aero.dynamics

its been almost a week.

been trng hard. 

and also been trying to find time to gym, climb and have dinners with all the people i owe.

missing the sunrise in the mountains again.

ok.work trng's been fine.

first two days of school was about the current technologies and avionics (again)... focusing more on the A380 config. 

wed started with aerodynamics and fri was the exam. tricky paper. didn't do as well as i expected. if i counted correctly, i think i got 3 qns wrong out of 20. so its's about 85%. 

sigh. hopefully got moderation like airlaw. hahas.

this is a quad cable.. specially designed for aviation. i find this very cool and the way to fabricate it is very ... elaborate. hahas. imagine doing the whole process in line maintenance and in a confine space. ahhahas. 

yes, and one of my batch boys. Master of sleeping during lesson. tchr think  he reading notes. haahhahahahas.

oh yes and during the week, brought my a bang of bros to Climb Central to climb! ;D glad they enjoyed themselves man. and on that day, i did well! climbed a 6A wall rather effortlessly man. i guess i'm improving on my technique. :)

and soon enough, the weekend is here. 

today's quite a long day.

the sun was merciless.

morng started off with 9am trng with the women's development team. basically there's selections coming up to rep Singapore to play in Philippines. at this point of time, i dun think i'm really 'fighting for a spot'. in the past, maybe i would. but now,  i guess there are other more impt priorities in life. if it comes, it comes. if it doesn't, i thank God for the opportunity to train at this comfortable level. not too easy to slack off and not too tough that would make u loose the confidence. only 12 out of the 25 something coz we're gg there to play 7s. and the current national 7s girls are up in Korea for Asian games! :) all the best to themmm!

then at 2pm was the game. only Womens game today. won the game. played with a mixed with some of the australian school girls on exchange. game was forfeited as they weren't registered players, but we still won them anyway.

but before that, some protein fix first! :) 

not a breakfast person. but this was lunch. 

after the game, met the bros to wash bike. hahahas. mandatory #underthevoiddeck with the #malays. ahhahas. was really lazy to wash, but just last week coz of the rain, i think along changi coastal road had likka cement spill. quite jia lat. did't even realize that until i reached my destination where i realized that everything was covered in cement, including my safetyshoes, pants and even helmet!

so bo bian. 

and since i finally got down to washing my bike with the help of my rempit bros, i went to get a tankbra! always wanted one but would only get it after i wash my bike. not exactly the plain black design that i hoped for, but this should do. 

$145. no money liao sia. next pay in like slightly over 3 more weeks time. and needa save up for shanghai,  KL and the Phillpppines should i make it. 

after that, its dinner date and sleepover with my fav girls! 

:D

ahha. idky but for this yr's bday, ppl are buying more girly skank clothes for me. 

after dinner, we bought haagendas ice cream coz they're on sale. 2 tubs for $21. green tea and macadamia.... eating them now as we're having Hunger Games movie marathon. ahhas.

now its 3am. 2 down, and 1 more still drifting in and out, with me blogging in my skank clothes as i'm watching Part 2 now. HAHAHA.

been hanging out with my batchmates whom are now like my bros. coz they're really treating me like one of them. bullying me, whacking me and all... with minimal backup from the trainers who seem to be in cahoots with them. hahahs! we do have our heart to heart moments of talk which was quite... uncannily heartwarming. they did mention like if they were to be gentlemen really treat me likka girl, it would be quite awkward for me.... which was true. like imagining them opening the door for me, carrying my tool box and stuff like that. hahahs. so wierd. 

been thinking abit this week.

what are relationships built on?

is it just...

doing the things that both enjoy together? or doing things that the both enjoy doing together?

communication? mutal understanding? language / race or religion?

what matters really?

what happens if one fails. is there a platform to fall on? friendship? 

what is love? sacrifices, commitment or even determination?

the funny thing about love its totally not like engineering. there's no mathematical formulation or equation to make things in equilibrium.

and the best part is, no matter how intangible the whole situation may be, the solution or rather, the decision has to be forced into 2 separate entities, often almost tangible in its being. 

yes or no.

u have it, u lost it.

u can't  hang on, but u'd just have to move on.

currently, i (try and) choose to be focused, though it would mean to painfully force myself to turn a blind eye to things or be as ignorant as i can be. and while doing so, be it occupying myself with the different things, setting my mind to achieve some tangible goals, perhaps selfishness may have its own positive reapings at the end. not so sure if its for the good of all or just for the good of satisfying one's individual ego... 

but well. since we're all living on this same planet y not just make the best of it since we've all got the same 24/7 to pull through. 

its not going to be easy from now. 

25th

thanks for the weekend.
weekends should be like this.




work has been good as usual. finally cleared M07 Maintenance Practices. big paper on fri.
results have been out. have done well actually. most of my subjects are 90% and above and i had full marks for Digital Technologies. hahas. the paper that i didnt really do well was M06 Materials and Hardware with 83%. but i thank God for all the results. really enjoyed the time studying.

ok. been thinking of bel and her family. most of the days recently, i would really think of her family and hope that they can cope with the sudden loss and move on soon.

the wkend started on fri evening after the paper. the 3 of us rode around, and went Costal Settlement to chill.

(: really nice place that's filled with vespas. really wished that u'd there to just soak up the awesome environment. really a nice place just that it's abit pricey. we had waffles and nachos and its about $25 i think.



and it was SATURDAY !
pretty a usual sat actually.
morng 9am trng. was so so hot that i was so so tired that i had to go to toliet to just be in the shade for awhile. but ok, legit coz i did wanna pee also. hahas.
so much contact work. but really, have been enjoying myself coz its at a more comfortable pace. selections are coming up. only 12 to make it for the development team to play in Philippines.
i hope that i can make it coz its really an experience man.

1.30pm Womens game won
4pm Mixed game lost

a storm came after the 1st half of the Womens game. really like pouring with wind kind. so heavy that even while standing at the sheltered area, it didn't provide much protection from the elements. the game continued on after the lightning was cleared.
after everything, since i was drenched through, i had to go giant and buy underwear coz i didn't bring extra under clothes. sb still can maintain; but the soaking wet panties, cannot la. hahahahas. ya.  unfortunately, since Giant panties' were relative ex and they didn't have disposables, i ended up buying disposible briefs. ahas. ok. TMI. but it was really comfortable. hahahahs.

and thanks nana for surprising me with a Red Velvet cupcake!

dinner time.
finally a class gathering to celebrate my birthday at seoul garden.
hahas. really my beloved batch boys man.
they purposely when to choose lady clothes for me from H&M. a super flowerly top and a bandage skirt. hahas. they taught me that its'a bandage skirt while i only know it as tight skirt.
they even got me a pair of palms (they taught me this word too) which i've known it only as flats. how they know my shoe size is by checking my safety boots size while i was sleeping. so when i reached, they forced me to change out of my t-shirt and cargo pants into the specially handpicked bday gift. hahas. (heard all their hilarious stories of them as a bunch of boys gg into the ladies' section to discuss on the flowerflower tops and all).
best la. hahahhas

but i really enjoyed myself. not because i'm the only girl in class and hence so much love has been showered upon me, but they are one batch who truly treat me likka bro. all the jokes and all the playful moments, sometimes, they even make me secretly doubt my gender orientation. ahhas.
a few more weeks before we're going to split up into our mechanical/electrical sides. ): hopefully our OJT arrangements will be in such a way that we can still have all these fun together. hahas.


ok, one of the guys who like me gave me this. ok, thank u for the thought. funny that u'd actually go and purchase this 747 megatop Safety info card just for me. no means no, but i just wanna be thankful for the effort.

the rain came again.

thank God the race was over if not it'd be more unsafe for the F1 drivers.

only han and i rode down tgt.  since the rain was so big and we're stucked, we chilled out around that area. had so much fun sia. hahas hahas. we wanted to walk on the race track but its only open on sunday night afer the race.

so we walked around in our jackets.

reached home at abount 3am when the rain finally decided to subside.

slept at about 5am.

and then, estee jio-ed me for a 10am movie at century square.

unearthly time for a movie though. but i still love her. so much effort into the card made for me sia.

we watched Planes: Fire and Rescue. hahas. what are the odds of my fav stuffs to be together - planes and fire services. always enjoy spending time with her.

sunday morng stone face.

contemplated if i should still go climb coz i was really tired and my whole body was aching from sat's beatings. went yishun to climb. sun was super hot. but surprisingly, i had 2 good climbs. hahas. and and, i completed the 25m wall! tallest wall in Sg. hahhahahs. but was superrrr tiring. but shiok.

made a new friend. went northpoint to eat before deciding gg to eHub to play L4D2. hahahas

today's damge. more extensive not not at all intrusive. :)

so yup that's the wkend.
i still haven't got time to edit the wedding photos. hopefully to bring my laptop to trng tmr and use it during the breaks.

thank u for all the wishes on fb and whatsapp. can't seem to read all the wishes on fb though! still figuring out.

ok. pretty tired now. gonna crash liao.
good night.
and thanks for everything. :

Magneto Coil

so far, its been very, and probably, too eventful to swallow.
plans kept changing and i'm starting to not have time to study for this fri's big paper.
dun really wanna blog today coz i've got so many tasks on hand, but i've got too many things to share too.


.saturday.
no games for the wkend coz the field wasn't avaliable, so only had trng in the morng. quite a tough one coz we did fitness tests and all.

evening, Vincent's wedding.
so fast that he's married. glad that he's found a happy wife.
was a photographer for his wedding day, together with Jovin who was doing the vids.
dont have much time to edit the photos. hope to finish up by the wkend.

.sunday.
morng was really tired. my gang planned to climb at 10am. but all made it only at 11.30am.
almost didn't go coz i wanted to study. but glad that i did a quick one. about 3 walls and some bouldering. no regrets and satisfied.
then headed down to the usual to study.

finally met up with #bangalaloi #F16Tan for a proper rmeal before #airbuschan goes for his night shift.
last one we had was at mac during hariraya while i was working. totally didn't have time to sit down and catch up then coz the whole sg wanted to eat macs while i was working.

on a side note, last fri, i was just seeting my friend's NZ$5 Bill coz its not often that the man on a dollar bill is handsome. nope, its not about the angmoh, but he's Sir Edmund Hilary, the first angmoh who made it to Mt Everest with his sherpa Tenzing Norgay. and u've the got coloured mountain on the note.
so i posted on fb to share this amazing note and say that i wanted this bill so that i can put it in my wallet.

so the next day, i was v surprised to see the NZ$5 bill in my wallet!
initially, i thought that i had accidentally koped my friend's note and put it my wallet though i did not have any recollections about doing that. but well, u see the note, u see the note. after much thought, then i decided to compare the serial no. of the notes and realize that they are different.
so yea, it has to be mother poon.

so i went home, verifed with her, and she said "ya, i just wanted to surpise u mah, surprised"
well yea, because:
1) mother poon is boyfriend material
2) she is socially active on fb
3) i hope she hasn't learnt how to use instragram yet.
but yea, so sweet.
and since its from the house, its probably from the last family tour we've ever had. to overseas, i can only rmbr Australia and NZ. and NZ's probably our last family holiday when dad was still around. so this note meas quite alot to me.

.monday.

somehow quite an eventful day.

mr chee's last day in sj. one of the top 5 aviation ppl i respect. i've really learnt ALOTTTTT from him. not just about the techncial knowledge, but as a person as well. he's really a responsible man who goes out all the way to get things down. i mean, he used to be a VP and all; and just because some stuff were missing and nobody was willing to make conscious effort to hunt them down, he would do it personally. i mean, i rmbr once we did a seat mod program... as a relatively very senior man who's like pretty big shot, because he wanted to get things going, he went right down to the ground to just carry those dirty carton boxes and stacked them up neatly together with another of my collegues. i mean, they were heavy and i'm talking about 60 (or even much more) cartons. he's one man whom has successfully encouraged me to not give up believing and working hard; not through words, but through his own example and actions. and on his last day, he bought everyone nasi lemak from changi v and lotsa magnum ice cream. and what's more surprising, he even personally msged me to invite me up for this simple lunch. 

so much to learn from him,

saw 2 of my ex school mates in my ex company., they come, i left. hahhas. could have been collegues. but hope they'll do well!

evening, the 3 of us went coastal road to run!

i didn't go for rugby trng coz i needed to make a few more decisions before i commit for the season again. we ran.... did some exercises, then walked back to watch planes landing. was quite nice. wanted to leave early to study, but we all lepak on the sand till about 9.30 pm!

loves the sunset.

15th Sept.

also marks the official closure of Tampines Bike Park. for new housing developments. 

:(

its my first ever bike trail. 

used to go there after every mod.

had my bad fall there.

my first trail running there.

too many good memories.

i rmbr gg to cycle there alone once when i was pretty emo. so it was really a place of solice for m;

and also the place where my photog/bike/climb gang become closer over the years.

and yep, on this day, wilson finally proposed to clar. (photos all on fb and
its been about 11 yrs since they're tgt. since she was 14 i thnk. ij girl. sa rugby boy. hahas.
have known them since i was about 16.
ups and downs, glad that they've come this far and finally!
so happy for them.



.Tuesday.
another eventful day.
planned to go to the gym before trng.  planned to skip trng to study. then planned to skip everything just to study. but in the end, bike problem.


in the morng when i start my bike, it felt abit funny. it took too long a while for the starter to respond. then the engine got cut off soon after. managed to start it back again, thinking, perhaps its because of the cold. while riding, in some moments, the throttle didn't seem to be able to respond at times.
and at the red traffic light of the big junction, my bike died. wah. i super nervous. coz the road was slightly sloped and i know i cannot push the bike, especially with all the pressure from the road users. i said a prayer. and just before the light turned green for the right turn, my bike came to life!!!!
:D
phew. amen to that man.
reached the building, my bike died totally. couldn't start at all. thought it was a battery prob, but there's still light though. but glad to have made it to work. hahas. decided to call the tow anyway.
i guess it couldn't have been a better time.
imagine if i was rushing for like exam / wedding and all.

and so.. after school, farhan tompanged me to the shop.
it's the magneto coil. it got burnt.

with my fav bike uncle again. all my maintenance have been with him... about 4 yrs now.

everything with the towing + change of batt (coz it affected the battery as well) costed $415.
wanna die. so ex that my posb card declined coz no money. my other debit card didn't have the nets function, so in the end, han tompanged me again to draw money. hahas malu sia.
sigh.
hahas.

and after that, went for bel's dad funeral.
i totally didn't know that the victim of the tampines st 11 accident was her dad.

so when i went to the funeral and heard abt it, my heart totally sank. i brokedown man. idky the suddent outburst, but it was just super tragic.

i mean, in the morng, my batchmates were still talking about it... like how the pedestrain (he) was so so unlucky. i mean, he wasn't even crossing the road, but just waiting for the green man because a driver who lost control of the car ramped into him.

when i heard it at the funeral, i was really super upset. bel's one of my closer touch friends and she's always the strong carefree tomboy. so when i saw her like that today, i couldn't help but to just break down myself too. she's currently studying in brisbane with her bro so they took a flight back ytd night once they heard the news.

while upset, i was secretly cursing the driver. ur reckless irresponsible action has caused so much hurt to so many ppl.  well, heard that he's seriously injured and now in the hospital. i mean, for a car to hit a lampost, man and then hit another van and taxi, what kind of speed are u freaking travelling on a small road?! but after cooling off, well, i guess he didn't want it either. but i do humanly wish that he will be guilt trip for life, now seeing how hard it is for my friend to pick herself up. hopefully once he's fully recovered, he can quit his current job and probably work in an area that allows him to run campaigns to promote road safety. throwing the guy in jail wouldnt be beneficial to anyone or anything.

today, she really looked just so..... lost. its really too sudden.

i mean,  i can't even swallow the whole situation...  i cannot imagine the depths of her sorrow. i mean i've also lost my daddy, but this sudden loss is really too... sudden and uncalled for. 

like my bike today, sometimes i just wish all broken things can be fixed so easily.

at the wake today, everything was just too dense and heavy.

so after i left, i got on my bike and was just feeling really lousy about everything. so being emo, i rode around first b4 gg home. i rode past the accident site, stopped while the traffic light turned red and took a good look around. i looked at the ground. u could still see some skid marks, not sure if its from the accident, but there were still bits and pieces of shattered glasses and other bits of scraps. 

"life's too fragile"

everyone says that. 

but its only when we really lose someone physically to the external factors of the world that forces us to understand the value of that statement. 

was just thinking about how our heart beats, how our brain works.... it is just so easy to make all these fail. though its part of Nature that we constantly grow and adapt according to a time frame measured by secs mins hours days weeks months years, it just takes 1 hit to shut off the whole developed / developing system.

so how are we really living our lives? to make the best out of it, or to just sit back and hope for the best to fall in place? everything's so brittle, so i'd rather we make good use out of it.

so for tonight and till thursday when the cremation will take place, i really pray for God's peace to be upon the family and may His grace and love comfort their aching hearts. its not going to be an easy period of time for them, but i really do hope that the family can still draw some hope and good from all these trying times.

:(

really so tired.

so many things undone.

and really too heavy.

may all the weight allow me to have a good night's sleep tmr while i try and make full use of my remaining time to study.

to live and to love

well well.

what a week it has been so far.
been personally trynna step up my own fitness.
mon went to climb. tue gym + touch trng. today, climbed again and my limbs are aching alrdy.


ok. school life first.
we're now at the dreadful M07 Maintenance Practices where i think its a subject that's a real challenge to make it an academic one. i mean, its like reading to learn how to ride a bicycle vs learning while sitting on the bicycle and trying to paddle. in another words, i think the curriculum, if u want it to be productive, should be together with the practical. the instructor also admits that he's really having a hard time. kudos for his patience.

we started the subject with the electrical part of it. kinda bleh coz we've just finished 2 electrical modules and now, we're starting this 80% mechnical module with the 20% avionics part. but ok, we're still surviving. the instructor brought this 20 yr old multimeter to class today. freaking looks like my mini marshall guitar amp. coz its so vintage, my classmates just gotta make some fun out of it.

and today, we did this qns on Continuity test. the reason why this is chosen as a question is because B2 engineers have been complaining that technicians chut so many pattern while trying to carry out the Continuity test on the a/c as they dont know how to do a proper on. so to quote him, "if as a technician u know how to do this properly, the B2 engineer will love you alot." hahas. if only that really works huh.
ANYWAY. its quite a consolation for me coz now at least i know that the questions during our practices have been discussed by the management to make it more practical rather than just random academic qns where answers should be lifted from the notes.

ok, now onto life after school.

mon
first time climbing at Climb Central, the new climbing arena at Sports Hub Shopping mall. Kallang Wave Mall that's what its called. excellent, neat place if u wanna start climbing coz the got the belaying system to the ground and u dont have to tie ur own rope. so u dont really need any technical knowledge in learning the ropes literally. hahas.

climbed with the usuals again. i guess coz its a super conducive place to place, we realllyyy enjoyed ourselves for some reason. quite happy that i cleared a 6A wall on the 2nd attempt after failing the first. also tried the auto belaying device on the 12m wall. freaking scary. tried 2 times and i'm still not very used to it. its different and more challenging coz u can't really take a break unlike the top rope where u have a belayer to help u out abit on the tension. for this auto belaying device, its either u climb or fall. and once u reach the top, u gotta trust urself , take that freaking leap of faith and the auto belaying device to bring u down. its quite close to jumping off the cliff as the tension only comes in when u trust urself to let go.

its kinda likka life lesson. sometimes u gotta learn to trust and let go if u really want to get down.

today, went to Climb Asia to climb! the last time i been there was probably about 6 yrs ago where our group wanted to try some climbing before our Mt Kinabalu trip. josias was still a bachelor then! hahas!
went with my bro in law and his friend.
quite a good day again coz i managed to do a 6A+ (ok, the higher the no, the difficulty level increases) wall and tried the inclining wall for the first time. the route was a 5C+, wasn't as tough as i thought it'd be because the grip of the rock ( ok, wrong terminology, cant rmbr what it's called again) was quite comfortable.
didnt want to do the auto belaying coz it was a 15m wall and there were many people. dont want to disturb others with my shriek. hhahas.
we also managed to spend some time bouldering. its my first time actually trying to boulder properly with the markings. usually i'd be playing around ( climb all the colour).. starting to like it abit more and got my first climbing blisters. hahas.

ok, as i'm still rather new to this whole climbing thing, kinda motivated to work on my upper body strength. hahahas. its my weakest link and i secretly hope that this motivation can help me to train stronger for rugby.

ok now, internal affairs. hahas.

today, 2 things happened.

first, was after work, some of my dad's ex collegues were in the trng facility today. and apparently i've been spotted out as "eh that's Poon's daughter". haha. i mean its not difficult to spot a girl in a vicinity of an area with girl-to-boy ratio of 1:50. after much stares and murmuring, one of them asked me of my identity. hahas! was quite nice to see all their shock faces. most of them were in the same shift as my dad and apparently, some of them rmbred carrying me while i was still a child. hmmm. i dont rmbr that part of my life though. 

but it just a very nice feeling to know that many ppl like my dad not just because he was a good man, but as a man who was a loyal and well respected friend filled with nonsenses and jokes. and i rmbr a few of them saying "i guess we'll see u in the line with us soon, we can't wait to welcome u". to me, that was very comforting and that felt really good. i hope it'll be true and that the management can forget all about me and my business associations.

currently, my class calls me 'Poon / ah Poon' because i guess my name is relatively long to pronounce if they wanna whine at me. hahahs. that's the name that my dad is known for too, i guess its because of legit reasons like because that is the name he signs off with. hahhas. so with that, i really hope i can carry on his legacy in the line.

second thing.

today, one of the guys in my class confessed to me.

?!

and its like seriously kind, not the joking-btw-kind.

its just about 1 month that we've known each other and dont u think its abit too.... jumpy/?

i mean, a few weeks back, i could feel that he was overly nice to me and i did try my best to avoid him and sound as cold as possible, but today, the qns still came anyway.

i guess kudos for his bravery, but i felt mean when i just wanted to close my ears when he was telling me the reasons for him liking me.

all i could manage as my first instinctive ans was "eh, i'm not into guys". hahas. i guess he didn't buy it, but ok, there's some truth to that statement la. not firmly saying that i'm bi, but i am very very afraid to handle relationships again. i just dont dare. can't play deal risk it anymore. 

really.

i dont like to be in such situations and i am damn bad at handling it.

there's really no hard and fast rule to make thing simple, but all i could do was to be brutally honest coz though hurtful, its probably the only right, best and honest thing to do if u dont want a spark to be a forest fire. nonetheless, i was quiet disappointed when he was still hopeful for the future.

i mean, pls dont spoil this leh. we've got 1 more yr tgt as classmates, so lets not make things awkward and instead, focus on the academics coz trng days are going to be (one of) ur best phases in ur career. 

so yea.

that's about it.

really, i'm still thanking God for the life that i'm living. for now, the only main concern is the exams and my extra effort of trying to perfect it. so far, not too good coz i may have been subconsciously giving myself extra pressure to do well. but that's ok. 

strictly 8.30 - 5.30pm every wkday. that gives me ample time to get a life and since there's no OT to it, i can carry out my plans more effectively. hence, i'm really max-ing it on the line, just so i dont burn myself but have good balance of everything. 

on the whole, my heart is lighter because i dont deal with much management-level politics now. kinda missing that part about strategizing and planning for future business opportunities, BUT, that's just a little bit and its ok to give it a miss for now. wahhahas! but yea, every wk, i still see some of my ex-business associates who's now my colleagues now. some of my external vendors are also abit surprised to see me wearing a uniform. 

lastly, still reminiscing the rinjani climb here and there, especially missing those nights on the mountain. 

just ytd, the moon was a pale, dim and yet lightly litted yellow moon while i was riding through nicoll highway. felt really...  ya. 

hahas

ok. better sleep now. another longg day tmr. ;)