, respect, compassion, perseverance... those in bold are in the kc's INTEGRITY values.(Integrity, Nobility, Teamwork, E, Graciousness, Respect, Independent, Yeomanship- i think. kill me if i'm wrong)hahha. so its kinda simliar. and some values which also coincides with my personal agenda.
so. bottom line. it lies. where does marian wants to go?
SA? VJC?
-practially, the fact that i'm in sa, i'm in. no question for 1st three months.
whereas vj, even if i WANT. haha. i can't.
-sa. provides me a wider range of enriching experiences. i'm not really seeking super-ultra thousands and milllions of friends. just want sa. haha.
- nearer to church. easier to expand our ministry? =)
haha. so its gooona be a like 1-7 times, or rather, every single passing day to SAV. taking a long 26 bus ride there.
okok. so its St. Andrew's Junior college.
i suppose its God's plan for me. to prosper and not to harm..
so yes. i'm in. 1st 3 mths.
hmm. bio prac. on tue. haven't been studyign ahrd core for 4 days. tsk tsk. pray pray pray. MARIAN. ITS THE O LEVELS. WAKEY.
i'm goona fight hard for SA. with my blood and sweat. ahha. since its given this little human being an opportunity to go to a junior college.
dun worry, i won't let u down.
i think i can even wuote the whole sentence/ para..
"we have 89 students who got into SAJC through DSA. for those who obtain over 20pts or even fail your prelims, nevermind! also can! so long as for O levels, you score 20pts and below, if not, we'll have to kiss you good-bye" - mrs.lim, principal of sajc.
hahahha.
man. wad a sigh of relief. tons. i'm delighted. thrilled.
so, today.
its the battle of VJC & SAJC...
let's go step by step..
firstly..
`vj(at 10.10am) had a uproaring welcome.. student councils were really battling all out to keep receptors. each were given goody-bags at random. goody bags consist of vj stuff like post-it, brochure, water, and a bag of twisties.
`Sajc(at 11.25am).. well.. a more calmer welcome. and yes.. i was shocked that they scannaed our bus pass to get our i/c.. and later.. took record of how many ppl from wad sch came. to say, i was whoa by the.. the.. wanting/eager-to-know-who's-comin-in-nxt-yr.... and the goody bag was a whoa shoe-bag with a paper and interact club thing inside.
`vj. i was impressed, overwhelmed, thrilled by the science facilited they had. the equipments most probably. felt that i was sort of urged to study hard hard hard.. and really.. it made chem not so boring after all. this even made me have the thoughts about gg vj.
`sa. no science stuff really. so ya. fullstop.
`vj. the bowling booth. ok. err.. really quiet and really erm.. civillised ppl. sat there, smile and introduced. strangers.
`sa.. the bowling booth.hmm. felt like i knew everyone. they, even called my name.. ahaha. i wrote my name, and contact on the paper.. and 100%ly reluctantly wrote my L1R5 in one of the required boxes. i felt happy. and somehow, homed.
`vj. principle tok. didn't attend. was really interested.
`sajc. went for the tok. view video. and also.. ahha. realised that the virtual touring of the campus is kinda redundant since they're moving into new grounds nxt yr.. so yar. haha. and i am v happy with mrs lim. ;)
`vj. wanted to join odac there. only. haha. (no gary, not because of u). ahha. (i know u won't think of this.. but yar. haha. ;p) anyways. yar. odac is fun can. =). but its like.. i only wanted odac. full stop.
` sa.. ultimately, bowling. well, its a commitment and a promise, practially an agreement of loyalty and faith to dear sajc. wants to join guitar essemble, and student council as well. gonna pray abt it. coz time is at stake. PLUS. travel time is gonna really kill. so i pray for an express bus from bedok to toapahyo or even better, pp. i'll see if i can write to sbs for this selfish deisre.
*
`vj. went there. ok. its juz another orientation.. wacky ppl. exciting enthusism. felt vj-ish.
` sa.. went there. welcome-home feelin. nothing much is siad besides the principle's msg..juz felt at home. felt that the whole wide world is my friends.. ahaha. as if. but yar. that's how i felt.
`vj. i duno wads the vision, values.. etc. nil sine laboror? (from vs actually.. ahha).(?)
` sa. every saint is a servant leader.
haha. values.. intergity, responsibilty, respect, compassion, perseverance... those in bold are in the kc's INTEGRITY values.(Integrity, Nobility, Teamwork, E, Graciousness, Respect, Independent, Yeomanship- i think. kill me if i'm wrong)hahha. so its kinda simliar. and some values which also coincides with my personal agenda.
so. bottom line. it lies. where does marian wants to go?
SA? VJC?
-practially, the fact that i'm in sa, i'm in. no question for 1st three months.
whereas vj, even if i WANT. haha. i can't.
-sa. provides me a wider range of enriching experiences. i'm not really seeking super-ultra thousands and milllions of friends. just want sa. haha.
- nearer to church. easier to expand our ministry? =)
haha. so its gooona be a like 1-7 times, or rather, every single passing day to SAV. taking a long 26 bus ride there.
okok. so its St. Andrew's Junior college.
i suppose its God's plan for me. to prosper and not to harm..
so yes. i'm in. 1st 3 mths.
hmm. bio prac. on tue. haven't been studyign ahrd core for 4 days. tsk tsk. pray pray pray. MARIAN. ITS THE O LEVELS. WAKEY.
i'm goona fight hard for SA. with my blood and sweat. ahha. since its given this little human being an opportunity to go to a junior college.
dun worry, i won't let u down.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
jabs.
took them today.
hep A and influenza. at unc kok chi's clinic. he look so whoa. pro-ed.
there was me, avriel, daniel, eveleen, selene and ulrica. eve and daniel were sick.. so couldn't take.. =(. God heal them man.
at the clinic b4 taking the jabs, i was shaking. haha. also realised smth about myself.. when i'm like scared.. i'll keep laughing and smiling. hmmm. avriel pro lar.. hahhaa. *salute. haha.
then sat at mos burger at ang mo kio. supposedly to study. but.. juz felt so tired of it. both arms seems strengthless.. ahha.imagine if i have trng. haha. freak out.
anyways.
the jabs are done. yay.
after this wk..
will be next wk.
when pracs are gonna be ON. hoho.
THUS, i'm gonna FULL-FORCE HEADED TO WORK. yay. and i'm gonna be excitied about it.
yep. survining on sara's camera at the moment. mine's with char and vice-versa. oh well.
pray for daniel and eve. both down with flu and sore throat.. daniel's flu seem to be getting not v gd. pray for them. esp eve.. her PRACS!!!!! and for all the o level ppl out there.... esp those who are suffering.
indeed, some are already falling. pray that they'll shoot up. and set fire to the paper.
hep A and influenza. at unc kok chi's clinic. he look so whoa. pro-ed.
there was me, avriel, daniel, eveleen, selene and ulrica. eve and daniel were sick.. so couldn't take.. =(. God heal them man.
at the clinic b4 taking the jabs, i was shaking. haha. also realised smth about myself.. when i'm like scared.. i'll keep laughing and smiling. hmmm. avriel pro lar.. hahhaa. *salute. haha.
then sat at mos burger at ang mo kio. supposedly to study. but.. juz felt so tired of it. both arms seems strengthless.. ahha.imagine if i have trng. haha. freak out.
anyways.
the jabs are done. yay.
after this wk..
will be next wk.
when pracs are gonna be ON. hoho.
THUS, i'm gonna FULL-FORCE HEADED TO WORK. yay. and i'm gonna be excitied about it.
yep. survining on sara's camera at the moment. mine's with char and vice-versa. oh well.
pray for daniel and eve. both down with flu and sore throat.. daniel's flu seem to be getting not v gd. pray for them. esp eve.. her PRACS!!!!! and for all the o level ppl out there.... esp those who are suffering.
indeed, some are already falling. pray that they'll shoot up. and set fire to the paper.
Monday, October 10, 2005
declaration
i hereby, going to make this bold declaration of 2 wars.
I will fight and never to admit defeat unless any unforseen circumstances shall deem it so.
Firstly, screw u O levels. i'm gonna conquer u till u've got nothing to say. i'm gonna show all u ppl out there who keeps telling me to give up. u know who u are. and i know u won't be reading this. if u happen to be reading, gd for u- get mentally prepared. i wanna fight u. and win victorously in the name of the Lord.
Amen.
all 16 yr olds+ kids are in this battlefield. nothing will obstruct me from perfomring my best.
Secondly, devil. u're gonna do this to ppl who love God. But, i'm not gonna submit to ur temptation. u've got 2 areas to battle with me; my exams, and the upcoming mission trip. do whatever u want. in the Name of Jesus, we will put on the armour and fight victorously.
so wad if i'm tired. i'll press on.
so wad if i'm irritated. i'm still gonna hold on to that faith.
in case u've somehow forgotten, i have a BIG God. No temptation will seize us except what is common to man. and God is faithful. (1 cor 10:13)
In the end of these 2 battles, i'm goona stand up and shout that "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith" (2 timo 4:7)
Surely, He'll be with me till e very end of age.
-
i miss mr. poon. if this is guy is still in da house, man, things would be better with his light bulb lar. duno y... its times of such that i feel desperate for him. kang kong cai. i really want u ppl out there to really appreciate ur daddys out there k. seriously. if u dun, and u finally really want to.. u might not have the chance. i wanna hear his voice. see his smile. hear his crap.
hah.
imagine tonight i experience all these. freak out.
was reading mervyn's blog. my condolences to him.
couldn't fight back the tears.
its like an exact repeatuoire.
1 wk to lose a love one.
same sceniro. 2 brothers. and both blogged abt it and posted each other's links on their blog.
come to think of it. wasted k. i didn't bring my camera. or rather.. didn't have a digital cam/ or bothered to take my old yes-those-film kind of camera. its not like i miss those painful moments lar.. its juz that all happend too fast.
images are blurry.
and his last sight of him seems to be all too blurry.
I will fight and never to admit defeat unless any unforseen circumstances shall deem it so.
Firstly, screw u O levels. i'm gonna conquer u till u've got nothing to say. i'm gonna show all u ppl out there who keeps telling me to give up. u know who u are. and i know u won't be reading this. if u happen to be reading, gd for u- get mentally prepared. i wanna fight u. and win victorously in the name of the Lord.
Amen.
all 16 yr olds+ kids are in this battlefield. nothing will obstruct me from perfomring my best.
Secondly, devil. u're gonna do this to ppl who love God. But, i'm not gonna submit to ur temptation. u've got 2 areas to battle with me; my exams, and the upcoming mission trip. do whatever u want. in the Name of Jesus, we will put on the armour and fight victorously.
so wad if i'm tired. i'll press on.
so wad if i'm irritated. i'm still gonna hold on to that faith.
in case u've somehow forgotten, i have a BIG God. No temptation will seize us except what is common to man. and God is faithful. (1 cor 10:13)
In the end of these 2 battles, i'm goona stand up and shout that "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith" (2 timo 4:7)
Surely, He'll be with me till e very end of age.
-
i miss mr. poon. if this is guy is still in da house, man, things would be better with his light bulb lar. duno y... its times of such that i feel desperate for him. kang kong cai. i really want u ppl out there to really appreciate ur daddys out there k. seriously. if u dun, and u finally really want to.. u might not have the chance. i wanna hear his voice. see his smile. hear his crap.
hah.
imagine tonight i experience all these. freak out.
was reading mervyn's blog. my condolences to him.
couldn't fight back the tears.
its like an exact repeatuoire.
1 wk to lose a love one.
same sceniro. 2 brothers. and both blogged abt it and posted each other's links on their blog.
come to think of it. wasted k. i didn't bring my camera. or rather.. didn't have a digital cam/ or bothered to take my old yes-those-film kind of camera. its not like i miss those painful moments lar.. its juz that all happend too fast.
images are blurry.
and his last sight of him seems to be all too blurry.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
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