Sunday, May 29, 2011

The end

last night, i had another prophetic dream. hahas


it was abt the coming of Christ, again.
this time it was like the same situation, but more detailed. i could remember the dream this morng but i can't now.


i just remember many things were happening all around the world.


then it was like... taking each day by day. then in my dream, i knew my walk with God was rough. but i was reminded that He didn't leave me. instead, He kinda had more faith in me.
so yea, as many earth shaking events were happening all around.. like typhoons, hurricanes all over, most of us christians knew what was going on. so in the midst of all these, i rmbr everything was chaos. families were broken, ppl were shaken and everyone was just.. searching for a way of life or some sort.

then i rmbr walking/rushing around the world, wanting to save everyone and anyone. i rmbr massively spreading the gospel around... on one to one basis. i rmbr on some situations where i was like.. "so u see.. what we've been trying to preach is true. i'm not threatening your or some sort, but i do hope u know that our God is real and true and the only one God that u should believe in. *waits for response* i know there's a sinner's prayer.. but i'm not too familiar with it. wait ah.. i go get some one.." then i saw jasper rushing across and i get him to help me out. hahhas. something like that.

i just wanted to save as many as i can.
but i did rmbr someone trying to stop me from doing so. i can't rmbr if its God/satan or what.. but i was for some reason which i can't decipher out if its is good or not. then i became hesitant in saving ppl, though i still very much wanted to save everyone.




was wierd.

i didn't know how to conclude the dream.



if i rmbr correctly, this is the 3rd/ 4th time i'm having this kind of dream. kinda lazy to go find out my old blog post on these dreams (coz i do blog it down to note it). looking at the whole string of things, all the dreams can kinda be stringed together in some sort. the background/ format of things were kinda similar.


i really do think the end of the world is near.
nearer than we'd expect and it'll come as a surprise.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

His Plans

went RSAF open house today.
wasn't really planned. went during lunch break when gab msged me saying that he wanted to go.
since it was abt airplanes and may be a gd chance to seek out career opportunities... why not man.

was fun. ): that i didn't bring my camera!!!!!!!! haven't been bringing out my s95 lately coz i scared spoil. ikr. wth. hahahas


















and to keep it short.... i've got a few options in life now.

1) do a part time dip in aerospace at tp, then sign on with airforce and join AFE as officer.

2) work in ST Aerospace where they MAY provide study and work options.





u know, looking back, when i got into Mechatronics in TP.... i really think it's God plans. as i didn't know what was it... i was upset and thus, made a successful appeal to Business.

and yea, for scdf to reject me in the face with all kinds of application, i think God doesn't want me there.
and honestly, after about a month since being rejected, i think i've learnt to open up my eyes and be reminded tt i can't just have my way everytime.

now, i really think engineering's my kinda thing. this time, it feels that i'm pretty more sure about what i want in life and being a fireman may not just be the confirmed definite option though i was my dream afterall.


so ya, now, i'm struggling bad coz i've got a degree and a diploma in marketing and, i wanna go into engineering. hahhas.
i mean the best option for me would be to do another full time diploma in aerospace then sign on. then get experience. then go SIA. but that would mean another 3 yrs of studying and get another diploma?! hahas. no way- too long.



but, amen in everything.

Monday, May 23, 2011

life can be colourful if you want to paint it.

one more ): thing about being in the other team is that, u are not informed of anything.
and it really sucks if u've given so much heart into it and in the end, u just get cheatednothing out of it.



ytd was supposed to be the finals.
i was really tired. but i wanted to at least make it down to watch.
game's at 1pm, 12.45 i woke up. i contemplated much. but it was because of the hk trip that allowed me to have more heart for the team. so yea, i went, despite reading NEA's tweet that it be a thunderstorm over there.

just as i was abt to exit eng neo exit, a whole array of bikers were putting on their rain jackets on the road shoulder as u can visibly see the thunderstorm right ahead. and since i was abt 4mins away from the playing ground, might just ride through it. and just as i made that exit, It BOOMZ down.


-_-



seriously.
drenched. all wet and cold.
then drove in and in... and couldn't find the playing area. so i confidently thought that it was at where we usually train. so i parked outside and walk in.
and when i reached, NO ONE was there.
then i look further ahead. TMD. it was on the other (middle) side of the field. about a 350m cold walk there? tmd

reached there. then found out that all the finals got cancelled. which means my there's no games that my team were playing in.
UGH. no one wanted to eat lunch then. so i just left.
was quite irritated. but soon got over it since no one can blame the weather right.



i really wanted to be part of the team happiness and whatever u call it. and i thinking/ planning of gg down next wk.
its only now (yea, like 5mins ago) that i've found out that the final's actually over as it was postponed to just this morng. so much for still having that thought of gg down to support them. UGH. quite upsetting coz i want to watch it.

ANYWAY. and i thought there's trng tmr, so i msged coach to ask if my friend can come tmr as she want to join us for asian champs. then she told me there's no trng tmr. first reaction: wth. so if i didn't sms her, i wouldnt know that trng's cancelled by tonight right. i mean like we're all working and we kinda need to plan right.

but ya la. she apologised for not sending emails/ informing ppl abt tmr's trng. i really dont blame her coz i think there's alot to do this season as we had changes wtr to the coaches due to commitments and priorities of the individual.


but i just feel really irritated by this why-there-are-so-many-changes-that-are-not-communicated thing. f la.





maybe i am too determined in life.
i'm always telling myself to be positive and let things go easily. and ya, thats how i get situations managed internally.
i know, i am a determined person; when i want to do something, i will get it done.
ppl often compliment me for being really "chill" and i appreciate that. but it does all feel like i'm defying all philosohpy and try to be determined, yet chill at the same time.
i dont know what i'm talking about if u know what i'm talkg about.


even though its alrdy towards the end of the season (finally) and 2 yrs into this club, i'm still battling out my thoughts of whether i did make the right decision back then.
due to the timing of trngs, i had to choose either:

A. blacks contact + monsoon touch
B. src contact + blacks touch
C. blacks contact - blacks touch

if i wanted blacks touch, i had to not play contact for blacks fully coz touch and contact train on the same days and i dont want to miss any trngs like that. so it was more of between A and B.
why A over B.. coz after growing up in st.andrew's village, got some feelings for blacks ah. long long story ah. so blacks and monsoon lor. some more can go sunday trngs after church. ahhas



AIYA.
all in all, there are pros and cons and weighing them will meet no end.




and i'm gg to end this post in a sudden coz i need to slp and resume my worklife with a !eureka quote:

life can be colourful if you want to paint it

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Tamp trail revamped

been so loonngg since i've rode my bicycle.

last sunday, suan jio me go trail. we all thought that it was tamp trail. but it was actually at mandai... and i only knew it like 1hr before we're supposed to meet.





so............
since i've preped up all my gears alrdy.... ok luh. i went to tamp trail BY MYSELF. hahhahas
how determined can. hahhas

but i.am.damn.unfit.


i haven't been to tamp trail since it revamped for YOG (ya, that longg!).. the last and first time i brought my new full-sus commencal meta 5.5 was to ubin last yr i think. hahhas. and that was the only time.
so today, (though i stay abt 15km away from the trail only), i was tired gg there! hahas. and... I STOPPED BY WENDY'S for a baked potato with coke float. HAHAHA.

but seriously. was damn tired.


suan told me that they actually 'flattened' the area abit.. BUT. on those slopes that i was able to ride through it in the past, i really struggled this time. ahhas. i mean like... if u see the slopes, i dun even think u'd call it a slope. ahhas. probably just a slight gradient? ahahs.



i spent alot of time taking photos since the trail was quite nice.

quite sad that u need a bmx license to use the bmx track. but u know what.
i'm kinda thinking of geting a hard tail!!!! hahahas. (omg right.) dun get me wrong, i still love my full sus.. but i think i need to be fitter to ride this love.





so i completed the whole trail. and i think i pushed my bike like 60% of the time. looking back, i have no idea how i'd survived ubin. hahas.
and and and.. they have a washing point!!!!!!!!!! (:
how happy.so now i dun have to painstakingly dismantle my bike so that i can fit all the parts in the toliet to wash at home. (:

ahhas. then like spent 2hrs ++ talking to the uncle there n some of the bikers. hahas



i hope it wouldn't be the last of me at tamp trail.
but i do rmbr telling myself to remind myself to reject all jios that suan jio me wtr to trails. ahhas.
seriously! WHAT HAPPENED. hahhahas.



anyways! OTW. it was like ROUND 2 WENDY'S for me. AHHAHAHAHS.







so much for wanting to improve my stamina and heading straight to wendy's despite not doing a personal good ride that day.


ok. TMR. CIRCUIT REVISION for 2A AT 8.30AM. omg. I HAVE NO IDEA why i booked at 8.30am?!
31st's my TP! AHHAS. abit excitied. but i dun want to fail and wait and wait. let me bragged that i passed my first 2b TP with only 4 demerit pointss!! ahhahhahahas. so, i know i can do this! hahas


been at home painstakingly editing all the wedding photos till 6am. wake up at 12pm and edit again. really burnt. but i'm glad i'm taking joy looking at all these happy wedding photos...











OK.


and ya. out of desperation anxiety and disappointment for the rejection wtr to my scdf application, i applied for police. and true enough, i got called for interview. the interview procedure sounds long. like need to prepare so much documents, wear formal wear, bring extra set of clothing and so forth.

then it made me think- do i really, really want this job.
i know, i dont mind. but will this i-dont-mind be able to sustain me throughout the whole bond.
i do want to enjoy what i'm doing.
then again, u'll never know until u really try right. honestly, i really dont know. i'm finally faced with my fears after being rejected- now what?

honestly, i want to work in the airline industry. to repair aeroplanes.... along those lines la. i've applied to changi airport group/ SIA but no news. HAHA. IMAGINE i apply for air stewardess and get through all the interviews... HAHHAS. BIG LAUGHS MAN.
but yea.. i kinda regret not doing an engineering diploma.

u know, after my o levels and all those shit, i actually got accepted into Mechatronics in TP. but somehow, i just didn't want it...and managed to appeal and get into Marketing using my sports.
looking back, maybe i really should have accepted the engineering offer!!!!!!!!! haiz.
but nonetheless, when i always look back at this, i recall what i've learnt in marketing and the very different awesome friends that i've made, and just smile and tell myself that it's all worth it. (:

but ya.
hahas. it ever did cross my mind of doing another diploma in engineering. but it's stupid coz i've got a degree and it would take me another 3 yrs?! hahas. and i believe i can do an engineering cert elsewhere ya.


ok. still searching. but i believe God has plans for me. (:

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Sportperformance Hong Kong International Touch Championship

6 days in Hong Kong.

the competition's held on the 7th may, right on the day of General Elections for Singapore.
missed the whole General Elections saga back in Singapore especially when its my first time voting! but i guess its worth it. (:
it could have been my first year voting as i've hit my 21 ys of age and i'm sad to have missed all the commotion in singapore, especially with the uprising of the vigorous opposition in power. however, my experiences in hongkong was no doubt, memorable and made everything worth while, especially with new friendships made, taking it to a whole new level. hahahhas.


out of the 3 times i've been to hk, this was the only time i could really R & R man. 1st time was study trip.. didn't have much time to do anything. 2nd time was a 2.5 day drip with Blacks for contact. hahas. this time is for touch. hahas

Monsoon fielded in 17 players... into.... THREE teams.. ahhas. so many of the them who played in 2 categories had like 4 back to back 15 mins game... with 2 subs. ahhas. madness man. hhahas. but it was funnnnnn.

and yes, we won both categories!! so we're the Mixed and Men's CHAMPS for the tournament, with karen being the overall Mixed MVP. how cool. ahhhas. i think the guy MVP should be Dan from our team... but i think winning all the 4

ok. i blogged in like detail and blogger just had to disappoint me despite me being a loyal blogger. hahas. so yes. i am gg to re-blogged coz it was sucha great trip though i think i'll be missing out more details now.. but the photos should be good enough! hahas.






Day 1- when we Landed!

octopus card!
took A21 to jordan. right to our hotel...



where we're gg to be for the next 6 days man. hahas. Shamrock hotel. hahas




our first meal. hahas. mido cafe. damn hk-ish and shiokkkkkk. ((: we're like super hungry. so it really satisfied us.




then walked around temple street.
and had DUN NAI!!!!!!!!







Day 2- Ocean Park with Marli!

breakfast at the best chee chong fan place!



the girls will be gg ocean park on mon.... so decided to go with marli coz she only had till sunday. ):
marli came to ref. so decided to acc her to ocean park! hahhas.
went to find for her in wan chai... where the offical lodging was. CharterHouse. damn nice can. ahhas.
also my first time travelling in hongkong alone for awhile. hahas. bravely took the tram. got a little lost.. but it turned out fine! hahas



OCEAN PARK!! how exciting can.











jellyfish!! i think i like this the most! great photography opportunities man!







then... my cam died. hahahs. 2 batteries all no more sia!
): we watched this great ocean park water show.. fire on water and all! but wasted. no photos on it.
the show was a great closing and made me want to go back again!




Day 3- Game Day!
















then it was court session. where ppl get fined for doing stupid things. and overseas rookies all get fined. hahas.



and part2 drinking/ clubbing session at wan chai.




Day 4- Team Dim Sum + factory outlet shopping!

awesome dim sum. at times sq/ lane crawford there. hhahs. yummmmmmy.



and gong cha!



this one at City Gate at dong zhong. all da factory outlets man! but also not say v cheap la. some cheap some ex. u must know the price in sg then u know what's gd to buy. i bought this new balance top ah. ahhas. that's about it. and a thomas train box for the small boy at home.




then more shopping at temple street, dinner, part 2 dinner and dun nai. hahs. (:





Day 5- self exploration trip + steamboat!

we had breakfast together...





then they went Ocean park and i explored hk myself. haahs. was very nice actually.
walked from jordon all the way to prince edward st. so passed by mong kok, yau ma ti, temple st, fa yuen street, sai yeung st...
went to Wing Shing to get camera supplies. finally bought my J2 bag!!! (:
went to this place.. all the sports shops there man! siaow lor. ahahas. really high speed shopping. covered alot of ground, saw alot of things also man. ahahs. i like.





then met up with the girls for steamboat dinner! hahas. sailou supposed to come but i guess coz we couldn't reach him as we didn't have wifi. hahahs. but nonetheless, we had a great time. ahas. the food wasn't THAT fantastic. normal luh. ahas. but the company was great. hahahs




Day 6- Last lap CHIONG for FOOD. & GUESS WHO I SAW!!!!

so. LAST DAY IN HK.
most of us were sick. flu/ diarrea and all. so we went to eat bird nest egg tart! hahas and drank birdnest.
hahas. relatively cheap ah. one bowl about sgd $6? hahas. but was good for the throat.



then went to the Central's H&M..



and LAN FONG YUEN!!!!!!! at gage street/ stanley st.
was awesommee. the food was like... BOOOMZ. hahas. love the milk bread and the tea. it was said that this was the place that hk's milk tea originated from. damn shiokkk.



then we CHIONGED for egg tarts!! ahahs. went to 2 diff shops to get egg tart. hahas
i prefer the first one. but both are AWESOME.




then it was time for shan and i to say bye to the girls! ):
otw back to the hotel... GUESS WHO WE SAW!!!?!?!
OMG. they're like my top 2 fav hk actor. ahhas. LAUGHING GE. aahhhas. was a pleasant surprise! though we're quite rushing for our flight.. we just had to stop to take photos of them! hahas. i could have taken more shots of them ah. but nahhh. hahhahas. was so excited man!





flight was delayed by an hour. ahhas.
stupid tiger airways. i told them not to tilt my handcarried 3 boxes of egg tarts.. but they refused. one of them allowed me to put beside my seat since it was empty. but 5 mins to take off, this air stewardess came and took the bag and tilted it horizontally to put into the overhead cabin. i was like.. OMG. and she didn't even ask me for my consent! damn rude ya.

then i actually cried over my crushed eggtarts. AHHAHAHS. didn't know i've got so much heart into egg tarts. hahas. damn stupid and wierd.. but ya. haha. then like abt 15 mins into the flight when the plane was stably up in the air, that air stewardess asked me if i wanted to put it down at my seat. i was like.. no point ya. crushed means crushed alrdy. hahas.





so yup! that was my hk trip with monsoon. overall, it was great and ohsomuch fun! (:
really got to know the team more.. especially with the guy's side. coz we train seperately so we're not really that familiar with each other. hahas!

and on the field wise, i think everyone played better in hk than in sg! hahas. i guess coz we just only had 2 subs (while other team had like 8 subs) and wanted to push on. for me, i was the resident winger. i think i could have stepped it up and play centre more... but aiya. ahhahs. next time!

i'm just really glad to know each other more.